UnFaithful

A/N I know...I know! It took me long enough...lol Enjoy:)

Chapter 8: Confessions of a Hanyou


It just dawned on me that everyone was in my damn business! I feel like people are blamin’ me for Kagome screwin’ Koga. Like I drove her to it or something.....no matter how bad shit got, I never once thought I running to someone else.....well, not until now anyway. Sango and I made up but she was still so cold to Shiori.....treated her as if all this was her fault. Shiori, she’s so....sweet, beautiful....understanding. She knew exactly what I went through in life, never once tried to changed me or call me crude......she just- she.........she ain’t Kagome. DAMMIT! No matter what I did or said, my thoughts always went back to her. I wondered how she was doin’ but refused to go to see her, besides, I wasn’t sure if her mom knew about our confrontation in the park that night. Every time someone spoke her name, I got this gnawing
feelin’ in the pit of my stomach, telling me she’s not coping well....not at all. I felt it deep down in my heart, each time I passed the well. My hand to Buddha....I tried, with everything I had, to jump down that damn well.....I’d take a deep breath, all too ready....then, I’d make the mistake of shutting my eyes. All I’d see was Kagome, rollin’ around in the forest with that ookami in heat! It happens all over again.....my anger, the feelin’ of betrayal.....all the lies and secrets, shit goes black and I shut down. I’d start to think about Shiori, our connection and I’d feel guilty.

I had this sweet, young hanyou who adored me and had the body of a goddess, yet, each time I touched her, undressed her.....made love to her, I’d close my eyes and envision Kagome.....hell, it’s a wonder I didn’t call her name out. What was I, nuts or somethin’? There were youkai and mortal men jumpin’ at the chance to be with Shiori and all I wanted, was to be in the arms of some bossy, opinionated, little miko from the future that cheated on me and has the power to make me eat dirt with just one word! I would sit up at night, wondering if she cried as much as I felt like cryin’......wondering if she thought about me. I even had a piece of fabric she used to wash her face.......her scent, its faint but I cannot let it go. What the hell was I supposed to do? I’d just roll over, pull Shiori close to me and pretend she was....my little miko. Sango and Miroku knew, even Shippo knew. Sango chose to take shit out on Shiroi....Miroku and Shippo, they were overly nice to her, tryin’ to patch shit up. Kaede.....she was the only one who put everything out on the table......the old hag, like I asked her for her damn thoughts!
“Go see her!”

“See who?” I asked, playin’ dumb.

“InuYasha, you know of whom I speak.” The old woman continued to make her tea.

“Hmph.....I don’t see where its any’ya your business old woman!” I snapped back.

“ You foolish dog! Go and see about her before someone else does.” She gave me a stern look.

“ Besides, what you are doing to Shiori is wrong and you know this.”

“And just what am I doin’ to her?” Why did I even take it there with Kaede?

“YOU ARE-“ She cleared her throat, realizing how loud she was. “ You are using that poor child as a substitute!” Kaede finished in a whisper.

“What are you talkin’ about Keade?” I snapped, knowing exactly what she was gettin’ at.
“Do not play dumb with me, InuYasha!” Her tone was so harsh, like everything was my fault.

“LOOK! DON’T YOU THINK I WANT TO SEE HER?” I quickly turned away, realizing I raised my voice to her. Even though Keade and I don’t always see eye to eye, I didn’t want to scream on her for telling me the truth. “ Goman...Keade, I just- I miss her....I miss Kagome.” I hung my head, making sure she couldn’t see my watering eyes. “Each time I try to go to her, my heart freezes. Everything she did comes right back to me.”

The old woman calmly walked over towards me, gently placing her arm around me. No words were needed, she understood where I was coming from. Before I could thank Keade for being so kind, in walked Shiori, her lavender eyes full of concern for me.
“InuYasha, I...are you alright, I heard yelling and I thought that.......I don’t know, I just-“

“Shiori, I’m fine. Keade and I, we were just arguing.”

“You sure?” Her voice, so soft....so sweet. I walked over to her, kissed her gently.

“I’m fine, especially now that you’re here.” I lied. Keade just turned her back to me, my lies disgusted her. “ Listen, ah....I’ll be out in a minute, okay?”

I watched as she look to the ground. Shiori was sad, Sango was probably bein’ her normal, bitchy self. “What’s the matter?” My tone was smooth, understanding.

“Well, it’s just that......I think I should go-“

“Shiori, what happened?” I asked again.

“No, its nothing. I just- will you come for me later?” She asked, giving me a half smile......damn shes a beautiful one, even when she’s upset. I ran my fingers through her silver, wavy tresses.

“Of course I will, you don’t even have to ask.” I whispered, just before leaning in for another kiss. She turned towards Keade, gave the woman a warm smile.
“Good bye, Lady Keade. Thank you once again for being so...so kind.”
Keade smiled back at her. “You are a lovely young woman, Shiori.” I threw Keade a grin as I turned to walk Shiori outside.

I could hear Sango, Miroku and Shippo, laughing and talkin’. The minute we stepped outside, Sango’s warm heart turned to ice as she almost snarled at Shiori. I knew she caught it by the way she squeezed my hand. Shiori cleared her throat.
“Well, I’m going back to my home now.....I think it is best. Miroku, Shippo, thanks again for your kindness.” Shiori walked right passed Sango. I had to laugh, served her right anyway.

“Hmph....I suppose you have no words for me, do you, Shiori?” Sango’s tone was cool.

“Well, now.....we were glad to have you, right Shippo?” Miroku tried to cover his woman’s words.

“Yes....yes, I always enjoy your company, Shiori.” Shippo, chimed in with the monk. Shiori gave Shippo a gentle hug. She took a long breath and turned to Sango.

“You know something Sango, I do indeed have some choice words for you. However, I am too much of a lady to recite them in front of a holy man and a small child. Good day.” Shiori walked away, with her head held high. She had such a way of carrying herself.......I wanted to rip her cloths of right there!

“Wretched hanyou wench!” Sango yelled out at her. “Say what you want but you are NOT Kagome and you’re just as foolish as I thought if you believe for one second that InuYasha is over her!” That damn exterminator! She spat those words out as if they were venom. Miroku was speechless as he shoved Shippo in to the hut with Keade. Shiori stopped short, her long hair covered her fury-filled eyes. There was somethin’ ominous about her energy, made the hair stand up on my neck. She stepped towards Sango.
“Exterminator, I’m going to put you up on something.... listen closely.” Her voice was cold, eerie. Miroku and I were at a stand still.

“What goes on with InuYasha and I.....is none of your damn business...and by the way, I know who the hell I am. Are we clear, Exterminator?” Shiori’s tone was colder then Sesshomaru’s, I didn’t think that shit was possible.

“Whoa.” I heard Miroku think out loud. Hell, it was just what I was thinkin’

“Hmph....you keep right on running your-“

“ENOUGH! I’m tired of your shit.....alright? I have been nothing but nice to you and still, you blame me for your friend, who slept with another man and messed things up with InuYasha on her own. You do not have to like me Sango but you WILL respect me......or else I’ll show you just what a wretched hanyou I can really be.” There was a scary smile on Shiori’s face....somethin’ inside me got off on it. I should’ve been a little pissed ‘cause she threatened my friend but then again.....Sango had a way of pushin’ people to the damn limit! Makes ‘ya want to just hit her!

“Is that a threat?” Sango jumped in Shiori’s face, Miroku stepped in, the look in Shiori’s eyes, scared him. “ Sango, let it go.” He whispered.

“Why no....it is a promise.” There was a fire within her voice. Knowing how a hanyou can be.....I quickly moved in on Shiori, grabbing her hand. Her anger subsided at the touch of my hand. Everything that frightened Miroku about her, seemed to melt away.......she was back to her sweet, soft self once more. As we walked into the forest, I could hear Miroku and Sango arguing, she was pissed because he stepped in. What Sango don’t seem to understand is that he saved her life! Shit, just what the hell did I do, getting so involved with her, knowing I ain’t no where no near over my little miko? All was silent as we walked back to her home. Shiori didn’t tell me but I knew that shit Sango said to her cut more then my Tetsaiga ever could.


I watched as Shiori stretched out across her futon. The moonlight hit her just right.....I loved the way her skin just seemed to glow in the light......I was lusting after her. Deep down, I knew it was more lust then love. Hell, don’t get me wrong ‘cause I did have feelings for the girl but.....not like my Kagome and I cursed myself each time I touched her. Shiori was this addiction.........like I knew I was dead wrong for using her as a substitute, I knew she deserved so much better then what I was able to give her.....just a piece of me. Unfortunately, Kagome had the only thing Shiori ever wanted from me... I couldn’t get it back, she had my heart. She had it the second I set eyes on her.

The further I traveled inside of her, the more my heart screamed out for my little miko. I shut my eyes, imagining the nails diggin’ into my back belonged to Kagome. Her legs wrapped around me, my lips leaned in to absorb her sweet taste. I fell deeper and deeper into Shiori, she screams of passion almost brought tears to my eyes. Tears of guilt, shame, lust......longing for the one I let go.
“InuYasha........”

“Shiori......hold on to me!” I growled with a twisted pleasure.

“Inu....Yasha, I....I-“ She could hardly get my name out. I knew she was about explode, I gave her one last, hard thrust. The feeling of her walls tightening around me....my eyes rolled in the back of my head.

“AH......SHIT!” I fell on top of her. She held me as tight as she could, I felt the strong beat of her heart as she ran her fingers through my hair. At last, peace. My eyes slowly gave way to slumber.

“InuYasha”. I heard her sweet voice whisper my name. My eyes remained closed.

“Yeah?” I answered her before kissing her neck.

“I....gomen, for threatening Sango. I-“

“Ssh......please, she’s a real bitch when she wants ‘ta be.” I assured her. I smiled at the sound of her laugh. “ Good night, Shiori.” I whispered, shutting my eyes.

“ Ai Shiteiru, InuYasha.” She whispered back to me before falling asleep. Slowly, I sat up.

‘ She loves me? She said she loved me......how can I tell her I don’t feel what her heart screamed out? How the hell can I tell her all I want is to be with Kagome, to hold her, to touch her?’ DAMMIT! All these thoughts haunted me that night. I got up, sliding into a small, dark corner. I closed my eyes, memories of Kagome and I rushed right to me. Unable to control my emotions, with my head in my heads, I finally unleashed the tears I been fightin’ for so long. Right there, in Shiori’s home, I was comin’ undone over the one she wanted me to forget. ‘Why can’t I just forget her and be fuckin’ happy?..........Why can’t I just forget her?’ That question ran through my mind over and over again as I cried for my little miko. I quickly wiped my face at the sound of Shiori’s moving around. She sat up, I felt her eyes on me as she slid from her futon over to me.

“InuYasha......what- what is it? Tell me why are you crying?


A/N: HAH! Gotta hate those cliff hangers.....lol;)