August

Disclaimer: Same as Chapter 1. In Ayame's POV



Chapter 9. – Make Up Your Mind





My eyes felt heavy when I finally let them open. There was a window on the opposite side of the entertainment center from Kouga’s guitar collection. I could tell by the color and the angle of the light coming through the blinds that it was around the time where we would be getting dismissed from school. My head felt a little foggy… and I could only guess that it was from sleeping for a good portion of the day. I let a groan escape from my throat and I rolled over to wrap myself in the warmth that consisted of my boyfriend… my darling Kouga. A frown pulled my lips down when I couldn’t feel anyone or anything but pillows next to me. My sleepy eyes looked around his bedroom, stopping on his alarm clock that was next to his bed. Great, 3:26 in the afternoon… we really slept in… so much for spending time together. Not that I should complain, that was probably the best I have ever slept in my life.



I sat up on the bed so that I was supporting my weight with my right hand and hip. The fact that the sheets slipped down the front of me so that my torso was completely bare didn’t seem to phase me in the least. I heard a click and a flush coming from the bathroom. Kouga stepped from behind the sliding door in nothing but dark blue cotton boxer shorts. I couldn’t help but think it was adorable. He stretched by stepping up on his tippy-toes and letting his arms extend as far up as they could go. He came damn close to touching the ceiling. He had craned his neck back and he let out a silent yawn. I couldn’t help but let out a soft giggle, and I think it surprised him because he jumped ever so slightly. His blue eyes met my green ones and slowly traveled down to glance over the rest of me. I blinked at him a few times. What was his deal?



That’s when I noticed the front of his boxers. He was at half-mast… why? I felt a flush start to come over my cheeks. I wasn’t sure what to do.



"What?" I asked a little flustered.



"Hmm?" he answered, his gaze coming back to my face. Shit… I forgot I was naked… well I didn’t forget, I was tired… I forgot to cover up.



Quickly I grabbed the sheets and went to cover myself and with a flash he was next to me, holding my hands so that I could just barely touch the sheet. My eyes were caught in his, like a deer in headlights… they were so hypnotizing. He shook his head slowly, "Why would you want to hide something so beautiful from me?"



I felt my flush grow to an all out blush, "Kouga don’t tease me… let me cover up."



"You’re naked… completely nude… aren’t you?" he asked.



I swallowed the lump that was forming in my throat and nodded. I didn’t trust my voice at the moment.



"Baby…" he cooed, slipping under the sheets so that his lower half was covered just as mine was. What was going on? My breath was coming out in soft but nervous pants. How could I not expect this? I am ready aren’t I? What am I so afraid of? We were going to do it. We were going to have sex. Butterflies started going crazy in my stomach, it made me feel close to vomiting, I was so damn nervous.



Kouga looked at me with concern deep in those electric baby blues. I was trembling, I guess no one can miss that… I was making the entire bed vibrate I was so scared. He reached a hand out and cupped my cheek giving me the sweetest of smiles.



"Baby… it’s okay," he whispered. He leaned in so that our foreheads were pressed together and he slowly moved us so that we were laying back down, and he was still hovering over me.



"I’m okay…" I said, my voice came out shaky and insecure sounding.



"You don’t sound okay," he teased me, "but that’s okay… if you don’t want me to do anything then I can respect that. I won’t…"



I shook my head; "Do what you want! I’m not afraid of sex!"



He grinned, "I thought you wanted to wait?"



My voice might have sounded a little more confident, but I was still shaking. I forced my hand to move placing it on his stomach. That’s when the butterflies settled down. As soon as I touched him back I wasn’t so unsettled. I remembered that this was something that I did want with Kouga… something that I dreamed about, and it’s about god damn time I got what I

wanted! Kouga was lean and muscular, the eyes would lie to you and make you think that his abs were hard and rigid, but once you touched him… his skin was so soft and warm, and so were his muscles.



My hand traveled down his stomach, gliding over his abdominal muscles. My fingers grazed through a thin line of hair--his happy trail--and with no regrets I let my hand slip right into his boxer shorts. His breath was a warm rush on my cheek and I took great delight in seeing the pleasure pass over his face, his eyes rolling back, as I let my nimble fingers wrap around the thickness of him. He was larger than I had imagined both in length and width. I licked my

suddenly dry lips and let my hand rub slowly down his shaft until my fingers caressed his testicles. There was a certain weight to them and I have to admit it was fun holding them in the palm of my hand, even though his boxers didn’t allow that much room for exploration.



Kouga quickly remedied that situation and pulled his boxers off of his body, throwing them aside. To do so he had to move so that I was no longer touching him. My nerves started to flare up again. I needed to touch him. I needed to have some sort of control. He moved

so that his face was no longer level with mine, instead his lips hovered over my nipples. Just feeling his breath, warm and tingling over my sensitive flesh made them stand and it made a tiny moan escape from my throat.



Every time that my chest rose it brought Kouga’s lips closer to my left nipple. He kept his eyes trained on me, letting a smirk cross his features as he stuck his tongue out to flick out against my skin. I squeaked and jumped ever so slightly. This made him laugh and me pout.



"It’s not funny…" I panted.



"No, it’s cute," he replied shaking his head. "Honestly, you are going to be the first girl I have

slept with who is still a virgin. You gotta understand that I’m used to girls just grabbing my dick and trying to shove it down their throats or ram it into their pussy."



I wrinkled my nose in distaste, "Don’t ruin the moment by letting me know about that last part."



"What about other girls?"



"Duh!



Come on Kouga?! What a way to kill the mood by talking about your sex-capades with other girls! "It’s true," he continued. "I don’t expect you to do things like that… we can take it slow."



I sat up on my elbows and that’s when he closed his lips around my left nipple and started to gently suckle. His hand pinched and rolled the right nipple so that it wouldn’t feel left out. My head lulled back and my jaw was lax, a soft sigh escaping past my lips. It felt so good. It was like a string was being pulled from my nipples that was connected to things that were deeper inside me, making things softer, warmer, wetter… more prepared.



"Kouga!" I gasped, letting my weight fall back to the bed. My hands were free again and I let them roam through his loose ponytail. I pulled out his hair tie so that his hair was down and free… gorgeous. I couldn’t help it, my hips bucked and started moving in slow circles. My mind felt like it was going to overload when I felt the swell of his erection rubbing against me. Somehow he had maneuvered himself so that he was between my legs. Wait? Wasn’t there more to this?



I craned my neck up, “Kouga, wait...” my voice was more breathy than I would have liked. His eyes met mine, looking up from what he was doing to my breasts. I let my fingers run through his silky black hair, it was loose and easily slid over his shoulder to tickle my chest and sides. He released his hold on my nipple with a small snap of his lips and the lust in his eyes made my breath catch in my throat. I blinked a few times as he slowly started crawling up me so that he and I were face to face. He started to slowly rub the length of his shaft against my moist opening, and I felt my heart stop beating for a split second. He hadn’t entered me yet, but the head of his penis kept rubbing against the most sensitive part of my womanhood.



“I’ll be gentle...” he whispered, leaning in close to my face to give me a kiss.



“I know,” I answered shyly, “but that’s not why I’m asking you wait.”



“Hmm?” he asked, cocking his head to one side... I assume he was a little confused. I smiled sweetly at him and sat up enough to push him so that he was on his knees. I positioned my body so that I was more on my hands and knees... and eye level with his erection. My jade eyes stared up to his sapphire ones and the look of understanding crossed his face, along with a smirk. He nodded, and I took the hint.



Kouga was used to this, so he could probably tell right off the bat that I have never done this sort of thing before and if I made any hesitations he would probably not like it. Those butterflies in my stomach started fluttering around again. Shit! I hate being nervous. Slowly I let my right hand wrap around him close to the base, my pinky and ring finger were resting on the flat of his lower abdominals, curling in some-what course black hair. I used my other fingers to hold him at what I thought would be a comfortable angle to start at. My lips were a mere breath away from opening and taking him into my mouth when I closed my eyes... and hesitated.



I felt his hand on the back of my head. What the fuck? He had better not push me down before I’m ready... or else I might vomit or bite him. My eyes shot open and stared up at him, not knowing whether to be nervous still or pissed off. I relaxed when he started just petting my hair, running his fingers through my titan red locks.



“You don’t have to do this Ayame...” he told me.



I shook my head stubbornly and opened my mouth, flicking my tongue against the underside of the head of his cock. I felt his body shudder, and that alone helped motivate me to do more to him. “But Kouga I want to... I won’t be any good at it unless you let me do it,” I replied.



“Honey,” he shuddered again when I put the entire head into my mouth and started sucking on it. “You don’t have to if you want to wait... oh god...”



I brought more of him into my mouth, working so that I wouldn’t push myself to hard... I didn’t want to go past my gag reflex... or at least not yet anyways. I moved my left hand to encircle him above my right hand and worked the rest of his length that I couldn’t fit in my mouth. I heard a moan escape from his throat and couldn’t help myself but mimic him as I started bobbing my head up and down, sucking on him and moving my hand. The hand that he had resting on my head, tightened as he tangled his fingers in my hair, letting gasps escape from his lips.



“You sure you’ve never done this before?” he asked in a partial moan.



I answered by sucking harder and moaning as I slowly went down as far as I could go... pushing almost to my gag reflex.



“Oh shit,” he gasped, and I looked up at him my eyes blinking back some tears because this almost hurt my throat. He looked down at me, and his mouth was wide open and his chest was rising and falling rapidly from the pleasure.



“Fuck baby...” he said, “You are good... it feels like I’m fucking a really tight pussy when you suck on my cock like that.”



It was hard for me to smile around him, so I slowly released the suction and ran my tongue along the underside of him as I removed my mouth from him. As I pulled back a string of white was connected from my tongue to the head of his penis, more slightly white like liquid beading at the tip. I guess that’s pre-cum? I let my left hand let go of him and my right hand continued to pump up and down his shaft as I wiped my mouth with the back of my left hand. More pre-cum started to come forth, and he stopped me from continuing any farther by moving my hand. I took a little pride in that I was making him want to cum already... it’s kinda cute that he didn’t want to admit it.



“Really?” I asked, this time my voice was breathy because I had been working my mouth and throat, and it wasn’t just from the thrill of it all.



He nodded slowly, “You sure you have never given anyone head before?”



It was my turn to nod, “You are my first and only, Kouga.”



“Hot damn...” he sighed, shaking his head with a smile, “it’s hard to believe... you are amazing.”



I giggled and felt a flush come over my cheeks, “I’m sure you have had better.”



He shook his head and reached down to cradle my face in his hands. He leaned down and kissed me, our tongues dancing together in each others mouths. He moved his hands from my face to my shoulders, moving us both into the position that we had been in earlier... him on top of me and my legs spread wide apart to give him access.



Our eyes were locked together as Kouga broke the kiss. One of his hands moved and I jumped slightly when I felt something rubbing against my slick opening.



“Wow...” Kouga said with a grin, “You are really wet now Ayame. Did sucking my cock turn you on that much baby?”



I hadn’t realized that turning him on and sucking him off turned me on too. “I guess so...” I answered honestly. “Stop teasing me Kouga and just... do it before I change my mind.” Woah... that just came out of my mouth! Am I ready? I guess I don’t have long to decide. I kept wanting to change my mind. I want Kouga... but is it too soon? I didn’t have time to think anymore on the issue as I felt an incredible thickness begin to fill me.



My eyes shot wide open and a scream tore from my throat, but it was not a scream of pain or fear... it was from pure surprise. Sure, just from looking at Kouga, he is a big boy... but it feels a hell of a lot larger once it’s inside. He stopped moving and brushed my bangs from my face, “Did I hurt you?”



“You’re... huge...” I stuttered.

“Sorry,” he smiled, “I was born that way baby.”



“Don’t stop,” I begged him.



“You sure?”



“Mhmm...” I nodded.



With one quick thrust he pushed the rest of the way inside me, and though it did hurt the gasp that came from me was in pleasure, and it was soon followed by a moan. This was much better than my hottest fantasies about him. To actually have him buried to the hilt inside my sheath. Like the sword and a chalice, all that is male and female, we were one. Deep in my heart and in my soul, this felt perfect and right. I don’t regret this decision.



His thrusts were slow and sensual at first, his had placed his hands on either side of my shoulders and his movements were fluid and his rhythm was steady. He had his weight supported by his arms so that the rest of him moved freely. He easily slid in and out of me and with each thrust he hit something inside me that made a fire ignite in my chest and travel downwards towards my lower regions. Moans continued to escape from my throat, and as his pace picked up so did the noises that came from me.



He grunted as his pace increased, and it was amazing to feel the massive length of him slide in and out of my body. Even going at a feverish rate he was large enough to completely fill me and I could feel him all around me. Out of instinct I clenched my muscles around him and he gasped, groaning as he pushed into me harder than he had before, and I squeaked out a moan.



His hands moved from supporting his weight to grabbing my legs and lifting them up to rest on his shoulders, and his hands moved to my hips. A new angle, and it went much deeper than the first. At this position his thrusts came in and hit my cervix repeatedly in such a fashion that made that warmth that was pooling inside me grow deeper and deeper, it expanded throughout my entire body and I felt like I was on fire. I felt like I was glowing.



“Kouga!” I gasped in a high pitch, “Oh by the gods... Kouga! More please! I’m so close!”



“Me too baby,” he answered in a panting hot breath, “Your so wet and tight, it’s driving me mad. Orgasm for me baby, don’t hold it back.”



My hands reached down and the sheets tangled in my fingers as I gripped onto them as tight as I could and he leaned forward slightly, using his hands on my hips for support to thrust inside me at a blinding speed. He was fucking me hard enough that every time he pushed into me I could feel his balls hitting my ass and his hips were making a very audible smacking noise as they too hit my flesh. The fire inside my body was starting to overflow and I couldn’t hold it back anymore as it overwhelmed me. I felt my whole body tighten as it jerked upwards a little and a shot went through my spine.



“Kouga!!” I screamed, “Fuck me! Fuck me! Fuck me!”



“Fuck yeah,” he grunted, pounding into me as hard and as fast as he could. I squeaked and moaned, squealed and gasped as I felt a cool wash come over me, not putting out the fire that had ignited inside me, but more so calming the flames to a numbing state.



“Ahh! Shit!” Kouga shouted, and I felt his body spasm and suddenly I felt hot liquid shooting inside me, once, twice, three times as he continued to thrust into me. He pushed into me, burying himself to the hilt again as he let a hot breath escape from his lungs. He released my hips and my legs moved from his shoulders and he settled so that he was more comfortable on top of me. He was breathing hard, and I don’t blame him... we both were hyperventilating from the hottest work out of our lives. My legs curled so that they crossed over his ass, and I pushed myself up feeling the head of his cock rub against my cervix again. He grunted and looked into my eyes with a smirk on his face, “Round two can happen after I recharge baby.”



I giggled again, “Then three and four?”



He laughed lightly, moving so that he pulled out of me slightly. I moaned and it sounded more like a whimper. He patted my hip and I moved my legs to give him room to move. I chanced a look downwards and I was shocked at the sight. There was quite a mess on his sheets. A mixture of mainly my orgasm and some of my blood and a little bit of his orgasm... although it all just looked like a big mess. That’s when it hit me, Kouga didn’t pull out nor was he wearing a condom. He came inside of me. I could take this as a good or a bad thing... good because it meant that there was a level of trust between us because I hadn’t asked him to wear one... and bad because it meant that if I missed my next period... well then we would have a baby in our lives, and I’m not sure if I am ready to be a mother yet. Damn it... I should have thought about that. It’s really hard to stay focused when one is losing their virginity. But still... damn it... shit... fuck!



Kouga moved to lay beside me and he wrapped an arm around my stomach. I sat up on my elbows and looked over at him... and I was slightly shocked. I could see the love in his gaze, it was leaking out onto his entire face as he gave me a gentle smile. He did say that he loved me... but actions are much louder than words could ever be. Perhaps he didn’t pull out not just because I trusted him, but he trusts me too. He trusts me enough to make that sort of risk... that we could both possibly be parents... that a little person would be forming inside of my body as we lay there staring at one another... some one that we would be responsible for... and taking care of... a helpless little baby that needed us. He trusted me that much? I smiled back at him and a blush came over my cheeks as he started rubbing my abdomen.



I couldn’t help it... I had to know the answer.



“Kouga...” I asked.



“What is it baby?”



“Why didn’t you pull out when you started to ejaculate?”

He raised an eyebrow at me as if I had indeed asked him something ridiculous. My smile turned into a pout. He only smirked, “Because...”



I blinked at him, confused, “Because why?”



“I love you Ayame,” he answered as if that was all I needed to know.



“I could get pregnant...” I stated.



“Yeah,” he nodded. “You could... but then again, you might not.”



“Don’t,” I sighed, reaching up with one hand to cover my eyes and rub my forehead. I was starting to get a headache. I had heard somewhere that sex was supposed to help get rid of headaches... not start them.



“I knew what I was doing,” he replied laying back and he started rubbing slow circles over my womb.



“You want me pregnant? Kouga,” I complained, “I’m not even out of highschool yet... I still have more time to go then you do. I wouldn’t know what to do?”



“Baby...” Kouga shrugged, “Chill out...”



“Excuse me?!” I snapped. “Kouga I can not just ‘chill out’ about this! It’s a serious issue!”



He rolled his eyes and moved to the other side of his bed to grab something. It appeared to be a leather bound book. He scooted back over to me and opened it to reveal a day planner and calender. I blinked in confusion.



He smiled at me, “I have been keeping track of your cycle.” He pointed to the last few months. Wow! I had no idea he could do that.



“How?” I was shocked.



“Simple,” he laughed, “you would warn me.”



“Oh,” I replied, curling onto my side and looking at the planner while leaning on his chest.



“Most girls last anywhere from three to seven days so whenever you would let me know... I would put it down in here and then mark twenty eight days after that,” he explained.



“You have been paying attention in anatomy class,” I teased him.



He laughed, “Well duh... the female anatomy has always been interesting to me.”



“I bet,” I laughed with him. He’s so damn cute. I didn’t expect him to pay that close attention to me and my rants and such when I was on my period. He pointed to today’s date on the calender. “See... you aren’t ovulating or anything right now so we have nothing to worry about. But if it makes you feel better... then I don’t think it would hurt my wallet to invest in some condoms.”



“Cute,” I replied, “I would prefer that.”



“And if you wanted to... you could always go on the pill...” he suggested.



“Birth control?” I asked, “You think we will be that sexually active?”



“After that amazing roll in the sheets,” he whispered leaning into my ear so that his breath was hot on my skin. “Wouldn’t you want to be more active?”



“Kouga,” I whimpered as he started licking my ear. “We’ll see...”



He tossed the book aside and gently caressed my cheek, “I guess so...”



Then he kissed me.