Too Much Time On Their Hands

After two years of living away from the pack things were very different for the two young demons. Tsukiya and Jimmy lived a rather humble life after leaving their family. They did not have all the things they desired before since all the money they had now was what they earned rather then what was given to them since Jimmy refused to go back to the pack for anything. Jimmy liked this though.

"Hello dear I am home."

Jimmy stated softly looking at his beloved mate who was wearing a very attractive maternity business suit. Tsukiya even with Jimmy's protests got a job and was working for a marketing company since they needed two incomes to survive this much more humble existence.

Today had been his last day since he was due very soon with their child. Jimmy went over and hugged his mate rubbing his fingers over the pregnant belly that was showing feeling like a proud Father. It was such a beautiful thing and Jimmy loved to feel his child kicking so strongly deep within Tsukiya.

Coming home from work Jimmy was wearing a mechanic's uniform. It did not make his Father too happy, but Alistair wanted more for Jimmy then for him to be as he once was when he turned wrenches pretending to be a wretched weak human although he still went werewolf on occasion to feast since Megan’s dinners just were not bloody enough for him. Alistair didn’t want to upset Megan though so he ate whatever was cooked and sometimes did part of the cooking.

Jimmy had two jobs and would have to soon get ready for the other one as he got into the shower to clean up. Then putting on his business suit for his job as head of security for one of the local businesses in town that he worked for he kissed Tsukiya goodbye as he got his lunch together getting ready to rush out the door. After giving his mate a kiss on the cheek, Jimmy rushed to work. Today he would be putting in some well deserved vacation time so he could be there for his child’s birth.

Tsukiya was terribly unhappy with this life, but did not want to discourage his mate. It was hard to live such a life in this tiny apartment with no real outlet to the outside world. Jimmy was so over protective and so damn jealous that Tsukiya could hardly breathe when it came to work since Jimmy thought everyone was trying to steal her away from him. Tsukiya was always being hit on by assholes as far as Jimmy was concerned and hated the smells of the men she worked with. He wanted to kill them all.

A knock was heard on the door and Tsukiya checked the peep hole like Jimmy told him to. It was Father Sesshoumaru. Sesshoumaru had not ever visited them since he wasn’t sure if he was ready to see Jimmy either and this was the first time Tsukiya had seen him in what seemed like forever. Tsukiya opened the door and Sesshoumaru stood outside looking rather unsure of himself.

"Hello Father."

Tsukiya stated in tears as she hugged Sesshoumaru for all she was worth.

"Hello little moon star. Are you here alone or is Jimmy around too? I need to talk to you both."

Sesshoumaru was very quiet and looked like hell. He had been obviously crying for a long time and getting very little sleep.

"I need you to call Jimmy and ask him to come here. There has been a terrible accident Tsukiya. Ronin, Raiden, and Luna were in an automobile accident. I don't know how to tell you this, but they are all dead. No one survived and their bodies are going to take many years to heal. More than I know and not even our blood will resurrect them. We will not have them home for a very long time. Tensaiga wouldn’t let me heal them. It is rejecting me for some reason."

Tsukiya put a hand to his mouth as he cried out. His brothers and sister were dead unable to be healed? It wasn't true. I could not be.

"I will call him right away."

Tsukiya ran to the phone and with shaking fingers he called Jimmy's work number. Tears poured down his face as he tried to tell Jimmy the news. Jimmy did not hear very well with all the noise in the background, but told his work he had a family emergency and needed to get home. They all knew his mate was pregnant so they let him go home.

Jimmy drove home as quickly as he could to open his door seeing the one person he never expected to see in his home. Just seeing Sesshoumaru brought back feelings he did not wish to think about as he frowned at the man.

"Sesshoumaru, what is going on? I could barely hear Tsukiya over the phone so please explain why I am here rather than at work."

Jimmy asked softly and almost angrily. He really did not want to see his old lover. He couldn't get his heart to let go and wasn't sure if he could ever see his family again.

"Jimmy, Ronin, Raiden, and Luna are dead. They were in a car accident and there is nothing that can heal them other than time. We don’t know how much or how long. It could be thousands of years. We honestly do not know. The family needs you to come home. Your Mother and Inuyasha need you right now. I need you right now."

Sesshoumaru stated brokenly. Jimmy felt the tears fall down his face. His brothers and sister were dead and no one could heal them? Not even the strongest of them all? It wasn't right. This was not the kind of thing he needed right now. It fucking hurt like hell.

"Ok. We will get packed."

Jimmy stated softly trying to regain his composure somehow as he walked away to get their things. All three walked out to the car with no one saying anything. Tsukiya and Jimmy leaned on each other for support while Sesshoumaru looked out the window trying hard not to just break down. This had been fucking hard as hell. Inuyasha was a mess and Megan was just as bad. It was like when the kids left all the light had left their lives. Everything fell apart including the mates as they fought each other for months. Alistair and Touga did not even come by to visit afraid that they were going to be in the middle of a brawl with everyone at each other's throats.

"When did this happen?"

Tsukiya asked in between sobs.

"Last night."

Sesshoumaru stated softly as tears fell. He was forced to identify the bodies. He could not let his mates do that.

"Sesshoumaru........"

Jimmy stated softly as he moved over to Sesshoumaru and hugged him.

"I am so sorry."

Sesshoumaru held Jimmy tightly and sobbed into his shoulder. He felt like such an ass since he blamed himself for all of this. If he had not done what he did with Jimmy maybe all of this would not have happened and maybe their family would still be together. Still he knew that was not a thought that would change anything. It was too late to change the past. Tsukiya came over as the three held each other crying until they reached the airport. Sesshoumaru smirked a bit when they got there.

"I remember when you both said you were going to run away here and get married."

Jimmy started laughing through the tears.

"Ya, it is funny how things turn out."

Tsukiya smiled too a bit. It helped to ease the tension from the sorrow they were all feeling. Sesshoumaru handed Jimmy and Tsukiya a book.

"I have been writing this for a while. Well, since you both left. I don't know if it is any good, but it did help a bit. I figured since it is now a best seller you both might want to see what this old demon has been up to while you have been gone."

Jimmy looked at the cover. It was a story book of poems called 'The Garden of Demons' with a small inscription that said ‘For Rin’.

"I wrote about many things you probably don't know about me. I had raised a human child who loved flowers. So that is where the idea grew from. I thought perhaps she would have appreciated this."

Jimmy read one of the poems Sesshoumaru had written on the plane out loud after they boarded and were in the air.

"Where Life Takes Us in the Garden of Demons

In the garden we grow as we plant the first seed.
I sense a time that was long ago indeed.
The past is where we learn in the garden we grow.
Like water moves along we begin to flow.
There are many mistakes that we tend to make.
As we sew our lives and hide them under the rake.
The dirt may cover the deeds of our woes.
Digging parasites will bring out our worst foes.
You cannot hide from your troubles forever.
Even demon families must stick together.
A pack is not broken only a heart.
Sometimes that thing tears us apart.
Love does not end my child you see.
Life blooms as we go on so we can be free.
Open your heart and open your mind.
The demon in me isn't that hard to find.
I am here in the world that you run from my sun.
Please do not keep going away my passionate one.
You like the evergreen will always be mine.
Forever green and gold you shall shine.
I did not stop loving that beautiful face.
I did not forget you in this empty cold place.
As you grow and become a King of Demon kind.
Do not be like me and close the damn blinds.
Let the sun in and water with care.
Do not be like cold demons with the devil like flare.
You are meant to be more like a flower you see.
I am always drawn to you like a honey to a bee.
I will wait for you here as I wilt in the light.
Your sunshine is gone all I feel is cold night.
I want to grow and bask in your fame.
You know this poem is you so take it as your claim.
The leaves are falling again today.
Come home my love I bid you to stay.
Grow with me and we together will rise.
Only with you can I can see the clear skies.
This is only a garden and I am only a man.
Fly home to me so we can cultivate our land.

By, Tatsuyoshi Tashio."

Jimmy felt tears form in his eyes and Sesshoumaru held his hand. Tsukiya knew that there was no way Sesshoumaru and Jimmy could go back to having a normal relationship. It was impossible, but to stay away from each other was stupid. Tsukiya excused himself to go to the bathroom leaving the two alone.

"Jimmy I tried very hard to forget what we shared. I tried to pretend we could do this and I could just be your Father again. I can't do that and I know you can’t either. I can't live like that and I can't live without you both home. I miss you and I did not mean to love you more than I do. I do though and I hope you can forgive me for it. I have grieved you and now my babies. I cannot grieve for more as I am in hell."

Sesshoumaru stated softly feeling very sad and did not know how to go on like he had been. Jimmy not giving a shit what anyone thought pulled Sesshoumaru into a passionate kiss.

"I have missed you too and I love you. There is nothing to forgive. I will come home now and we will start over. Still, you are no longer my Father Sesshoumaru. You were not ever that and so if you don't stop beating yourself up over it I will beat you on that machine until you figure it out. We are more and you are not blood related to me. We have not ever been. I am an adult and I consent. You are my lover and my love."

Jimmy stated running his fingers over Sesshoumaru's leg suggestively with a slight evil smirk on his face. Sesshoumaru leaned against Jimmy holding his hand tightly.

"Ok then. I have talked to my mates and we will do this then. It is going to take time though Jimmy. I can’t do this right now and I need to know something first. Is Tsukiya going to be ok with it?"

Sesshoumaru asked softly since he did not want to mess things up more than they already did. It would not be fair.

"I think so, but I don't know. I have to go home to you both though. I think she is ready to throttle me if I don't. I know we won't ever be mated Sesshoumaru, but I will always be grateful for what we do have. I will be patient too. This is hard for all of us, but we do not have to get through it alone."

Jimmy knew Sesshoumaru this time felt very vulnerable so he was going to have to be extra careful with him. They would not fight for Alpha rights. Now that was impossible and it would not ever happen if they were to continue on as lovers. It would only cause more pain. Jimmy would back down. When Sesshoumaru wished to give up his position he would then just take over.

"My mates and I are fighting all the time too. I don't want things to be like this and now that we lost the three kids."

Sesshoumaru broke down and Jimmy did too. It was so fucking hard to believe that three of their closest family members died in such a way.

"Fathers are not supposed to outlive their children."

Jimmy sighed not knowing how to comfort Sesshoumaru. He was so damn miserable.

"It is ok. We are here Sesshoumaru. We are not going anywhere."

Tsukiya came to see her Father sobbing again and knew this was so hard on him. It was hard on Tsukiya too. Father hugged her tightly also and held their hands after wiping away his tears. He had not stopped crying in a long time it seemed like and Inuyasha made him go to therapy after Jimmy left with Tsukiya. Sesshoumaru never forgave himself and couldn’t get over the loss of Jimmy thinking it was all his doing. He assumed everyone left because he was too controlling. The rest of the pack left then too and the three mates felt very alone.

Only the youngest pups were still there and Sesshoumaru spent hours in the nursery rocking them. He watched them and fell asleep in there only to be carried to bed by Inuyasha.

Megan was not sure how to feel since her beloved mate slept with her son. It just did not feel right so she took some time off away from them all for a while. Soon Megan came home asking to be unmated to them. Sesshoumaru flipped out and so did Inuyasha. Megan fell apart stating she just couldn't do this anymore since his obsession was getting worse. Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru finally convinced her to stay. It was hard though since Sesshoumaru was still in love with Jimmy.

"Your Mom wants to leave us and I think most of that is over what we have done Jimmy. I don't know how to be with you and be with her too. Even Inuyasha is close to leaving me over this."

Sesshoumaru stated softly. Jimmy felt sick. He couldn't be with Sesshoumaru. This was not right at all. It was then the full impact of their feelings hit him in the head. Sesshoumaru would lose everything. That was not how things were supposed to end for anyone especially demon families.

"No. She can't do that. You can't lose your mates over this."

Jimmy stated asking the flight attendant for a whiskey with no ice. He needed something strong and he needed it fast. Jimmy downed it quickly welcoming the burning in his throat urging for another one and downed it too feeling a bit better.

"I don't want her to go either. I love her Jimmy. I love her and Inuyasha. I don’t know how to do this and I swear I am losing my mind."

Tsukiya freaked out.

"You can't let anyone go Father. I will beat you all up if Mom Megan or Mom Inuyasha leaves! I worked too damn hard to get you both together and you won't let her go over something this stupid! You both are Alpha’s so fix this! It is your job!"

Tsukiya growled at her Father as her eyes went red. Sesshoumaru looked shocked at his daughter who sat fuming at him.

"I am not letting her go. I just don't know how to do anything to fix my feelings and I can't blame her for her reaction. That would be like Megan doing things with you Tsukiya. I know you didn't."

Tsukiya looked at the floor and blushed as her eyes went back to normal.

"Ummmmm that isn't completely true Father since you wanted us to train."

Sesshoumaru suddenly looked shocked and sat back in his chair.

"She didn't tell you? Well you were so busy in your own problems with Jimmy you probably weren't listening anyway. Megan felt guilty with me too ya know. Did you ever think that was maybe why she left in the first place? I mean it wasn't like you helped her situation either. You were so busy feeling guilty about Jimmy that you weren't paying attention to a lot of us. You two are selfish bastards."

Jimmy sat in his chair feeling rather odd too.

"Oh......."

Tsukiya sat back fuming at the two men.

"You both are so damn selfish sometimes. Maybe you should stop once in a while and look at other people. We all have feelings too ya know. Just because you are Alphas doesn’t mean you are right."

Tsukiya looked out the window. Sesshoumaru then looked at Jimmy who whispered for him to trade seats. Sesshoumaru nodded. Tsukiya was crying, but she was not about to show it to either of the jerks.

"Tsukiya I am sorry."

Jimmy stated softly trying to touch his mate. Tsukiya pulled away.

"Maybe Megan and I should leave you both and then you can be happy together Jimmy. You don't think I fell in love too? Stupid thing is we knew better then you two. We loved both of you more and so we let go. We chose our mates over our own personal feelings for each other! You both never did! Still we forgave you, but did you give a shit about our feelings? No you didn't and you both think you have things so damn hard. Well maybe you should try to think about that for a while. Maybe you both should think about our family too………"

Tsukiya stated sadly as she thought about his siblings and then about her own issues with her Step Mother that she learned everything from falling in love too.

"I know she wasn't my blood either, but she helped me get through a lot and we did similar stuff without the damn whips. Megan is gentle and loving. She was kind and patient unlike you men who act like big babies when you don’t get what you want. I forgave you both and we were ready to let go so I could be a family with you again Jimmy. I didn't forget her, but you know what? I knew who my mate was and now I don't. I don’t know who you are anymore Jimmy and you leave me alone all the damn time not asking how my day was. You never ask, you just leave because you have to work all the time because you are too damn stubborn to go home.'
"You want to go fuck each other then do it. Don't let me stop you. It isn't like we have to be fucking loyal to each other anymore these days right? What is the damn point of being mated at all tell me that Jimmy if you can?"

Tsukiya went to stand up and Jimmy growled holding her down pulling her into his arms.

"I am sorry. I am fucking sorry Tsukiya. No wonder you have been so damn distant."

Sesshoumaru picked up the cell phone constantly surprised at the wisdom of his own child that put so much into perspective. Leave it to Tsukiya to get their heads back on strait. Just the thought of losing his mates made Sesshoumaru panic and now he was damn close to it. Tsukiya was right, loyalty had to start at the top and it was time to stop playing games with people's feelings just because he wanted something he should not. Here he was wallowing in self pity over Jimmy and his children. Sesshoumaru's mates felt things too and he hadn't been there for them.

"Hey Inuyasha, we are almost there. Can you get Megan on the phone for me honey? I don't give a shit if she wants to talk or not. I need to talk to her."

Megan answered the phone feeling really tired, sad, and did not really want to see the two males on their way right now. She was not happy with Inuyasha, Alistair, or their Father Touga. It was like everyone lost their damn minds and then for the kids to die like they did. It was just too much. Lycos threatened to not come home and Megan lost it with him literally beating him over the head than dragging him home by his hair as the boy sulked on the couch crying over his siblings. It was the first time in years that he showed emotions.

"Yes Sesshoumaru. What is it?"

Sesshoumaru could hear the defeat in her voice. Megan was preparing for another fight or conversation on how Jimmy was doing. She didn’t want to hear it.

"Look when we get there I need some time with you alone if you don't mind. There are some things that came up that we need to talk about."

Megan felt too tired for this shit, but she would do it.

"Ok then. How much longer before you arrive?"

Sesshoumaru looked at his watch.

"About an hour. We should be landing here soon. I love you and the kids really miss you. Please, let’s not fight when we get back ok?"

Megan tried not to fall apart on the phone.

"Sure, we can do that."

Sesshoumaru did not seem to be completely convinced, but it was better than most conversations they had lately.

"I do love you Megan and I miss you."

Megan tried to find a way to tell him she felt the same way, but he hung up. It hurt and that wasn't very fair. Sesshoumaru kept doing this shit like he was the only one who fucked up and Megan sobbed as Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her.

"Where the fuck did we go wrong Inuyasha?"

Megan sobbed as he held her tightly lifting her into his arms as he carried her out to the porch to sit on his lap looking out at the sunset as his own tears fell.

"We lost focus Megan, we just lost our souls for a while. We will get them back and our lives somehow."

Inuyasha felt worse than ever and losing the kids just made him feel like he was ready to go insane. The three mates fell apart and wanted to die. They wanted this ache to fade and the damn wolves would not leave them alone to do it. They were terrified that the dog demons they loved would kill themselves at the rate they were going or go back to the castle doing as their ancestors had done disappearing in spirit form to be away from the family who needed them.

Alistair learned the hard way that deceiving people was a bad idea especially when you were mated and married to one pissed off she cat. Megan did officially divorce and unmated clawing the hell out of Alistair furious with him that he was alive hiding the fact of who he was. She felt so damn tricked, stupid, and naive. Alistair actually had a limp and he was stronger than any of them apparently except for Megan who was hell on legs when she was in full rage. He was in a lot of pain, but still smirked a bit glad she was at least allowing him to be near her again. Alistair was still in love with her and was glad she was a mean demonic bitch. It made her sexier. Of course now that he was unmated Alistair then mated Touga soon after.

Still after all of that even now Megan wanted to claw the hell out of Alistair if he swatted her ass so Alistair stayed away out of fear mostly since Megan in a rage was pretty violent. Even for a full demon black wolf he did not know that women were so damn mean. Alistair knew he deserved it, but it still did not make things better for anyone. Alistair felt like shit and Touga was ready to pull his hair out at the crazy behavior that was happening with his family.

Megan fell from one trap into another with Sesshoumaru and her doing things that were not normal with what had been their kids even if they had not planned things this way. It was training and there had been no one else that agreed since everyone told them as Alpha mates it was their place. It was so fucked up, but it was duty.

It didn't matter Tsukiya and Jimmy had not been blood related with the two adults they had been intimate with. It was the fact the adults knew better and did it anyway even if the scrolls said otherwise. Fucking ancient bastards were jerks for making such things acceptable. Megan felt sick and disgusting. She took showers daily trying to wash away the shame and the hate she had for herself while Sesshoumaru followed the same pattern driving Inuyasha insane.

They rarely slept in the same room anymore together as Megan would find ways to disappear for months from them both with Sesshoumaru going on frantic hunts to find her dragging her back home usually with both of them in a pretty bad state. Megan did not eat and tried to disappear to unmate them looking up scrolls at the castle that eventually Sesshoumaru burned in front of her as he tied her to a chair. Sesshoumaru was becoming desperate to keep Megan and Inuyasha without suddenly withdrawing himself. Still he forced Megan to stay and this was the first time he left her at the house without someone watching her that was strong enough to keep her from running.

Inuyasha was ready to throttle them both and the fights got so nasty. Blood was all over their bedroom from the claws and maiming as Megan tried several times to leave them. Sesshoumaru went ballistic and tied her up several times during the night to keep her from leaving although the rough sex was still being initiated as the two of them would be found in each other’s arms in the morning with Inuyasha sitting on the floor wondering what the fuck happened.

After time went on Megan and Sesshoumaru ended up in Akiyoshi's care for three weeks almost killing each other with their fights. Sesshoumaru went into full demon rage and Megan did also making them equally matched. Inuyasha however somehow pulled them apart with powers he didn’t know he had.

"Megan you can't go on like this my love. You are trying to destroy yourself."

Inuyasha stated softly kissing her tears.

"We are losing everything Inuyasha. I feel like it is my fault for ever getting involved with the both of you. You had things so perfect before we came to ruin your happy home. I feel like I fucked up so badly here and I am blaming people who are not at fault for my actions.'
"I just can't look at Sesshoumaru without thinking about what I did and what he did. I want to find out why he is so weak again and can’t save our children. He is supposed to take care of us and save us. If he can’t than one of these assholes should be able to bring back our children!’
“Alistair owes me big time and that prick can’t even beat me. He is a fucking wimp that can’t beat a cat and if he is so damn powerful why can’t he do anything? They are useless and so am I if I can’t save them! I have let you down Inuyasha! I have hurt you too and you should hate me! If I can kick their asses than why can’t I protect our children?’
“I can't look at Alistair without wanting to claw his eyes out and his lying mouth for being not dead like I thought he was. I want to kick his ass again. He made me mourn him thinking he was dead. I loved him and gave him everything of me. This is how he repays it? It isn't right and it wasn't fair to Jimmy either.'
"When I agreed to train Tsukiya I should have thought about it seriously. I should have used my damn head and I didn't.’
“I can't believe that Sesshoumaru didn't since he is the most controlled out of all of us. He should have smacked me on the back of the head saying this was a fucked up idea when Kouga brought it up. No, instead we both fell for it like two imbeciles. Tsukiya is so damn fine and she is your child too. I don't understand your forgiveness of me. Don't I disgust you? Tsukiya isn’t just one gender and she showed me that in more ways than I should know. I am an old woman not some girl so I get Sesshoumaru’s problem! You both should hate me for it though!"

Megan stated huddling into a ball on his lap. Inuyasha pulled her hands away from her head and looked at her face.

"No, you don't. Unlike my brother and you I got what you both were doing. I understood what the point was of this. It hit you first and you broke Tsukiya's heart early on enough to get her to let go of you before it was too late.'
"I just don't think you both were prepared for the consequences of your actions. I was. I knew this would happen and I tried to tell you both. You just don't listen to me sometimes and it is frustrating to me too. You both think you know so much my love and you are both so naive in that. You are children and young still. We all are. This is just our first litter of pups you know. We demons live for centuries. We live so long that we forget our age. It is impossible to be mated and stay perfectly loyal forever. We knew that. You two just let your hearts get tangled up in this mess.'
"I love you both and I want this to still work somehow. I don't know how long I can take this shit though Megan. I hurt too. I am in the middle here of all of this, you know, and I don’t appreciate it. I am your mate too. Do not forget me in all of this. They are my kids too."

Inuyasha sighed as Kouga came out to inspect what was going on.

"Are you two ok?"

Inuyasha sighed.

"Of course not you stupid skinny wimpy wolf. When have we ever been ok? Still are you going to stay and talk? If not then get the fuck out of here because you are staring and it annoys the hell out of me."

Kouga smiled a bit. He too was sad about the kids. Sitting in one of the other chairs he looked out at the ocean with the Inu's.

"It is peaceful here and beautiful. I sometimes miss being out here since we all took off like we did."

Inuyasha snorted.

"You mean like Sesshoumaru threw us all out like he did except for me and Megan. After Jimmy left he threw everyone out except for the younglings. He even forced Lycos here out so he wouldn’t hide in his damn room forever. Everyone was forced to go figure out their lives and come back when they were done rebelling. Of course he couldn't throw the babies out either. I think he was tempted at one point though since he was losing his mind."

Kouga nodded solemnly.

"Look I don't know what to say other then my idea was stupid ok? I thought I was doing the right thing and I wasn't. It should have been me and Miroku not you guys. Still you idiots volunteered like I told you not to do so stop your whimpering. It is over."

Megan snarled at Kouga and Inuyasha held her back.

"No it is not over you fucking idiot! We still have to live with our actions! Since Sesshoumaru and I take responsibility for them it is killing us! Can't you see that? I don't blame you, but it is far from over Kouga! It wasn’t your responsibility! You would be in our shoes and if you want that you fucking asshole than you are an idiot wimpy wolf like Inuyasha says you are!"

Kouga slid back in his chair as Megan's eyes glowed red.

"It won't ever be over because........ because....... well fuck!"

Megan got up making Inuyasha let her go as she jumped off the balcony and ran along the beach. She had to get away from that place and just run. It didn't matter she had no shoes on or that she was wearing only boxer shorts with a t shirt that she wore to bed the night before. Megan had to get away from them. Inuyasha caught up with her and soon Kouga did too after Inuyasha tackled her.

"Let go damn it all! I just need to get away for a minute! Damn it! Please just let me go..........."

Inuyasha refused to let the struggling woman go as she was crying over her little ones and all the pack leaving. It was wrong. The whole thing was wrong.

"No you are not running away. I won't let you. Calm down it is ok."

Megan sobbed.

"I want my babies back! I want my babies alive again damn it! I don’t want to wait centuries for them to heal! If Alistair is alive then why can't they be? Why can't we bring them back? We are not supposed to outlive our children! We are not supposed to! I want things to be back to normal, but they will never be that way again! Nothing is ever going to be the same..........."

Inuyasha held her rocking Megan as she sobbed. Kouga held them both as he too was in tears. It hurt so much and nothing was getting better with all of this fighting.

"I miss our babies too Megan. I want them to come home too. Your right it isn't fair and I am angry too honey. I am and I hurt too."

Inuyasha cried as they held each other.

"Come on lets go back. Please let’s go back home ok?"

Kouga stated softly as he helped Inuyasha up as he carried Megan home while placing an arm around his friend as they leaned on each other for support. Sesshoumaru was home watching them from the balcony feeling just as lost as he walked away showing Jimmy and Tsukiya to their room.
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