Blood Stained

 

A/N: I seriously did not mean to let a month go by. I'm so sorry. But I had school, then I had to write a oneshot entry for Tangie's Tournament and poof went the free time I had. I'm really sorry everyone!

Thank you Daniella for beta-reading!

Blood Stained

Chapter 82: A Place Called Home

The day had gone by rather uneventfully much to everyone's relief. However, that had not stopped Kagome from spending her time in the bedroom hovering over Kiyoshi's crib. Sesshomaru stayed by her side for the most part but he left her recently to whip her up a little meal; she had not eaten in a long time.

It also meant that he was in the same room as Kouga and Kai who had refused to leave. They wanted to be there in case their plan backed fire badly. Unfortunately for him, they seemed to be lacking entertainment since their eyes were locked on the back of his head.

"You are free to leave," he stated without looking at them.

"And miss you being a homemaker? I don't think so," Kouga said teasingly. "We need a little bit of humor around here."

Sesshomaru felt his top lip twitch and his eyebrow was urging to be raised in disapproval. Any other time he assumed he would have made a snarky comeback, but this involved Kagome. No, homemaker would never be in his list of goals and considering whom he was some people might think this was degrading.

After all, ever since this trip began he had taken care of everything, even the little details that had slipped her mind. Things as futile as making sure there was food on hand, clothes and more he made sure he took care of. No he did not shop for it himself, but he still made sure it was provided.

And he did not mind. A human lifetime of taking care of her would not even be enough.

"She'll be fine."

Kai's voice snapped Sesshomaru out of his thoughts and he tilted his head to glance at her. There was no smile upon her lips and her eyes were almost gleaming.

"Instincts or abilities?"

"Both."

"Are you sharing your insights?"

She smirked. "I would not, it would interfere with the future."

It was nothing important. She had not mentioned anything else she knew but Kagome's well being. She would be fine. She did not say if she was happy or joyful, simply that she would recover from this. It was a blow to her motherhood and she would need a few days to pick herself back up.

Sesshomaru finished the sandwich and nodded at Kai as he walked by. They never shared a great amount of time around one another, but she had proven to be more and more helpful as time went on. He could not exactly say he had anything against her anymore though.

When he entered the bedroom, he found Kagome on the floor. She was staring at the crib with half-opened eyes. Quietly he walked in her direction just in case she was dozing off; he did not want to wake her up. He slowly slid himself on the floor beside her and observed her face. Now that he was this close, he noticed her eyes were nearly closed. He put the plate on his lap and rested his head against the bed.

"He's okay."

The sound of her voice surprised him and he quickly peeked to his left. Kagome's eyes were now fully opened as she stared intensely at their son.

She knew that Kiyoshi being fine during the first day did not mean anything, but it did re-assure her. At least, they probably had done nothing wrong and the worst case scenario was that they failed and they would need to find another way around it.

"How are you feeling?"

"I'm fine."

She did not feel like she was losing her mind anymore. She also wasn't imagining his beast trying to strangle her so it had to be a good sign. "As long as all of this is really happening, I'm okay," she said in an attempt to lighten up the mood.

"We did the right thing."

It was the only option they had considering all the restrictions. He did not want her to carry a heavy burden anymore; she should not feel guilty. Everything that happened was out of everyone's control – or almost. She should not blame herself for the repercussions of actions she did not do.

"What if it worked? I mean, what if for now we've taken care of it? What do we do?"

There was only one answer. "We go home."

Home. It was such a strange word at the moment. Kagome had not felt like she even had a home for a very long time. When she was traveling between two worlds, she was torn between two homes. Then she had lived in Sesshomaru's castle which had been anything but home. And now, she felt out of place at the shrine. It would always be where she came from, but she did not know if it could be home. At least not forever, especially not now that she had Kiyoshi. And Sesshomaru.

They had been living together for so long now that she wasn't sure what it would be like to not have him around. Despite the fact that their relationship had progressed, there were a few loose ends and she wasn't sure the best way to fix everything was to pretend it was all fine and play house.

"We will figure it out."

"You know, sometimes this thought thing is creepy."

She had nothing to hide from him, but that did not mean it was comfortable to have him inside her head. At least it made it easier to express her feelings since she did not have to word it out.

"This feels safe. Going back home…."

"It will be filled with a lot of obstacles?"

Kagome smiled. "Something like that." She sighed. "I know we can't stay here forever but I just – I wish it was simpler."

While her thoughts ran wild her eyes moved to his laps where there was food and at that exact moment her stomach began to growl. It had been a while since her last meal…

"It is for you," he said as he handed her the plate.

"Thank you," she replied while grabbing it from him.

Kagome dared to try and steal a look at the kitchen. "Are they still here?"

She had been so focused on watching her son and making sure nothing bad was happening to him that she had shut out the real world for a few hours.

He nodded. "They have been waiting." They cared too and although their level of worry was probably nowhere near Kagome's, they wanted to make sure Kiyoshi was fine.

Instead of beginning her meal, Kagome showed concern. "They should go home. I mean, they must be tired too." She also felt like everyone had to baby her and her son.

She was not mad at him though, she just wished it did not have to be one problem on top of another.. Especially since it was truly nobody's burden except hers and she let all of them carry it with her.

"If they wished to leave, they would have."

Kagome nodded before putting the plate down despite her hunger and leaned into Sesshomaru. Her nose was pressed against his chest and she felt warm while a nice comforting scent surrounded her. She and Sesshomaru had not been close since they had taken the final step. She was not craving it, but she wanted his presence.

Ignoring what had occurred in the Feudal Era, Sesshomaru had been the only stable thing in her life in the Modern world. He was the only thing that was consistent rather than everything else that was falling apart. She was holding on to that more than ever before. Even when she had doubts he picked her back up. She needed that.

Sesshomaru wrapped his arms around her and brought her body closer. Her aura had shifted as well as her scent when she came closer to him. It made him want to protect her more than usual and he wanted to take her worries away. The times to come could either be easier than anything they had gone through or they could be worse.

He did not know her family and frankly, even if they were the nicest and most accepting people he had a hard time believing they would accept him. He would not. Problem was, Kagome would end up being the one hurt the most. Although, if he allowed himself a selfish thought, then he would say that it would pain him more than he wanted to think about.

Sesshomaru had been alone for so long and the thought of his family being ripped away from him was anything but joyful. It was one of those times where it would be difficult for him to sit back and let it occur as it should. Because if he did that, he felt he might lose her.

He had no doubts about her feelings for him. She had shared those during a very important moment.

But what about when they were out there and the people who were always there for her tried to show her just how insane this was. There was nothing normal and rational about them being together but it did not make it completely wrong. It was definitely insane if you thought about it from an outside perspective though.

"I'm not going anywhere." She smiled against his chest. "My turn to peek in."

It was not as clear as with him, but she had been able to sense how lost he felt. Since the night they shared, every day she felt that bond growing. It was slightly scary, but she knew that it would make them stronger than ever.

He wanted to tell her he knew and to confirm she was right, but he would not. He was already acting as if he was never going to lose her and he should not. Kagome could be taken from him or slip through his fingers at any given moment. He did not want to think about it, but it was a reality. She felt good with him, she was putting the events of the past behind, but what if it was all brought back?

Sesshomaru nearly shook his head; with Kagome in his head, it was a bad idea to be thinking about this.

Instead, to distract himself, he pressed a kiss on top of her head. Following his action, she raised her head and in one quick motion she pressed her lips against his. Sesshomaru's mouth felt warm and she shivered. Until now, she had not realized it was cold in the room. Of course, Sesshomaru's body was always warmer than normal people.

His hands grabbed her waist and held her tightly. Their lips moved in sync and a sense of relief was shared. It felt like that at any moment the fragile relationship they shared could be shattered. At the same time nothing felt stronger. When he pulled away, her lips still felt moist and she almost reached out for them just to feel.

When she glanced up at him she felt her heart swell up.

She enjoyed being near him without hallucinating that his beast trying to kill her. She did not want anything to control her mind anymore. She needed to feel like herself with no influence. In a way, it was ironic. Maybe the way she had felt and still did was what Sesshomaru went through with his beast. To him, he had probably been his darkness – and still was.

Unfortunately once you are tainted, you can never return to being pure. It was not wrong. Before all those events, she was easily hurt. She would fight back but her feelings would get hurt. Now she knew she could be put through hell and come back from it. No, she was not completely fine or healed, but she was alive and herself.

"There is something I need to give you."

Her sense of alert was on the rise and she frowned slightly. "Okay," she said uncertainly.

"It is nothing to fear," he added with a smile to reassure her.

Sesshomaru released his hold on her and Kagome allowed her arms to fall flat upon the ground. She watched his every movement with intensity as he walked to his suitcase. When he began to carefully open it, she suppressed a smile. If this was a normal relationship where two adults were dating and had a child together, then this could almost seem as if Sesshomaru was proposing or committing of some sort.

But they were themselves, and instead she feared that whatever he had would cause their world to come crashing down.

When Sesshomaru took out nothing more than a folder out of the suitcase, she began to breathe easier. She pressed her palms against the floor and lifted herself. To be honest, the floor was getting slightly uncomfortable. She resumed sitting on the bed and waited for him to join her.

Sesshomaru did not mimic her actions and instead remained standing. He did however hand her the folder he had been holding. It had been in his possession for a while now but he had wanted to make sure she was ready for it before offering her the reality of a new possibility. Home.

Kagome opened it and found herself staring at plane tickets. A bit confused, she blinked before she looked up. "Plane tickets?"

"There are no date on them. Whenever you wish to leave, you can. On a whim or on a calculated decision."

Until now, they had too many problems for him to give those to her. Now though, it felt as if things were slowly getting back into place and it felt right. Whenever Kagome felt safe enough to go home, she could. No trouble, no worries and no time to second guess herself and wonder if she was making the right decision.

"Oh," was the only answer she managed.

This was it. This could bring her back to Japan, home and bring with it more problems to figure out. It was a good thing; the final step. They had already agreed that they would no longer doubt or concern themselves with what may lie ahead. But this did bring back a bit of her fear along with questions.

"How long have you had these?"

"A while."

"Two of them? You thought we'd be back before Kiyoshi was born?"

"I thought only the two of you would go."

He never thought their relationship would be like this even when they became closer. He wanted her to have the option of leaving alone. He still did as a matter of fact. It would be better if she was alone to go home and see her mother. He was not running away, but he believed it would be easier if Kagome arrived and prepared her mother for the shock.

Of course, if she wished for otherwise, then he would go along with that as well.

"You know, I don't think there was ever a path where we did not find each other."

"Destiny?" he asked with a bit of sarcasm.

Thinking about an already forged path reminded him of Kai. It also proved a lack of control. If Kai could see the future, if he and Kagome could not avoid being with each other, did they ever truly control anything? All those years he spent controlling his own life, but in reality, did he never have a choice?

He did not regret anything he had but he simply wished that he could have acquired it differently.

Kagome put the tickets back in the folder and dropped it on the side table. Then, she proceeded to lay down on the bed. She was exhausted and craving a full night of sleep. After everything that had occurred recently it was as if someone had drained her of all of her energy.

When Sesshomaru noticed what she was doing, he decided to join her. A lot of things had been keeping him awake at night too. Kagome rather welcomed his warm arms around her body as they shielded her from the cold. She wanted to discuss some more things, but she found herself closing her eyes instead. Peace and quiet; something they had not been blessed with in a long time.

It was at that moment that a thought hit her. "Are Kouga and Kai still here?"

Sesshomaru nodded against her neck.

She had forgotten to pay attention, to notice if they had left during their conversation. Although to be fair, even if Sesshomaru hadn't come to see her she would have forgotten about him. Back there for a while she had been swallowed in her own little world.

"Maybe we-"

"They will know."

The fact that they were in the next room did not bother him. He also knew that both of them had probably heard everything he and Kagome said. They might stay, but Sesshomaru had a feeling they would return to Kouga's hotel room.

For now, things were calm and it seemed like nobody required supervision.

-B-

Darkness.

It was the only thing surrounding Kagome when she opened her eyes. Since she was still a bit confused, she snuggled with whatever was nearby and smiled. Once a few seconds went by, her mind caught up and she remembered the little nap Sesshomaru and she had decided to take.

Though by the look of outside, it had been more than a little nap.

When she looked down at her waist, she could see that Sesshomaru's arms were still tightly wrapped around her. Kagome leaned into him once again and this time, she felt something else. She wasn't sure if she was going to smile or blush as she felt the hard bulge.

And here she was thinking only teenage boys had no control over their hormones.

As expected her cheeks took on a shade of pink and she closed her eyes again. It was clear Sesshomaru was still asleep and she did not want to wake him up. Not because of his current physical state but because if he was sleeping, it was obvious he needed to rest.

Kagome thought she might lay there for a while or maybe even fall back asleep but instead, her skin was warmed by the feeling of soft lips pressed against her neck.

Sesshomaru was aware of his current condition and he also knew Kagome had felt it. It was indeed slightly embarrassing but it was his nature. She was his mate and for so long he had been denied loving her. It was now with her approval that he could touch and feel every inch of her body. A mating bond was important and theirs was getting stronger.

Although they had been together once, he was not going to push more encounters on her until she was ready. Her speed was her own and he would wait for her. Of course, it did not mean he would not touch her or stay away from her.

No matter what emotion she was experiencing her scent was always sweet.

He felt her breathing change and once her heartbeat became irregular he pulled away from her neck. It was then that she shifted her position and turned around to look at him. He saw no fear in her eyes and it pleased him. He thought that after her recent hallucination, she might still be a little scared.

Sesshomaru gently grabbed her hand and moved her wrist to his lips. He laid butterfly kisses all over it which tickled her. The smile on her lips grew and he stared into her blue eyes. "You have nothing to be afraid of."

"I'm not scared," she quickly replied.

"Good," he said while resting the tip of her fingers on his bottom lip.

Kagome used her free hand to grab the collar of his shirt and bring his face closer to hers. This was reality; this was the real Sesshomaru. She crashed her lips against his and allowed herself to be over taken by the warmth of her feelings. Her other hand rested against the pillow and Sesshomaru tangled his fingers with hers.

She felt small and fragile beneath him and he loved the feeling. Kagome's hand slid inside his shirt and rubbed against his neck. Her delicate fingers explored around his collarbone before lowering. His buttoned shirt stopped her actions and he held back a growl. He wanted to feel her touch and let her explore.

Kagome was human and that came with restrictions that as a demon, it took him a while to grasp. They were mated; there was no shyness. The bond was pure and he was hers while she was his. Humans however did not always seem to fully share themselves and they hid.

She had nothing to be ashamed of.

"You are beautiful," he whispered against her lips.

Nothing but the truth was shinning in his eyes as he captured her face with both of his hands. Instead of aiming for her mouth, he began to leave kisses along her jaw line while he tilted her head back. Once her neck was full exposed to him, he lapped at the flesh. Kagome's body tingled and she sunk her teeth in her bottom lip. It was not until his tongue reached the mating mark that a moan slipped past her lips.

Satisfied with her reaction, Sesshomaru lowered his mouth. His fangs grazed against her breasts and as he did so, he brought the collar of her shirt down. When he was near the nipple he pulled away and her collar lifted back up. Her eyes met his for a second and then she made a decision. She grasped the hem of her shirt and quickly lifted it over her head.

Once the shirt was thrown on the ground, Sesshomaru wrapped his arms around her body and lifted her up. A sense of thrill filled her as his tongue traveled between her breasts. She felt teased and that did nothing to prevent the puddle of lust forming inside of her. Sesshomaru moved his skilled tongue all the way down to her navel and circled it.

While Kagome squirmed underneath his touch, he dared to venture further. Her lips parted, her head was thrown back but not a sound came out. She was waiting – waiting for that other feeling; that one that would make her toes curl.

Sesshomaru shifted his hold on her and freed one of his arms. He then proceeded to unbutton her pants while watching her expressions. He would know if she was not comfortable or unwilling, but he was being extra careful. Pleasing her did give him pride as a male and he also had many bad times to make up for.

In one swift motion he freed her from the constraint of her jeans and tossed them aside. She was left in nothing more than her blue underwear as he laid her back down. He could see her bottom lip trembling while he lowered himself. He pressed his nose against her core and inhaled the divine scent; she was wet.

He used one of his claws to push aside the fabric blocking him from his goal and then without hesitation plunged his tongue inside of her. The second the contact was made Kagome twisted her body in pleasure. He shoved his tongue deeper inside of her and her juices began to flow into his mouth. While he made circles with his tongue, Kagome grabbed the sheets with her fingers and began twirling her feet.

Just a little more.

When Kagome began to thrust her hips forward, Sesshomaru decided to add a little bit more sensation. He slipped one of his digits inside of her while he removed his tongue. He instead decided to focus his attention on her little nub of nerves. He nibbled on her clit while his finger was rapidly sliding in and out of her.

He had done so little, yet Kagome already felt like she was on the edge. Most of these good sensations she was not used to yet and Sesshomaru had a skillful touch. It was as if he knew her body and where to touch for her to reach climax. His finger was putting pressure exactly where it should and sounds of passion escaped her.

Sesshomaru peered up and watched her nearly bare body. His erection was throbbing inside his pants and he was becoming frustrated. The way her chest heaved with each of her deep breaths was made to drive him insane with lust. He reached out for one of her breasts and despite the fact that her bra covered it he massaged it.

Kagome felt a bit of irritation; she wanted to feel his hand. Although her own thoughts embarrassed her, she slowly reached out for her bra's clasp. After a bit of fumbling she unhooked it. It fell off her breasts and Sesshomaru used the opportunity to gently pinch her nipple. Kagome arched her back, which drove his finger deeper inside of her.

As his hand slowly became coated with her nectar, he plunged another digit inside. He turned them inside of her causing her body to jolt with lust. He watched as she ran her tongue over her lips and he decided to give into the temptation. Although he never removed his fingers from within her, he bent her forward so that he could kiss her.

She could taste herself on his lips but she did not care. Instead, she returned the kiss while she felt him pushing his fingers into new angle trying to find the spot that would make her dam give up.

And he did.

Kagome felt her eyes wanting to roll back and she closed them shut as she felt the wave. She loudly expressed her orgasm as she flooded his hand with her sticky juices. The entire time his lips were against her until finally, she could do nothing but rest her forehead on his completely breathless.

It took a few seconds, but Kagome laughed. "Once again," she said while shaking her head softly.

She was completely bare and he was fully dressed. How did this happen almost every time? While he was hovering over her she took the opportunity to undo his buttons one by one. His eyes were gazing into hers deeply and she could see the desire reflecting in them; he wanted her.

Kagome slowly dropped his shirt from his shoulder and then slid her hands down his muscular chest. She did not know how many times she had done this but she would not get tired of it. Kagome wasn't sure if it was because he was a demon, but even with his lack of exercise, he did not lose any muscles. Instead, it felt as if he had more each time.

Much like last time, her fingers found his belt and she quickly undid it. It was not until the sound of zipper echoed that she felt a chill going through her. This was their second real time. She was not as nervous as last time, but she was not completely calmed and controlled either. She trusted Sesshomaru and it was all that mattered.

Last time, he had given her feelings and experiences she did not think were possible and she would be lying if she said she didn't wish to feel more. One step at a time was perfect for her.

Once his pants and boxers were taken off, he was completely bare on top of her. She laid back down with a pounding heart as he grabbed her underwear and left her as nude as he was. Excitement was bubbling inside of her when she watched him position himself between her legs.

Kagome closed her eyes while Sesshomaru slid his length inside of her. She was warm and tight as he pushed his way through. He felt her squeeze around him and a curse nearly slipped him. The wetness of her walls was overwhelming, but he focused himself as he began a slow pace. He still wanted to take it easy.

It did feel like torture.

He did not wish to be too rough or hurt her, but a faster speed would not displease him. As he plunged himself further within her core, she began to thrust her hips to his rhythm. Her fingers were digging into his shoulders while he hammered away at what he knew was her weak spot. Her long legs were tightly wrapped around his waist bringing him closer.

He was locked in her hold.

Sesshomaru bent forward and captured her nipple between his teeth. With a gentle tug he pulled but instead of it bringing her pain, she received pleasure. His hands were gripping her hips as he pounded away and part of him hoped that one day he could take her the way Inuyoukais were meant to take their mates.

He did not want to offend her with such a move and he would not suggest it. After the latest events, this was how they connected back and he was grateful for it. He closed his eyes and let himself enjoy her tightness. It did no matter how many times they had done this; she squeezed him just as much.

"W-we can do it," she said between deep breaths.

When she uttered those words, he almost felt ashamed of his thoughts. He was aware that she could hear some of them and he had not wanted her to think this was not satisfying or not enough.

"I want to do i-it," Kagome added before he could complain.

She was a bit apprehensive, perhaps because it was technically new, but she knew nothing bad would happen. It was Sesshomaru and she had not even thought about that side of him. He was an Inuyoukai; it was obvious they did certain things a bit differently.

With doubt dancing in his eyes, Sesshomaru nodded. Kagome was strong and she could obviously handle this but he was completely terrified that an action might trigger a memory that was too bad to overcome. However, she did seem fine with this so perhaps he needed to have more faith in her.

He removed his pulsing cock from within her and her juices slipped onto the bed sheets. Carefully, Sesshomaru turned her around and helped her as she went on all fours. He could hear her heartbeat very clearly; it was beating like a drum inside her chest. He waited a few seconds before taking a grip on her like he was waiting for her to change her mind.

When she said nothing, he took hold of her hips. His length was throbbing as he aimed himself. One deep breath and one swift push and he was inside. The moment Kagome felt him enter her from that angle her mouth opened wide. A silent moan was pronounced and she was out of breath right away.

His speed was faster this way than ever before. She also did not know he could even reach this deep inside of her. The overflow of her juices was leaking down her own legs as he kept pounding inside of her at a decent rhythm. She could not even control her own hips as she thrust back into him.

Sesshomaru allowed his hands to move to her rear and temptation was upon him. Instincts, desire and lust were mingling inside of him and if he let himself slip, he would lay her flat on her stomach and take her. It was like he was already ready to burst. The feeling and sound of her ass smacking against him was nearly enough to cause that.

Kagome felt her mind melt while she tried to grab on to something – anything - as if it would relieve some of the pressure. It felt so good that it was too much and she did not know how to handle it. His touch was like a ghost upon her flesh yet it was setting her on fire. Her insides were lighting up and she was biting terribly hard on her bottom lip; it was bleeding again.

"Se-sh-se." She did not have enough breath to say his name.

It hardly mattered because her little moans and the way she was saying his name was enough to drive Sesshomaru to his edge. He could last, but she made it terribly difficult. This was all new for her; the shared feelings because of their bond, the height of her experience; it was too much added to his own.

However, he would not end until she was satisfied.

Without getting too rough, Sesshomaru picked up his speed. He also moved one of his hands to her breast and gently caressed it. He noticed as Kagome threw her head back and pushed her ass deeper into him. He could do nothing but cover her back with his chest before starting a more intense pounding within her. Because of his constant deepness, Kagome felt her legs begin to tremble.

If he just – oh – and there – ah -.

And she felt it.

Her eyes fully rolled back, her toes curled and she moaned his name in pleasure as she climaxed. Her nectar was dripping out and completely coating Sesshomaru's erection. Unable to hold another second because of the wave of lust she had just thrown his way, Sesshomaru emptied himself within her without a second thought.

It was not too long until he swelled within her and he was then reminded of what he had done. He had not pulled out and he was now stuck. He expected a reaction from Kagome right away, but he seemed to get none while she was trying to catch her breath.

He cursed at himself while he waited within her. At least from her scent he could tell she was not at her most fertile days, but… she could be close. Things were finally straightening up and this was the last hurdle they needed. He wished for a bigger family with Kagome… when things were right.

Another few seconds passed before he finally pulled himself out and dropped beside her. It was not until she moved to rest her head against his shoulder that she seemed to realize.

Her eyes widened a bit and she twisted her mouth. "Am I?"

She trusted him and his judgment. It was possibly the only reason why she did not seem nervous or concerned. She simply wanted him to confirm it. "You are safe," he said.

Sesshomaru was sure she had to be. If she was in any way fertile, it would have tickled his nose. It was one slip up and it would not happen again. He had to stop being an out of control pup when he was with her.

Considering his age it should not be this difficult. Though, the stronger their bond became the more he would experience her feelings. And she was new at this meaning he would feel new as well.

He wrapped one of his arms around her shoulder and pressed a kiss on top of her head. The less worries they had, the better. Despite not being tired, he closed his eyes; he wanted to enjoy these few seconds with her.

The silence was quickly broken by a quiet sizzling sound. Almost inaudible. Neither truly heard it and both of them missed the small glow that quickly appeared.

Instead, everything faded into the darkness of the night where everything felt safe.

-B-