To lose your Self

To lose your Self
by Kagehoshi
Ch 1 I am

*I do not Own Inu Yasha...or God...or anything I shouldn't*

I was born human, though I am not anymore. I had a family once, though they have long since turned to dust. I existed among those who I called friend, though I no longer remember their names. I had a human form, I think I was pretty, though that no longer matters. I had hopes and dreams, though I have forgotten them. I lived, and loved and laughed. I was happy, though that was a long time ago. I am Kagome Higurashi and I am a God.

Everything is so different now. A hundred thousand voices whisper in each ear, a hundred thousand sights fill each eye, a thousand tastes and a thousand smells fill my mouth and nose. I feel everything and I know all.

I dwell in a silver city, filled with light. There are others like me, yet we are all one person. I am Isis, I am Athena, I am Frigg, I am Badb, I am Asase Ya, I am Izanami. I am that which creates and that which destroys. I am the embodiment of humanity, yet I have transcended all of that.

I have been such since the beginning of time, yet it has only been a few days. Time matters not in the silver city. Past, present, future, blend and meld until it is impossible to separate them.

I was once myself, or did I never exist? The memories of a hundred thousand lives echoes within my thoughts, why are these so special? What is Kagome? What does it mean to be human? I have forgotten, or perhaps I have never known.

I am all that is, all that has been, and all that will be. I am everything and I am nothing. I am the light in the darkness and the darkness in the light. I am everywhere yet I no longer exist. I am thought and memory, dreams and reality. I am endless and finite. I am the beginning and I am the end. I am called a thousand different things yet I am nameless.

I was born, yet I created all things. I died, yet I will live until time ceases to be. I feel, yet I am emotionless.

I float above the world, looking down. Yet I am there when you take your first breath, and I stand beside you when you breathe your last. When you pray, you pray to me. When you curse someone to hell, it is to my arms they come.

I am Yin and Yang. I am solitary, yet I am never alone.

It was not always such. Once I was a human being, albeit one with power, but still human. But all that began to change the day that monster died.

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All right here's the thing with this story, this is going to involve some seriously dark and psychologically disturbing things. The whole purpose of this story is ONLY to test my English Language skills to the maximum. It won't be updated on a cycle like the rest of my stories, simply because that will be impossible. I am going to be using some very deep philosophy here and some things are very difficult to translate through the language barriers. This is a joint effort between me and my Language Partner, Emily. We're going to be seriously pushing the limits of our comprehension, so please bear with us. If we find that we're having too much difficulty with this we'll simply take it down until our skills improve. Thank you for understanding.