Torn - Never lose your smile

Hello!!!!
Here it is my own little FF!!! This is the one I translate on my own....
I'm a german girl... and like you will see... my english is really not the best. What I say from the beginning. I don't wanted to hear: Please don't continue, because your english is worse.
Like I say to ohter authors. Continue. Who don't wanted to read... Go away!
So now to the nice words!!!
Like i said... my ohter story is in translation of my dear friend. But also... I wanted to do it by myself and so here it is. So don't bite me too hard, because of my lack knowlegde in english. I'm learning and hope I will get better in time. Nobody is perfect, right.
So then...
I wanted to say Hello so putirkagome^^ Love you sweety!! *kuddel*
You should all read her FF... better both of them!
So.... something else?
-Hmn...-
I thing I have anything^^
Then, I hope that you like the little chapter and you will make me a happy girl when I get a little review^^
Till next time

JunaBlossom

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Inuyasha! It's alls Rumikos! I don't own or making any money with this story.

"Yes, I want"

This few words brought his end. Who would have thought that these simple words end a life? That it caused endless pain and almost, rid the heart from the body?
He had never thought that his life would end in such a way. There was actually so much to live for… life itself would be worth and much more things. But in his hands it was only sand… Simple sand, which slipped through his fingers and gently carried away from the wind. Until… empties was only remaining. The emptiness, which reflected was what inside of him.
Nothing...
Absolutely nothing had remained.
And nothing... nothing... was everything he only prayed for. And wish only… that she will never lose her beautiful smile.


The sun vanished late in the evening again, at this summer evening. Only the dark orange on the horizon reminded, of the former warm day.
Again, he had argued with his father... like every evening.
Again his mother had cried... like every evening.
Again his brother had called him a dishonour of the family... like every evening.
But this evening brought more than he had suspected. Because it wasn’t like every evening.
No...
This evening destroyed all his hopes for his own life.
Everything... and now...
He didn’t have another choice...
Not after this...
No...
With trouble, he had loosened the death grip around his arm from the young girl and gets her other hand out of his black hair.
"Where do you go?"
She asked with sugar in the voice, which made him sick. He will probably get used to it. Like all the other things around him. It gives nothing what would… what could save him from it.
Nothing...
"Don't you want to answer me?"
The girl with the long black hair and the dark eyes hissed.
"Nevertheless -"
"I know!"
He fell into her sentence. He didn’t want to hear it from her mouth. The few letters… what tore his heart into pieces. And fell apart into tiny fragments to his feet.
"We will see each other tomorrow"
She said quiet, but he doesn’t answer. He just bluntly nodded. Normally, he never was so word meagre, but he didn’t feel penetrated to say only one word to her. She rises to stand on her tiptoes and her lips wanted to touch his, but he turned his head to the side instead. Her lips only touched his cheek, with his sad eyes closed. Her eyes flashed with anger, but so fast it had come... it had also vanished.
"See you tomorrow"
He heard her speak again as she returned into his family mansion. He doesn’t bother to look after her. With hasty steps he ran through the seeming endless garden. He ran past dozen of rose bushes and over the lush English green grass. Until the black haired young man arrived at the old brick-work of the wall. Rapidly he murmured some words and disappeared in the dark night.

The curtains blew lonely at her window back and forth. The light wind brought little cooling in this night. The thin sheet covered her delicate body and showed her feminine figure, when she moved a little.
Sleep… wasn’t a thought of her. Despite the wind, it was too warm. Why it had to be so awfully sultry weather today? She didn’t like thunderstorms, yet she wished herself it to be here. A rainstorm would help her to the sleep… Gently she closed her eyes. A smile put on her rosé lips and turned to the window. It didn’t last long, until she saw a shadow. The shade set his feet easily and without a sound, on her fluffy carpet.
"Inuyasha"
Whispers she tenderly. She knows him like that. Actually it had been an accident that she had find out his secret and blow up his cover. But it hadn’t disturbed her. Which he fear the most. That she will shove him aside. Call him a… freak… or much horrible things like that to insult him. Or that she will back-frighten of his touch…. his hand... equipped with claws, which could have shred her in less seconds easily into pieces. But it wasn’t like that.
No.
She wasn’t afraid; it was completely in the opposite. After this discovery it seemed in a way, as if she love him more, than she already did anyway. She always looked into the same eyes, which said it the same. Whether hazelnut brown or golden.
"Ka- Kagome"
Quiet and faint was her name from his pale lips, with his hand on her cheek. It was to dark in this night, the moon was only a small crescent. Often she wished that she possessed his night vision. But despite the dark night, she could see the glow of his amber eyes and his silver hair. He didn’t speak a word and the usual kiss was missing.
"Inuyasha?"
She asked quietly, but he pulled his hand of her cheek in such a way, as if he would burn himself. "Yash?"
She asked again.
"Kagome I..."
What should he say? What? In his head was nothing that would avoid it. He had to break her heart.
"I’m sorry…"
Even for him, the voice he heard was to frightening calm
"You are sorry?”
How much he doesn’t wanted to say the next few words.
"It’s over..."
"Over?"
She repeated the three-letter word.
"... over... "
He whispers nearly inaudibly for her human ears. The heavy silence floated through the dark room, when the words sink in.
He didn’t move...
She didn’t move…
Only the salty bite in his nose shook him from his rigidity.
"You lie..."
She whispered and he felt her hand resting on his cool cheek. Inuyasha shook his head for a –NO- and her hand fell back.
"Why?"
The girl with the chocolate brown eyes asked quietly. Her salty tears glitter from the moonlight, when they run down her pale cheeks and fell into her lap.
"I don’t love you"
And everybody would be able to hear how her heart break. As the little crack, ate her whole heart. And let fall many small pieces, like shattered glass, to the ground. She sucks in the light cool air and her quiet tears continued to run down at her cheeks.
"What…?"
Her voice wasn’t brave. Her question was baptized with tears.
"I don’t love you!"
Meant he coolly
"It was completely nice and what I wanted… I get it -"
Her tender hand landed on its cheek, with a speed and strength that it resounded through the whole house of her family. His silver hair fell with his movement, blocked his view somehow and his eyes rested on her desk.
"Bastard"
It was quiet and her hand blew his chest.
"Bastard"
And her second hand followed. Blew again and again on his chest, but he didn’t move an inch.
"You swine!!"
More hurtful words have slipped from his lips, which stimulated her to hate him only more and only more she drums against his chest with both hands.
"Disappear"
He heard the words. How much time passed? How long sit he absent here and let himself verbal and physically be attacked? It seemed like hours, but it were only a few minutes.
Minutes…
What took more from him, than anybody will ever knew. But this evening... this evening... it was now inevitable.
No longer avoidable…
And he had to obey. He had to do it…. and break in that progress her heart. Were it just his own… and not also hers… it would be better to bear. But he knew that he wouldn’t lose only her... more than their love, her confidence and her friendship. He would lose more and everything for the will of his father. Who was careless was he will become… what ways his life goes… what he wanted… as long he obeyed. Every time it was the same to his father. It doesn’t matter that he destroyed two lives in one breath…
"DISAPPEAR"
He looked briefly into her hazelnut brown eyes. Shimmered with unshed tears, reddish from all the crying. Rapidly he rose and the soft fluffy carpet gave away under his feet that he sank easily.
"DISAPPEAR!!!!!"
She cried harder. His eyes closed, they burned. He couldn’t look at her longer. Don’t bear in any longer, how she sat pain-filled on her bed. In her scarce nightgown, her thin wearer easily fell to the side. Her windswept hair and porcelain pale feature. To see this delicate person, shaken by tears and rage, pain and mourning that her whole body trembled.
Caused by a person who sworn, to love her more than anything else in the world. The one who would stole the stars from the night sky and give them to her.
Broken by a bunch he couldn’t escape.
After he had escape in panic her room, he heard the wind rushes in his ears, as he jumped out of the window, in the forecourt of the old shrine. Away. Over the large trees, with a blurred vision. Caused by his tears, those who had won the fight and find their way down his pained face to glitter in the faint moonlight...