Love Me Love Me Not

Title: Love Me Love Me

Not Chapter: Twenty-Five Years

 Date: August 15, 2010

InuTaisho sighed as he received yet another complaint from one of his ally kingdoms in respect to certain negotiations that were being revised as they were every bi-centennial. When the problems first began, he went to his vassal, Jaken, wondering why the imp had no input on the parchments he left out for the green one to read. When he had asked Jaken, the little demon had replied that he had never intruded upon such delicate paperwork, let alone intrude upon his lord’s private chambers. To say that InuTaisho had been stunned was an understatement, he had been rendered speechless and his entire thought process had shut down because there was only one other individual that had had access to the negotiations in questions. Inuyasha.

It appeared that Inuyasha’s presence had not only affected his political duties, but it had also enhanced his libido. Since the hanyou’s voluntary remission from life, InuTaisho could not even enjoy any of his harem because they did not excite him. It had taken him nearly a decade to figure out why and the reason was that none of them were Inuyasha. They did not have his golden eyes, his cute little white ears, or that tantalizing scent that never failed to make his blood run south. Ever since Inuyasha’s scent had disappeared from the castle, InuTaisho had been physically unable to perform. He could not even please himself and that was frustrating as hell because he had went from a healthy once a day to absolutely nothing. He had not realized that it was Inuyasha’s scent that had aroused him until the scent was no longer available. Even Raja had not been able to push him into celibacy when she passed and her scent disappeared. It also made him angry to think that the pup had such power over him and he wondered if Inuyasha had known and decided to punish him.

Yes, he had not treated the hanyou as a proper mate, but he did not deserve the kind of punishment he was receiving. Then on the other hand, he knew that Inuyasha would not have punished their children in order to get back at him. He had to give the hanyou his due when it came to the pups that he had bore. Inuyasha had cared for them better than he had expected. Thinking of the children, they had taken his predicament the hardest. Sesshoumaru had finally taken to wearing Mokomoko-sama, a pelt that had been made from Inuyasha’s own hair and given to Sesshoumaru at birth. It was the only item in the castle besides the twins’ pelts, Yukiakiri-sama (brightness of snow) and Gisho-sama (playful laughter), that had Inuyasha’s scent and even then it was not very powerful. However, it comforted them and InuTaisho would not begrudge them that as he knew that the reason behind Inuyasha’s ‘departure’ was mostly his fault. He had not just thought that.

InuTaisho sighed as his last thought repeated itself. It was his fault that Inuyasha had left them to themselves. As long as he was being honest with himself, he could also tell himself that he had long since seen the signs in Inuyasha. The hanyou was strong for lasting for a little over a hundred years with him before throwing all to the wind, but even he had known that he was pushing his smaller mate to the breaking point. At that point, he had not cared either, but that had changed when everything started to fall apart because the hanyou left. It did not mean that he liked the hanyou, but he did care for the worth that the bast- Inuyasha had unknowingly demonstrated. InuTaisho had only one course of action left to him; he had to try and convince Inuyasha to come back. He was that desperate to end the ever mounting problems that had started since the half-breed had left.

InuTaisho went out to Bokusenou every day to talk to both the tree, for council, and Inuyasha. He told Inuyasha about how much he was missed and made promises of how he would ensure that Inuyasha would never be treated as he had been. It might not be the best treatment that could be offered given the status of hanyous in general, but it would be marginally better than what he had allowed to happen to Inuyasha in the past. He also assured Inuyasha that his own behavior toward the half demon would change. He would at least be civil to Inuyasha and he promised that he would no longer exclude Inuyasha from their children as he had done or any future children that he was hoping to have with the hanyou. Bokusenou heard everything, but he allowed none of it to reach Inuyasha’s slumber because he did not hear once ounce of sincerity in anything the Daiyoukai had to say. When, if, the dog demon was sincere in his apologies and promises to Inuyasha, perhaps the ancient tree would allow Inuyasha to hear his alpha’s words and Inuyasha could decide for himself if he was ready to return to the world of the living, walking, and talking. However, with the way InuTaisho’s words were going, that would be a long time in coming.