Passionate Disputes

Author's Notes:  This is my first attempt at an
Inu Yasha fan fic.  I fell in love with the show 2 weeks ago and after
reading tons of fan fics, I was inspired last week to write my own.  I was
planning it to be a one shot fic but afterwards I changed my mind and decided to
install chapters instead.  Once a week I will be adding a new chapter and the fic
should consist about approximately 10 or 12 chapters in total.  I should warn you
now however that this fic is going to be a lemon I will be
using course language too .  If you do not like those things then I suggest
that you turn back now.  LOL  As for those who like lemons, I hope you all
will enjoy this fan fic.  This is my second attempt at a writing lemon but
it's the first that I'll be completing so please be kind.   Ja ne!

Disclaimer:  I don't own Inu Yasha although I
wish I did since he looks so hot.  *Drools*  A girl can dream, can't she?

Inu Yasha and the gang have finally beaten
Naraku and alsopletpleted in gathering all the shards to form the Shikon jewel once again. 
Now the gang are walking back to the Bone Eater's well to see Kagome off while
she goes back home.  After hours of walking, night descends upon the group forcing
them to break for the night.  As usual, Inu Yasha goes off
by himself to sit up in a tree to guard everyone from unexpected intruders while they sleep. 
Now that the jewel is complete once again, many more monsters will be after it.  While he's up there, he has a lot of time to think
to himself and starts to reflect upon things about his life. 
'Man!  Can my life get any more complicated than it already is?  But
most importantly, we finally defeated that bastard, Naraku, not too long ago and we've finally
gotten all the shards back together to once again form the Shikon jewel.'  Inu Yasha snickers.  'Now all I have to do is steal it from Kagome so I can
finally become a full blooded demon.'  Inu Yasha grins evilly then his face softens
into a sad expression.  'Humph!  Well that is what I wanted at first but
after all this time I've spent with everyone...no...with Kagome especially, my feelings have
changed because of her.  I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for
her.  She helped set things in perspective for me.  Humph!  I'll never admit that to her though. 
It'd never would work out between us anyway.  There's just too many factors
to take into consideration.  First of all, we live in two different eras. 
One of us would have to make a sacrifice in which era to live in.  I would
never force her to make that decision.  Never!  Never ever! 
Secondly, there's the fact that I'm half demon and, if I ever turn into a full-blooded
demon
again, I could hurt her or even worse kill her unintentionally.  I wouldn't
be able to live with myself if I ever harmed her in any way.  And third is Kikyo.  I am over Kikyo.  I fully understand that we were never meant
to be.  She is and always will be part of my past.  Kagome is my
future.  Well at least I want her to be.  I wanna hold her in my arms
forever and never let her go.  Kiss her fully on those beautiful lips of
hers and all
over her face too.  I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with her
but it may never be.  And she still thinks that I would prefer Kikyo over
her any day.'  He growls.  'Never!  I would choose her over Kikyo
in the end.  Kikyo was my first love so I will sort of always have feelings
for her but I've dealt with them and put them behind me.  I really don't regret
the love I had with Kikyo but it was never meant to be.  I finally
understand that now.  And we never even trusted
each other completely which got her killed in the end.  At least, Ke
e
has always been there for me and trusts me.  Well, I'm going to start trusting
her fully too.  After all, it's the least she deserves.  And after all
this fiasco with Naraku and Kikyo, I met Kagome in the end because of it which I
don't regret either.  I'm so glad that I've met Kagome.  And I don't
love her alone for the fact that she Kikyo's reincarnation.  There's a
little bit of truth to that fact but I really do see Kagome as a whole different
person than Kikyo ever was and I love her for it.  In the end, Kikyo is really dead
now so I now have a chance to be with Kagome.  And finally, what about Koga?  If I
really do want Kagome as my mate, I've gotta act soon before he claims her.' 
Suddenly an astonishing thought crosses Inu Yasha's mind and he growls. 
'He might even be capable of taking her
against her own will.  I would never let him hurt her as long as I live. 
I would die for her.  That's how much I love Kagome.  I know she loves
me too but is she really ready to make that kind of commitment.  That's why
this is so complicated and serious and she doesn't understand any of it.  She's already drives me nuts
when she goes into heat and each and every time it's
pure torture for me because I can't touch her the way I really want to. 
And she'll be going into heat soon too.  At least this time I'll have a
break since she's going home for a while.'  Inu Yasha shakes his head in
disgust.  'Ugh! 
I gotta stop thinking like Miroku.  I'm not a pervert and a womanizer like him.  I
respect Kagome and her feelings too.  She's changed me in so many
ways.  I'm so grateful to her.  I'm so glad she entered my life. 
But I still can't be with her.  I'm just too afraid that she may reject me
even if she does love me.  Human and demon relations!  Humph! 
Maybe it worked out for my parents but that doesn't mean that it'll work with us.  Arg!  I just
don't know what to do anymore.  I'm so confused.'  Suddenly, Inu Yasha
is
interrupted from his thoughts as Kagome walks up to him calling his name.

"Inu Yasha!"

His ears perk up at the sound of whoever is calling his name. 
He folds his arms across his chest and turns towards Kagome. 
"Yeah!  What do you want?"

"I know it's really late but I'm having trouble
sleeping."

"So!  Why does that concern me wench?"

'Why that arrogant bastard!  I would sit him for that if
not for everyone sleeping and I surely do not want to wake everyone up.'  "Inu
Yasha, I just felt like taking a walk to clear my head and wondered if you wanna
come with me to protect me.  Well do you?"

Inu Yasha's heart swells up with joy when Kagome mentions for him
to protect her.  'But I don't want to let on that that's how I really feel. 
I better act like my usual self.'  Inu Yasha's shouts, "WHAT???  You
wanna take a walk this late at night?"

"Please, keep your voice down!  Or do you wanna wake
everyone up?  Yes, I do want to take a walk.  Now are you coming or
not?"

"Fine wench!"

"Good!  And while we're at it, we can talk too.  I
really need to tell you something important."  At the sound of that, he
suddenly became very nervous. ome ome turns around and heads off into the
forest with a very flustered Inu Yasha trailing not so far behind her.  As
they walk, she comments on what a beautiful night it is and he agrees with her
still pondering about what she wants to tell him.

"So what do you want to tell me?" he asks nervously.

"Well as you know our mission is finally completed and it's
time for me to go home for a while.  But don't worry, I'll definitely come back real
soon."  Inu Yasha is glad to hear that.  "Even though we've finally
defeated Naraku, I still don't think that will stop me from coming back to the
past to visit you guys.  I'm still look forward to having more adventures
with all of you."

"Yeah!  But Kagome, don't forget that many other demons
will still be after the jewel and it's the only way you can transport yourself through
the well."

"I know that silly.  We'll just all have to try extra
hard to protect it.  You'll help me of course to do that, won't you?"

"Of...of course," he stammers.

"But what about your desire to become a full-blooded demon?"

"People change Kagome.  On a few occasions, I experienced
what it was like to be a full-blooded demon.  Truthfully, it really
terrified me.  I didn't enjoy it much like I thought I would.  I
really thought that I could hurt you and I would never be able to live with
myself afterwards if I ever harmed you in any way."

"Oh Inu Yasha!  That's so sweet of you to say."

Inu Yasha blushes.  "I really meant what I said. 
People change and I have because of you."

Kagome giggles.  "What?  I changed you? 
Now I find that hard to
believe."

"Well you did.  Not all alone though.  The others helped
too as well as and our adventures but mostly it is because of you."

"I'm a bit surprised to hear that but I'm sure glad that I could help." 
Kagome kisses Inu Yasha on the cheek while he blushes even more then before. 
Then he puts his hand to his cheek and smiles back at Kagome.  She returns
the smile with equal passion and asks, "So after we get back to the well,
what are you gonna do afterwards?"

"I'm not sure.  I haven't decided yet."

"Oh!"  Kagome sighs in disappointment.

"Anyway, we better get back to camp.  Is there anything else you
wanted to tell me?"

"Nope," Kagome responds almost cheerfully.  Suddenly Inu
Yasha grabs Kagome's hand, shocking the wits out of her.  But then they both
smile genuinely at each other and walk hand in hand back to camp.

Date: Mon. Feb 9/04