Mindless

Disclaimer
I do not own any of Inu Yashas’ characters .I only own what I create .

NOTE
Yes, I know Rin cannot be seen as evil at all and I thought about that too.But she is the only one Sesshoumaru will not consciously hurt .
And then again for all you Rin lovers there is a twist in the end so don give up hope .And I’ll be doing a little explanation of how Rin turned evil,or rather why.
As for me jumping around, well I have like an idea in my heads and im tryin my best to play it out in a sequence so I hope it’s working..

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Rin now a teenager knelt before her Lord her arm’s around his shoulder . She saw the look in his eyes almost pleading for her to not do what she was about to .

She smiled and pulled him in crushing her lip’s to his in a harsh kiss .This was the Lord of the West who was untouched and all her’s. It had been nearly a month now since she started paying nightly visits to her lord .And what she loved about the whole thing was that he was powerless to do anything about it without hurting her and she knew for a fact that he would do no such thing .He still considered her his daughter .

“Some daughter” she thought to herself .Because daughters didn’t go around terrorizing their father’s to sleep with them. But this was for her so she could feel again .So she could feel less dirty by bringing Sesshoumaru down with her . Sesshoumaru who was always too good to be true too Devine to be Demon ,Human or Celestial.

Every time she did this she had to remind herself why she was doing this to the one person she never ever wanted to hurt in any lifetime .
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Flashback
It had been about three month’s ago .

Rin had been walking through the corridor’s of the Royal Palace of the West with a bouquet of wild flowers in her hands .She had picked them especially for Sesshoumaru .

A week ago Sesshoumaru had told Rin to stop going out on her own without either Jaken or him . He also had asked her to stop picking those flowers .
She was upset at first ,until Jaken had told her that Sesshoumaru did not want her to pick flowers because they masked her scent and if she were in trouble he would have trouble spotting her.

She thought it was really sweet of Sesshoumaru but still she did not stop picking flowers and Sesshoumaru could not stop her because she knew he wouldn’t do anything to hurt her even if he did end up hurting himself .

And that bothered her she was now a grown woman according to Youkai society but Sesshoumaru still treated her like a child, rather his child .

Through the years she had grown to love the Demon Lord and he always seem to do anything to make her happy .But he still treated her as his ward and did not come within four feet of her if he could help it .And that saddened her.


All these thought’s were going through her mind that she almost completely missed the voices of Sesshoumaru and Jaken coming from a nearby chamber. She immediately stopped and was about to walk into the chamber to greet her lord when the toad said something to stop her in her tracks.

“But Lord Sesshoumaru” the Toad was saying “Do you think it’s wise ,I mean not that whatever you do isn’t wise but shouldn’t we ask Rin first. It is her mating we’re talking about “ the Toad said .

“ I know Rin and I know she can’t stay here for ever , She is human and she is better off with a human mate . Matou Sakashi is the Chief of Izayois’ village and I hope she is happy.It took a lot of time for me to make the settlement and a lot of dowry too. But that doesn’t concern me I hope Rin is happy .”Sesshoumaru was saying .Neither of them had detected Rin standing outside the door listening .
Rin was nearly in tears .She knew this day would come and she knew it was for the best but she did not want to leave Sesshoumaru ,She loved him too much for that . But he had gone to great lengths for her by actually going to a human village against his instinct’s .
She sighed .This she would do for Sesshoumaru to make him happy but before she was to get married she would tell him how she felt about him and let him decide what was best.

So she waited for the opportunity . And it presented itself to her a fortnight before her wedding .

Sesshoumaru was sitting on the railing of the castle balcony .His hair bellowing behind him in the wind . Moonlight accentuated the graceful curves of his features .In other words he was breathtaking .

Rin froze for a moment mesmerized by Sesshoumaru when he turned sensing Rin standing there and beconed her to sit . Rin sat in front of him she didn’t know where to start or if she should say anything . She made up her mind to be firm in her resolve and she began.”Lord Sesshoumaru , are you happy with me leaving and all” Rin asked trying her best not to give herself away.
Sesshoumaru looked at her quizzically before answering .” Yes Rin this Sesshoumaru is very happy for your alliance ,though you will be missed by us all we want is your happiness” Sesshoumaru said looking at her more closely than he had in years . She had grown .It seemed like just yesterday she was a child running around picking flowers and tormenting Jaken .But she had grown .

Rin was doing her own observation .Her lord was in a good mood so she
decided to go ahead with it .

“Sesshoumaru…. My Lord ,It was a honour being here with you .Every day spent with you was and will always be like a dream for me . But most of all you turned out to be my biggest dream. One that I cannot obtain for myself . For , Yes My Lord ,My Sesshoumaru , I have loved you since I laid eyes on you . Then it might be considered as childish gait but now I am a woman and I find myself looking at you in ways I know not to. So what would you have me do My Lord .Should I settle for second best?”Rin asked forcing herself not to shed the tears threatening to fall .For if she cried she would seal Sesshoumaru to a fate she did not want him to face unwillingly . She wanted him to love her of his free will not because of circumstance.

To say that Sesshoumaru was stunned was an understatement .He was way beyond shocked or simply stunned . What could he say to Rin .He had never thought of her in a romantic way ever she was his daughter his little Rin and to think of her in such a way would be sin against nature itself .

“Rin ……… I don’t know how …What to say” he was stuttering and he hated it .It made him seem unsure of himself .He gritted his teeth and plowed through his resolve strengthening .

”Rin ……You are my daughter, my child .I raised you from when you were but a mere pup .And for me to think of you in any way sexual would be a crime against myself and a crime against nature .I will not and cannot force myself to think of you in such a way .But if you still wish it I would yield to you but not by choice since I seem to have none” Sesshoumaru said not looking up at Rin .Silently he hoped she would see his point and accept his decision .

He looked up at Rin tentatively .She was smiling with tears in her eyes .”I knew Sesshoumaru .I knew this is what you would say .I will hold my peace I just wanted you to know how I feel .And I thank you for being you and raising me as I am “ saying this Rin walked away not looking back .

In a fortnight she was married and she moved to her husbands village . The wedding ceremony was grand all the lords of the other lands had shown up . But their intension was not to greet the new couple but to woo the now wardless Sesshoumaru.

Inu Yasha and the gang had been there since they were Rins’ only human companions . Inu Yasha made it impossible for any Lord to approach the oblivious Sesshoumaru growling at anyone who came close .Sesshoumaru laughed at his brothers possessiveness and that was the first time anyone had seen Sesshoumaru smile openly and the last time too.

After the ceremony he had left Rin in the care of her Husband and returned to his castle .

Rins’ husband was civil for a whole three days after which he started coming home drunk ,Beating her up regularly and after a week had passed.One day he came home drunker than usual .And it was this day that he raped her and after that day he would invite his friends to have a go at her . She couldn’t go to Sesshoumaru since she was ashamed to admit what had happened to her.

And after a whole month of this sort of torture she finally had the courage to Kill herself .
It was in the morning when she knew her Husband would be out .She gathered some Red ivy from the forest nearby .Jaken had told her that Red Ivy was the most potent Poison in the land and even Lord Sesshoumarus’ Tenseiga could not revive the person who drank it .
So she made tea from Red ivy and drank it .She went over to her bed and closed her eye’s not just to fall asleep but to remain so for ever.And she did not blame Sesshoumaru for he was not responsible for the jealousy that drove her husband to become the man he was.

And the next thing she remembered she was standing in front of the door’s of the Western castle and Jaken was running out to meet her . She felt like she was trapped in her own body and she was just a viewer looking at what was happening while being suspended within her own body. She saw herself smile at Jaken then start to cry.

In a few minutes she found herself sitting in front of Sesshoumaru in one of the large chambers telling him stories of how her husband beat her and raped her and how he had let others do the same for about a month before he got killed in a fight .

Sesshoumaru was angry and he was blaming himself so much so that he started neglecting his duties and started brooding .His only reprieve was visiting Inu Yasha . And then Rin had gone to him one night .

“Lord Sesshoumaru, I need you to make me feel again “ she had said “I need to feel if I’m really alive” .

That night started it all Sesshumaru had let her do whatever she wanted to him .That night she was just getting started.After that night she started hurting him.She would smack him across the face or she would bite him enough to leave bloody marks that wouldn’t exactly heal.

Rin who was watching herself do this was disgusted. Her Sesshoumaru reduced to this.

Flashback
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She would not let that welp floating around inside her distract her from claiming what was her’s.

Rin’s chocolate eyes flashed red suddenly and Sesshoumaru did not notice this .

TBC

I know ,I Know .I’ll do some more explaining in the next chapter It’ll all be clear .i just don’t wanna spoil the suspense yet