Resentment

Resentment
Hi, everyone. This is my very first fic that I actually put on a website. This is a songfic. The song is Rentment by Beyonce so tell me what you think and I know I’m going to continue this.


I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright

He had just walked in the house walking to the closet hanging up his jacket and putting his shoes to the left side of the door on the rug. That was always a topic of discussion amongst many other things in our fights or more like screaming fits. I just sat there on the couch pretending to not notice his presence. It was late, eleven O’clock to be exact. When I realized what time it was my mind went to one thought Kikyo. It had been one week since Inuyasha confessed to be cheating on me with a woman name Kikyo, since then

But now everything you told me really don't apply
To the way I feel inside

That name floats in my name like a bad omen. After that discussion our relationship had drastically change. I told him to move into the guest room so I could have some space to think.

Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
And it's all because you lied

The funny thing was that I wasn’t surprised at all. Its funny how you try to lie to yourself and keep holding onto some fantasy that you know will never happen. The signs were obvious he gets of work at five-thirty and he would be home by six. But recently he had been getting home after eleven, actually I was surprised he was home at all on average he would get home at midnight. I know he’s still seeing her probably trying to get me to say something. He has yet to realize that he’s playing games and that only little boys play games because real men deal with their issues head on.

I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

“You were working late.” I said more as a statement than a question.
It seems he was startled at my words like he thought I would just ignore him.
“Ye-yes. That old man is working me to the bone.” Walking to his bedroom. Before he got there I spoke.
“Inu. What’s that on your shirt collar?” Getting up from the couch and padding over where he stood.
“Oh this? It’s from my mother she was visiting father and decided to stop by.” Fiddling with stained collar with his thumb and forefinger. I stepped closer to him and wound my arms around his neck pulling him close inhaling his scent. I knew he was lying he smelled like Lucky by Brittany Spears. And I know for a fact that the only perfume Izaiyo wears is White Diamonds because it’s the only one Inu Taisho can stand with his super nose.
“Hmm. Your mothers using a new fragrance? I like it.” I disentangled myself from him went to my room throwing a goodnight over my shoulder. He just stood there for a moment before walking into the bathroom.

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me

Shutting the door behind me I went to the bed and got under the covers. I cried myself to sleep pouring out all of my sorrows on the pillows we used to share when we where happy and madly in love. Only one thing gave me enough peace to fall into the dream world. I was and email from Sango. And I think it went a little something like this:
A guy has 4 different types of girls..

1. Wifey
2. Boo
3. Bitches
4. Ho's

1) Wifey is irreplaceable.. But she is the only one that is irreplaceable.. She is the girl that the guy loves and will always loves and he never wants to see her with another man.. But, He will cheat on her with Boo, Bitches, and Ho's until he is mature enough to realize that if he loses Wifey he would be screwed, and NEVER be happy again..

2) Boo is replaceable, she thinks she's Wifey, but will NEVER be Wifey because Wifey was made Wifey and is irreplaceable.. She can NEVER replace her.. Boo tries to take Wifeys spot, but once she attempts, the guy allows her to get a TASTE of Wifey's spot... but will NEVER achieve her spot for any longer than a few months, then the man goes back to Wifey.. And Boo either gets replaced with another Boo, or, the man matures and decides that Wifey is the one for him.. (Ladies.. you don't want to be BOO)

3) Bitches.. A female that a male uses only for sex or other sexually related events. That’s called for when Wifey is acting up and he needs a quick nut. The bitch is the first one running there.

4) Ho's.. Enough said! Trying to move up in life, wants to be a Bitch or a Boo. Hoes are just the girls you bag for no reason and have them in your phone. Backups incase a bitch or a boo slips up. Then you replace with a hoe

Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no
The very thing you gave to me

It’s been one month. Things had been so much better I even let Inuyasha start sleeping in our room again. Even the sex was incredible. I went of to work that morning thinking that I could forget about his infidelity maybe start trying for a baby. I got home that evening around six. I hung up my coat and put my shoes on the rug and sat my purse on the couch. I was on my way to the kitchen for orange juice when I noticed there was one message. I clicked play and went to retrieve my orange juice.

“Hey there Kags, its Inu. I’m sorry babe but I have to work late tonight. I’ll be home by ten so can you warm me up some tea please? Well I gotta go love you, kisses.”
That was the Inuyasha I married the one that was considerate and never forgot to say I love you. I decided to watch some T.V. to pass the time by until I put on the tea. At nine-thirty I put on the tea and made sure to put some sugar in it to make it the way he liked. After putting the tea on the stove the phone rang.
“Hello.”
“Kagome, I have something to tell you.”
“Hi, Sango. What do you have to tell me.”
“I think you should sit down first.” I quickly sat down.
“Okay, what is it?”
“Well tonight I decided to try something knew and took Miroku to a play. That’s when I saw you and Inuyasha. Miroku and I approached you guys but instead we saw a woman that looked just like to with brown eyes. We even caught her name it’s Kikyo. I was just wondering if she’s one of Inuyasha’s business associates?”
My blood was boiling I couldn’t believe it. That Bastard!
“Sango, I have to call you back. Okay? Bye.” I said hanging up before she could reply. I decided that night that I was leaving I couldn’t take it anymore. I packed up my bags and left. I didn’t leave a note; I just needed to get away.

I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

It’s been two months sense I left the house. I’ve been staying in a hotel since then. Inuyasha is still ringing my cell phone constantly but I can’t bring myself to answer it. The first time I found out he was cheating and he apologized and all that bull I thought I could forgive and forget but when someone betrays you like that you may be able to forget but never forget. I decided to just go to sleep early tonight so I could have some energy for what I was about to do the following day.

I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

Early that day I got dressed and headed toward my old home with a purpose. The hotel wasn’t to far from the house to I got there and just sat in the driveway. I remember when Inuyasha took me here to show me where our new house would be built. I remember it like it was yesterday. The sun was high in the sky and there was a slight breeze making the temperature perfect for outdoor activities. Inu planned a picnic so we sat there on the lot and had our little picnic. Looking back I noticed that things between us only started to turn sour this last year. It was late November and the year was coming to a close.

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this
I'm much too full of resentment

I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

I went up to the door and turned my key in the lock. I stepped inside and as I looked around everything was the same. It seemed like nothing was touched so I could just come back and pick up where I left. My heart fluttered at the thought but my mind told me it was already too late. I went to the kitchen to get some trash bags to get started. Since I knew Inuyasha was home probably still asleep so I decided to start in the closet up front. It took about half an hour to clear the closet. I took the bags outside to my awaiting silver Suburban put them inside.

Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
It was sacrificed
And it's all because you lied

I opened to the door to be pulled into a pair of muscular arms. I just stood there limp in his hold. The less I moved the tighter Inu would hold me. I didn’t move at all. Inu kissed my forehead then move on to kiss every part of my face. He kissed my neck and gave it a lick but still I did nothing. I guess after receiving no response he finally realized it was too late.

I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this
But I'm too damn full of resentment

He picked me up bridal style walked to the couch and sat down with me in his lap. For a moment we just sat there in silence. Then he started to cry and I cried with him. We both new that our marriage was over permanently. I cried for a few moments then wiped my tears away and walked into the bedroom to get the rest of my things. I was in there for about an hour when Inu came in and started helping me fold up my clothes and put them in a bag.
I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin' with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what's up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying cant stop crying cant stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn't happy
I know you didn't wanna hurt me
But look what you done-done to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes and see she's half of me
How could you lie
After putting a many bags in the car I went back in to get the last bag and Inuyasha was sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. I was about to pick up the last bag when he suddenly looked up. He was looking into my eyes pleading with me. His voice came out scratchy and said.
“Don’t go Kagome. We can work it out. I love you.” He slid of the couch and crawled towards me on his hands and knees. He kneeled in front of me encircling my waste with his arms and put his face in my stomach.
“Inu, do you know what I did every night you stayed out late. I sat on that couch like an obedient puppy waiting for my master to come home. Did you know that I have lost sixty pounds? You know that time when we weren’t having sex? Well I thought it was because you thought I was undesirable so I went on a strict diet of starving myself. I stopped doing my hair the way I liked and let it hang down the way you always liked it. I stopped wearing perfume because of your nose. I didn’t wear make-up anymore because you said, “You look like a clown.” I only wore skirts because you don’t like me to wear pants. I only wore red, black, blue, and white because those are you favorite colors. I stopped visiting my family because you said I wasn’t spending enough time with you. I gave my whole life to you Inuyasha and today I’m taking it back. I used to stay up at night thinking about what made her so much better than me. Why was she worthy enough to have your time? To take out in public. I realized something while I was gone. I was dieing slowly and you know what? I don’t want that to happen so I’m going to start living my life now. In order to do that I have to get rid of the thing that’s killing me and that’s you Inuyasha. I’ll always care for you Inu but will never again let this happen to me again. I’m leaving now so good by Inu. If anyone calls for me tell them I don’t live here anymore to call my cell phone.” With that I removed Inu’s hands from my waste and grabbed my bag. Before I walked out the door I turned around and gave Inuyasha a kiss on the forehead and whispered in his ear “I’ll always love you, goodbye Inu.”