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Can't get you off my mind
"Talk"
'Thought'
*action*
Sounds/other things
Kijo – Demoness ogress she-devil
Youkai- demon
Youki – demonic energy
Hanyou – half demon
Miko – Shinto priestess
Houshi – monk
Taijiya – demon slayer
Shikon no Tama – Jewel of Four souls
Onna – woman
Taiyoukai – great demon
Inu youkai – dog demon
Baka – Stupid
Ningen – Human
Kami – God
Kuso - Shit
Chapter Nine
Can’t get you off my mind
Kagome returned to the feudal era but not before she douched; just in case! She was well aware how good youkai noses could be and she was not willing to chance Inuyasha finding out what happened between her and his hated elder half brother. She just wanted to forget it ever happened, but she knew she could not.
There were many reasons why she could not forget it and the main reason was because it was her first time.
A person could be old and grey bordering on senile but never forget her first time with a male.
It's like a milestone in one's life that marks the ascent into adulthood, no longer a child.
It would be the story one told her daughter when she came to her to speak on such matters albeit the details would be changed slightly.
The details may blur and the name of the male forgotten over time but never the experience or the face of the one who took you on that journey.
When one looses there virginity their partner takes a part of you with them that you will never again have – your innocence.
She was well aware that a person's first time whether a good or bad experience would remain with her forever.
Her experience with him was a pleasant one he had taken such care with her and her body that it had left her with an urge she had never experienced before.
'God I have sex ONE time and already I am such a hentai!' she thought shaking her head while climbing out of the well. She was not looking forward to ever seeing him again. 'I would no doubt die from mortification' she thought embarrassingly. 'I mean off course it would be embarrassing! He saw me naked! He knows what it feels like to – to – to be inside of me.' She stuttered that last part of her thought as she lifted her bag over the edge of the well.
~ Back at the village ~
"Kagome's back." Inuyasha stated as he smelled her scent before standing to go and meet her at the well.
The words caused a chain reaction once Inuyasha stood the rest except Kaede followed suit, all anxious to see Kagome again. She was like family, the sister Sango never had but always wanted, the sister that Miroku never had but could grope, the mother Shippo so longed to have ever since his was taken from him. And there was always Inuyasha he loved her dearly as a best friend at times but also as a potential lover at other times. She was the glue that held their group together, the smile that brightened their gloomy day. She had saved them all offering her friendship and asking for nothing but friendship in return.
They all traveled towards the well Inuyasha making it there first in time to see Kagome's big yellow bag being heaved over the edge.
"Kagomeee!!" an excited Shippo screamed at his mother figure as she stepped over the lip of the well.
"Hi kiddo!" a smiling Kagome responded as she ruffled his auburn hair.
The reunion was spent as every other, no one had noticed anything different and Kagome could not be any happier for it and so they continued there search for the vile hanyou Naraku.
0ooo0
He has been brainwashed!
There was no doubt about it why else would that ningen miko refuse to leave his mind? He had rutted his fair share of females and once he had bedded them they lost their luster.
So why? Why was he so enamored with the miko? She was nothing but a mere ningen who was not even half as beautiful as others he had taken to his bed.
He didn't understand it!
Why could he not get the images of there 'love making' from his mind? Why can he not forget the feel of her skin under his claws as she writhed in pleasure?
Why could he not get the taste of her sweet essence from his tongue not matter how much he drank or ate?
Why is it every time he thought of her naked form his body reacted in one specific way; leaving him hard to the point of pain?
They were all questions he would never know the answer to.
He was not the type of youkai to lie to himself it would prove no point. He knew he desired the miko, but what he wanted to know was why. Was it because she was supposed to be untouchable?
A miko was an enemy of youkai by birth and therefore untouchable.
'No I would not be swayed by such things.' he thought with a shake of his head, it really was a stupid thought.
He had returned to his group soon after he had awoken he knew Jaken was an incompetent protector for his ward so he would need to check in on her yet again.
He was a youkai known for hating the ningen species, so why was it that he took on the care of a ningen female child? That was one of the many mysteries of the universe. He knew why he took care of the child and in his own way cared for her well being.
Rin, she was another rarity in the ningen species. She differed so greatly that sometimes he forgot that she was indeed ningen. She reminded him of the miko both housed unbelievably pure souls. He idly wondered if Kagome was anything like Rin when she was a child. sigh 'I am doing it again. I am thinking of the miko.' he scolded while trying to shake thoughts of her from his mind.
No matter how he tried to wash her from his brain he could not. He was honor bound to her in the form of a life debt. She had saved him there was no doubt about it and the only way to be free of her was to repay his debt.
He knew the miko lived a dangerous life for a ningen onna traveling with his half brother looking for a bauble of power. It was only a matter of time before her life was put in danger and her incompetent protector fail her. So all he had to do was wait for that to happen. It sounded easy enough, Except for the part where he followed a ningen around waiting to save her life. 'Such a bother.' he thought as he tried to think of an easier way to quickly finish his debt to be rid of her.
He was frustrated sitting for hours just trying to figure out a new plan to make his debt disappear but it was all for nothing. He could not think of anything that would be of any help at all. He knew that he could offer alliance but there was no way he could deal with his hanyou brother for more then a few short minutes. So that thought was out of the question. He also did not think he could handle the emotions he had towards the miko while watching her fawn over Inuyasha like a lovesick pup which also added trouble to his thoughts of simply following them.
He knew that if he followed there would be none to witness his reaction towards their actions, but if he were to join… he could not join them it was that simple. So with no other option in mind he set off to find the hanyou's pack.
0ooo0
Smoke rose from the campfire as a raven haired onna stirred the pot of ramen noodles. She was not really paying attention to the noodles in the pot her mind was elsewhere. She felt terribly guilty for not telling her friends what had happened between herself and Sesshomaru but she was an avid believer that everyone had the right to privacy or secrets as long as it didn't hurt anyone.
She was well aware that her secret could hurt but not kill. 'I know that all too well.' she thought as she stirred the pot of noodles while remembering one of the many private moments she witnessed between Inuyasha and the now late Kikyo (Again).
sigh She knew that even though Kikyo was dead…again she would still not be far from his mind.
Kagome had grown up quite a bit since she fell down the well on her fifteenth birthday she knew that no matter what her relationship with Inuyasha was doomed before it even started. She knew she would forever wonder if it was her or Kikyo that he saw when he looked upon her. She recalled perfectly that one time when he wanted to leave her and she told him no and promised to be with him always. She did not know it then, but at that moment she agreed to allow him the other woman.
Now however she knews perfectly well he would never see her as just her.
He would always see her as the reincarnation of his dead lover.
He would always look right past her into her soul to find Kikyo.
If they were to ever make love would he do the same? Close his eyes to pretend she was Kikyo?
She did not know the answers to her questions or the truth of the thoughts, but she wanted to.
The noodles were soon done and she gave a bowl to each of her companions as sat back down to eat. God, she was so sick of ramen, but it was so cheap and Inuyasha was addicted to it.
Once she was finished eating she stood and brushed herself off, "I am going for a walk." she informed then before taking her bow and walking towards the forest.
"Keh don't get lost." Inuyasha said as he slurped up his second bowl of his beloved ramen.
"I won't Inuyasha I'll stay within screaming distance." she said before she melted into the forest.
It was nothing new to her companions that she would want to take a walk before bed because she did it often. It was her private reflecting time so they let her without to much of a hassle.
0ooo0
Kagome walked in the forest she knew there was a clearing not far away they had passed it before they had made camp. She wanted to sit and think in private about what she was feeling. She was unsettled and she did not like the feeling. Plus she was making more of what happened than she should. She was well aware of Sesshomaru's distaste for all things ningen, but it still did nothing to ease the feeling she was suffering.
She had a small taste of what it would be like to be loved by one such as Sesshomaru and it was not as horrible as she would have thought. He was the exact opposite as what she thought he would be like. If he was not who he was she would have enjoyed getting to know him better. Her musing was put on hold as she came upon the clearing she was seeking.
It was not a big clearing but it would serve its purpose perfectly. It was filled with green grass and flowers, one of the many things she treasured while being in the feudal era. The modern area had very little of this natural beauty it was always marred by concrete even the parks. She walked towards a tree in the center of the clearing and sat down back leaning on the rough trunk of the tree and she retreated once again within her mind.
'I wonder how he is.' She pondered as she folded her legs to sit Indian style on the forest floor.
'How did he take the realization of what we did and what would happen if we did not?' her thoughts continued as she stared off into the forest but not really seeing.
'I wonder if that would be the last time we see each other for something other than him and Inuyasha fighting.' She mused as she ran her palm over the blades of grass.
'I seriously need to forget him and what happened between us because it will never happen again.' She thought while plucking a few grass blades from the ground.
'He would never see me as anything other than ningen or Inuyasha's wench as he so delicately called me on many occasions.' She closed her eyes in an attempt to concentrate. That was when a deep cold unemotional voice broke her from her thoughts.
~!~
'Thought'
*action*
Sounds/other things
Kijo – Demoness ogress she-devil
Youkai- demon
Youki – demonic energy
Hanyou – half demon
Miko – Shinto priestess
Houshi – monk
Taijiya – demon slayer
Shikon no Tama – Jewel of Four souls
Onna – woman
Taiyoukai – great demon
Inu youkai – dog demon
Baka – Stupid
Ningen – Human
Kami – God
Kuso - Shit
Chapter Nine
Can’t get you off my mind
Kagome returned to the feudal era but not before she douched; just in case! She was well aware how good youkai noses could be and she was not willing to chance Inuyasha finding out what happened between her and his hated elder half brother. She just wanted to forget it ever happened, but she knew she could not.
There were many reasons why she could not forget it and the main reason was because it was her first time.
A person could be old and grey bordering on senile but never forget her first time with a male.
It's like a milestone in one's life that marks the ascent into adulthood, no longer a child.
It would be the story one told her daughter when she came to her to speak on such matters albeit the details would be changed slightly.
The details may blur and the name of the male forgotten over time but never the experience or the face of the one who took you on that journey.
When one looses there virginity their partner takes a part of you with them that you will never again have – your innocence.
She was well aware that a person's first time whether a good or bad experience would remain with her forever.
Her experience with him was a pleasant one he had taken such care with her and her body that it had left her with an urge she had never experienced before.
'God I have sex ONE time and already I am such a hentai!' she thought shaking her head while climbing out of the well. She was not looking forward to ever seeing him again. 'I would no doubt die from mortification' she thought embarrassingly. 'I mean off course it would be embarrassing! He saw me naked! He knows what it feels like to – to – to be inside of me.' She stuttered that last part of her thought as she lifted her bag over the edge of the well.
~ Back at the village ~
"Kagome's back." Inuyasha stated as he smelled her scent before standing to go and meet her at the well.
The words caused a chain reaction once Inuyasha stood the rest except Kaede followed suit, all anxious to see Kagome again. She was like family, the sister Sango never had but always wanted, the sister that Miroku never had but could grope, the mother Shippo so longed to have ever since his was taken from him. And there was always Inuyasha he loved her dearly as a best friend at times but also as a potential lover at other times. She was the glue that held their group together, the smile that brightened their gloomy day. She had saved them all offering her friendship and asking for nothing but friendship in return.
They all traveled towards the well Inuyasha making it there first in time to see Kagome's big yellow bag being heaved over the edge.
"Kagomeee!!" an excited Shippo screamed at his mother figure as she stepped over the lip of the well.
"Hi kiddo!" a smiling Kagome responded as she ruffled his auburn hair.
The reunion was spent as every other, no one had noticed anything different and Kagome could not be any happier for it and so they continued there search for the vile hanyou Naraku.
0ooo0
He has been brainwashed!
There was no doubt about it why else would that ningen miko refuse to leave his mind? He had rutted his fair share of females and once he had bedded them they lost their luster.
So why? Why was he so enamored with the miko? She was nothing but a mere ningen who was not even half as beautiful as others he had taken to his bed.
He didn't understand it!
Why could he not get the images of there 'love making' from his mind? Why can he not forget the feel of her skin under his claws as she writhed in pleasure?
Why could he not get the taste of her sweet essence from his tongue not matter how much he drank or ate?
Why is it every time he thought of her naked form his body reacted in one specific way; leaving him hard to the point of pain?
They were all questions he would never know the answer to.
He was not the type of youkai to lie to himself it would prove no point. He knew he desired the miko, but what he wanted to know was why. Was it because she was supposed to be untouchable?
A miko was an enemy of youkai by birth and therefore untouchable.
'No I would not be swayed by such things.' he thought with a shake of his head, it really was a stupid thought.
He had returned to his group soon after he had awoken he knew Jaken was an incompetent protector for his ward so he would need to check in on her yet again.
He was a youkai known for hating the ningen species, so why was it that he took on the care of a ningen female child? That was one of the many mysteries of the universe. He knew why he took care of the child and in his own way cared for her well being.
Rin, she was another rarity in the ningen species. She differed so greatly that sometimes he forgot that she was indeed ningen. She reminded him of the miko both housed unbelievably pure souls. He idly wondered if Kagome was anything like Rin when she was a child. sigh 'I am doing it again. I am thinking of the miko.' he scolded while trying to shake thoughts of her from his mind.
No matter how he tried to wash her from his brain he could not. He was honor bound to her in the form of a life debt. She had saved him there was no doubt about it and the only way to be free of her was to repay his debt.
He knew the miko lived a dangerous life for a ningen onna traveling with his half brother looking for a bauble of power. It was only a matter of time before her life was put in danger and her incompetent protector fail her. So all he had to do was wait for that to happen. It sounded easy enough, Except for the part where he followed a ningen around waiting to save her life. 'Such a bother.' he thought as he tried to think of an easier way to quickly finish his debt to be rid of her.
He was frustrated sitting for hours just trying to figure out a new plan to make his debt disappear but it was all for nothing. He could not think of anything that would be of any help at all. He knew that he could offer alliance but there was no way he could deal with his hanyou brother for more then a few short minutes. So that thought was out of the question. He also did not think he could handle the emotions he had towards the miko while watching her fawn over Inuyasha like a lovesick pup which also added trouble to his thoughts of simply following them.
He knew that if he followed there would be none to witness his reaction towards their actions, but if he were to join… he could not join them it was that simple. So with no other option in mind he set off to find the hanyou's pack.
0ooo0
Smoke rose from the campfire as a raven haired onna stirred the pot of ramen noodles. She was not really paying attention to the noodles in the pot her mind was elsewhere. She felt terribly guilty for not telling her friends what had happened between herself and Sesshomaru but she was an avid believer that everyone had the right to privacy or secrets as long as it didn't hurt anyone.
She was well aware that her secret could hurt but not kill. 'I know that all too well.' she thought as she stirred the pot of noodles while remembering one of the many private moments she witnessed between Inuyasha and the now late Kikyo (Again).
sigh She knew that even though Kikyo was dead…again she would still not be far from his mind.
Kagome had grown up quite a bit since she fell down the well on her fifteenth birthday she knew that no matter what her relationship with Inuyasha was doomed before it even started. She knew she would forever wonder if it was her or Kikyo that he saw when he looked upon her. She recalled perfectly that one time when he wanted to leave her and she told him no and promised to be with him always. She did not know it then, but at that moment she agreed to allow him the other woman.
Now however she knews perfectly well he would never see her as just her.
He would always see her as the reincarnation of his dead lover.
He would always look right past her into her soul to find Kikyo.
If they were to ever make love would he do the same? Close his eyes to pretend she was Kikyo?
She did not know the answers to her questions or the truth of the thoughts, but she wanted to.
The noodles were soon done and she gave a bowl to each of her companions as sat back down to eat. God, she was so sick of ramen, but it was so cheap and Inuyasha was addicted to it.
Once she was finished eating she stood and brushed herself off, "I am going for a walk." she informed then before taking her bow and walking towards the forest.
"Keh don't get lost." Inuyasha said as he slurped up his second bowl of his beloved ramen.
"I won't Inuyasha I'll stay within screaming distance." she said before she melted into the forest.
It was nothing new to her companions that she would want to take a walk before bed because she did it often. It was her private reflecting time so they let her without to much of a hassle.
0ooo0
Kagome walked in the forest she knew there was a clearing not far away they had passed it before they had made camp. She wanted to sit and think in private about what she was feeling. She was unsettled and she did not like the feeling. Plus she was making more of what happened than she should. She was well aware of Sesshomaru's distaste for all things ningen, but it still did nothing to ease the feeling she was suffering.
She had a small taste of what it would be like to be loved by one such as Sesshomaru and it was not as horrible as she would have thought. He was the exact opposite as what she thought he would be like. If he was not who he was she would have enjoyed getting to know him better. Her musing was put on hold as she came upon the clearing she was seeking.
It was not a big clearing but it would serve its purpose perfectly. It was filled with green grass and flowers, one of the many things she treasured while being in the feudal era. The modern area had very little of this natural beauty it was always marred by concrete even the parks. She walked towards a tree in the center of the clearing and sat down back leaning on the rough trunk of the tree and she retreated once again within her mind.
'I wonder how he is.' She pondered as she folded her legs to sit Indian style on the forest floor.
'How did he take the realization of what we did and what would happen if we did not?' her thoughts continued as she stared off into the forest but not really seeing.
'I wonder if that would be the last time we see each other for something other than him and Inuyasha fighting.' She mused as she ran her palm over the blades of grass.
'I seriously need to forget him and what happened between us because it will never happen again.' She thought while plucking a few grass blades from the ground.
'He would never see me as anything other than ningen or Inuyasha's wench as he so delicately called me on many occasions.' She closed her eyes in an attempt to concentrate. That was when a deep cold unemotional voice broke her from her thoughts.
~!~