Innocent Beginnings

Innocent Beginnings

By: Maggz

Disclaimer: InuYasha and Co. © Rumiko Takahashi


Chapter 30: Breakin' Up Is Hard To Do


"Get out.", Sesshomaru said through gritted teeth as I stubbornly refused to move from the car. He was stood at my side of the car, door swung wide, hands on his hips as he glared down at me. "NOW!"


"I don't want to go in there.", I said, my hands clutchine see seatbelt as if it were my life preserver. "Please don't make me go in there, Sesshomaru. I promise I'll never set foot in a club again, ever!", I begged, tears starting to flow hard and fast now.


"Shut it, Rin and get out before I pull you out myself. Do you want them to see you coming home slung over my shoulder?", he asked as he leaned in threateningly toward me.


"NO! Don't do that. Please.", I whispered, imploring him with my eyes… hoping against hope that somehow my pain and fear would sway him.


"Then get out. I'll not say it again!", he fumed.


"This is all YOUR fault, not mine.", I mumbled as I released the catch on the seatbelt and felt it sliding away from me.


"Sorry. I don't agree with you. I'M not the one parading around town UNDERAGE like some little slut with a ton of whorish makeup all over my face and the trashiest outfit I can find! Now am I?", he hissed as he grabbed me by my forearm and hauled me out of the car.


"No, YOU just like parading that type around WITH you, don`t you?!", I smiled thinly at him. "All except for the underage bit."


His face went white as his grip tightened around my arm and for a moment, I was sure I'd really gone too far.


"If I were you, I'd shut up RIGHT now, Rin Matsumoto! You've got a real mouth on you for a girl that just got her ass tore up twice!", he snarled as he dug his fingers painfully into my flesh and jerked me around to face him.


"I don't WANT you to go in there with me!", I spat, trying to pull away from him.


"You think I CARE what you want anymore, Rin? Do you? Obviously you haven't a CLUE what is good and proper for you. What I can't understand is WHY you're doing this now - why you're acting out like this. You've got everything in the world going for you - looks, brains, a wonderful family, people that care about you! Why would you want to throw it all away just to prove a point? And what exactly IS the point, Rin? Do YOU even know?"


I stood looking at him, wanting with every fiber in my being to just TELL him once and for all what being near him had done to me. To spill everything that I'd held inside for him for so very long until there was nothing left to hide from him anymore. THAT was what my problem was. HIM!


"NO answer?", he asked, his eyes trained tightly on mine.


"No.", I mumbled, yelping when he pulled me so close against him that his breath brushed across my face. I closed my eyes, praying for a kiss, for anything that would tell me where I stood with him… anything at all.


"I just don't know about you anymore, Rin. I really don't. It's as if the girl I knew a few months ago has changed directions again and I don't like it at all this time. I had such hopes for you… so many dreams!", he whispered fiercely. I opened my eyes then because the tone of his voice had suddenly changed and curious, I wanted to be able to look into his eyes to see for myself if there was anything there other than the responsibility he seemed to feel to me.


"Sesshomaru, why did you bring her here?", I asked, searching his face, desperate now. "Why?", I cried, gripping his arms now.


He stared at me and when the door shut in his soul against me, I felt it as if it were a physical thing. Defeated, I let my shoulders slump and hung my head. I couldn't fight him any longer. He was bound and determined to put a wall up between us as far as deeper feelings went and I just didn't know how to tear it down.


"Let's go.", he said and grabbed hold of my elbow, shepherding me up the walk, up the steps and to the front door. Stopping to knock, I could feel his eyes on me but I was beyond wanting to look at him anymore. I was angry, hurt, scared and confused. Things couldn't really get any worse, could they?


Uncle Ichi opened the door, took one look at Sesshomaru and I and frowned before holding the door wider so that we might walk through. Sesshomaru's grip tightened to nearly painful proportions as he pushed me ahead of him into the foyer and stood waiting while Uncle Ichi went off the fetch Aunt Reika.


"You should be ashamed of yourself, Rin.", Sesshomaru said lowly.


"So should you.", I hissed before both my aunt and uncle walked back into the room. I earned a quick but painful pinch to the inner side of my elbow for THAT remark but bit back the moan that threatened to spill from my lips as well as the slap I wanted to administer to his face.


"What in the WORLD -?", Reika gasped as she came into the foyer to see us standing there. I'd forgotten how different I must've appeared in my dark, dramatic makeup and `hoochie' clothes. I couldn't quite figure out exactly what her look of surprise/disgust/hurt meant until she pointed a finger toward me and then swiftly whipped it toward the stairs as she narrowed her big green eyes.


"Rin Matsumoto! I suggest you march yourself upstairs right this minute and wash that MESS off your face as well as change into something suitable for a young lady of your age. NOW!", she practically yelled when I started to protest. I felt the not so subtle shove of Sesshomaru's hand on my back as I started toward the stairs and turned around to flash an angry look his way.


"NOW, RIN!", Uncle Ichi joined in and heaving a sigh, I trudged slowly up the stairs and into my room. I could already hear the three of them down below discussing me as if I were a nonentity. Just who the hell did Sesshomaru Hara think he WAS coming into my life and destroying it as he had? Nobody had ever stopped HIM from having fun, had they?


I stripped myself of my clothing and grabbed for the nearest pair of lounging pants I could find. Digging around, I found an old UCLA sweatshirt that had been one of my dad's favorites and pulled it over my head as I walked toward the bathroom. Flipping on the light, I was startled to see my face as it appeared to me in the mirror's reflection. My carefully applied makeup was smudged and clownish looking. No wonder Reika had gasped! I looked a horror!!


Taking my time, I scrubbed off the offending mess and brushed my hair back, securing it with a stretchy headband as I applied a light moisturizer to my face. When I was finished, I stood in the bathroom, looking at myself for a long moment, wondering what awaited me downstairs and wishing like hell I could just slip out the bedroom window and run away as far as I could go.


"RIN!!", Uncle Ichi's voice boomed up the stairwell and sighing, I flipped off the light and walked to my doom.


By now they'd taken seats in the living room and as I entered, Reika motioned that I should sit near Sesshomaru. Shaking my head, I elected to sit as far away from him as possible not missing the grunt of disapproval that slid from his lips as I passed him.


Sitting down, I folded my hands in my lap and looked up at them, my eyes going from one to the other. Waiting…


"Rin. You need to tell your Aunt and Uncle where I found you tonight and why I brought you home.", Sesshomaru began. Why in the HELL was HE opening up the discussion???? This wasn't his HOME!!! My eyes widening, I started to say something but a clearing of the throat by Ichi had me biting my tongue on what I'd intended for `Mr. Holier Than Thou' Hara.


"Rin. Tell us.", Reika said firmly and I looked back down at my hands, smoothing my trousers as I thought how best to tell them what they wanted to know.


Looking back up, I slid my gaze to Sesshomaru's as I started to speak.


"I went to The Met again tonight. I left here, took a cab, got in by myself and Sesshomaru brought me home.", I said. There! Over and done with. Plain, simple, and straight to the point.


"How did you get in?", Ichi asked.


"Fake ID.", I answered.


"Where did you get it?" Reika queried.


"The internet, same as before."


"That does it, the computer is being taken away tomorrow. If you need it for school, you can use mine in the library where someone can oversee what you're doing.", Ichi said stonily.


"Why, Rin?", Reika asked.


"Because I wanted to.", I answered and it was the truth. I'd wanted to DO something, get away, run wild and free. I wasn't being fresh or impertinent. I was being honest!


"Young Lady! That is enough of your smart tone!", Uncle Ichi thundered.


"But-", I cried, feeling my cool façade start to crumble a chunk at a time.


"But nothing. Was Kohaku involved in this?", he continued.


"No sir. Kohaku was not there, he had no idea I was even going. I didn't plan it, it just happened.", I tried to explain.


"Sesshomaru?", Reika asked, turning to look at him.


"I feel strongly that Kohaku was involved but I didn't SEE him. I wasn't really LOOKING for him, though. When I spotted Rin, I only knew I had to get her out of there and home. I plan to speak to Kohaku this evening, myself.", he said.


Pious asshole!!


"That would be fine. Sesshomaru, I really don't know how to thank you for this. Rin has no idea how much she should value your friendship and concern. I expect her to apologize to you before you leave. I'd like to apologize to you as well and thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking care of things.", she said.


I wanted to GAG! Didn't she read the papers? Didn't she know what a PLAYA Sesshomaru was? Hadn't she seen the ugly whorey hag he'd brought to her HOUSE?


"It's no problem for me to watch out for Rin, Reika. Really it isn't. But I'm concerned that she's getting too far out of control and, not to disrespect you because you two have taken such wonderful care of her and you have your own family to worry over… but I have doubts that Rin will stay on the straight and narrow, I really do. If you'll pardon my saying so… I told her this evening as I was bringing her home that if things couldn't be brought to fore HERE, then I was going to suggest she come with ME where a minder can watch her 24/7 because honestly, I can't rest easy until I know she's under control. Forgive me, it's nothing against you and your family at all but I think Rin's testing her boundaries and it's not fair for YOU to have to take the brunt of it when you've your own grief and pain to deal with.", he said softly.


If I'd had a violin, I'd have played him a concerto. He was just that convincing! I half expected Aunt Reika to start sobbing right there and throw herself into Sesshomaru's big strong arms!


"I think we'll be able to handle things here, Sesshomaru", Uncle Ichi said and I quirked a brow at Sesshomaru in victory only to be shattered seconds later as my uncle continued. "but if need be, we will keep your suggestion close at hand. I won't have my niece running over things and Reika, herself, still has so much to deal with. Thank you, Sesshomaru.", he said and rose to walk over and shake Sesshomaru's hand.


My heart nearly stopped beating in my chest.


The two of them rose, my aunt and uncle, and said their goodnights to Sesshomaru with a meaningful look thrown my way before they started for the stairs. I suppose it was to remind me that I was to apologize to Sesshomaru, which I had NO intention whatsoever of doing!


"We'll flesh out the details of your punishments and consequences in the morning, Rin. Good t, St, Sesshomaru.", Reika said and with that, they were up the stairs, leaving me alone with `Attila the Hun' in the guise of a caring, sweet, young man!


I started to get to my feet so that I could show him the door when he rose right along with me, his face concerned.


"Rin. You know, I hate to sound as if I'm apologizing or backing down because I'm not. But you're looking at me as if you HATE my guts and I can't stand it because I don't UNDERstand it. I care for you and I don't want to see you throwing your life away. God, Rin. It's so easy to do at your age… at ANY age but if you start now, you'll never get back to the straight and narrow-", he sermonized.


"Like YOU? You want me to be on the straight and narrow like that slut you're fucking?", I hissed. I was so angry at his sweet little attitude I could've spit nails!!! He had WHIPPED me and HARD. He'd neglected to tell my family THIS but in their current stof `of `adoringSESSHOMARUNESS', I'm sure they would've applauded him and asked for a repeat performance!


"WATCH YOUR MOUTH!", he said lowly, his voice shaking with anger.


"What? The truth hurts? Is that so? Tough to swallow? It should be. You're trying to tell ME how to live my life when you're out screwing everything in sight and getting it in all the papers to boot! What the HELL would I ever listen to YOU for and WHY would I even halfway believe or trust in you?", I cried, tears stinging the back of my throat.


"I'm leaving now, Rin. You think about what you did tonight and you'll see that I had every right to pull you out of there and I had even more right to whip your ass!", he said as he turned away from me.


"You had NO right to do either thing. Don't you EVER lay a hand to me again or I swear to GOD, I'll fight you back, Sesshomaru and you'll have to HURT me really badly to make me stop! I HATE you! I don't ever want to see you again! Get out and go back to that stupid, UGLY, FAKE slut that you've been fucking! I don't want to see you AGAIN!", I sobbed as I ran past him and headed up the stairs.


I heard the soft click of the front door as he closed it behind him and for some reason I couldn't fathom, it was the saddest thing I think I'd ever heard.