Untill My Return

A/N
This story has been separated into three different chapters. Unfortunately my beta has been busy, but I can't blame, I myself have been as well. I also feel that doing beta is such a burden. I tried to beta for some one and I hated it. So, this story will be posted in the mean time as is. Just so that my fans know I'm still alive and writing. As for my story the substitute, YES, I will be continuing that, it was the first story I wrote chapter by chapter. Hence why it took so long. So as soon as I finish writing the whole story, I will get it divided into equally fascinating chapters and have it back up for your pleasure. I want to thank my fans for still reading my old shit and for the new ones. I want to thank my friend Simonkal of Inuy who is a great author, I recommend you read her work if you already haven't. And to my Big sis, who is my beta, even though I don't get to talk to you as much as before, you are always in my mind.

As for the story itself, I have been keeping track of the true Inuyasha manga, and I know how the final battle happens and everything in between, so if you too read the manga, its best to just pretend you don't know whats up. After all, its fan fiction. We can do what we want, how we want, and damn it, enjoy what we do.

tootles

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I do not own Inuyasha or things of that sort. I only own the ideas in my head and the computer I use to make them into stories.

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Eleven Years Ago

It was a beautiful, the sky was clear, the sun was warm, and the wind was cool. A little miss Rin was busy collecting flowers for her dear Lord Sesshomaru. She paused to feel the wind on her face. It was days like this that made all the bad things blow away. She wished that every one could feel the way she did, maybe there would be no more blood and hatred.

She heard a rustling at her side. She stood up to see Jakken muttering his way to her.

“Jakken! Isn't today just the greatest day ever.” She said, twirling around with the flowers in her hand.

She could hear a small sigh escape from Jaken's form.

She stopped to look at him. “Jakken? Whats wrong?” she gasped, “Are you ill?” and quickly placed her hand on his forehead.

“Ga! Get your hand off me, I'm fine you stupid girl.” He didn't look her in the face, but stared off to the side.

She looked over in the direction he was looking at, there wasn't anything but more flowers.

“Jakken?” she said, squatting down to his side.

With one more sigh, and still not making eye contact, he spoke. “Lord Sesshomaru wishes to speak to you. He's at camp. Run along.”

“O . . kay.” She stood and walked off.

Jaken was acting unusual. Her young mind couldn't understand what would make him so distant, almost as if he was avoiding her.

She walked toward camp and noticed the small village behind the thick trees. She stopped, what a cute village, she thought to herself.

“Rin.” A deep voice, the only voice she obeyed , only her lords.

She stood straight and turned around. “Yes, lord Sesshomaru?”

“Do you like the village?” He asked standing at her side.

She turned to look at it again. “Its so cute, small and friendly.”

He stayed stoic, and walked slowly toward the village.

She instinctively followed.

“My lord?” her curiosity, she was told, would be the end of her.

“Rin, you are too young to understand, but as my ward, you have the right to know, even if you are a mere child.” He stopped at the village's entrance. “I'm going to fight Naraku, it is too dangerous for you to continue on our journey.”

She looked to the ground, the words churned and bubbled. He was going to leave her behind.

“NO! I don't want to stay behind. Please Lord Sesshomaru, take me with you.” she cried.

“Stop it Rin.” His tone remained cool and collected.

She stop, she always obeyed.

“I'm not leaving you behind, I'm securing you safety. The village headman has agreed to take you in. You will stay here until I return.”

She felt the silent tears slide down her checks, until I return, the very words she would hang on to.

“Promise?” she asked, still looking to the ground.

It wasn't in his nature to show sympathy, but he knew it would make it easy for the girl. “I promise.”

She took a deep breath and looked up at him with the biggest smile, the very smile that encouraged him to revive her when they first met, “Okay my Lord, until you return.”

He smiled slightly to himself. She was a strong one. He liked that.

He walked her to the headmaster's hut. He didn't have any children, just him and his wife. They were pleased to take in Rin for the time being, and as for payment, Sesshomaru gave the headmaster a small bag of coins.

“Rin, come on in and make yourself at home.” the kind woman said, giving her hand to Rin.

She took it hesitantly, this would be her first time in a year that she would live in a village.

Walking inside with the kind woman, Sesshomaru waited till Rin was out of hearing distance.

“I expect you to take very good care of her. There will be no excuses.” Sesshomaru stated, his hand beginning to glow a pale green.

“Of course my Lord.” The headmaster knew better. If he wished for his village's well being, he'd obey.

At least he was getting something for it.

Sesshomaru looked once more at his Rin. She was smiling while the lady of the house was distracting her with the dog. What he has been through to keep her alive, he's been to hell and back for her. To even dare and risk her life at war would truly be heart breaking.

He turned and left the hut.

Once at the edge of the woods he turned back to look at the village and the surroundings. It seemed safe, they even had a small group of men called the guardians.

The village was hidden under the mountains, there was a river near by with plenty of fish, and just before the woods there was a big garden, enough food for years. He could hear the faint sound of a small water fall somewhere in the distance, probably secluded from the villagers eyes, she would be able to bathe regularly. He could even smell the worm farm to make silk. She would be very safe here. She would have no need to leave.

He turned back to face the woods, he could hear the pleasant laughter of Rin. He smiled to himself.

Rin, be safe, until my return.

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The world will stop spinning, if I can never again see your face.

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Present day

Rin was busy helping the many woman in the with the huge feast. It was autumn, time for the huge festival. There would be music, dancing, eating, and games. She loved every minute of it. Even as a child, when she was brought here, the festival helped her get over her sadness of missing her lord Sesshomaru and Jaken.

But this year's festival was making her nervous. There was a rumor that Yasashiku would be asking her for her hand in marriage.

Yasashiku was brave, courageous, generous, and very handsome. He was now the knew general of the guardians. The men who go into the woods and destroy any kind of demon who might try and attack the village.

It was every girls dream to be with him. The one every woman fantasies to marry, and here was Rin, not interested. Well, she did find him very attractive, she might fancy him a little, but she just didn't love him. She couldn't understand why. Every girl wanted him and she didn't.

It was starting to worry her. Maybe there was something wrong with her.

She sighed heavily.

“Rin? Is something the matter?” Akina asked, the headmaster's wife.

“Oh, no, I'm fine, I was just daydreaming.” Rin placed the pie she was working on to bake.

“I think,” Akina moved to Rin's side, placing her hands on her shoulders, “That miss Rin is nervous about a certain event that might take place during the festival.” She laughed lightly.

“Oh now, those were just rumors. Yasa could have any girl he wants, why would he want some one like me?” She stopped at the site of Akina's facial expression, a lift eyebrow and a small smirk.

“Yasa?”

“Oh. . . well. . . um.” Rin began to blush.

“Your the only one he lets call him that.” Akina placed her hands on her hips, “That might mean something.”

“I've always called him that, even we were children.”

“Yeah, but now he is a general, he has a title, unless?” she gasped, her eyes went wide. “He gave you personal permission to call him that?” Akina couldn't keep her giggles.

“OH stop it now. We are friends, ever since I was brought here, besides even if I wanted to, which I don't, if I wanted to marry him, I can't. I'll be leaving when Lord Sesshomaru comes to get me.”

Akina's face changed to concern. It worried her so that Rin continued to hold onto her lords words even after eleven years.

“Rin,” her voice was soft and filled with worry. She looked around and notice the other women staring. “Rin, lets go outside.” She placed her hand on Rin's back and walked her out.

They walked a bit toward the small river a little less than a mile away from the village.

“Rin, Its been eleven years, don't you think its time you moved on and live life now?” Akina held the girl's hand.

“I know its been a while, but he promised. I will wait, even if it takes a lifetime.” Rin's voice was shaky.

“Rin.” Akina didn't know what she could say. Her mind went blank.
“I'm afraid.” Rin said quietly.

“Afraid? Afraid of what?” Akina didn't understand.

“My lord is strong and powerful, something must have went wrong.”

Akina can see that Rin was finally releasing the worry she had been holding for years.

“Rin, maybe he thinks your better off here. Look at all the friends you have, you've grown into the finest woman I've ever seen.”

“You don't understand, I belong with my Lord, Only him.” Rin was determined.

“Rin, it sounds like you love him.” Akina was now very worried. How could Rin love someone who's been gone for eleven years.

Rin hadn't thought of it that way, “No, I love him like a father. . . I think.” she was confused.

“Rin, before you go the festival, you need to sort out your emotions. If you don't you could hurt more than just yourself.”

Rin nodded. “Yea.” she said quietly “I know.”

Akina gave her a mother like hug. “I know you wish to return to his side, but do you really want leave us behind? Even me?”

Rin could fell the tears fall on her shoulder.

She hated herself for not knowing what to do.

Akina was like a mother to her. Even after Akina gave birth to Cho and Haru, Rin was always treated as family.

This would end painfully.

Either her lord never returns, or she leaves a heartbroken Akina behind.

Rin hugged her back.

Akina let go and smiled, “Well I'll let you be, I have to go and help the ladies.” She gave Rin a kiss on the cheek, “see you in a while.”

Akina left Rin to herself.

Rin sighed, she had to think things over. She needed to think of every possible outcome.

But none of them could understand, she owed Sesshomaru her life, a hundred times over. Something must have happened, if Sesshomaru wanted to rid of her, he would have let her die all those times.

She grunted her frustration. What would she do if he was to come for, no when he comes for her. She sighed. Maybe Akina was right. Maybe it was time she moved on. She looked up to the moon, she always did when she was thinking of Sesshomaru.

“Stop acting like your in love.” She told herself. A quick gasp escape her lips.

What if, what if she does love him. Not like a father, but as a man. She turned red, and then she turned sad. She knew her lord would never marry a human. To even think so would insult him. What would she do when she goes off with him. She wouldn't be able to be his mate. She would wither away, never having felt the warmth of another mans love.
A tear fell down her face. She won't let herself hurt any more. She wanted a family one day, Yasashiku was human, and she knew he would give her the warmth she was missing.

She looked up to the moon one more time. “My Lord Sesshomaru, your little Rin can no longer wait for you, forgive me.”

She looked to the ground and sighed. It was the only possible outcome.
She made her way back the village.

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Among the pedals of Roses, you will find my passion.
Look at the stars, and you will find my love

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