In The End

Summary: It's five years later. Kagome had returned home and graduated from college. She returned because he left. He is now back. How will she react when he does something making her think on how she fills?

Disclaimer: I do not own anything of Inuyasha. The only thing that belong to me is this plot.
Warning: This one-shot is rated NC-17 for rape and attempted suicide.

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In the End

Kagome Higurashi should be happy. She was walking down the podium, holding her degree in History. She was finally graduating. After working her ways through, she was finally leaving the University. However, she wasn't. It had been close to two years since Kagome returned back from the Fuedal Era. With the Shikon Jewel purified and Naraku defeated, there seemed to be no reason for her to stay. That was where she was hoping that she was wrong.

She knew she loved him. Traveling with the hanyou for four years seemed to prove the feeling she had. She was finally going to tell him. She was finally going to let him know how she felt. However, she wasn't expecting what happen next.

The day she left home for her time, the hanyou was no where to be seen. She remembered searching througth the village and the forest. She remembered asking the demon slayer and monk, but both remained quiet upon the answer before finally the demon slayer told. The hanyou left. They didn't know where, but knew he wouldn't be returning.

Kagome was heart broken by the news. She ran through the forest only to stop by the Sacred Tree and cry. After all her tears were dry, she finally bid good-bye to her friends and returned back to her time. There she devoted herself to her studies.

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It had been three months since Kagome's graduation. She had a decent job at a museum and life seemed to be going pretty good for her. She was still sad for leaving her friends, but she was slowly moving on. She still missed the hanyou and occasionally while she slept, she cried. It was hard to admit that he was gone. It was hard to say that the one man she loved was no longer in her life.

Kagome was just returning home from work. She was exhausted from the day and wanted to soak in warm water before getting some sleep. Unlocking the door to her apartment, she walked into the hallway and laid her briefcase and keys down. Opening the fridge, she poured herself some tea. As she was drinking the tea, she noticed something wrong. The window to her sliding door was open. She was sure that when she left that morning, she closed the door. It made no sense on why it was open.

Closing the door, she pushed the idea from her mind. She was too tired to think about it and only wanted to remove the stress. Walking down the hallway, she entered her bedroom only to gasp upon the site. He was standing in her bedroom, looking out the window. The curtain blew casting him in shadows. It was hard to make him out, but red and silver made him stand out. He looked different since it had been close to three years since she arrived home and he left.

Leaning against the wall, she whispered the one word. "Inuyasha."

His ears moved against the sound. He slowly turned to glance over his shoulder. The stare should have been a warning to her. The stare should have told her that he has changed. The stare should have told her that he was no longer the same. However, her heart made her stay. She still loved him even after he left for so long. She still wanted to be by his side.

He turned towards her, standing at a side. His hands were clinched and he had no smile upon his face. Her heart started race and her breathing became labored. Shaking her head, she couldn't take it. Throwing the door open, she ran out of the apartment, grabbing her keys. She got into her car and drove, not sure where she was going, not caring.

She drove, not looking back. He was in her bedroom. His stare told her something different about him. He wasn't the same. He wasn't the hanyou she knew back in the Fuedal Time. Something was different about him. It seemed that he was mad at her or that he hated her.

She pulled over as the realization sank in. Could that be the reason? If so, then why is he showing up now? Why after so many years, did he finally decide to show himself? She shook her head as the tears started to build their way up. She couldn't see him, not now, not ever. She moved on. She forgot about him and that was enough for her.

However, Kagome knew this. She couldn't run from him. She knew he had a way of finding her and she didn't know what would happen if he did. Turning around, she headed back home. Praying to all of Kami, she was hoping that he would be gone.

Closing the door behind her, she placed her keys upon the counter and looked down towards her bedroom. She didn't want to head down to her room. She didn't want to risk her chance that he was still there. She open the sliding door and stepped outside. The night air was cool. It felt good against her warm skin. She walked back inside and headed to the dryer. Pulling out a tank top, she removed her dress shirt and changed before heading back outside.

Standing outside, she didn't hear the sliding door open. She didn't hear the silent footstep over the balcany. She did, however, feel the arms that snaked around her waist and the kisses that were being placed down her neck and across her shoulders. Again, the same word escaped her lips in a light whisper. "Inuyasha."

He was silent as he continued to place the warm, chaste kisses against her skin. She threw her head back as his claws ran down her side and then cupped the side of her face. She didn't want to be with him like this. She didn't want to feel like this. He left, breaking her heart. Her friends said that he would not be returning. She moved on, forgetting about him, and now he was back.

She tried pushing against him, telling him to stop. He didn't listen. He tighten his grip upon her and held her hard against his chest. She pushed against him again only to feel his claws against her side. There was nothing she could do. He wasn't letting go and she couldn't get away.

He pulled her with him, into the apartment, down the hallway, down to her bedroom. He pushed upon the bed before crawling and leaning over her. He had a cold grin upon his face, one that Kagome didn't see very much with him. She seen it once, but it wasn't one she wanted to see again. He usually had that grin upon his face when he was a full demon. She remembered the last time he turned. He almost came after her. He almost killed her. It was her blood that stopped him and his pleeding promise that stopped him from using the jewel.

He traced one of his claws down the side of her face. A single tear ran down as he wiped it away. Her breathing was labor, rough. Her heart was racing. She didn't want to be here in this position with him. She didn't want to feel like this again. Her heart ached for too long. She cried herself to sleep for countless nights. She wanted to die because of the pain he caused. Now, he was back and he was causing it again.

She rolled, forcing herself out of his reach. She moved to the side of the bed to see him watching her. She moved slowly down the wall, towards the door. He blinked in a slow rate, before moving to the door. Her breath was caught short as she watch him remove the Tetsusaiga from his side along with his fire-rat haori. Again, within a light whisper, she spoke to him. "Please, don't."

He only shook his head as he walked towards her. It was a slow movement, but he came. She didn't allow it. She moved across her bed to the other side of the room. Didn't he know that she didn't want to see him anymore? Didn't he understand that she moved on? It didn't make sense. He was here. He was here in her room, in her apartment. Why, why did he do this to her?

Slowly moving down the wall, she tried to make it to the door. Running was her only solution. She would leave. She would drive away to her family. She would figure a way to make him leave, make him forget about her. All the thoughts were interupted, though, when he jumped across the room and grabbed her.

He threw her against the bed, not caring if he hurt her. He bent down over her once again, placing his legs upon hers to prevent her from escaping again. Bending down towards her, he brushed his lips over hers, sealing both in a bruising kiss. She yanked her face away from him, only to feel him trail the kisses down her neck. A low, aching moan escaped her lips. That was when she heard him finally speak. "I am sorry."

Her eyes went wide. He was apologizing. Apologizing for what? For leaving? For hurting her? "Don't even say it."

He leaned up to look into her eyes. She noticed unshed tears in his eyes and that was a first, especially coming from someone like him. "But, it is the truth. I didn't mean to leave. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"You did and you can not change it. It is over. I moved on and I think you should too."

He released a low, dark laugh. "You really don't get it, do you?"

Rolling her head to the side, she glanced up at him, confused on what he meant. "Get what?"

"I didn't return expecting you to understand. I didn't return to live the rest of my life alone. I returned to be with you, to make you mine."

Her eyes went wide when she finally understood what he was saying. That was his reason for the cold stares, for the off set warnings, for the way he was acting around her. She didn't want that. She didn't want to be with someone who was a monster. She just wanted him to leave, to disappear like he did and never return. "No. I don't want that. Get off of me and leave."

Another laugh escaped his lips. "Sorry, but no. I will prove to you that I am sorry for hurting you. In time, you will learn that I still hold deep feelings for you."

"By hurting me?"

"Don't take it that way. I will still care for you. I am just making sure that I never lose you again."

It was her turn to laugh. "You can't make me love you. You can't make me stay with you. I can leave. I can disappear and you would never know it."

"That is where you are wrong. With what is going to happen, you will be mine and there will be nothing you can do about it." He traced his claws down her side. She moved, twisted against his movements. With her legs pinned down, she couldn't do anything. His hands moved her skirt up, showing her bare thighs. He rubbed causing a rough moan to escape her lips. A smile, a dark smile, danced across his lips. "You will be mine."

She saw as he sat up, never letting go of her legs. He untied his hakamas and pulled them down. Her eyes went wide when she knew what he was going to do. She felt as his claws destroyed the only material preventing it from happening. "I will always hate you for this. You do know that, right?"

He was laughing again as she spoke. "Again, don't take it that way. You will understand why I am doing this. You will understand that I am risking a lot just to be with you." Pulling her towards him, he devoured her lips into a crushing kiss before pressing in. She screamed a silent cry against his lips as he continued to press. A liquid warmth surround them as the claiming came. He gave her time to adjust only to return. She was droven over the edges. He was taking her where she didn't want to be taken. He was pushing her where she didn't want to be pushed.

It was aching pain. It was destroying her from the inside, leaving her empty. She didn't want to love him anymore, but somehow, her heart started to remember the feeling and she was loving him all over again. He continued as she raised against him. He devoured and filled her with warmth. It came to fast, but soon a rising tide came over, causing both to collapse.

He rolled off of her panting for air. She laid next to him, shocked on everything that happen. He had just raped her. He took her by force when she never wanted to see him again. As tears made their way down her face, mixing with her hair, she heard him whisper. "I never meant to leave without telling you. I had to do this on my own. However, when I returned I learned that you were gone. It took me a year and half to find you. It took a year and half for my brother to help me find a way to you."

"Tell me this then. Why did you have to rape me? Why did you have to do it by force? Couldn't you have earned my love, my trust instead of hurting me like you did?"

He shook his head as the tears he held came rolling down. "I knew you wouldn't understand. I knew you would hate me. I only did it to prove that I cared for you and wanted to be with you."

Kagome sat up before looking down at the hanyou. "It will still take time. You robbed me of something that I can never have back. You took something of mine that hurts. If I ever learn to love you back, it will be a miracle." Standing up, she walked out of the room and into the bathroom. He could hear the water running and he could hear the tears. He had hurt his mate, one thing that he didn't mean to do.

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It had been month since Inuyasha returned to her side. He never let her out of his sight except when she had to head to work. Each night, he would lay beside her, hoping that there would be some changes. Each night, there seemed to be a slow improvement, but not a steady one.

It was already late in the night, Kagome once again cried herself to sleep. He hated what he did to her, but he wanted to prove that he didn't want to lose her again. He barely survived his way back. He barely found a way back to her. At first, neither his brother, the demon slayer, nor the monk, would help him. It took pleading and apologizing, one thing that he never did, to get them to understand. It was finally the undead miko that changed their mind. He remembered her saying, her words, that helped him find his away. "He is hurt. He is lost. Unless you want him to die, let him go. Let him find the one that calls to him, the one he claims to have as his mate."

Inuyasha was interupted by his thoughts, when his mate sat up, dripping in sweat. He watched from the windowsill as she moved from the bed and walked down the hallway. He moved to follow her, only to see her standing outside on the balcany. "Are you okay?" His voice was soft, caring.

She released a low laugh, one that he never heard before. "It's nothing. Head back to bed. I will return soon."

"Something is wrong. You can tell me."

Kagome turned to face him. She had anger in her eyes. She had hurt in her eyes. "It's you. That is what the problem is. I feel like I want to die. I feel like I don't give a care about anything. I still hurt even after a whole month. Don't you get it? Don't you understand?"

He walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her. She cried into his chest as he whispered soft words to confort her. It worked and soon she was sound asleep. He moved inside and sat down on the couch, holding her close. He never wanted to hurt her. He just wanted to make her understand that he cared about her, that he loved her.

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Kagome rolled with warmth. She sat up as the sun shined through the shades of the window. Glancing around, she noticed where she was at. He was still asleep, but he had tears running down his eyes. He was crying. He had been crying the whole night. He felt as much pain as she did.

She moved from his arms and walked down to her room. Laying on her bed, she let the pain out. She just cried. He could hear her crying, hear her pain. He didn't want to hurt her. He didn't want to cause her this pain. He just wanted to prove that he still loved her. Somehow, though, with him risking his life, trying his hardest to get to her, he failed.

She arrived back in the room when her alarm went off signalling that she had to head to work. He was leaning over the rail of the balcany looking out towards the horizon. She didn't care what he was doing and quickly grabbed her keys, briefcase, and purse before walking out the door. He watched out of the corner of his eye, but never moved. Releasing a sigh and closing his eyes, he let the air blow through his hair before walking out the door and down the street.

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It was hours before Kagome returned home from work. She put the key into the lock and entered the room. She was expecting to see the hanyou, but he was no where to be seen. The sliding door to the balcany was open and breeze was blowing through moving the curtains, but there was no sign of the hanyou.

She walked down the hallway, glancing into the bathroom, the spare bedroom, and even her bedroom. He was no where. She couldn't figure why he left. Her heart skipped a beat. Did he leave? Did he leave knowing that he hurt her? Grabbing her keys, she ran out the room and down the stairs to her car. There was only one place she knew where he could be. It was a long way, but she had been gone for almost eight hours. He would be there in no time.

Arriving quickly, she parked on the side and ran up the stairs. The shrine looked the same. Everything looked the same. She ran in and started to call out for her mother. There was no sign of her family. The windows were open. A pie was cooling. The area was silent. Cursing lightly, she ran up the stairs to her bedroom. It was the same and the window as open, but no hanyou.

Kagome ran through the whole shrine house looking for the hanyou. He was no where. She didn't understand him. Why did he take her as his and then leave? She knew he was upset about everything, but did he have to leave like this? Ya, she was happy about it. It would allow her to move on, but she did want to make sure he was okay.

Stepping outside, Kagome ran her fingers through her hair when she noticed it. The gate to the forest was open. Her eyes went wide as she thought why, but instead of delaying on the thought, she ran through. She ran down the path she knew when she was little. She ran down the path that reminded her on going to the village. However, as she came, her heart skipped a beat. She felt his presense. It was a little off.

A silent gasp escaped her lips. Kagome knew where he was. Her shrine was on a high hill, a mountain of the sort. A cliff extended off in the back. He was there and she knew what he was planning. Kagome ran with her might, praying to all of Kami that he would be still standing. What she saw was more of a suprise.

He stood, with the wind blowing through his hair, staring out into the horizone, much like he did that morning. She walked up slowly not wanting to suprise him, not wanting him to jump. His name escaped her lips. "Inuyasha."

He glanced over his shoulder and she saw it, unshed tears. His voice was a broken whisper as he spoke to her. "I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't mean to put you through this. I care about you and risked a lot. Now with nothing to lose, I can end it and finally rot in Hell."

Kagome shook her head. "No. Don't kill yourself. It's not right. I still care about you. I still love you. It's hard to admit sometimes. I mean you left. I didn't know where, but you left. Please, don't kill yourself."

"Why? I raped you and forced you to be by my side. I hurt you in the most possible way and watch you cry every night. What reason would be good enough for me not to kill myself right now?"

Kagome swallowed hard on his reasons. He was correct on everything else, but he couldn't do it. This wasn't the hanyou she knew. He was not being himself. Getting her courage, she replied. "Because if you do it, I will follow right behind you. I still love you and losing you will only kill me."

"No. You don't love me anymore. I can see it in your tears at night. I can see it when you leave for work or go out for the night. You avoid me. You hate me. Ending it now will put both of us at rest." He took a step closer towards the edge.

"It's pointless if you do it. You said you risked a lot. Why put that to shame when you can make up for it? Yes, I said it would be a miracle for me to love you again, but it wasn't. Damn it, Inuyasha, I still love you and it kills me that I still do. That is the reason I cry. I cry because you are back and you made me feel your love again." Tears were in her eyes as she pressed towards him. She wanted him to hold her. She wanted to know that he wasn't going kill himself.

He released a sigh as he turned towards the girl and stepped away from the cliff. "Are you sure about this? Are you sure that you can still love me after everything I have done to you."

With a tearfull nod, she ran towards him and embraced him in a hug. He held her close as she cried against her chest. He knew what he did was right. He knew using the Shikon Jewel to grant his wish to allow him to survive with Kagome was correct. He risked his life knowing that in the end he would be with her.

She cried against him as he held her. He was everything and she almost threw it away. She was a fool to think that she didn't care about him. In the end, he proved to her that he was everything to her. Wasn't this what she wanted? Didn't she want to be with him? Yes. It was everything and more. Now, she could prove it. She could show that she still loved him.

Pushing away, she glanced up into his eyes with unshed tears. She leaned up and grasped his lips against hers. The sun sat as he held her, as both kissed with all the passion they held. He had her as his mate. She had him to live with. Both were united. Both were together. At the beginning she wanted to hate him. In the end, he brought her to her knees making her realize that she loved him. In the end, both made each other realize how much they both needed each other.

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