Complexities of Fate

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CHAPTER 17: CONFESSIONS



"I'm so mad at you! It's bad enough that you distract me in my dreams dancing almost naked every night, you just had to distract me in the land of the breathing and living too!"

"I did say that, did I? Crap!" Kagome groaned as she opened her Japanese Literature book. She was waiting for the rumors to spread knowing that three other freshmen saw her and Inuyasha.

“Kagome, what's wrong?” Sango asked as she looked at her friend. They were studying inside Kagome's bedroom while Miroku took a break and played with Souta.

“Nothing…”

“What do you mean nothing? It's not like you to be so quiet. You've been like this since your detention with Inuyasha two days ago!” Sango argued.

“I had planned on taking this secret to the grave but you caught me…” Kagome said as she smiled at her friend.

“Hmm…I'm all ears.” Sango said as she leaned closer to Kagome.

“I'm supposed to tell you to not tell Miroku but I know that would be asking the impossible so just bully him into not telling anyone, okay?”

“Okay!” Sango happily replied.

“I like him, Sango.” Kagome said and she wrinkled her nose.

“You're not sure?” Sango asked.

“No, I mean, I don't know. This is weird…”

“Hmmm…when did this start?” Sango asked as she fixed her eyes on Kagome's face.

“I don't know exactly, I just woke up one day and find it impossible to breathe normally when he's near me, I constantly dream of him, my day isn't complete when he's not around and these past weeks had been pure hell because I had to ignore him and it killed me!” Kagome said as she jiggled her foot.

“And remember the last outing, when you and Miroku teased us because we were tickling each other on the couch? Well, for a minute there everything disappeared and it was just him and me…Arrghhhh! I'm losing my mind!”

“I can't eat, I can't think of anything else, I'm screwed…” Kagome continued.

“Girl, that sounds like love to me.” Sango replied.

“Oh come on, I'm fifteen, how could I be in love?”

“Kagome, age has nothing to do with love. Hey, I openly declare I'm in love with Miroku and I'm just six months older than you.” Sango reasoned.

“Gods, this is crazy.”

“Is that the reason why you're running away from him?”

“I'm not running away! Well, I am…but I'm so confused, I wouldn't last a day without staring at him, goodness, I feel like hugging him every time he's near and it's scary because I know he has some serious Kikyo issues.”

“Kagome, who gives a shit about that bitch?”

“Inuyasha does and it kills me.”

“Why because he likes her?”

“No, because I know she does not love him back and my heart breaks at the idea of him getting hurt.”

“OH MY GOD!!!” You're so in love!! Congratulations!!!” Sango shrieked.

“Duh!”

“I mean honestly, you should have seen your face when you spoke Inuyasha's name, it gets dreamy and longing…”

“Too much Star Bucks for you Sango.” Kagome teased and she smiled uneasily.

“Kagome, welcome to the world of the living, loving and learning.” Sango opened her arms wide and Kagome leaned forward to hug her friend.

“You're overly dramatic, my friend.” Kagome said as she leaned back to look at Sango.

“Girl, we only live once, let's enjoy it and Inuyasha is definitely hot!”

“Does Miroku know that you're ogling his friend?” Kagome teased.

“Come on, he's not my type but I had to admit I was slightly drooling when he danced and sang that ignition thing.”

“Oh, that too...” Kagome groaned.

“What?” Sango demanded.

“I'm having dreams of him ever since and they're not friendly…”

“Oh,” Sango replied as she raised her brow.

“Yeah... I'm screwed.” Kagome groaned.

“Does that explain why you're cranky?”

“I'm not cranky and Gods, you should have seen my dreams, Inuyasha's half naked in all of them, I've kinda developed some sort of sleep phobia!”

“Does that explain the studying spree and the black circles under your eyes?”

"Sort of..."

“Hey, Inuyasha dancing almost naked? What's so bad about that?” Sango asked, her eyes twinkling with mirth.

“Come on, Sango. I like the guy but I don't like to see him every night almost naked and gyrating in front of me especially since I sit beside him in class! It's…it's…”

“Naughty!” Sango supplied.

“I was about to say unnerving but yup, it's naughty.”

“Well, I've had several dreams of Miroku umm…like …that too!” Sango confessed, her face red.

“Really? Does that mean I'm normal for having those dreams or are you just perverted so it kinda makes me perverted too…” Kagome considered thoughtfully.

“Kagome! It's normal to fantasize!” Sango interrupted.

“Fantasize?” Kagome asked and the girls looked at each other.

“Ewww…” They said in unison and laughed.

“Well, I used to have those kinds of dreams but they stopped eventually.” Sango happily stated.

“Oh, what did you do?”

“Well…”

“Come on, spill!”

“Are you sure you want to know?”

“Duh, I'm desperate, I would climb Mt. Everest if that's what it would take to make these `nightmares' stop!”

“I made him do it…”

“What?!”

“I made him act my dream out…”

“Ewww…gross!” 'I'd rather climb Mt. Everest…'

“It's not what you think, I was dreaming of kissing him so I let him kiss me for hours.

“It is just me or have you become perverted?” 'Hours? Whoooaaa…' Kagome's eyes bulged. "HOURS?!" She asked again in disbelief. "Did you wear oxygen masks? How were able to breath?"

"We just kissed, nothing happened! and Oh, we stopped a few seconds to breath..." Sango replied and Kagome felt herself blush as she pictured her bestfriend and Miroku kissing... 'Hours...?' She asked herself in silence.

“Hmm…” Kagome looked at her friend and narrowed her eyes.

“I'm still a virgin, if that's what you're asking in silence with that look!”

“Okay.” Kagome replied staring at Sango hard until the othe girl rolled her eyes.

"I am still a virgin, honest!"

"What part of you are we talking about?" Kagome joked and they caught each other's eye and laughed aloud.

“Seriously, I say you should make Inuyasha act out your dream…” Sango suggested after wiping tears off her eyes from laughing.

"You've got to be kidding me." Kagome replied shaking her head, her face reddening at the thought of watching Inuyasha dance half-naked...LIVE!

“Believe me after that kissing marathon I stopped dreaming of Miroku and me doing that.”

“Gods, you're impossible, I would rather have eye bags the size of a desk than ask Inuyasha to dance half naked in front me!” Kagome blurted out shivering a little as flashes of the silver-haired hunk taking his clothes off ran through her mind. 'okay Kagome, too much imagination.' She chided herself silently.

“Oh…half-naked, Kagome?” Miroku asked as he lounged casually at the door.

“Argh! Pervert!” Kagome and Sango chorused as they both threw pillows at a grinning Miroku.



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It was a normal Wednesday as the friends walked towards their table at the cafeteria chatting endlessly.

“Final exams will be in two days, I'm sweating at the idea.” Sango announced and Miroku gave her shoulder a squeeze.

“Oh, come on. We studied hard, we should make it in one piece but yes, I'm scared too.” Kagome thoughtfully said as they weaved in and out of cafeteria tables and chairs.

“Higurashi, nice catch!” Yuki, one of their classmates teased, she was talking to the other freshmen.

“What?” Kagome asked, puzzled.

“Wow…our little Miko is not so little after all…” A fourth year student, whom Kagome only know by face, remarked.

“Kagome, I thought you're not into men, does that mean you were just pulling my leg?” Kouga demanded barring her path as he clenched and unclenched his fists.

“What the hell is wrong?!” Kagome demanded, looking at Sango and Miroku who both shrugged.

“Don't mind them, Kagome. Let's go.” Miroku announced and pointedly glared at Kouga until he let the three friends pass.

“Is it true?” Kagura asked as Kagome, Sango and Miroku passed by her table.

“What?” Kagome asked back, raising her brow. 'What now?' She sighed inwardly.

“That you and Inuyasha were caught doing the nasty?” Kagura inquired, her eyes never leaving Kagome's face.

“WHAT?!” Sango and Miroku both yelled, aghast at the thought. They both looked at Kagome who had grown pale and was breathing harshly.

“Oh come on, that's what everyone's been talking about since this morning. Three freshmen apparently saw you…so, is it?” Kagura asked again.

“Kagome…” Sango called as she held Kagome's hand.

Kagome's head was spinning, her mind sucking her back to hers and Inuyasha's detention. 'Was that how it looked like? Will Souta be teased for having a `wild' sister? What will Mama say? How will Inuyasha react?'

“No, it's not…” Kagome heard a familiar voice behind her as she felt Sango squeeze her hand.

“Oh, the lover boy is here… Kagura drawled.

“It's not true. They interrupted us before it got into that although I had to admit I was disappointed but it could wait…” Inuyasha replied coolly as he stood behind Kagome who looked like hell made itself visible on earth.

“Hmmm…does Kikyo know?” Kagura taunted staring at the pair with curious eyes.

“Know what?” Kikyo asked as she walked towards them with her entourage of cheerleaders and soccer players in tow.

“Oh, there you are, Inuyasha was just telling me what he and Kagome nearly did had they not been interrupted…” Kagura smilingly recited.

“What?!” Kikyo asked, fuming.

'Oh Gods, let this nightmare end already. Kagome prayed a she felt Inuyasha stiffen behind her.'

“She does now…besides it's not as if we're going out, we're just friends…” Inuyasha unworriedly said flashing his dazzling smile at Kikyo.

“Nothing happened.” Kagome quickly said to avoid further damage. “Inuyasha and I are...”

“In love, so who cares if we're intimate or not…?” Inuyasha finished as he wrapped his arms around Kagome's middle and nuzzled her neck.

“What?!” Kagome, Kikyo, Sango and Miroku all asked at the same time.

“We're in love so if you'll excuse us…” Inuyasha smiled at the crowd. “Come on honey, let's go.” Inuyasha murmured and made a big show of licking Kagome's ear.

'Oh, this is worst than a nightmare. Kagome thought as she looked meaningfully at Sango, asking for her friend to rescue her.'

“Oh, don't tire yourselves out, exams will be in two days. See you!!” Sango smiled and waved at Kagome whose eyes bulged at Sango's reaction.

“Oh, they look so in love it's cute!” Kanna, one of the new cheerleaders squealed. She was bopped on the head by Kikyo.

“Idiot! What's so cute about them?!” Kikyo yelled.

“I…I…umm…” Kanna stammered and the pale, petite girl blushed.




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Kagome let Inuyasha pull her and they stopped and sat on a bench near the Math building, the same place where he brought her to listen to his proposition months ago. Kagome sat stiffly, unsure of what to say.

“So…” Inuyasha started and Kagome looked at his eyes for the first time in three weeks. She winced at the sadness she saw in them and felt guilty. 'Oh, he had to tell Kikyo we're together to save me. This is bad.' She thought biting her lower lip.

“Inuyasha, I'm sorry.” She blurted out as she turned her face away.

“Huh?”

“I know what you did, you had to lie in front of her to save me and I'm sorry that I was not able to deliver my part of the bargain.”

“Kagome, look…”

“And I'm sorry I don't have ten million yen to pay for damages either, although you can have my laptop if you like…” Kagome offered and Inuyasha laughed.

“Hey…”

“I'm sorry, I'll go tell her everything.” Kagome said as she started to get up.

“Sit down!” Inuyasha commanded and Kagome sat down raising her brow at Inuyasha.

“My, we're getting forceful, are we?” She asked as she turned to face him fully.

“Kagome, look…”

“I'm looking.” Kagome replied blandly as she tried to calm her racing heart. 'Argh, too near for comfort!' She thought and she hastily leaned back a little.

“Why are you nervous?” Inuyasha asked smiling.

“I'm not! Do I sound nervous?” Kagome replied.

“I can smell you.”

“Yeah right...”

“Yes I can...” Inuyasa replied as he leaned forward and took a sniff.

“Fine, if that's the case, can you smell that I'm eager to leave too?” She asked smiling disarmingly at Inuyasha.

“I can smell more than that…” He replied teasingly and Kagome cursed whatever organ is responsible for making her blush. With resolve, she returned his smirk.

"Are you sure your nose is working well, you should have smelled that Kikyo was toying with you…" She said haughtily and stopped. "Oh Christ, sorry!" She hurriedly apologized realizing the unintended insult and covered her mouth with both her hands. 'Oh crap, go Kagome, this guy jeopardized his love life for you and you just had to hurt his feelings.'

“I'm sorry.” Kagome repeated as she stared at her lap.

“Don't worry, you'll find someone worthy.” She said, her heart breaking when Inuyasha preferred to stare at her and say nothing.

No response.

“Okay, let's go, home room's about to start.” She smiled as she held her hand out to Inuyasha. Inuyasha looked at Kagome's outstretched hand and stood up. Kagome withdrew her hand and sighed. 'He's angry.' She mused sadly as she smiled apologetically at him and turned to leave.

“I miss you…” Inuyasha whispered and Kagome stopped walking and closed her eyes as she felt the telltale prickling of unshed tears.

“I miss you... so much...” He repeated although he did not make a move towards her. Kagome turned to face him and rolled her eyes at him as her tears fell.

“I miss you too, baka.” He extended his hand towards her and she stared at it.

"Kagome..."

"Crap, you're such an idiot!" She yelled as she took his hand and felt his arm wrap around her.

"But you miss me." Inuyasha replied against her hair.

"Whatever."

"You're stupid for ignoring me for so long…” He whispered in her ear.

“And you're stupid for pissing me off that we had to do detention…” She replied.

“Ah, that was the highlight of my life. You straddling me, half-naked telling me I've been visiting your dreams not exactly fully-clothed…” Inuyasha whispered dreamily and tightened his grip on her when she struggled to be free from him

"Jerk!" Kagome mumbled as she tried in vain to push Inuyasha away.

"Don't worry, I dream of you too…" He whispered again and kissed her hair. Kagome stopped moving. "Every night, you visit me in my dreams and let me do things to you that we'd both be embarrassed to talk about..."

"Ummm…let's not talk about it," Kagome said feeling her face burst into flames.

“You have nothing to be ashamed of, Kagome.”

“Umm…can we not talk about it, please?” Kagome asked as she tilted her head to look at Inuyasha's grinning face.

“Okay, although I admit I really was stupid…” Inuyasah grinned wider as he wiped Kagome's tears off with his thumb. 'I was stupid for not seeing what was in front of me.' He thought.

“Okay, now that we agreed on that…” Kagome sniffed. “Let's go or we'll be late.” Kagome said as she pulled Inuyasha with her.

“Kagome,”

“Hmmm…”

“Do you still love me?” He suddenly asked and Kagome stopped in her tracks. 'Oh-kay, what the hell is this?' She asked herself as she turned her head to look at him.

“What do you mean?” She asked carefully.

“I mean, your feelings have not changed, I hope…”

“We're friends of course I love you.” Kagome replied slowly as she stared at her black school shoes.

“I'm glad…”

“Me too…come on, we'll be late!”

“Kagome…” Inuyasha called her name again.

“Okay, what now?” Kagome replied rolling her eyes as she tried to calm her heart. 'Stop, Inuyasha or I'm going to die of cardiac arrest!' She thought desperately.

“I love you too.” Inuyasha said and Kagome's jaw dropped. She closed her mouth with a snap and sighed...

“Don't do this to me, Inuyasha…” She said as she turned and walked ahead of him.

“Do what?” He asked as he followed her.

“Don't make me fall, I'm falling hard as it is…” She whispered softly as a slight breeze passed and loose tendrils swayed softly around her face.

“Good,” Inuyasha replied as he caught up with her steps. “That makes us even…” He whispered and took her hand in his.

'Oh gods...' Kagome thought with a groan as she felt him squeeze her hand.




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Author's Note:


Finally...some progress...REVIEW. Thanks.

~yanna~