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introducing her first story. It's pretty self explanatory, but hopefully
enjoyable.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Summary: class=SpellE>Inuyashastyle='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'> reflects on class=SpellE>Kikyo's death and how Kagome fit into all of it. class=GramE>M/F I/K Pairing. ;] One-shot.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Disclaimer:style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'> Rumiko Takahashi
rightly owns InuYasha and deserves so. Without her,
we would never have our dog-eared love, Inu-chan!
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>A/N: WARNING! --- style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Major Spoilers!
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>"class=SpellE>Kikyo, since the moment I was born, you were the very first
woman I've ever loved."
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Kagomestyle='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>
class=SpellE>MissieMaestyle='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>::class=SpellE>Inuyasha POV::
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>It had been two weeks
since Kikyo's death and my sorrow has even gotten me
in trouble.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>I did not fake or lie
to Kikyo when I gave her my first real
confession. I held her lightly in my
lap, embracing every last moment of her.
For so many years, she has tormented my heart filling it with love,
hatred, and love again.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Holding her in my
arms before she slipped away was the very first moment I poured all of my
emotions into.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>She told me that she
can finally be an ordinary woman. At
that moment I cried. Cried
so hard so long and hard since her reawakening.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I cried for the life we never had and almost
did. I cried for everything we ever had
to experience for this last moment which would be her last breathe.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> God, I cried for the love I never got to show
her and rushed it all into this moment.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>I refused to wipe the
tears from my face and I refused to look away from her eyes.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>She was smiling.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>She was beautiful.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Engraving every
moment in her heart I leaned down to kiss her.
This was it. The
last kiss. We both needed
it. We both cried through it.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I drained everything in my heart for her in
that last kiss. And before I was
finished, she was taken away from me.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>I watched her
disappear bursting into a parade of lights as her soul collectors danced with
her. The lights and the soul collectors
spread around everyone as a final touch and goodbye.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> It was so warm.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>The last of her soul
flew straight to Kagome, who had tears in her eyes.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> Oh, my Kagome. As much as I wanted her
comfort and her shoulder, it wasn't right.
It wouldn't be fair for her.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>I stared at the sky
as Kikyo's light dispersed and I tipped her off a
final goodbye in my head and my heart. Because after that I
could not dwell. No, I would
never dwell.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>It's been two weeks
since her death. I've gotten in trouble
from my sorrow, allowing a demon to make me shed tears of blood because of an
illusion. In my sorrow, in my mourn for class=SpellE>Kikyo's death, I fell a fool for it and desperately wished
for the illusion to be true.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>But then, I hear her
voice. My guardian angel, Kagome.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>She was calling for
me and she broke me out of my trance.
After that whole scene, I've been thinking.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I was being selfish again and forgetting that
Kagome was in pain too. I wasn't the
only one suffering. My angel was suffering
too.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>From the very start,
Kagome has changed me as a whole. She
had been my strength in a fight, my trust, my portal to a while new life I
never dreamed I would having. She was the only one to cry for me, worry for my
well being, kept me grounded. She gave
me a reason to be who I am and to not change.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>She gave me friends,
she gave me happiness.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>And lately I've been
taking that for granted.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Kagome had always
been there and I haven't had the chance to miss her.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> That is probably because I refuse to be
without her each hour of my life. There
was one time that I had missed her so much, that I nearly cried to her sudden
appearance in front of me. And she was
embracing me with tears of her own. class=GramE>I regretting pushing her away from me.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> It didn't stop bothering me that wondering
what if she never got a hold of the jewel shard to come back to my time. Now, I
never want her to leave and find myself chasing after her to come back. Though,
it is much safer in her own time.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>I couldn't live if
she died. I suffered through class=SpellE>Kikyo's death twice.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Kagome's death...
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>I never thought about
it because I would never let it happen.
It wasn't until this day have I realized that everything I am and
everything I do is either a result or because of Kagome's effect on me. style='mso-spacerun:yes'> Even my last moment with Kikyo
was effected by how Kagome effected me.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>It was because of
Kagome's tenderness and frailty that I was able to embrace Kikyo
the way I did.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>It was because Kagome
had shown me compassion and trust that I was so freely able to let my soul pour
out to Kikyo.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>It was because Kagome
saved Kikyo all those times that I received that
chance to have a proper goodbye.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Kagome was the very
first woman I've cried over which eventually opened all the gateways for the
future tears like the ones I shed for Kikyo and
Kagome was the one who taught it was okay.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>It was because of
Kagome that I had told Kikyo she "was the very first
woman I've ever loved" and not, "the only woman I've ever
loved."
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>You know, if someone
were to ask who I loved more?style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I wouldn't be able to answer. Maybe in the
future, I would, but not that this moment.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>I let my tears run
and my kiss linger in my goodbye to Kikyo.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> It was because I knew I was letting her
go. I left everything in my heart for
her at that moment. I would not dwell on
my past. I could then focus on my
future. Kikyo
was a woman I loved with all my heart.
She was my first true love and like any first love,style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I could never stop loving her.
However, like most all first loves, you move on and take what they've taught
you. I took special care of the thought class=SpellE>Kikyo left me. That
even I could find love in loneliness. Kikyo was my
first love.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Kagome is class=GramE>my everything. She is
the reason why I am the way I am now. I
feel love, anger, sadness, trust, compassion,
everything with her. She loved me for my
flaws and the good that she supposedly sees.
She loves me even though I kissed another woman and cry for her. She
loves me even though I'm rude and push her away.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I took her for granted because she was always
there no matter what. How could I not love her?
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>She is
everything.
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class=SpellE>Kikyostyle='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'> is my past. Kagome
is my present. Two of the same souls, same looks, however so different and yet
I love them both.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>How did I become so
fortunate? How, when I am so unworthy?
How did a hanyou like me, won the heart of not
only one, but two women? How was
I so fortunate to lose one love, and still have another one waiting for me?
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>It was the reason I
could never dwell on Kikyo.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> It was Kagome that readily welcomed me whenever
I was ready. I could not dwell on class=SpellE>Kikyo because I have Kagome.style='mso-spacerun:yes'>
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class=GramE>Whom
I have a lot to make up to for all she's done for me.style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'> I love what she has
made me become. I love her for that and
much more.
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>Kagome was not only
my present. She is my future.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> And I couldn't wait for it to come
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style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>This was my special
release. After I read class=SpellE>Kikyo's death,style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I was so touched by it.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> It was beautiful and I loved it.style='mso-spacerun:yes'> I also felt inspired to write this.
Hopefully, you guys enjoyed it. And if you did, please leave a review. ;]
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class=SpellE>Utadastyle='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'> Hikaru's
First Love, was also an inspiration.
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class=SpellE>Anywhoclass=GramE> --
until next time.
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class=SpellE>MissieMaestyle='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Arial","sans-serif"'>
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