Innocent Beginnings

Innocent Beginnings
By: Maggz
Disclaimer: InuYasha and Co. © Rumiko Takahashi

Chapter 33: We Break Up, Then We Make Up

I stood at the door, my mouth hanging open at the pure audacity of the man sitting right before my very eyes! He would never stop surprising me, never stop frustrating or annoying me… never stop caring about me.


"Close the door and close your mouth, Rin. This is rude!", he commented as he crossed an ankle over a jean clad thigh. Sliding his arm over the back of the sofa, he continued to look at me, his irritation evident.


"What are you doing here, Sesshomaru?", I asked, my mouth suddenly very dry. It was one thing to tease Kohaku about being afraid of Sesshomaru, quite another to maybe witness a scuffle between the two of them.


"You should know the answer to that, Rin.", he said softly, his voice belying the glint in his eye.


"I don't have a CLUE what you're talking about.", I said, walking over to stand by the sofa, my arms crossed underneath my breasts.


"I'm quite sure you DO know what I'm talking about.", he insisted, winking at me!


"If you're talking at all about the little trick you tried to pull over on me with those fucking dinner- then you're more arrogant and bullheaded than I originally thought!", I hissed.


Faster than I'd anticipated, he reached out and snatched my wrists, pulling me down onto his lap in a MOST unladylike heap.


"Fasten your fucking jeans or I'll do it for you!", he growled in my ear as his hands slid to my thighs, squeezing them painfully.


Embarrassed and angry, I pulled my zip up and slid the button through its hole before moving my hands atop his to pry him loose.


"Why weren't you there?", he asked.


"Because I didn't want to be. Let me up!", I hissed.


"I asked Kohaku to bring you. Both of you would've had the best seats in the house, Rin! I wanted you to be there. It meant something to me!", he said, his voice warm and husky in my ear.


"Well…", I stammered, stalling for time… stalling for a new excuse to pop miraculously into my brain. Nothing was coming quickly enough.


"WELL?", he snarled, his hands going to my waist to turn me so that I now faced him, straddling his lap.


"I didn't want to go. That's all.", I said, unable to meet his eyes. IED iED it when he looked hurt. It killed me! I'd spent so much time trying to wash him from my heart and soul that it literally brought me to my knees when I was face to face with him again and witnessed pain or disappointment in his beautiful amber eyes. I had no resistance whatsoever… NONE!


"Oh. Well… ok.", he said.


"Can I get up NOW?", I asked. It seemed strange to be sitting in his lap, straddling him. At any other time, it might've been a position I craved but not now… not tonight. There was too much left unspoken between us and I wasn't sure just how or even IF I wantedget get into it with him in Kohaku`s apartment of all places.


"Sorry. Yeah.", he mumbled and I heaved myself off him and slid to the opposite end of the sofa.


"You said you weren't having sex.", he accused.


"Where in the HELL did THAT remark come from, St. Francis!?", I laughed. I couldn't help it! Of all the things he could've come out with he'd came up with THAT?


"Your jeans, the fact that you look as if you've been done and done good. Not to mention it's after midnight and you're HERE at your boyfriend's place when you really should be home-", he sermonized.


"Oh PLEASE! Save it, Sesshomaru. Why aren't YOU with your slu-…girlfriend?", I stammered.


His eyes lifted quickly to mine before sliding away and as I watched, he actually fidgeted and cleared his throat.


"We broke up.", he mumbled.


"Hmm…", I sniffed, my heart tripping away through my chest. Could it be true THIS time?


"She broke up with me. We got into an argument… stupid shit!", he muttered. I couldn't believe he was actually TALKING to me about HER! Part of me wanted to hear it all and the other part of me wanted to hush him up for even once laying claim to her!


"I see.", I mumbled. What was I supposed to say here? I hadn't a clue!


"She's… she gets pissed when I'm out of town working... traveling...",admiadmitted, lifting his eyes to mine once again.


"Then I'm sure she's pissed off a good amount of the time.", I said.
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"Bingo!", he admitted.


"So… THAT'S why you ran off over here! You didn't have anywhere or anybody to party with tonight?!", I asked.


"No. That's not it! I was expecting you there tonight, Rin. I'd prayed that we could mend our fences and come to some sort of truce. This is killing me- I don't mind telling you. I feel like I've failed you somehow.", he said.


"If you'd just stand back and allow me to BREATHE, Sesshomaru…", I cried, reaching for his .
.


"I can't just DO that. You've already shown me that you make way too many bad choices for a girl of your age. I shudder to think what I might NOT know, Rin. I want to BE there for you and you won't even let me do THAT anymore without making it seem I'm some such bastard!!", he said.


"That's because you're treating me like a CHILD, Sesshomaru. Can't you look at me and see I'm not a child? I hate it when you do that!", I frowned.


"I can't help it.", he sof softly. "It's just what's in my nature when I think of you. It's like… I don't know… like I'm responsible for you, Rin. Can't you try to understand?", he asked.


"I HAVE tried, Sesshomaru. Over and over and over again but it still infuriates me that you had the gall to SPANK me that night when you pulled me out of the club- which was uncalled for as well… BOTH TIMES! There are other ways to get the point across, you know!", I said.


His eyes slid from my face down to my chesingeingering there for a moment before moving quickly back up to gaze into my eyes once again. He squirmed a bit before squeezing my fingers with his own.


"I'm sorry for that.", he said. "I really am."


"Are you?", I asked, tears forming in the corners of my eyes.


"Yes, Rin. I said I was!", he frowned, pulling me into a huge hug. "Damn it, Rin. What's happening between us? I don't understand it anymore and I don't like it!", he mumbled against my shoulder.


I closed my eyes, hugging him close, relishing the moment. It had been so long, it seemed, since he'd wanted to just hold me and speak softly in my ear.


"I'm taking you home.", he said, pulling away from me.


"That's fine. It'll save Kohaku the trip. Just let me go get my things.", I said, getting y fey feet.


"In the fucking BEDROOM?", he asked, eyuge.uge.


"Yeah. Just sit tight. I'll be right back.", I said.


Quickly, I went into the bedroom to retrieve my sneakers and socks. Kohaku was snoring peacefully, oblivious to my dilemma, but I suppose it was for the best. Scrambling around for a piece of paper and the snub end of a pencil, I wrote him a note explaining that Sesshomaru had stopped by for me and that things were fine and that I'd call latelater. Leaning over to brush a kiss across his cheek, I smiled aulleulled the blanket up over his shoulders, tucking him safely in.


When I got back into the living room, Sesshomaru was pacing the floor in front of the living room windows, hands on his hips.


"Ok. Ready when you are.", I said as I slid my feet into my socks and sneakers.


"Are you having sex with him, Rin?", Sesshomaru blurted once more. "Answer me!"


"Sesshomaru, it's not what you're imagining. Trust me. Not every guy is as fucking horny as YOU are. Not every guy is after a good piece of ass, no matter what the girl looks like or what kind of personality she has. Just drop it, ok!?", I frowned.


Taken aback it seemed, he dug his hands into the front pockets of his jeans and followed me to the door. I let him go through before locking the door and sliding the key up into its little hidey hole.


"You know every damned thing about him, don't you?", he asked me quietly.


I turned to him, not sure what kind of answer he was expecting. His eyes were full on me, wide open and questioning.


"I know almost everything about him, yes. He's my best friend, Sesshomaru. You know that.", I said.


"But that used to be me…", he murmured, reaching for my hand to pull me tightly against him. "Don't blow me off, Rin. I only do what I do because I care so much for you. I couldn't bear it were something to happen to you.", he said.


"Nothing's going to happen, Sesshomaru. Just please ease up, ok?", I whispered.


"I can try, Rin. But you have to meet me halfway. You need to stop making trouble for yourself and those around you. Don't go back in that club or ANY club until you're of age. Promise me that.", he said.


"Jeez, Sesshomaru!", I complained. "Why do you want to make me promise something that I'm just not sure I can uphold!?"


"RIN!", he frowned
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"I can try, Sesshomaru. That's all I can say right now. I can try to do as you wish but I'm not perfect by any means but then neither are you. Cut me some slack and don't be so quick to jump down my throat!", I said.


"Let's go.", he said. "You need to be home and in bed - ALONE!"


He took my hand and led me down the stairs and toward his car, helping me in and securing my belt before turning to me to press a soft, warm kiss against my surprised lips.


"I love you, Rin.", he smiled almost shyly, not at all the same guy that had less than a month ago whipped my ass ruby red in a fit of stubborn rage.


"Sesshomaru, have you ever considered you might have like… split personalities?", I said, a grin breaking through my serious façade.


"Damn it, Rin…", he grunted, standing straight and closing the door with a bang.


I laughed as he rounded the front of the car, laughing harder still when he flipped me off before crossing to his side and climbing in. With an exasperated look thrown quickly in my direction, he buckled himself in and started the car, roaring off down the street to take me home.