Too Much Time On Their Hands

Inuyasha woke up as he felt soft loving hands roaming over his body washing the blood away as a tongue lapped at his flesh. They were in the shower together and Sesshoumaru was kissing away all the marks he had made. Inuyasha sighed feeling much better now. It had hurt like hell, but it also had felt incredible. Sesshoumaru at least had been kind enough to get him off before putting that fucking ring on him again. Inuyasha almost felt like Sesshoumaru could do anything to him and he would take it as long as he did not have to keep holding his damn release. That always was the worst part of this game they were playing.

"How do you feel my love? I hope I was not too rough with you. I think next time I will not be so cruel. The couch will be cleaned tomorrow. Tell me what you felt and what you are feeling now Inuyasha."

Sesshoumaru whispered softly. There was always this slight regret in his voice. It was as if he were asking for some kind of forgiveness. Inuyasha understood this since when he was asked by his brother to whip him hard with the bull whip he felt like a big asshole. Sesshoumaru loved every minute of it, but Inuyasha was still very new to this. Sesshoumaru sometimes forgot that fact and that Inuyasha was indeed in many ways still very much a child.

"It felt incredible, like a release of all things even in the pain. I had images run through my mind. The deaths of old friends and my Mother do not hurt as much since the physical pain seems to remove such feelings. Our fighting, the pain we caused each other and each crack of your whip made the emotional pain seem so small almost made it disappear for a time. My hate for a while was gone and although I felt shame it was not like the shame I feel when I see how different we are. When we are together like that I feel for a time we are the same, that we are not so different. I don't know if that makes sense."

Inuyasha stated softly. Sesshoumaru held his brother from behind and understood. This was not the things he was looking for though. This was no longer the past and that mess was over. Sesshoumaru rarely called Inuyasha half breed and they both knew at this point that was just out of anger. The words they both used were no longer important. That time was over and done with. Inuyasha however never seemed to understand he no longer was being pushed away for his differences.

Sesshoumaru found over the years as he grew to love this boy he embraced these things that made Inuyasha so beautiful in his eyes. It did not matter anymore that Inuyasha was a half demon with a different Mother. The whole meaning of half brothers had changed into something more then a brotherly relationship. Sesshoumaru had lived many lifetimes of watching people die before him and at his own hands. Now he just did not wish to face a new one alone.

"Inuyasha you let your emotions rule you so much and that is why I hoped they would be the key to setting you free of these walls you build up around yourself to protect your heart from this cruel world. If you were able to let go of the past and the memories of it would you continue to do this with me?"

Inuyasha went to speak and protest this as Sesshoumaru placed one finger on his lips kissing Inuyasha gently shaking his head no since Inuyasha was not going to interrupt him or make him change his mind. This game cannot continue if it was not played with both of them in the right frame of mind. Inuyasha was violated mentally and abused emotionally. It was hard to repair such things. Still Sesshoumaru would do his best to help and to make up for at least the things he had done to cause Inuyasha such misery. It was obvious Inuyasha could not respect this sort of game if he did not understand it. Eventually it would make Inuyasha resent him and tear them both apart. Caressing Inuyasha's cherubic beautiful young face Sesshoumaru hugged the pup. Inuyasha was so damn trusting, why did he not see it before? Inuyasha longed for acceptance and mainly needed his. This was not the way to gain it.

"Inuyasha I love you too much to let you do this. You cannot use this game we play as a sadistic tool to remove the painful memories with another pain. That is not what this is about. It is about letting go of all things, inhibitions, and fears. It is a moment for you to be completely free to feel anything you wish to. The past cannot haunt us any longer. If my whip is only a tool for you to torment yourself with more pain then you will never enjoy the experience as it is supposed to be experienced. You think you enjoy it only because I force this on you and for a while it feels good. However then it becomes so painful for you that your mind is quitting and does the only thing it can. It is no wonder you pass out cold on me. Twenty lashes even with my acid whip is nothing that you should faint over. You are overwhelming your mind with pain. I am concentrating on the strokes and my pleasure so I cannot also keep up with your thoughts. I cannot sense anything except your arousal, my own, and the fact I must be exact in every mark I give you. If I used my full power you would not survive. I have not even in our worst fights when I threatened your life fully cut into you with this ability. Something always held me back and you know I love using my whip to kill those I truly hate. It is my favorite natural weapon."

Inuyasha was confused, so did this mean Sesshoumaru did not want him anymore. Inuyasha growled crying trying to fight Sesshoumaru.

"Stop it Inuyasha!"

Sesshoumaru growled.

"You want to leave me Sesshoumaru and find another playmate that can handle you. It is even more cruel then your punishment of me. I loved being punished by you. It meant you wanted me and only me during that time. I felt loved by you and you made me believe I was special to you. How can you......to be pushed away that is just so.......so........."

Inuyasha felt his heart breaking as sobs racked his body. Sesshoumaru grasped Inuyasha's chin kissing him deeply. Inuyasha was misunderstanding.

"You are special to me Inuyasha and I am not pushing you away. I am still going to punish you, but in a different manner. I am going to have to change some things. That is all. I do want you and even when I find a mate if I find one I will still want you. We will find a way to be together somehow. You opened something up in me I do not show anyone else Inuyasha. This is ours and I am not going to give this up if we do not have to. Even Fathers must have time away from their family on occasion. We are both just going to have to find a unique kind of mate who can handle what we wish to do together. I do love you little one so stop your tears. Unless you wish me to torment you some more because that is the only time I wish to see them. I do not want to see those big beautiful eyes of yours looking at me in sorrow or in fear. I need your trust and your acceptance too."

Inuyasha held Sesshoumaru tighter and did not care that his back was hurting like hell. He just wanted to be loved right now. He needed that feeling. Sesshoumaru was so damn gentle and loving after he was punished. It felt so good and Inuyasha had been so very alone for so long. All the women and men he had felt anything for would not accept him as he was. Now that Sesshoumaru finally had Inuyasha would rather die then lose the love he had from his brother even if it meant bleeding for him forever.

Sesshoumaru sighed at such thoughts of devotion and unconditional love. Such a baby Inuyasha was and so very precious. How he could have hated this pup at this point was beyond even his understanding. All that hate could have given them both this and it was such a damn shame. So much time had been wasted fighting and destroying each other.

"Inuyasha I adore you for your love for me, but my little sweet pup I am not worthy of it. Still I am selfish so I will take all you offer me and more. I am going to really show you how to experience the things we share and we will journey this path together. You will always anger me, but I will be here forgiving you. I will be here with open arms to hold you since your face is the one I need to see at the end of the day. You cracked me up when I came home to see the three of you boys fighting over the remote control like a bunch of wild animals. Were you really that bored?"

Inuyasha laughed and grinned up at Sesshoumaru with that childish impish look on his face that was all Inuyasha. The pup he adored and made him want to pull his hair out some days by the roots. The boy was both wonderful and wild at the same time. Inuyasha is an untamable imp that Sesshoumaru in truth never wished to keep caged. Inuyasha had to go out, meet others, and sew his oats like Sesshoumaru had done many times over. Sesshoumaru did not mind the scents of others on Inuyasha. They were not mates, but lovers. Inuyasha had to have that and it was time again to send the imp out with those two trouble makers to do something more interesting then mess up his house. Cold pizza and a beer were good except when it became habit. These three pups made it a lifestyle.

If Sesshoumaru gave them more channels on the remote they would do nothing except watch TV all day becoming permanent couch potatoes. Sending them to schools and making them see the world was the right thing to do. They had been wearing their Yale sweats and looked absolutely adorable trying to kill each other. It reminded Sesshoumaru of his days as a wild pup with his own friends who had been just as stupid and wild. Sesshoumaru knew that being an heir to a throne he could not stay a pup for long. There was a Kingdom to run. Everything Sesshoumaru did had a purpose and he knew the codes to watch other things not ever giving them to the three troublemakers. He even hid all of his game stations and games. If they knew about his stash they would be such a pain never leaving his home. Sesshoumaru had a hard enough time getting off the internet since that damn thing was addicting as hell. So much information to keep up with and it was constantly changing.

"Well Sesshoumaru you blocked all the good channels. It was CNN or the stupid History Channel. We already watched how whales mate wondering if any of us will ever be that big then decided that would suck since we could not outrun anyone if we were dragging something like that all over the place. Plus I have no complaints. It is always Miroku who stresses about stupid crap like that. Kouga should not have given that stupid pervert his blood. Sango would not take it and Shippo somehow ended up like you. I never see the kid anymore. Kagome will be born sometime soon so eventually I have to go kidnap her after the jewel sends her back here so I can mate her like I want to. I know you are not for that, but if any woman is going to have my pups it is that loud mouthed beautiful woman. No one else would put up with my ass that is a female anyway."

Sesshoumaru laughed nodding in agreement. He was ok with this. Still would Kagome allow them to be together?

"Sesshoumaru if Kagome did not allow us to be together I tell you I will still do it. Mated or not I am no bitch to a woman. You forget I can read your mind too sometimes. You gave me more of your blood then I ever needed so it is your own damn fault. If I have pups with her though, I worry. Will they be like me or more like her?"

Sesshoumaru shrugged.

"Does it really matter? They will have your blood in them and so our Father's blood will still live on. You don't have my burden Inuyasha so stop worrying over such stupid things. I already approved of her a long time ago. As a human I find that Kagome is acceptable for you. You are absolutely right. No one else would put up with you that is female because of your foul mouth. You have dated and fucked around. Still you find yourself alone only because you have that mouth on you that has no tact except with two of us. You are kinder and you act much different with that human girl then with others. You do this same strange proper behavior on occasion with me. I don't understand it, but we are the only two that can make you act decent once in a while so when the time comes I promised you I would help you find her so stop dwelling on her right now. You are mine for now so let me keep you while I can."

Inuyasha sighed.

"I really fucking hurt today you know. That electric shock handle is really a bastard, but I can handle anything you do to me except that fucking cock ring. I hate that stupid bastard piece of shit. It is the worst of your inventions. I think for having to wear that fucker twice you owe me. You are not normally that sadistic."

Sesshoumaru smirked looking down at his pouting brother then kissed him as he shut off the shower after washing them both.

"Inuyasha I like putting the cock ring on you and that will not make me feel sorry enough for you to let you have more codes to any new channels. I am very pissed about my couch, but it could be worse. If I catch any of you eating on it or drinking anywhere except the kitchen I will whip all three of you. I will open up our game to your friends and I will not be merciful at all with them. You are my family, they are just lucky I put up with them at all.'
"You three should be studying not trying to break into my drawers with Miroku the lock pick. It is a good thing I put a spell on our drawer as well as in other places in this house. I am just glad his hair is no longer frizzed from being zapped even if that was funny as hell."

After drying off Inuyasha the pup pouted as Sesshoumaru seemed like he was done with the pleasure part of this deal when he handed Inuyasha a towel to wrap himself in.

"Aren't you going to..........?”

Inuyasha started to say after he wrapped the towel around his waist looking like he was going to cry again. Sesshoumaru rolled his eyes and picked up the pup kissing him on the cheek. Inuyasha must be coming onto his human night soon since the boy was being overly sensitive. It was damn cute and annoying at the same time. Still, fucking and messing with the human was almost more fun then messing with Inuyasha in his demon form. The human was much more sensitive then any normal human and in some ways it was like fucking someone new. Inuyasha was a variety all his own and definitely not boring.

"I am far from done Inuyasha. I am giving you a chance to relax a bit. You are going to be human again soon. I can tell. It does not matter though; you will be too busy in my arms to worry about things for long."

Sesshoumaru took Inuyasha into the bedroom making love to him in many ways in many positions. Inuyasha wanted to use one of the new toys, but Sesshoumaru said no. He pulled out a drawer of different vibrators and then found what he was looking for. It was a cock ring that vibrated. Placing it on himself he slowly fucked Inuyasha who was going absolutely wild under Sesshoumaru as Sesshoumaru smirked. Inuyasha was wonderful to watch. Rolling his hips Sesshoumaru used every trick in the book to bring Inuyasha to pleasure and Inuyasha knew there was no other who could give him this.

"So my pet do all cock rings cause pain?"

Sesshoumaru purred as Inuyasha cried out in passion that he loved this thing whatever Sesshoumaru had on him. The vibrations were perfect and then Sesshoumaru thrust even harder as he came hard inside that tight little body kissing Inuyasha everywhere. Then as he pulled out he handed Inuyasha the oil. Then instructed the pup to put the ring on and turn on the power as he gave into temptation.

"Inuyasha take me hard and show no mercy. I want your claws shredding my back and if you hold back I will know it my pet."

Inuyasha did as he was told enjoying taking his brother as much as he enjoyed being taken and then raked those vicious claws over his brother's back as Sesshoumaru smirked. His eyes glowed red as the demon power came forward and Inuyasha lapped at the blood allowing his own demon to start doing as it pleased. His own eyes glowed and he felt his once tired body fill with power. It was so strange. Digging his claws into Sesshoumaru's hips Inuyasha pounded the hell out of Sesshoumaru showing no mercy finding the damn cock ring this time to be the perfect stimulation.

Sesshoumaru howled and Inuyasha joined in the chorus as they both came hard with Inuyasha stroking his brother to completion. Sesshoumaru felt completely sated. He was certain his back was healed now, but Inuyasha was licking off the blood not pulled out of his body yet. Sesshoumaru did not mind and felt comfort for a moment in being taken so completely. It was only when Inuyasha's demon in its violent force come forward that he truly felt the full pleasure of such an act. No one else including Kouga was powerful enough to please him like this. Inuyasha did not need to know this.

Inuyasha was proud of his human half and there was no point in destroying that side since Sesshoumaru loved to dominate him when he was so damn vulnerable. Such soft flesh was nice to touch and the sounds were so different. It wasn't until Sesshoumaru took Inuyasha as a human that he understood the reasons his Father loved them. They had no inhibitions during the act and Inuyasha's mind was mush when he was human. The slightest touch caused such a strong reaction it was amusing to torment Inuyasha with pleasure as a human rather then pain. It could be just as painful and with just as much of a reward for his patience. Inuyasha however did not have his normal stamina so it was a short lived victory.

After Inuyasha pulled out of Sesshoumaru he removed the cock ring and smirked at Sesshoumaru who smiled with his eyes closed. Inuyasha cuddled in his brother's arms. He felt so loved and safe right here. He sometimes did wish he was a woman for Sesshoumaru so they could forget the whole idea of having pups with anyone else except each other. That would be a nice dream.

Sesshoumaru smiled and kissed his brother for such an endearing thought.

"Inuyasha you are my treasure and I don't want you to change. I love you as you are and if I wanted you to be a woman I would not have let Kagome make that stupid jewel disappear. I am glad it did. It would be such a waste and a selfish wish. I want you to be just as you are. I love this and these moments with you little brother."

Inuyasha looked down at Sesshoumaru. The pup's long hair cascaded down and now that it was clean it looked so much like Sesshoumaru's hair. Sesshoumaru could not wait until Inuyasha's human nights. His jet black hair would meld with his silver and the change was so damn beautiful. Sesshoumaru had missed such things for years being foolish in fighting with this pup.

The day he took Inuyasha's virginity was the day Inuyasha changed from the most beautiful human boy he had seen in his life into Inuyasha the most beautiful foul mouthed imp he had known all his life. Inuyasha was taking a bath in the springs and Sesshoumaru had not meant to stumble upon him. Inuyasha had been crying after Kagome disappeared nursing his wounds from them killing Naraku and Sesshoumaru had come to finish what he started with his brother. He smelled the boy, but could not find him. He knew Inuyasha had human nights, but did not take the time to really look at the boy only seeing him as a shame on his family.

Seeing the sunlight on Inuyasha shining on that jet black hair, those huge innocent eyes, and then to watch the silver slowly flow into those long locks wet from being washed with alligator sized tears pouring down those cheeks Sesshoumaru could not move. The full lips trembled at him then looked away. His first words had been 'Don't turn around Inuyasha. Look at me.' and then that was it. His whole world stopped. Sesshoumaru was in awe of such a work of art.

Sesshoumaru had appreciated beauty all his life, but avoided this one true treasure who had always been right there in front of his eyes. The one being he had pushed away had suddenly taken his breath away. Suddenly a breeze had blown and that magnificent hair flowed as if like magic around the child as Inuyasha's beautiful honey brown eyes changed to gold as the crystal tears only made the boy more beautiful. Sesshoumaru had fallen to his knees in awe. It had never happened before in his life and with that Inuyasha turned away again in embarrassment. Sesshoumaru had at that point removed everything, all barriers, all hate, and then all his clothing. They were stripped bare to each other and the world. Next thing Sesshoumaru knew those young arms were around him begging for acceptance and forgiveness not wanting to ever be alone as he buried that gorgeous young face in his chest not caring if this creature wanted to kill him. Inuyasha had this determination and child like innocence that made him do things irrational. It was this thing though that made Sesshoumaru's own heart open even more to the trembling young pup in his arms. It was not until Sesshoumaru saw the loneliness in the stunning eyes of his little brother that Sesshoumaru then realized how lonely he was too. That was when they kissed for the first time and Sesshoumaru had given up his heart completely knowing that he would forever be lost in this sweet boy.

If Inuyasha knew how he had him wrapped around his finger would Inuyasha use such things against him like he once had to the child? Inuyasha was a free trusting spirit and the demon Lord felt damn lucky to have this boy after all his cruel intentions. It was not until much later that Sesshoumaru felt he needed Inuyasha's forgiveness too. It is what had brought them this far and now there was no turning back.

Inuyasha once again had that determination in his eyes as Sesshoumaru caressed that face not ever getting enough of looking into those innocent huge eyes that touched his soul. Such trust and such love always in that perfect face. Sesshoumaru did not ever want to do anything to destroy Inuyasha again.

"Sesshoumaru I like the punishments. Don't stop because of some dumb comments I was making. You asked and I promised I would be honest. I would rather be punished for not answering then have you ever stop touching me."

Sesshoumaru sighed smiling softly as Inuyasha lay on top of him and Sesshoumaru wrapped the blankets around them adjusting so that they could be comfortable. The bed sheets and everything had to be washed in the morning. There was blood everywhere. It looked like a massacre had occurred in this place and in some ways it made the demon Lord want to laugh since Inuyasha apparently liked things this way so why bother cleaning it up? Still it was not right and the boy had to know how things should be if they wanted to keep doing this together.

"Inuyasha I will not stop touching you. I am addicted to you. It is a curse in once sense and the greatest gift I have ever known. Still my love you have to understand how to use these things we do the right way with the right frame of mind.'
"We are creatures with so much power and in the eyes of humans we are monsters. When we give into this pleasure, this pain by submitting we are letting go of that control we hold on to like it is the life giving blood that runs in our veins.'
"We breathe in control for ourselves and breathe out by controlling others. At the end of the day I want to lose it all and be free. Do you miss running in the forests and climbing those mountains that we used to scale like they were nothing? We were like pagan gods to humans who could never do as we can. When I take you and when I torment you it is those forests you should be experiencing. You should experience some joy in the freedom of not having to be the one causing the pain to yourself. You are free to love me, to hate me, to feel great pleasure, or to cry out in pain at the way the act itself feels. When I tell you that you are bad it does not mean you really are a bad child or bad person. I accept you as you are Inuyasha, it is you who have to accept yourself and until you do you will only feel more pain then necessary.'
"I want you to feel whatever it is you desire to feel in that moment as long as it is that moment you are feeling. I want you to cry to tell me the fucking whip hurts and you are so angry because I fucked up your back. That is better for you to feel then for you to tell me you were thinking of things that have nothing to do with that moment in our time. I want your powerful demon that is like my own to strike out at me in fury. Eventually my sweet beautiful Inuyasha when your demon is free it will attack breaking the restraints. You will break your emotional restraints and your physical ones to stand before me feeling damn good because you got through that moment on your own. All that strength you needed to survive now needs to be used to build your confidence and then you will be Master of your life. You will own your destiny and then I can also let go. Only then will you be able to feel like you are my equal and I will accept it. I see you as a child right now. The most beautiful child I have known and a man I love more then I should. I spoil you Inuyasha and I avoid many of my needs for you because that is what we do when we love someone. I also forget to see you as you really are. I can't let you be a child forever my love. Someday you have to grow up."

Inuyasha understood, but it still was a hard pill to take. He had felt his whole life being one of survival he hadn't the chance to be a child. He had been more like an animal fighting to survive. Now Inuyasha wanted to be nurtured and loved. It seemed so unfair, but Sesshoumaru was right. They would both have to let go for a while, but it did not mean forever. They loved each other and Sesshoumaru promised that would not change no matter what.

"What if I lose control Sesshoumaru. I couldn't live with myself if I hurt you. What if you kill me? I am still so afraid. I lost control of my demon and tried to kill people. Good people."

Sesshoumaru smiled running his fingers over Inuyasha's hair. Such a pup and it would be a long time before Inuyasha would grow up. That was ok. Sesshoumaru had all the time in the world.

"If you attack me then so be it, I will be ready. It is not like I have not defeated you before little one without killing you when you turned full demon on me. You can't fear this or you will not be free. Your demon half is not the enemy. You can learn to control it and with my blood you have haven't you?"

Inuyasha nodded still feeling unsure, but a little better as he held Sesshoumaru. Inuyasha felt tired emotionally and physically. Sesshoumaru had been really really hard on him this time. Still it had been better then any other time they had done these things and Inuyasha would do anything Sesshoumaru asked of him even if it was hard. He would not let him down. Sesshoumaru tweaked Inuyasha's nose getting a disgruntled look that made him smirk.

"You my pup have to quit worrying about all I think all the time. I am not going to be with you every damn second of every day. That would drive us both nuts. You have to make decisions for yourself like you did with your pack. You are almost done with school and will be running one of my many companies making decisions without me. I want you to start showing that you have a brain in that silly head of yours. You are very smart little brother, it is just too bad you never show it very often. I need you to so I do not have all this responsibility on my shoulders all the damn time.'
"Do not worry about our fights once you lose control. You need to and so do I. This whole complex I own is set up for such a thing so that if you or I lose control nothing more will be damaged in the end other then a little bit of your pride. I want nothing more and nothing less for us Inuyasha.'
"My Inuyasha you think you are so weak sometimes. We had and have such power finding in this world of humans we are the minority. We are in our minds living in this era the weak creatures who must now depend on them to take what we offer and hope they will use it so that we can have a life. I despise my life now and this is my way of finding those forests to run free away from this world. You can't forget we are Princes born of Kings and powerful. This is our world and we can do as we please. Do not forget your place and know this since if you forget you may find someday those powers reopening at a moment it is not acceptable to do so.'
"With our games we have our own special world and we control it by allowing our demons to run free. It seems like human bondage and sadism. It is not Inuyasha. Demons have to have some form of release and since we do not kill as we did in the past we must find a safe form of violence that can help us release all this built up tension. If you did not do as you did to me tonight and many nights before now I would go on a killing spree. I must seek pain and blood to survive. It is my nature to do so and it is also yours. We must allow blood to flow even if it is only our own."

Inuyasha pouted. How was it that Kouga and Miroku then were doing ok? Sesshoumaru laughed at that thought remembering a story Kouga told him about Miroku's pathetic whimpering at being spanked. They were soft core in comparison to the things that Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha did. Kouga did not know about it, but once the two of them moved in they would no doubt find out someday.

"I tell you Kouga and Miroku do as we do. I think they need our help though since Miroku almost killed one of our clients loosing control. We had to put him in a room until Kouga could get him back under control. You do not want to deal with that mess. The fact is Inuyasha, they understand what we do and you my sweet innocent beautiful boy do not. You are still thinking too much like a human and that is not an insult. You do not know how else to be and that is my fault for not teaching you our ways many years ago when I had that opportunity. I abandoned you my love and for my own selfish gain. So now we suffer for it. I will show you the way and so you will not have more pain then you can handle.'
"You are so very strong Inuyasha and you have survived so many hard things. This should not be one of them. You should not see this as a means to an end. I am here to protect you now and to love you. There is no reason to run back to those things that once held you back from your true nature. You must let go and allow this part the one that took me a few moments ago to have its time in the light."

Inuyasha yawned and pulled Sesshoumaru closer touching his brother's face always in awe that Sesshoumaru allowed him this. How many people had died trying to do such a thing? How many people did Sesshoumaru allow to come this close to him without fearing for their lives? It was such an honor and Inuyasha took advantage of every touch he was allowed. It would be the most precious of memories he would keep.

"It is a good thing we are rich big brother. It would suck to have to keep struggling like me and my pack had to. I have so much now and back then all I had was that fire rat kimono. Still carry pieces with me. I mean Father did give it to me so it is all I have of him."

Sesshoumaru sighed as he rubbed those puppy ears and felt such regret at the fact that Inuyasha could have been in silks looking like a true Prince. Instead he had been thrown out in the clothing that had been too big for him that he grew into. It was not right. Now every day Sesshoumaru made sure Inuyasha and the others always had nice things to wear and made certain Inuyasha had soft silk things like his own wishing to make up for so many things that he had done in the past. Sesshoumaru was wise enough to know that he could not ever buy Inuyasha's forgiveness, but it did not mean he could not give him gifts from the heart since these things he took for granted were treasures to the one who had never had such things and should have. Inuyasha's eyes always lit up when Sesshoumaru bought him something nice to wear or took him out for a night on the town. Little things like the soft kisses and excitement in those pretty eyes made Sesshoumaru's whole day. Inuyasha got him many nice things, but nothing felt as good as being told by the object of Sesshoumaru's affections that he was loved.

"If it was not for your diamonds and their value as well as selling things I do not even wish to think about losing that belonged to our family we would have nothing that we own now. Our belongings are in museums to be forever encased in glass."

Sesshoumaru pouted. He was not going to let Inuyasha change the subject. Inuyasha did not know he was doing such things, but he was.

"Inuyasha don't you feel like some of Father's things. I mean like we are in glass looking out trapped in this modern world we exist in. The only freedom we have is that which we give to ourselves. It is not in the torment I inflict upon you or even upon me my love. It is not in the pain, it is in the freedom of it. When I am done and you awaken alive after such a thing do you not feel even more alive? Don't you feel like you actually beat something that might have seemed unbeatable? My most precious love these are the things that I wish for you to feel.'
"As a submissive partner to me you have that pleasure I cannot ever experience. There is none except maybe Kouga who is strong enough to truly torment me as I wish to be and survive me if I lose control. You in your demonic form are the only one who has succeeded in breaking that barrier for me and I don't want another to do this. I don't want Kouga. I want you."

Inuyasha was listening intensely now. Sesshoumaru rarely talked about himself or opened up like he was doing. This to Inuyasha meant more then anything in the world. It was more important then anything to him and Sesshoumaru was making him fall in love with him even more then before. Sesshoumaru closed his eyes and sometimes wished he could cry. As a demon he only had done so three times in his life. One time when Father died, when his Mother died, and then when Rin had died. Sesshoumaru did not have the freedoms of emotions that Inuyasha had and some days he was envious since all of his feelings were locked deep within mostly shown in actions.

"I want to really feel sometimes Inuyasha. I want to feel the things you do, but I am not built the same and you call yourself weak. I envy your ability to express so much sometimes and be so free with your emotions. Other times I don't know how you can stand to feel so much. I sometimes want nothing more then to lose myself in a moment. I used to do that when we would fight, but then I almost killed you so many times. I threatened it, I thought I wanted it, but your death would have ended me. I have only cried three times in my life and I would have wept for you even when I had hated you. That is why I think I could not take your life. I could not bear my own idea of weakness. Rin showed me this and I was a fool to think I could avoid the pain that came with her death. You are all I have left of my family, my only family and I will not let you go into the darkness of death without me.'
"I have made my final decision Inuyasha. You will not sway me. I don't want to do this game any more with you until you stop beating yourself up. You must build up your confidence. So I am giving you a gift. I am going to love you Inuyasha like you deserved to be and we will still play with the toys. We will make new ones just for you. You will tell me though now when I am doing too much and when such painful memories hit your mind I will stop. I will be more in tune with you. I will punish you in a new way and I think we both will enjoy it. Still I expect you to obey me without question when it comes time for your punishment and do not think it will be all pleasure. You will get your pain my love if you want it. It will be unique. I have a new agenda for us and I am going to take off a week of work so we can experiment. I want to take you out on the town and show you off. We will pretend for a time that we are life mates and I want to take you on a real date. Not one of those silly things we do here, but dress up and go somewhere you have always wanted to go. I want this not only for you, but I think I need this too so don't think I am all of a sudden changing my selfish ways. So my sweet lover do you think your sore little ass can handle one more round before bed time or shall we retire for the night?"

Sesshoumaru smirked as Inuyasha crawled up his chest letting his claws dig in knowing that the demon Lord loved this torment.

"I want to be on top, but you can be the one inside of me and I want some pain if you don't mind. My ass is quite healed thanks to your perfect blood big brother."

Sesshoumaru smiled as he grabbed the oil and to his shock Inuyasha grasped his hand shaking his head no. Sesshoumaru had wanted to do this, but growled putting his arms across his chest.

"If you are just doing this because I want it I will kick your ass Inuyasha and then it really will be sore."

Inuyasha smirked then leaned forward so he was nose to nose with Sesshoumaru licking those lips he loved open. Then Inuyasha purred in Sesshoumaru's ear as he lifted himself up to slide onto Sesshoumaru with no lubricant.

"No I told you I like the pain a bit, not everything is all about you handsome."

Inuyasha stated as Sesshoumaru's whole body arched with Inuyasha pushing down onto that shaft with his ass still slightly slick with oil, but not enough to keep this from being completely painless. Inuyasha loved it and leaned back a bit as he rode Sesshoumaru eyes slightly closed as he watched Sesshoumaru's face. Sesshoumaru was grasping his hips arching back pushing into Inuyasha. Then Sesshoumaru pulled Inuyasha forward roughly rolling them over as their claws were imbedded into each other's shoulder.

"I am going to fuck the hell out of you Inuyasha!"

Sesshoumaru stated with a growl getting a smirk from Inuyasha as he pounded like a madman into Inuyasha's body. They were both so damn close to mating each other so there was only one option Inuyasha ripped his chest with his claws and Sesshoumaru's eyes glowed red at the blood sacrifice before him. Diving forward Sesshoumaru bit into Inuyasha's chest and then came hard into Inuyasha's tight ass. Licking up the blood Inuyasha's chest healed and then Inuyasha brought his bloody fingers from raking Sesshoumaru's arms tearing at the flesh to his lips drinking the blood as Sesshoumaru's arms healed completely. Once again Sesshoumaru fell upon his brother as their breathing started to calm.

"I love you Sesshoumaru. I love you forever and always."

Inuyasha stated as he caressed Sesshoumaru’s silky silver hair. Sesshoumaru kissed Inuyasha on the lips as he came to.

"I love you forever and always too Inuyasha. Now sleep my love."

Sesshoumaru stated softly as they cuddled after Sesshoumaru pulled out of his sore ass falling into a well deserved slumber.

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