In Crimson Blood

2. Death and Denial.





High up on the tree, what do we see? A patch of white and red, so still. Could be mistaken for

the not living. And

what is that he is holding in his arms? A ragged doll? No, too big to be a doll…what is

that?That!



Alive yes, yet dead. His eyes say so not me.

Eyes that will haunt you in your deepest sleep. Sadness so profound, you could get lost in it

forever.



'Thud'. 'Thud'. 'Thud.'



Caught in the moment too deep to surface. Time caught still, just by refusing to see it pass-

by. A world of memories

so real, you can touch and it won’t fade away.



Surreal? No. Just a moment lost in time. Memories too real to forgo. Caught in the moment of

the lost love.

Reliving every inch of it, yet in denial.

Love hidden in darkness with fear that it maybe snatched away from them. Now that it has

been snared away, with

one of the two not being there to relive it in, how much longer the memories will hold the

love that had just been

blossoming? What will be it’s aftermath?



Let us dare to peek inside the memories that the white-haired outcast had been reliving for

innumerous days. Dare

to see what the eyes tell us?

..

…

….



"Your pleasure possessed eyes open and look at me. You are so beautiful, I say as I move

inside of you as you

pulsate in my hand. The arch of your back so beautiful, sound of your moans urging me

on…oh!!!

We could go on like this forever. Our love hidden in darkness, I don't mind. All I care is that

you love me, only love

and nothing attached to it. Even though if they say 'this' is a taboo. I am taboo. You being

what you are but doing

this is taboo. So I don’t care, we find love, thrill and 'us' in taboo, then so be it!



Your pleasure-pained face turns up, your hands scratch my body, you croon, you moan, you

say you love me. I

flush at those words, I am embarrassed but your eyes demand answer and I whisper those

words to you too.

I fucking love you , you happy now? You smile. I snarl and kiss that smile away. You love to

mock me, embarrass

me don't you? Bastard!



Tears soak your eyes, as I watch you climbing higher, I feel your muscle clench me so hard, I

almost come,

ah!…almost there, almost therreee…, almosttt……..ugh!!

I lean down to lap those tears running down your cheeks…..and you wipe away my eyes with

your thumbs oh, so

gently…..why? Was I crying too? Maybe.

I love you so…



Why are you breathing so hard? Am I hurting you? Why is there pain etched all over your

face? Why haven't you

come? Why aren't we joined and why is there blood, in my claws, soaked all over your robes?



Why? Why? Why?

What are we doing? In the middle of nowhere, among every one else, you lying in my arms

clutching me so, when

we should have been somewhere dark and secluded…? It doesn't m-make any sense…. It

doesn't…it does no…



Noooooo…!!! Noooooo!! Why am I screaming like a freaking woman who has just lost her

husband? Why am I so

afraid and shaking and why are you smiling…??? Why are you smiling like that.???



Are you smiling because that bastard Naraku is dead? Are you smiling, because you are

showing me your healed

hand? Is this the smile for our life changing victory?



Tell me! Are you smiling because now we can have hope for our future, we hadn't dared

before?



Tell me! Tell me dammit!!



Don’t smile like that. Please don't. Don’t smile like that your bastard! Don't you care that it

will haunt me forever?



Why are you getting so blurred? I can see your bastard of a face clear and beautiful in my

head, then why are these

half-breed eyes of mine fucking blurring!

Why am I crying like a wuss?! That's it! You are smiling like that because you are seeing this

tuff-ass cry, isn't it?



No! No! No! No!

Don't breathe like that…please… don't. I refuse to let you go. I can hear someone crying too.

Why are they crying,

when they shouldn't be here where we are making love in the first place, now should they?

They should just shut

the fuck up!



Don't. Don't! Don’t caress my face like that. I refuse. I can't look at you when you are

smiling like that,

breathing like your body is shattering away… …don’t clutch my hair that hard you bastard, I

refuse to look at

you… … don't…



I can't hear what you are whispering…all I can hear is the blood pumping in my head. Talk

louder, love. Talk

louder bastard! What are you saying?!!



What? You love me? I know that, you stupid hentai!

What? Alone? Sorry? Fucking Shut Up you fucking bastard! You promised me that I would

never be alone…sorry?

You are giving me your sorry? I'll shove that sorry up your ass, you…you--ugh!!!



Isn't there supposed to be someone, some wench, some…someone to see that you can be

ok…healed. Yes. That's

what is wrong, right? You are hurt, right? Right!!!



Stop saying that you can't …you can't what? Won't help you? What? I refuse! I REFUSE!

YOU HEAR ME YOU BASTARD!!! YOU WILL HEAL!!!.I SAID STOP SMILING LIKE

THAT…stop,

stoppp! smil…lin…



Even though you are drenched in our blood you smell so heavenly…you still look so

beautiful, your lips soft

against mine feels so promising…we have so much more to offer to ourselves….don’t go

now….be fair….don't.



What?! You want me to say to you that I love you? You trying to embarrass me, monk? Go

away!! No! no…I mean

stay, fucking stay with me! I love you. How many times you wanna hear me say that? I'll say

it every fucking

moment when we are together. I'll say it every time we fuck…I'll even say it without you

demanding me to say it.

I'll say it, hell shout it to the fucking village….just don't…don’t sigh like that…don't.



You are so warm. Your neck, your hair, your body, mine..mine..mine! Don’t go. Yes, clutch

me, hold on to me like

that, I'll take you away, high away, far away from everybody ...yes. hold me tight… we are

going, I'll take you

away……



See? We are up where no one can take you away from me. Nobody's filthy hands will ever

touch you.



Yes, caress my cheeks, smile that amused smile at me, say that you love me, but don’t

breathe like that…..



Yes hold on to my chest like that, drown me in your scent, but don’t whisper good-byes to me

like that. Don't.



I love you so….don't.

Why am I whispering to you like you are a sleeping child? Ah…..



Why can't I hear the beat of your heart? You are still warm, flushed against me. Then, why?

Yes, I really am a stupid hanyou right? You must be tired. Your must be sleeping …right?

Sleep, my love I will watch over us. I will hold you like this forever. Together."



==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==

High up on the tree, what do they see? A patch of white and red, so still. Could be mistaken

for the not living. And

what is that he is holding in his arms? A ragged doll? No, too big to be a doll…what is that?

That!



A body? A dead body. Must be. Is that what the smell is? Coming from high above,

disturbing their noses.

Ugh! Disgusting!



They are disgusted by the smell of what seems to be a dead body. They are enraged that a

filthy hanyou is holding

it. That filth must have been trying to eat it. How the hell can that filth think that he can kill

some human, by the

look of the clothes, a monk, a monk!!?? He killed a monk and now is eating him. Holy

Buddha!



Wasn't it enough that filth like half-breeds even exist? Now it has to disturb their village and

even attract other

youkais with the smell of his kill? They will not stand this. They will not. It might be some

unknown monk now,

but what if they were next? They will not cower down to that smut. That abomination! They

are men strong enough

to take down a half-breed demon!! That…that filth will die!



Hmm… so they say. Disgust is what reflects in their eyes, anger in their face. Anger

surpassing their fears…but

oh but it will not last.



==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==



What are those men doing? More than a few dozens of them, with weapons in their hands.

What are they trying to

do? Archers too? They think they can take the one that has been lounging high above the tree,

down?

Oh! No. The beginning of an end it seems. Their stupidity, their selfishness is gonna destroy

them all and they don't

know. But we do? Don’t we?



Yes, we do. And we can't do anything but watch.



==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==



"Mother fuckers!. It looks like they have come to disturb us, monk. Hell, can't believe I didn't

sense 'em sooner.

Tell me why can’t they just leave us the fuck alone? But don't you worry, I'll drive them

away. No one will disturb

your slumber. But don't you think that you've been sleeping for um…never mind. I know you

being a nigen, you

got tired in that fight but I think you should wake up now. Oi, wake up. Mm….you smell so

good and you know

how much I want you. Mmn… wake up. I don't want to hear them muttering shit in the air.

We have to go.



Fuckers!! Damn those fuckers. I know you don’t want me fighting with 'em so we have to go

away from here.



Oi! Oi!



Dead? They really are shouting shits in the air. They are saying that I've killed someone.

Fuckers. They are the ones

that try to kill a half-breed kid when they find one, cowards. But you aren't like that. You are

all I have

Dead again. Killed? Eating? What the hell is wrong with those fuckin' humans down there.

They are accusing me

that I've killed a huma…a monk? Yes, a monk and I am trying to eat it.

Hahaha…those fuck-tards think that I've killed you and I'm trying to eat you. Funny shits!

Fucking Hilarious.



Feh! What made 'em assholes think that I would kill and eat you? Oi! Wake up and tell them

to shut their fucking

ramblings and also that I don’t eat you, well at least not in the way they think I am doing

right now. Hehe…

But I can't figure out why they think that you are dead, monk. If they can see and say that I

am alive then they

should know that you are alive too, right? Must be 'cause you are draped all over

me…mm…not that I mind…

And what the fuck they are talking about? The smell in the air stinks, they say. Well I might

be a half-breed but I

sure don’t stink and you don’t too. Oh! How heavenly you smell.

But still. What the fuck do they mean that the monk is dead?

Oi! If you aren’t gonna help then hold on to the branch fo' a while, I'll scarce 'em away.

Oi! You hentai bastard I said wake up!

How can you stay sleeping when I am shaking you like this. Wake up.

Shut-up you fuckers!! Shut-up! No one is dead up here. Shut-up! SHUT-UP!!!

How can you stand when they are calling me shitty names? Well ne'er mind…

Let's go. I had enough of their shits. If I hadn't promised you that I wouldn't kill any nigens

then they would have

died right now.

Oi! Grab me, will ya?



What the fuck! They are shooting at us…with arrows. Fuckers!!!

What the fuck are they thinking?

Houshi! Houshi! Fucking…Miroku!!!! Wake up!!!



Why are you so cold? You were warm .You should be warm. You also look pale. Pale like

hell. Get a hold of

yourself. Stop shouting dead you ass-holes!!!



RED. Red all over your face. Hey, Miroku. Look at me. This isn't fucking funny. Shits are

firing arrows at us. For

fuck's sake!!!



Hey, where is the pulse in your neck ?? I can't sense it.

Dead. Dead. Dead. DEAD!!! But you don't look dead to me, you look so beautiful…oh,

Miroku.

A monk dead, killed by a half breed….

Killed. Killed-by- a-a half -half…

Noooo…!!!Noo…You didn’t die then. That fucking half-breed Naraku didn't kill

you. I saved you. We

were high up, away away…

Tell me that they are wrong. Talk to me! Talk to me , you shit!

Why is your body so rigid? Your head rolls away when I shake you. Your hands don’t clutch

me like they were a

moment ago…this doesn't make any sense…



Arrows. Arrows!! Fucking arrows.

Fuck! Why didn't I see that you've been hit in the arm? Fuck!! You are bleeding, fuck! But

this must have hurt.

Why didn't you say a thing? You didn’t even cry out. You aren’t that tuff…

Fuck. They are dead. They will be dead like Naraku, like Kikyo, like…like…



Thud! Thud!! THUD!!!



B-But, no. But, how?

Nooooo!!!! No!



Shut-up.



Dead. Dead! DEAD!!!



MIROKU!!!

Miroku… Miroku…m-my-yy mi-ro-kuu….nooo…ahh…shh!! noo…"



==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==~~==



Let's watch how the head rolls, let's watch how much the blood flows to soak the mud with

crimson life. Lets watch

how the enraged, in-denial mind of the hanyou responds to a group of stupid "brave-heart"

villagers who don’t

know when to mind their own business. Lets watch the so called filth slaughter them into a

pile of meat while they

can't do a thing but watch in horror and scream in terrorrr!!!



Let's rejoice in the sound of their heart-shattering scream, let us drown in the scent of their

blood in the air, let us

relish the bliss of the whole arena hmm…or, or shudder and shun it all. It is our choice but

they, they can't. Can't

escape from what is already known to us. There is no choice for them at all.

Let's watch how a whole village is demolished just because they couldn't smell the scent of

their deaths in the air…

Let's watch a slip in sanity of someone who has been trying to stay in control his entire life…

Let's watch how high the flame burns when you thought it had died along with the one that's

been decaying in those

arms…



The snap of control. The tautness of insanity. The forced acceptance after denial. The final

blow to the strength that

has already been tested before….



Abomination, they say. We'll see what abomination really is.





a/n: I hope you guys aren’t confused. Tell me if you liked it or not.