Strength

Wow Turkey was great - :)) Loved Cappadocia – Istanbul is too crowded and Antalya was a Mediterranean beach dream come true – freezing cold through. :) Managed to write this on the journey back home. Thanks everyone for all the support and being so patient.
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Chapter 18 : Night


The door opened before he could knock. Sesshoumaru had sensed the Youki outside his door. Inuyasha’s fist frozen in the air, the brothers stared at each other.

“Inuyasha, why are you out here? Did you need something?” Sesshoumaru was the first to break the silence, he looked enquiringly at the serious looking Hanyou standing before him. Inuyasha ears were flat against his head, he looked strangely vulnerable, innocent and enchanting, Sesshoumaru had to actively stop himself from reaching out and taking Inuyasha into his arms. What ever his reason for being there, his brother would probably not appreciate that.

Inuyasha dropped his hand and nodded sharply, Sesshoumaru stepped back and Inuyasha forced himself to walk into the room. The room was humongous; it had its own sitting room area with a fire place, a small dining table, a well stocked bar and attached bathrooms. The bed was definitely the central feature, big enough for 5 men to sleep comfortably, the canopy was decked in silk and satins and a scene of Inu’s howling at the moon, inlaid with precious stones; was carved into the massive headboard. The room was decorated in rich gold and red, never had Inuyasha seen such opulence.

Never had Inuyasha felt so damned inadequate. Suddenly he felt foolish, this is the DaiYouki he was standing before, Sesshoumaru needed nothing, especially not from his tainted younger half-brother. He wanted to step back, get out of the room, but then he remembered the pups, oh yes, there was something that the DaiYoukai needed from him. He took a deep breath, it was okay, and he could do this. He HAD to do this.

“Keh! Its not about what I need, its about the pups, well if you want to have another litter, we had better get on with it.” Inuyasha said bluntly. Sesshoumaru’s mobile eyebrow rose in surprised response.

“Look” Inuyasha continued, now that he had started he was jumping in with both feet as he always did, wanting to get on with it. Get this whole messy bit, over with. “If we want to be sure the next litter is strong, we have to have them as soon as we can. We cannot be sure I’ll carry the first time you do me, so we had better just start doing this now. How do you want me?” Inuyasha blurted out, ready to simply drop him pants and bend over if Sesshoumaru said so.

Sesshoumaru frowned, his blood had started thrumming at the offer but still this did not feel right. In fact, it felt extremely wrong. “Inuyasha, I appreciate the offer greatly, but I do not believe that this is the best time, I do not believe that you are ready.” Sesshoumaru tried to say gently.

Inuyasha hid a flinch. He knew it, he had always known it, but some how- it still hurt, added to his shame. Stupid pride. He gritted his teeth. “Keh! Sesshoumaru, what you think I’m a fool? I’m here aren’t I – so I’m fucking ready for what ever you need. I am the last person you need to pretend with. What happens in this room will stay in this room. I know that you don’t want this. I know that when you are not crazed you would not touch me with a fucking barge pole, so you don’t have to pretend. I am telling you that if you want the pups, then it is not wise to wait. If we wait, and my body breaks down further, I may not carry to term, and that is a risk I am simply not willing to take.”

Inuyasha’s words shocked Sesshoumaru, his jaw tightened, for Inuyasha to say that much meant the situation regarding Inuyasha’s health, was much more serious then he had anticipated. Inuyasha saw the tightening of the jaw and sighed.

“I know what I look like, Sesshoumaru, and I am not foolish enough to believe that a scarred Hanyou is in any way desirable. My shirt will stay on and you really don’t have to pretend. Like I said I am ready to do what ever it takes to have the pups. So if you need to bring in some of your concubines or ladies or men or whatever; to excite you first, it is fine, all you need to do is finish inside me, after all. Or if you need blood to get excited that is also alright, I can take quite a bit of damage, so it does not matter. You don’t have to worry, I can take it. We want a healthy litter so we need to get this done. Just tell me what you need, and I’ll do it. With any luck I will carry quite fast, so you won’t have to force yourself for long.” Inuyasha said sincerely, each word dripped with conviction. He had expected Sesshoumaru’s rejection of him, but he wanted to bring another litter of pups into the world. He had decided that it would truly give meaning to his death, so he was ready to do what ever it took. After all, all he needed to do was bend over and endure, Sesshoumaru needed to be excited and Inuyasha knew that if he was Sesshoumaru, he would be turned off by his ugly body as well. Under the circumstances extra assistance for the perfectly beautiful DaiYoukai was only to be expected.

As soon as the words left the Hanyou’s lips, Sesshoumaru’s world turned red with rage… That Inuyasha would think him capable of such behavior… that Inuyasha would hold himself so lightly after all he had accomplished… that he would believe such…..

Damn it! He had made another mistake with his little brother. He should have known that Inuyasha would internalize any form of rejection. That Inuyasha would take the responsibility of any failure on his far too thin shoulders.

Guilt and pain tore at the DaiYoukai, ….he had caused this, he had destroyed the young Hanyou’s sense of self worth; his careless words, his disregard, his stupid selfish behavior, had led to this. He would not… could not allow this to continue. Inuyasha would never be convinced by words, he needed to be shown how beautiful he was, he needed to feel how much he was desired.

The rage died, and Sesshoumaru’s lips rose in a smile, he knew what needed to do, and his being rejoiced at the realization. There really was no reason to wait, and every reason to prove to Inuyasha how much he was wanted.

“Very well Inuyasha, but let me understand you clearly, you will do what ever I need and obey me in this to ensure successful copulation?” Sesshoumaru said clearly and deliberately.

Inuyasha nodded jerkily. “Yeah, I said so right..” then he gulped painfully, “Do you need me to submit again? To kneel?” The last was said in a whisper, his bangs hiding his eyes. If Sesshoumaru needed that he would do it, he would fucking make himself do it… he had done it once and he could do it again, he would handle this - he had to. Whatever it took, he swore to himself.

“NO!” Sesshoumaru said instantly and harshly, “Never, you are my brother, the bearer of my pups, you will NEVER kneel again, not to me, not to ANYONE! Do you understand!” Sessshoumaru blazed out, he grasped Inuyasha’s jaw in his hand and jerked his face to meet the huge golden eyes. “Do you understand? Never again will I allow you to kneel like that, NEVER!”

Inuyasha’s eyes got even larger, as he stared at his brother, Sesshoumaru did not lie, his knees went weak in relief, and very slowly he nodded.

Sesshoumaru saw the relief, the tiny relaxing of tense muscles, finally he had done the right thing. Now to continue on that note. Sesshoumaru smiled into his brother’s eyes. One arm slipped around the Hanyou, drawing him close. Sesshoumaru then brought up his free hand, and with deadly claws gently combed through Inuyasha’s hair, much the way he had done with their pups. The DaiYouaki did not say anything for a long while, he just stood, holding Inuyasha close and combing his claws through the cotton soft hair. Slowly the sharpest edges of tension in his younger brother relaxed, the puppy ears finally rising from the flat position they had been in since Inuyasha walked into the room.

“What I need Inuyasha, is for you to relax, and let me take the lead. What I need to excite me, little one, is your enjoyment of my touch, is your pleasure in our coming together. Nothing else could excite this Sesshoumaru.” The DaiYoukai spoke sweetly into the puppy ears.

Enjoy the process… Inuyasha honestly could not imagine it. “I..I.. don’t… I can’t..” he began stuttering in confusion.

“Hush! You, my sweet one, need not do anything, except allow me to lead. It is the duty, and pleasure of this Sesshoumaru to teach you about pleasure. To teach you about your appeal, and show you my so stubborn Inuyasha, how utterly beautiful and enchanting you are.” Sesshoumaru said seductively as he very gently sealed Inuyasha’s lips with his, the kiss for all its gentleness was dominating and through. Holding the back of Inuyasha’s head securely, Sesshoumaru coaxed the firm lips open, and swept inside. His tongue explored Inuyasha’s hot mouth, drinking in the unique taste. The scent of fear around the Hanyou finally disappeared as strange and new sensations flooded his body.

Sesshoumaru finally broke the kiss, saying nothing to break the spell he had begun to weave around his younger half-brother, Sesshoumaru ran his hands up and down Inuyasha’s unresisting body. When he relaxed a little more, Sesshoumaru parted the edges of Inuyasha’s robe and let the drab gray cloth fall unceremoniously to the floor. The tunic covered everything, leaving only Inuyasha’s arms bare, Sesshoumaru massaged the powerful arms. He wondered at the strength hidden inside the beautifully defined muscles of Inuyasha’s arms. His skin was soft, a perfect contrast to the tinsel steel of the muscles under the surface. Under Sesshoumaru’s talented fingers, Inuyasha began to relax further, he moaned softly as a painful knot of muscles on his upper arm melted beneath the DaiYoukai’s massage. Inuyasha sank into Sesshoumaru’s embrace, no matter how twisted the process had been, Sesshoumaru was his Alpha, and his instincts had very little defenses against the DaiYoukai. In spite of all logic, now that the fear had dissipated somewhat, Inuyasha found himself relaxing and leaning into Sesshoumaru’s embrace.

Slowly and deliberately Sesshoumaru’s hand traveled down and grasped the edges of Inuyasha’s tunic. Immediately the tension came flooding back. Inuyasha’s hands dropped to Sesshoumaru’s to arrest his action. Sesshoumaru paused and met Inuyasha’s wide eyes, with a peaceful look of determination. Inuyasha’s eyes seemed to plead with Sesshoumaru to stop, but to stop would damage the little one further, and Sesshoumaru hardened his heart against the pleading eyes. He kissed Inuyasha’s forehead and said firmly “You will allow your Alpha to lead, release my hands Inuyasha!” His tone allowed for no opposition and his shoulders sagging in defeat, ears drooping, Inuyasha’s hand went limp. The hung down, unresisting as Sesshoumaru slowly lifted the tunic to expose his scarred body to the eyes of the perfect DaiYoukai.

Inuyasha forced his eyes to stay open, Sesshoumaru stripped the tunic from him, and all Inuyasha could see were the scars and discoloration that marred his body. So fucking ugly, maybe Sesshoumaru got off on seeing how weak he was, unable to even heal properly. His ears flat against his head again, Inuyasha stood still, he wanted to grab a cloth and wrap it around his body, he wanted to hide, but he forced himself to look. So damned ugly.

“So beautiful.” The words were whispered almost reverently. Sesshoumaru’s hands gently ran down Inuyasha’s hard abs and flat belly, gently passing the scars. “You are so beautiful, my Inu.”

Inuyasha’s head jerked up in shock, Sesshoumaru was staring at his body, but there was no disgust in his eyes, instead there was a look in the DaiYoukai’s eyes that Inuyasha had never seen before. His eyes were soft, so strangely soft. The words Sesshoumaru said did not register, he was not beautiful, no way. Seshoumaru was lying… no the DaiYoukai never lied.

Confusion shorn in the large golden eyes, Sesshoumaru caught the look, his work had just begun. Without fanfare, he swept the lite frame into his embrace, holding the too light body bridal style, Sesshoumaru walked to the bed. As delicately as if he was holding a piece of spun glass, Sesshoumaru laid Inuyasha on the bed. He did not give the Hanyou a chance to over think, “You are beautiful, utterly enchanting.” He stated solemnly and lowered his head.

Sesshoumaru found the pulse on Inuyasha’s neck. He kissed and nipped at the strong column, gently but firmly pushing Inuyasha’s head back, asserting his dominance as Alpha. Inuyasha understood, and allowed his head to tip back, it was strange. Sesshoumaru was dominating him, but it was so gentle, so alien. He shuddered as his neck was garlanded in kisses. It didn’t feel bad at all.

Sesshoumaru kissed his way down Inuyasha’s chest to the scars on his belly. Instinctively Inuyasha began struggling, he tried to push his brother away from the scars. Sesshoumaru had been expecting this, he caught Inuyasha’s wrists in his, and growled. It was the growl of an Alpha, demanding submission. Inuyasha could not stop, he wanted to but he just could not stop fighting, he had hid his scars for so long. Sesshoumaru let go of Inuyasha’s wrists, instead he jerked the Hanyou into his arms, he held Inuyasha tight to his chest as he ran his palms down Inuyasha’s back to calm him. Sesshoumaru licked at the puppy ears and kept the steady petting, until Inuyasha stopped fighting and relaxed.

Sesshoumaru growled low in his chest, as he laid Inuyasha back on the bed, and once again began kissing his neck. This time, he kept up the dominating growls as he moved down Inuyasha’s body. “Do not fight me, little brother! I am your Alpha and this is my right.” Sesshoumaru’s voice was stern, as he delicately licked at one of the scars. Inuyasha whimpered, but this time he did not fight. His slammed his hands on the mattress, and dug his claws into the palms of his hands to keep them in place.

The DaiYoukai noted the tension, and began his self appointed task of licking and kissing each and every scar on the Hanyou’s body. All the while he whispered that Inuyasha was beautiful, that he was so strong for bringing their pups into the world, that he was a precious younger brother, utterly enchanting to his Alpha. Slowly, excruciatingly slow, Inuyasha began to respond the words as well as the hot tongue trailing across the sensitive skin around his scars.

Sesshoumaru was patient, taking his time as he first soothed then began seducing the Hanyou. His licks went from comforting to sensual. Once Inuyasha began unconsciously moving with him instead of against him, Sesshoumaru raised his head to meet Inuyasha’s eyes. The confusion was still there, but now there was heat as well, a dawning of desire in the golden pools, that had the DaiYoukai purring in satisfaction.

It was time to pay attention to the areas he had missed, his silvery hair sweeping sensuously across Inuyasha flesh, Sesshoumaru focused on the twin nubbins on Inuyasha’s chest, they were tight budding raspberries just waiting to be savored. His tongue indulged, curling around and licking at the sensitive nipples. Inuyasha had never experienced anything like this before, his back arched almost helplessly in reaction, he wanted it to stop, no... to continue…. He did not know what he wanted. Not that it mattered, Sesshoumaru was the maestro and Inuyasha’s body his instrument.

Sesshoumaru continuously monitored Inuyasha’s reactions, as blood heated and reactions got increasingly sensual, he finally removed the last layer of clothing, protecting the Hanyou from his hungry eyes. Inuyasha had not even noticed Sesshoumaru stripping off his own robes, he did notice the heated stare on his magically exposed cock.

Inexplicably, Inuyasha felt his cheeks heating, and he made a weak attempt to block his nakedness from Sesshoumaru’s burning eyes. The Alpha growled at him, stilling the half hearted attempt. Sesshoumaru watched in interest as Inuyasha’s blush spread throughout his slim body. The DaiYokai chuckled in pleasure, the Hanyou was full of delightful contradictions.

“You are mine little Inu. Every inch of your beautiful body belongs to be, there is no need for embarrassment.” Sesshoumaru said making Inuyasha blush even more. Satisfied a long claw delicately traced the proud lines of Inuyasha’s cock. Pre cum seeped from the Hanyou and he mewled, as the claw drew intricate patterns on his corona and toyed delicately with his slit. Sesshoumaru licked his lips at the sight, and with out warning, he swallowed the throbbing member.

Inuyasha jerked helplessly as Sesshoumaru deep throated him. Sucking and playing with the sensitive organ, heat flooded the Hanyou, and the last tethers of his control snapped, stars burst behind his eye lids, as Inuyasha spilled his seed into Sesshumaru’s hungry maw. Every drop was consumed by the DaiYoukai, who hummed with pleasure at his brother’s capitulation.


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sorry am doing this because I am considering how far I should let this night go... and seriously I have to go to work now. *sigh couldn't wait to post. Holiday over.