Too Much Time On Their Hands

Sesshoumaru and Megan went into the yacht and looked in the black boxes taking their time to look through each box.

“Do you really think that they are going to understand why we are doing this Sesshoumaru? I mean I don’t want them thinking I am a total bitch since I don’t have many friends as it is.”

Sesshoumaru pulled Megan close kissing her.

“No they know what is up with this and they will get over it. Plus we will have some fun in front of them and I plan on paralyzing them so they can’t do anything about it. Hell, if they are going to all three watch us when we wanted time alone we might as well give them a good show right in front of their faces for them to really remember.”

Megan smirked and grabbed some of the things helping Sesshoumaru only to be pulled into his strong arms again. Kissing her he pulled away and just spoke while they searched. They both planned on taking their time to add to the torment of the three young males in the limousine. The longer they were in the yacht the more the three men would wonder what they were up to. It was all part of this punishment and not having any sex at all would make them feel very uncomfortable until they arrived.

Sesshoumaru figured now was as good time as any to get some things out into the open and clear up some possible misunderstandings about him. There were some things he wanted to tell her and could not do it because they were not ever really alone for long enough for him to do so.

“Megan I want you to know that the time we spent even though they were watching was very special to me. It meant more then you can imagine. I have not been with a woman in over 500 years. The last woman I was with and had any feelings for died under the hands of an evil bastard.’
“I dated, but I did not mess around like Kouga and Miroku did. I really in all honesty have not been with many women at all. I know you think I am experienced, but fact is I am so very selective that those I choose to be with that there are very few lovers who I have had in my life and I do not just give myself to anyone I find attractive.”

Megan stopped rummaging through the boxes dropping one of the things she was planning on tormenting the boys with. This was more important than some dumb punishment even if it was going to be fun. Sesshoumaru was opening up to her and Megan would not interrupt. These were things she wished to know.

“I know you watched that stupid cartoon series. It was based off of things that were some fact and others were not fact in the slightest. Inuyasha and I came up with the show. It was my tribute to our lives. We left our history with a talented writer who in turn promised to make things as accurate to the biography as possible while still making our story entertaining for the audiences who would watch us.’
“We did not ever expect our story to gain the notoriety it did or become so damn popular with people. In fact we thought perhaps it would not go well at all since why in the world would humans care about two demon’s lives? We are not known to be kind or good beings. In fact we are ones that usually cause fear, distrust, and hate in a world of ignorant people who do not understand us.”

Sesshoumaru pulled Megan over to the sofa as they sat together and she listened to Sesshoumaru. He probably did not talk much if at all to anyone so this was very nice.

“You are right in your thinking Megan. I don’t talk like this to others. I am very quiet, but you are my mate. That changes things and my personality with you will not be the same with others. I am going to have a lot of tolerance with you so even when I am to my wits end I will do my best to understand you over anyone else and try to do so with your family. Your family however will not live as long as we will and they will not know what you have become. They choose to be ignorant and to change them now would be cruel.’
“I awakened your demon because I love you and want you. I wanted you the minute I laid eyes on you and you now own my heart. Not part of it, all of it. Inuyasha has had my heart for years and now it is time for me to let him go for a while so he can see life outside of the bubble I built around him. I want to still be mated, but I need him to see the world. He needs to be uncaged from my control. I tried to protect him too much from this world and in doing so he has not lived except to please me. Now I see that will not do. I am a selfish creature as I stated so you must realize what I want is not necessarily what the rest of the world wants or needs.”

Megan thought about how Inuyasha might feel about this. It would really hurt him to have Sesshoumaru just disappear to be with her only. That would not be right.

“Megan you misunderstand. Inuyasha is forever my mate. He belongs to us, but he also belongs to himself. My love is not what love itself was meant to be. I live a life of a man who shares things that are his own rarely and I tend to smother those things to the point of being greedy. I don’t want to share either of you outside of this room itself. If I could lock us all in one place to make sure I knew where everyone was at all times and forced you all to live the way I saw fit would you find that appealing? This is how I want things and it is not fair to either of you.”

Sesshoumaru stated softly and Megan now understood. Inuyasha just needed some exploring freedoms to understand that there was a world outside of them rather than trying to everything to make sure his precious safety net would always catch him if something went wrong. He had been sheltered too long by Sesshoumaru and sheltering people was like keeping them in a cage their whole lives pretending that the wrong in the world did not happen. Inuyasha needed to know that he could not always just fall back upon Sesshoumaru to save him all the time because he had gone on too long not depending upon himself for anything. Inuyasha needed his independence to fall only to pick himself back up, dust himself off, and start again knowing he could do this on his own.

“Inuyasha is still a child. He lives like one and so does his friends. I will not take money, love, and myself away from him. I just want to distance myself enough that he can feel like for once I am not going to be right on his back about every little thing he does. I am not pushing him out of our home or lives. I just want him to make some decisions including the hard ones on his own.’
“Like today when we bought clothing he asks my opinion and then chooses his own thing pouting all day long about how I did not like what he picked. He liked it and so Inuyasha needs to do simple things like this enjoying his choices rather than worrying over my opinion all the damn time.’
“I love what he is wearing to work out in and I think he did well. It was just rather plain in comparison to what he normally chooses to wear so I was slightly disappointed he picked something to please me rather than himself.’
“I read his thoughts and even while we were running he felt like he messed up because he wants me to see him as I see you since he thinks you have a lot of confidence. He wants to compare himself to everyone and it is annoying. It isn’t like I don’t already know he is beautiful. Both of your lack of confidence is really grating on me because I see so much in both of you. I hate that you do not see this in yourselves.’
“Inuyasha is everything in a man I wanted and I have him. Inuyasha has me and this isn’t a competition. I am not going to pin one of you against the other and he fears that might happen too as though the three of us suddenly are going to fall out of love than fight over each other like mates did in the past. This isn’t the Feudal Era anymore.’
“Inuyasha is beautiful and sexy to me. That lap dance last night is still in my mind and I want another one from him. You both doing this thing with the yacht surprised me and that is the old Inuyasha thinking. The one I fell in love with. I want my lover back instead of this whimpering child.”

Megan held Sesshoumaru’s hand in her own as she leaned against him understanding what he was feeling since she too at one time felt stifled by her mate. Her late husband was like Velcro except it was worse. In fact it was Velcro superglue and if she tried to have a life she was doing something bad. It was like living in a cage.

The two years they broke up when she believed they were human, Megan had rebuilt her life and then they came together again trying to make things work. Alistair went to a councilor to get help for his anger. In doing so he opened a wormhole that should have remained shut on his emotions since he honestly did not know how to deal with them. It about destroyed who he was and in the end it kind of did destroy him. Alistair did not know who he was anymore. The war did not help and it killed him more than just the road side bomb that had finished his life.

When Alistair went to war and Megan had some freedom. Problem was as much as she missed Alistair she felt guilty not wanting him to come home in some ways and this was considered normal for wives who had their men go to war even though Megan felt guilty about it. Wives could make the house the way they wanted it without dirty clothing on the floor, beer cans all over the place, and other stuff lying around that was usually in a space she just cleaned off. She had life back and could breathe again for a while. Alistair was not on top of her all the damn time micromanaging their lives and as good as plans are when things don’t work out he was not willing to change plans like Sesshoumaru. Alistair would just grump on for hours about it and yell at her. His anger really did not get any better and his constant jealousy was insane.

Alistair was a very good man and a good Father. He just had no patience and did not seem to understand where time went during the day. He was home with no work for a while during his small amount of leave time before he could go back to his job so his masculinity was threatened and he felt useless until he got a job even though Megan could support them that he wasn’t a man. They just had to sacrifice some things and Alistair refused to do that. He was so damn stubborn.

Megan loved him for wanting to be the provider and do stuff for them. In the end though for Alistair it was all a matter of controlling them and their lives. If he had the money and the control then no one could do anything without him knowing about it which made birthdays a pain in the ass. How were you supposed to surprise someone who you had to explain in fucking detail where every damn dime went? A penny could be spent and he wanted to know where it was. What did that penny do to disappear from his life? Megan wanted to scream and throw things some days.

Every day she lived under Alistair’s rules Megan started to joke that the funny farm was going to take her away soon. Alistair was driving her crazy and soon the men in white would be there with the nets. Alistair always thought men were coming to steal Megan away and she would think in her head that yes the men in white were on their way. In some ways she kind of wished one would just to do it and say hey you were right as always Alistair. That guy did kidnap me so come save my ass because now you have a reason to freak out.

It was like Alistair had tabs on her life, spies, and at one point Megan wondered if he indeed did. Where were the video cameras that watched her every damn move? Oh that was right her in-laws just called and his best friend among everyone else he coerced to check in on his family. How was she to get anything done at this rate with so many people showing up unannounced to her home?

Now his best friend was acceptable for a guy, but still flirted with her so would that not make Alistair have more issues? No, because Alistair was weird when it came to Shaun. His best buddy could do no wrong in life and was like his brother. Megan accepted that, but it still did not make things any easier.

Shaun was like a brother to her, but the truth was she went to high school with them both and Shaun she actually knew in high school. They were on the same teams together and it was like a high school reunion when she met him. All their old friends just kind of showed up for his wedding. Shaun was supposed to find Megan a replacement if Alistair died and that was so messed up. It wasn’t even funny when he brought it up the first time he went overseas to go to war. Shaun was pissed about it, but Alistair did not ever think before he opened his big mouth on things like that. It was like he had to be the constant tragic hero that hated everyone except a few people he could stand. Alistair was always right and that was not a joke. It was annoying and had a photographic memory so he remembered every damn thing in life. It was like you could ask him what happened on June 21st 1985 at 2 pm and he probably could tell you in detail. Alistair was a genius and geniuses rarely were able to come down to the level of normal people.

The true genius could not live in the real world and Alistair was one of those true genius people who would have been much happier with his own people if they had people just like him around him constantly. That kind of thing did not happen often since most genius people have no common sense and unfortunately for Alistair he did have some of that if not more than most people too.

Genius people constantly think the world is full of idiots and are most likely right. Still it did not help when you were on the idiot list and were reminded of it a lot when you were wrong. In some ways Alistair was indeed a lot like these two demons, but in other ways not ever as flexible. To make Alistair bend one needed a sledgehammer.

Megan was called a genius once, but she told the person she was not anal enough or right often enough for such a title although she argued about things all the time she was indeed right about. You have to be able to not only recall what you learn, but apply it as well as use it. Megan had a hard time recalling two minutes ago let alone a month from that point unless it was super important since life was moment to moment for her and Megan would not live in the past. This was probably why mistakes she tried to avoid doing kept repeating themselves although they were not any less amusing then last time.

Alistair had a fit about Megan’s constant forgetful nature that she sometimes did on purpose not wanting to deal with things, but Megan was annoyed he lived in the past all the time. Megan was procrastinating, forgetful, and she knew it. It was just so damn depressing living a life that she did not wish to keep living in the way the rest of the world wanted her to live it. Megan refused to conform and it bit her in the ass a lot. Still she fought it tooth and nail. Megan was no quitter when it came to what she wanted.

Megan at one point came to the conclusion that only certain people have the quality of being a true genius and those genius people they were referring to her being like were artists and playwrights. Megan was no fucking Shakespeare, Edger Allen Poe, Anne Rice, or Stephen King. Her books would not be published and she would not be in some famous world at least in her mind. People who were all over the place with tons of talent that rarely make money at what they love to do and are good at. This was not the Renaissance Era where people actually appreciated art over aesthetics.

Life was not poetry, it was ugly, crude, and it did indeed bite back on occasion. The world had beautiful things, but to write about many of them seemed like one was writing a lie. No one wants to hear the truth of things and the fact is most people can’t handle it. Like the eternal question of where we come from, why we are here, and the AC/DC fact of who made who? If the Creator exists what existed beyond that. The profound things that boggle the mind and make people wonder why you are wasting time rather than getting to the point of things that matter right now.

That was why Megan gave up on religious groups, most churches who said one thing only to do another, and that whole nightmare. It wasn’t that there was no being greater than them all that made this mess; it was the idea of that being was perfect. Sure it was, but define perfection to everyone and then you have a billion definitions of what it should be. It was all in the mind just like everything else. People are all about the world revolving only around them and so their God is always better than yours. That is why they are stupid and prejudicial. The unknown is unknown and if it wants to be known then it will let you know it. Sesshoumaru was a perfect example of how this was true since there is no way in Megan’s rationalizing over thinking mind that such a phenomenon could occur. Still it did and there she was on the couch being ravished as well as adored by the most understanding perfect man in her mind she could ever wish to be with.

The real world in the modern age was filled with techno geeks like Alistair and people who could make things better faster rather than just make people happy with the way things already are. Everything had to be improved and new as well as disposable.

Every home had computers, laptops, all the damn game systems, and her home was an electro techno geeks dream just like everyone else. Still it wasn’t good enough, they had to upgrade. No there was not enough memory, power, or fucking graphics. No one could be happy even when virtual reality hits the market and sky rockets Microsoft sales making the owner even more money then he needs.

It would not surprise Megan in the slightest if Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha had anything to do with that. They at least had to have stocks there under some alias at some big bank in Switzerland, secured in Japan, or fort Knox for all she knew. The men were not idiots to the finance world and how things were run there. They knew money, how to make it, how to build it, and now how to enjoy it. Neither of them wanted for anything these days and if Sesshoumaru was right about the cartoon.

Apparently they had at one point been humbled in the past to know what it was like to do without things. They both appreciated the things they had. The things they lost were not small things of course. They both lost family, each other as siblings, Sesshoumaru his arm, friends they loved, and Inuyasha his brains some days. The boy was like Peter Pan. Inuyasha was not meant to grow up too much and if he did it almost would be a tragedy. Megan kind of hoped Sesshoumaru would not let Inuyasha completely be an adult. It might ruin the things he loved so much so there was some merit to his words as well as some draw backs.

The world was full of disposable things and that included people. People were a commodity that was overdone, overproduced, and now taking up a hell of a lot of space. The Creator knew it so it caused war and was in turn controlling the population this time by adding women to the mix of people to be blown up for the good of mankind. Sure the news hated it, most people did. In the end though for most living beings it was the female of the species that had been known to carry the young to create new life on the planet. With Inuyasha that made things rather complicated and kind of amusing in Megan’s mind. What a turn of events. Darwin would have a field day with that and probably write a book to be published that was so boring only the military would read it.

Why love history when you were married to it and on a daily basis you were tuned into the CNN network by your own spouse who lived to tell you how fucked up the world was? It wasn’t like she did not know it already. It was like yes humans are running things so tell me what I don’t know? Chaos leads to progress and so on as the good book might say if it were not all about the morals plus the values no one paid attention to anymore. That was too old fashioned and not the way of thinking in this modern era.

The Creator was good, great, wonderful, and as long as you had money in the bank all else is bliss. You could throw away all things and let hell into your lives for absolutely nothing at only the cost of your immortal soul you did not own anyway. Everyone is on loan here.

It was of course this pessimistic mind of Megan’s that made the world look at her and then tell her she was sane. The only sane person in the world surrounded by insanity and constantly around a bunch of insane idiots who thought they were better than she was. That made so much sense………not.

Megan told a therapist once she wanted to kill humans because they got on her last nerve and customer service was for wimpy winy ass bastards who did not have a life like her. Megan hated her job, her life, and wanted a change so bad she could just taste it. It seemed miles away until now. It was even funnier when she told the therapist that she would love to have a bow and arrow set to make pretty decorations on her work place wall with the idiots she had to deal with daily. Of course they knew she did not have a bow and arrow set. Instead she had katana blades, a set of sai daggers, fancy elaborately designed artistic daggers, and other sharp object she loved so damn much wishing she knew how to use them properly.

Sesshoumaru would have probably laughed his ass off at the way she fucked around with the weapons one time dropping a sai on her foot almost putting a hole in it although the damn thing wasn’t sharp. It was just heavy. Then poked herself in the leg with one of the razor sharp swords she was messing with getting two stitches for that idiotic mistake even with the moves that had been practiced in kung fu. Apparently for practice they did not do so with sharpened weapons. They were all just shined up and made to look deadly.

Of course running through someone with one of Megan’s favorite things was still possible and could cause death. Megan’s swords were not just to show off. They were all sharp as hell. Megan cut herself a few times with the swords, but still loved them wanting to be an expert with them. Maybe now that she was mated to both Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha who were both masters at swordsmanship considering they were raised as Samurai Princes they could teach her.

It was unfortunate that when she believed all that time it was illegal for her to change things by killing stupid people that now as a demon they could actually do it since it was just kind of a passing dream she kind of longed for. Sure it was sadistic, but at the same time some people really needed to die. Still there were a lot of things she could not do that since it was illegal and Megan knew it. The dream of killing people just because she could not stand them sounded good at the time she was thinking about how no one would even miss them if they just disappeared from the world for good. In fact the humans would probably thank her and throw a party in her honor. One less asshole or bitch left in the world wasn’t a bad thing.

Megan always thought she was only kind of human since somewhere in the back of her mind she really did not wish to be related to humans and this was sanity. Well then maybe being insane is just normal and Megan felt so damn different then the people she was around. Even her son said she was weird. Maybe she was, but if being weird and sane were the same thing then perhaps it was not all bad. It just meant she would be alone a lot.

Now there were people who understood her strange ways of thinking and Sesshoumaru seemed so damn much like her in some things except he really followed through with the threat of killing people making decorations out of their body parts she wouldn’t be so alone. It was great and she loved him for it. How could anyone hate any man who was so damn beautiful as Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha who were both deadly killing things without a problem that tried to hurt you that loved you? Sesshoumaru would indeed kill for her if it came down to it and had done so twice. On top of all of that Sesshoumaru at the same time was crazy enough to put up with her too. The man was patient and not pushy. He did not force her to do anything she did not want to. Megan wondered seriously if he knew what he got himself into and worried that she might corrupt Inuyasha too much since they were also quite similar in personality. Obviously if Sesshoumaru could put up with Inuyasha’s crap for years he was prepared for female mood swings.

Megan wasn’t trapped by him in some life she did not want to be in. Sesshoumaru’s life was fascinating and he wanted her poems. Sesshoumaru loved her artwork seeing the differences in the pictures unlike Alistair who was just irritated she was drawing her favorite Anime man who just happened to be Sesshoumaru or something else that he didn’t care for. Alistair liked some of it, but he wasn’t into art like she was.

At the time Megan thought of her demons as cartoon guys so Alistair couldn’t compete with a fantasy and he could not win. It was for him a losing battle and it drove him nuts. Sesshoumaru was the key to Megan’s freedom for a long time because he was a safe fantasy. Well, apparently she was wrong.

When she found the time, Megan’s art was her time and her moment. Alistair could not control that one thing and Megan loved Sesshoumaru even more for that freedom. It was the one thing no one could touch. Sesshoumaru had set her free even before she met the real man himself and that was something she thought would not ever happen in her life.

Megan thought of herself as plain. Late thirties she felt like she was old and kept looking at all her flaws. She still could not see what Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru saw in her. Two perfect men with no flaws loved her and Megan felt lucky as hell.

Before she met her mates, Megan had no life other then Jimmy and the house. If she went out with a friend it was so rare and even then it was just a meal at some restaurant. It was always with a billion people she did not know that her friends knew or co workers. It wasn’t fun or great. It was just a small break and not lasting.

“Megan I read your thoughts although I know you are listening to what I say to you. You are right about a lot and your brain confounds me. You are so damn intelligent and right about a lot of things. In others you are confused, amusing, and wrong.’
“I honestly don’t know what Alistair was thinking when he was with you, but we were much alike a long time ago. I used to be just as much a pain in the ass to everyone and I had to be right. I was not ever wrong in anything because that meant as a Lord I was weak. I still do that a lot and you will have to tolerate it.’
“You must understand Alistair was a Lord, a King. He lost everything. Your Alistair lost a whole Kingdom and became a damn mortal man. He gave up who he was and placed his spirit into a newborn mortal man to understand them. He was born with no memory of who he used to be and it is troubling. Alistair went from having everything to having nothing so all he coveted in his life in the end was you.’
“Alistair did forget about his son even though he was so blinded by love for you. Yes he was a fucking dickhead because of some things I still do not understand. I knew him and I looked much different than I do now. I did some work with him and when I found out who he was I could not believe it. I did not recognize him as the same man I knew in the past.’
“The demon I knew was gone. He deteriorated as a human man, but he wanted love and you gave it to him. He talked about you a lot and loved you very much. Still you are right about many things in the way he treated you and I am sorry for that. As I said it is the way of men and Kings of my era to be as such. Alistair was Alexander the Great. He was that same man we hear of in history books and he died.”

Megan was confused. How was this at all possible?

“Alistair wasn’t gay though. He hated his ass touched.”

Sesshoumaru smiled understanding. There were certain sides of Alistair that died when he placed his spirit into that man’s body and he was no longer the man he used to be. In the old days Alistair was gay for a while, but it was in secret. No one was supposed to discover it because his true love was an absolutely breathtaking gorgeous young servant boy and that was the only lover he was going to take other than his lovely wife who was to bear his child. No one was to touch him other than those few he allowed such things and that was his very private moment he shared with no one except Sesshoumaru’s Father who was his dearest friend.

“Alistair was reborn on the same day of his birth in these times and destined to die again at a fairly young age. Only a few were born on this day and his decision to remain in spirit form in this man still confounded me. I doubt he expected to love a woman, but his mind was altered. Alistair did not ever become gay or bi again. He completely denied that part of his life to live what he considered to be a normal life and you were that life. He even denied his gay side to everyone else he encountered since a King was meant to bear fruit and not love another man. It is bred into us.”

Sesshoumaru held Megan’s hand and looked into her eyes trying to show her with his mind how things were for them in the past. They did not have much more time to dally, but it was wrong for Megan to misunderstand the circumstance that surrounded her late husband. Megan did not need regrets or resentment clouding her mind. Alistair also deserved someone to explain why he did as he did since it was not fair to keep him in her memory as an overbearing asshole when in fact he was just doing what came natural. Alistair could not help who he was.

“I tried to call Alistair on a lot of things he did to you. He fucked up a lot and I wanted to kick his ass for it. I did not know you though and I now understand why he loved you so much. Alistair did not feel he deserved you and I feel that same way. We as men are weak some days in our way of thinking so little about ourselves and who we want to be to those we love. Alistair went too far and lost everything again. He won’t be able to recover it and I pity him in that. I just hope not to make his same mistakes.’
“You should not hold such a grudge now that he is gone. He did love you and needs you to remember him in the good things he did in life. Alistair was a very good man and to hold such anger for so long is not good for you either Megan. Alistair wished to be your hero and that is how he died. Let him be that in your mind. I understand it and I am not going to replace him. I can’t and won’t do that. I am not him and Jimmy deserves to know his Father was a great man. I will do all I can to assist him in his life with Inuyasha, but I won’t allow you to beat up the dead with a past that cannot be changed.”

Megan felt the tears coming. Sesshoumaru was right. He was so very right and it made her feel bad for thinking such awful things about her late husband. The past was over and now it was time to move forward.

“How did you know Alistair, Sesshoumaru?”

Sesshoumaru smiled and took Megan back over to the boxes after kissing her cheek. This was better and now she might be able to forgive herself too so she can let go of the guilt of losing Alistair to finally move forward as a mate to the Tashio’s. One sometimes had to learn from history to move past it and live well in life. It was time for Megan to love history in a different way. A person did not have to be a scholar to understand the significance of learning from one’s past. It was important not to repeat mistakes and Sesshoumaru would not repeat his as Alistair had done.

“Alistair was my mentor and my teacher. He was my trainer as far as learning about the love of men. I knew him as Alexander the Great who owned most of the known world and I fell in love with him as Alexander. It was forbidden, but unavoidable. The Powerful Black Wolf King was the most beautiful man I ever laid eyes upon when he was a demon. He was gay, but I could not tell Michael that. I was sworn to secrecy. I kept that secret from everyone except my mates now and will always do so out of respect for that great man. Only you know this about your late husband. Inuyasha does not even know. No one knows this except you, Inuyasha, and me now.’
“As a young man I did not have a chance to gain his love since Alexander loved the servant boy who I could feel had felt as much heartache as I did considering he was not allowed to love such a man. Still, they did love each other and there was no one who could break that.”

Sesshoumaru continued as he rummaged through the boxes trying hard not to let a tear fall for Alistair who had indeed died too young for such a wonderful creature. Sesshoumaru just hoped he would make that man proud of him and would do right by his family now that they were his responsibility.

“My Father was in love with him telling him as much, but Alistair had his gorgeous young lover and the most beautiful wife in the entire known world. When King Alexander’s lover died he was broken in soul as well as body. That love was his Achilles heal and it killed him.’
“Alexander’s Mother was ruthless and poor Alexander lost his beautiful young lover to foul play. It broke him down to a shell of the former man he had once been.’
“At the time our dear vampire Sophisticate came to try and help as best he could. Michael though Alexander was sick, many did. I was allowed in his room one time and he begged me to kill him. I could not believe my ears. I couldn’t do it and I ran from him.’
“The last I heard from the lips of his dying wife was that Alexander had died mysteriously in bed. As far as anyone knows no one knew the true cause of his death. I do and did back then. I also knew his fate here. Alexander and Alistair were no longer the same men. Alistair was beautiful, but that beautiful face became old fast as a human. He lived too long and as a mortal he aged in those beautiful Native American brown eyes faster than any human could. Alistair knew too much and he could not live a normal life. He died a warrior like he wanted to back then. This way he received his true wish.”

Megan felt the tears fall down her face. It was Alistair and he did do these things. He chose such a hard fate and had lived a good life with her. She still loved him, but had to let him go now. Now it was time to move forward with her life.

“So about Inuyasha what are you going to do?”

Sesshoumaru frowned. He was not looking forward to the upcoming fight he was going to get with his little brother. Inuyasha needed to go explore the world a bit if he was going to keep acting like this and perhaps get some therapy for his confidence issues. The boy wasn’t pregnant so he had no reason to act like he was.

“Last night I really thought Inuyasha changed. I thought maybe with your influence and Michael’s that he was going to be that man I thought he was. Today though he is acting like an idiot again so he is pissing me off. Just because I want to be with you alone does not mean I love him any less. We are not cheating on each other here, we are all three mated. It was agreed upon and accepted.’
“Inuyasha wanted and still wants you just as much as I do. I would not begrudge him time alone with you any more then you would do that to us. You seem to understand I do need time alone with him sometimes and you don’t seem to feel jealous over it. You accept it knowing we still love you so we will be with you and we are not going to leave each other. You love us both accepting us when no other woman I know would do so. Every woman we tried to date found out I was with a man and accused me of having diseases. The fools, we do not get diseases we are demons.’
“These so called women who were supposedly in love with me and Inuyasha were full of shit. They called us names and treated us so badly you have no idea what hell it has been for us. I hate the prejudice in this world and you do too. You understand us and that is when I knew you were the one. I felt it and I wanted you so damn badly I would have strangled Inuyasha if he said no after the embarrassment that my family was putting me through.’
“I think the night we met you Tsukiya was indeed right on the mark when he said you are an Angel. You came to us as a blessing from heaven and I can’t ask for anything more anymore in my life. I have it all with you and my damn stupid Inuyasha. Yes he is pissing me off and still I love him.”

Megan frowned. She hated people who were so narrow minded. Those women were idiots if they could not see a good thing staring them in the face. What idiots to turn down these gorgeous men.

“I like you would find other things to occupy your time as well as your thoughts with so Inuyasha could just be alone with me or you for a while. People do need that and as a threesome we need to have these moments if we are going to have a happy life for as long as we are going to be living. You are open to others and ideas. You don’t close off your mind or your heart no matter what.’
“I fucking killed two people to protect you when you thought you were human. Most women would pass out in fear and you still did not look at me with hate. You showed me compassion and were honestly intrigued rather than disgusted. You accepted us for who we are. You do not fear me and I don’t want you to ever fear me. I only want your love and for you to not ever leave me. I fear that more than anything. I don’t wish to be alone in this world and my hell is being alone. Being in darkness and for the world to forget I existed.”

Megan frowned.

“But you have Inuyasha so you would not ever be alone. You have Tsukiya and always your Father’s love for you both. No one is really alone Sesshoumaru. Still I am glad you both are in my life.”

Sesshoumaru smiled and then spoke again as he pulled out the sexy silk underwear Inuyasha bought him with a wide grin on his face. Then he looked at Megan.

“Megan, Inuyasha and I have really not gotten along for many years. I pushed him and my Father away. I was very pissed off and very much like your Alistair hating the damn world. Sometimes I hated things for no good reason at all and did not know why I hated things so much.’
“I thought my Father rejected me and it tore me up so much inside I wanted to die. Still I somehow knew better and for Inuyasha to stand up for me really changed my perspective on things. Inuyasha stood by me in the worst times of our lives and I in turn did the same for him.’
“Back then we would not have ever admitted to such things since we were too blinded by hate and our own stupid pride. Inuyasha is my little half brother, my beloved mate, my only family, and I can’t lose him. I don’t know why he can’t see that. Even if I was not mated to him I would still be his brother and I would love him.’
“You want us both with no regrets and no holding back. You are willing to let us have what we need and still give us all of you. I adore you for that. I want him to do that too, but I don’t know how to make him see he has to do this or I swear I am going to strangle him. I have come close to it five times today. I have been being very patient with him. I am starting to lose my patience though.’
“Inuyasha can keep blaming me for things that go wrong if I do not give him room to think for himself and grow with each choice he makes in his life. I did that before and he called me an insane asshole from hell. Inuyasha did not understand me and to be honest there are still times I don’t understand him. Simple decisions should not take him all damn day to figure out.’
“Inuyasha is very smart and he is pissing me off with his helplessness lately. It is unbecoming of him and unattractive. I love his wild nature. I need him to be wild like he was and free. That is what attracted me to him in the first place. He is acting like a wanton woman whimpering about everything and for a man who is usually very masculine with no qualms at being a true asshole that pathetic attitude he is now sporting can get very annoying.’
“I lived for the stupid names he called me since that was my Inuyasha and I was proud of him in that. Now he is worse than a two year old girl who doesn’t get what he wants.’
“When Michael was with us I fell in love with Inuyasha again. That is the boy I want to see and that is the man I love. Not this please everyone attitude that is just so unlike him. Like him saying to me he wants his asshole mate back, I want my pain in the ass back.”

Megan still thought Inuyasha smelled different lately so maybe Sesshoumaru should check just in case if Inuyasha was pregnant before he went off the deep end. Inuyasha was starting to smell feminine and Miroku had that same strange scent too. It was like Sesshoumaru and Kouga’s scent spiked. Maybe that was her attraction to the wolf. He was producing more of his male scent like Sesshoumaru to show his dominance and that did tend to make Sesshoumaru a lot sexier to Megan. That scent was absolutely wonderful and made her want to roll in it rubbing against him so she could have that smell everywhere on her body.

“So Inuyasha has been with no women other than me, well also Anne now, in his lifetime and only you as his male partner. Maybe he just needs us to give him more sex. I still think his scent has changed since I met him. Miroku’s has too, but it could be my imagination.”

Sesshoumaru shrugged. Right now he was still too pissed off at the three men in the limo and did not notice any new smells. Problem was his own smell was dominating the others and he didn’t even realize at first he was doing it until Kouga pissed him off. Kouga’s male scent spiked making him have to push his out to mark his place in the pack.

“Inuyasha needs this time to explore, trust me in that. I should know. Besides he told me the jewel wish was only for the one pregnancy and that jewel is pretty powerful.’
“In my 1300 year lifetime I have only been with a total of five lovers and four of them were trainers that train Princes to be lovers to the women they will bear heirs with. I preferred the companionship of males most of the time because they are less clingy about the sex thing and that is all I wanted from them, but even then there were only 5 also. Two of them were also trainers that were there to do the same thing as the female demons since demon males could bear me children. I have been with Kouga, Michael, and Inuyasha. They are the only males I have known that I do and did love in my life.’
“I am no longer in love with Michael. He is dead and cannot give me his heart since it does not beat for him. His blood is living and therefore it is what I loved about him. I used him and I don’t regret it. Michael is beautiful and to walk away from him did hurt him. I did not promise him anything other than the little we shared and I won’t share that again with him no matter how he begs me to do so.’
“This is why I understand your feelings for Kouga. I do love him still in many ways, but Inuyasha is my soul mate like you are Megan. Inuyasha is my beloved and I know it hurt his feelings he was not invited to join us. Still I wanted that time just with you. I am selfish in that. I in not being with a woman for so long want it and crave these feelings you create in me.’
“When two Alpha males get together we tend to try to over dominate each other so if Inuyasha’s scent has changed he had better damn well say something soon or I am going to be pissed off with him for not opening his mouth sooner. I have had to up my scent ever since you arrived since we have way too many male demons after you both and I can’t control it right now. It is instinct for me to do this and he damn well knows it.”

Megan sighed looking at all the things they had now as they got the duffle bag ready.

“Sesshoumaru I hope you can show me how this stuff works since I have not ever used some of these things. At least not in the ways you two have. You are still much more experienced then I am. I mean you have had thousands of years to perfect your techniques.”

Sesshoumaru looked at Megan surprised and then realized Megan was right about this since with her maturity being raised by humans he kept forgetting Megan was still a very young demon. Smiling Sesshoumaru kissed Megan after pulling her into his arms.

“I am not as experienced as you think I am, but I have had Inuyasha to guide me on what he enjoys all these years that we have been together as mates. He has been in many ways my teacher as well as my student. I have learned much from you by your reactions just hoping I am doing things right with you. I want with you what I have had with him. I want time just with you alone sometimes because Inuyasha and I do know each other better than anyone. I want to have that with you and I know he does too.’
“I want Inuyasha to enjoy those other two worldly wild things for a while Megan and for Inuyasha have fun. I want him to experience others since he has not done so. Inuyasha talks big, but fact is that woman Anne was only his second female lover other then you. Inuyasha was a virgin when I met him and still was to women until he had you. You are his very first female lover Megan and he is so in love with you just as I am because he is still so very new to loving a woman. I think he has lust confused with love some days, but to be honest I know we both would die for you since we love you that much.”

Megan was a bit confused on how she could be the only female Inuyasha had been with.

“I thought Kagome or Kikyo would have at least been Inuyasha’s first female lover. Did Kagome not see how gorgeous Inuyasha is or was she just too stupid to take advantage of a good thing?”

Sesshoumaru laughed.

“Kagome and Inuyasha did not ever finish what they started because Inuyasha was too young for sex with women during that time. Inuyasha could kiss her, but to tell you the truth male on male sex starts way before any male and female coupling in the demon world. Inuyasha was too young to be with a any woman at the time and did not understand the crazy hormones that were going nuts in his young body.’
“Inuyasha had a thing for women who could kill him. He loved beautiful human women priestesses. I tried to warn him, but like now Inuyasha listens only to himself sometimes.’
“Kikyo his true love was murdered dying a beautiful virgin who would not ever know what we do. Inuyasha thinks I hate Kikyo. I felt sorry for her and for him. What they wanted was not ever meant to be and it would not have ever worked because Kikyo could not accept Inuyasha was he was. You don’t try to completely change who a person is. That is their choice and if you love them you accept them as they are.’
“No matter what Inuyasha would have done to please Kikyo, Kikyo would have not ever stayed with Inuyasha if he chose to be the beautiful hanyou he was. Inuyasha chose to be a demon and I tried to make him one only because I wanted more out of our long term relationship. I can’t have children by him and he could not by me. I wanted them so I was selfish and I did as Kikyo had done using the jewel of four souls to change him.’
“I have been ashamed of my actions and even now I hope that his choice to be a demon was not because of me. I hope he really wanted this. I think he did because he wants kids of his own and a male hanyou can’t do that. Even if he wished on the jewel for such a thing it wouldn’t last. It would just corrupt the jewel and possibly our lives. We gave it back to Kagome after we made our wishes. Mine of course did not come true and it is a good thing they did not. Inuyasha’s did though and it was because he wished for me to be happy. After all the garbage and asinine things I had done to him he wished that for me and stayed a demon because of it. He bore our child and I can’t do enough for him now because of his wonderful heart that loved me in spite of my cruelty to him.’
“Inuyasha was also not forced into training as I was. Inuyasha did not have to give up his precious virginity to a stranger he did not know and someone he did not love. I hated my parents for that. I refused to do it to my little brother. Fact is Inuyasha thought I was a raving asshole, but in some ways I wanted to protect him from the things I endured. I did love him even when I told him I hated him. I was just too stubborn to say it and to pig headed to open my heart to someone I was taught to believe was not worthy of life. He was so beautiful to me even though I denied it for years.’
“We can talk of all this later Megan. We have let those boys wait long enough for their punishment. It is time to get to work.”

Megan followed Sesshoumaru out to the limo. When they opened the door they saw three naked young boys hugging each other. It was kind of funny and the look on their faces when Sesshoumaru came in with Megan was of pure bliss until Kouga sat up with a growl pointing an angry finger at Sesshoumaru since he was going to rip him a new one for what he did to poor Inuyasha.

“You will not whip Inuyasha or Miroku in their condition Sesshoumaru even if you are the Alpha of us all. I can’t believe you killed your mate and I am going to kick your fucking ass for that as soon as I get my clothes back on. I will put up with your stupid punishment. I can take it, but we will not lose the babies because you got too rough with these young pregnant men!”

Sesshoumaru looked at Inuyasha who bushed and tried to hide himself as Kouga just blurted it all out before he could tell his mate the news. Sesshoumaru then passed out cold on the floor. Megan just sat with an ‘I told you so look on her face’ as after setting the bag down she helped Inuyasha get Sesshoumaru on the cushions of the seat until he would wake up again.