Giving the Miko a Second Chance

Chapter 8: The Angry, Confused, Guilt Riddled Miko

A/N: Hello all! I hope this chapter isn’t too short, but I have not posted anything in a while and figured I should get something out there. Enjoy!

Awkward, confused, livid and an emotion she rarely felt, hot burning lust that would not be quenched no matter what she did invaded Kaede’s mind and body. On second thought, Kaede knew said lust could be quenched by a certain perverted Inu. However, her beliefs prevented her from doing so. After the Inu daiyoukai dropped many hints she knew he was attracted to her…although in her mind she did quite understand why. She was so use to being ignored when she was young the first time around that having someone, especially a daiyoukai be physically enticed by her form was a new experience…to put it mildly. So she no longer believed that he was not attracted to her, but she still believed in all the lessons ingrained in her from a lifetime of experience. In her minds eye, youkai and humans did not go together. Not only was it against her beliefs as a shrine miko, but from her knowledge that all human and youkai relationships ended badly for one reason or another. Her elder sister Kikyou relationship with Inuyasha is only one of the many difference species relationships she knows of that ended with tragedy.

Kaede thoughts became increasingly preoccupied with the statuesque, majestic, gorgeous creature that walked by her side. Normally Sesshoumaru would walk in front of her when they traveled though the forest. Normally he would walk in front of her with an air of authority and a swagger to his step that told all who saw that he was a being of power and royalty. At that moment however she could not help but be bothered by the fact that he walked with the same swagger and domineering matter at her side. She felt surprisingly and frighteningly comfortable with him so close to her. Way to comfortable! She could have sworn that she felt the warmth of his body radiating off of his form and touching her skin in a flirtatious caress. Was walking by her side and sending of waves of that warm energy towards her in a subtle way to continue his dance of seduction? Well if it was…it was working! It started off small an hour earlier when they left their bathing area. The intensity of it gradually increase to the point were it was almost overwhelming. Kaede had to concentrate just to continue her track along his side. Fearful that her legs may give out beneath her at any moment. What made matter worse was the fact that he had not said a word since they left the bathing area.

She was angry at the persistent Inu for pushing all of her right buttons and turning her body on to molten hot mode. She was furious at herself for enjoying the flick of switches that got her all hot and bothered. What really pissed her off was the fact that she was enjoying who was pushing said buttons and flicking said switches. Granted she always found all humanoid youkai to be beautiful, but that did not make her lust after them. Of course now the daiyoukai is the exception to that rule. She felt like the biggest hypocrite who ever existed! Kaede had to resist the urge of tugging on her hair, an old habit she practice during her first youthful years when she was extremely frustrated. Ah, how she missed some of the calm composure she seemed to have loss while in the company of the silver canine.

“I will not let him lure me in anymore than he already has. A relationship with him is something that can never be…I will not allow it!” She thought with strong conviction as she continued to stroll right beside the subject of her ponderings. Than she turned her head to look at the daiyoukai, who seemed to be completely ignoring her for the moment. Preferring to stare straight ahead at nothing in particular.

The daiyoukai himself stalked though the forest with his usual confidence or arrogance, depending on his observant perspective. He gazed straight ahead with a blank expression on his countenance. The formally elderly miko could help but wonder how he could keep such a stoic expression after what had just occurred between them a few of hours earlier?

While her conscious mind keep thinking of reasons why her and the Inu daiyoukai should not think of forming any kind of intimate relationship, her unconscious which was being persuaded by a certain Inu’s warmth had other ideas. Ideas which lead her hazel and golden eyes to travel from the right side of his beautiful magenta stripped face, to his broad shoulder wrapped in that long fluffy white tail that not too long ago wrapped around her like an Anaconda. However, instead of squeezing that life from her as it would have done to most it surrounded, it along with other actions of the daiyoukai wringed lusted out of her body. Unlike any lust she has felt before.

Her gaze continued to travel down his muscular arm that was obscured from her vision by the ridiculously large bellowing sleeve, to his large clawed hand. From there her mismatched orbs traveled to his hip than to his inner thighs. Kaede gaze finally landing on his manhood which to her disappointment was covered by his large pants and armor. Realizing how perverted her thoughts had become she decided to confront the one who was responsible…

“Al right cease this instant!” Kaede said her aura filled with anger and embarrassment. Her fury made her forget that she was talking to someone who loved to give orders and loathed to take them. If she did remember at this point, she did not care. That warmth, that energy he was sending towards her had to be the reason why she was yearning for him and thinking such hentai thoughts. If she was the type, she would bet money that he was sending off some type of energy during their encounter in the water. The calculating bastard! Yup it was ALL is fault she convinced herself.

Sesshoumaru eyes narrowed while looking straight ahead as he said:

“This Sesshoumaru takes orders from no one little miko. Unless you have something to say that is worthy of this Sesshoumaru time, save your breath.” He say firmly as he continued to walk be her side without so much as giving her a glance.

Kaede bristled at his tone and his words. She dared him to try to flip this whole situation on her and act as if he has done nothing to arouse her fury…among other things…

Grabbing his sleeve to get his attention, Kaede saw how he looked down at her small hands with a blank expression. She could not tell if he was offended by the hand or upset that the hand was not touching a more…shall we say, intimate area on his person. Judging from the earlier events, Kaede was will to bet that it was the latter. Pushing that thought out of her mind since she had his attention she looked at him and stated:

“I dare you brush my word aside and act as if you are doing nothing to bring about my words in the first place!” She said in a tone just as firm as Sesshoumaru.

“What is this drivel that spills from your lips miko?” He said flatly as he looked up from her hand into her beautiful face. Who did this little woman think she was to challenge him, the daiyoukai of the West?! To chastise him as if her was a mere puppy! Although a part of him found her behavior refreshing, especially since most beings who knew him coward in his mere presence. The perverted part of his mind thought of some other type of drivel he would love to see drip from her lovely lips…Mmmm what a grand sight that would make! Than, another part of him was irritated with her antics. However, his annoyance, arousal or appreciation did not show in his face, just in his eyes. In those normally cold eyes their was a mixture of emotions that blended so well together that unless one really knew the daiyoukai, an observer could not begin to phantom what was happening in the depths of Sesshoumaru’s mind. Keade was one of the observers that could not completely read him as she wished.

He observed her with an intense gaze for a few moments that almost prevented the next group of words from leaving the formally elderly miko’s mouth…almost:

Taking a deep breath to try and calm herself, she said in her calm, heavy, but somewhat strained voice:

“Ye would continue to try and entice me knowing that we cannot be together?”

She heard a low eerie chuck resonate from the subject of her recent thoughts chest. Earlier he was all glacier like, than he went from an ice sickle to a hot blue flame. Hell the blue streaks in his hair represent the blue inferno she knows now is within him while the silver hair represents cold metal. The façade he chooses to show to mostly everyone. A few hours later, one minute he’s ignoring her, next he was giving her a bored expression, than he gave her the “stare through to your very soul” expression, now… he was laughing? What the hell?! The youkai was more unpredictable than she first anticipated. If she was not careful, he would drive her crazy with guilt, anger, desire, bafflement and the overall craziness that was his behavior.

Letting the potential wrath of a miko be know her hands sparked for a moment before she regain control of her powers. Balling up her little fist she demanded:

“What’s so amusing!?” Her cheeks flushed red from embarrassment and anger. She liked a good jest as much as anyone; however she did not like to be the subject of any jest. Nor did she enjoy him testing her patience with his arrogant and inappropriate behavior.

Inwardly smiling at her frustration, yet aggravated by her statement he retorted:

“Dear little miko, there are many things this Sesshoumaru will not do, there is nothing he cannot do.” He said with authority, authority to Kaede’s dismay she found attractive.

Yup the “little miko” had a thing for males with a “take charge” attitude. Although she thought the daiyoukai went overboard with said attitude, she could not help but find it alluring. Of course she refused to admit it to anyone. Instead for the purpose of avoiding any sort of intimate relationship with the Inu at any cost, especially after the “bathing incident”, she decided to be irate every time he makes the dominating part of his personality know. Which was quite often.

Sesshoumaru knew she worried about the possible negative consequences of their joining. After all in Sesshoumaru’s opinion, his father died because of it and his brother was pinned to a tree for half a century for the same reason. In the past he was livid at his father and brother for being what he perceived as weak. He blamed his brother, his human mother and his father for the great and powerful Inu no Tashio’s downfall. However, after getting to know his Rin he had a better understanding of why they grew so attached to their humans, “why they protect them”, “why they missed them” and “why they loved of them”. They missed them because they know every moment with them is precious, after all humans are not long for this world. They protect them because they will miss them when they are gone. It is an effort to delay the inedible. They did not wish for the humans to disappear from their long lives early when they could hold on to them until nature takes its course and snatch them from their grasp later. They love them for those reasons mentioned and so much more...they loved them for showing them love.

He Lord Sesshoumaru of course will not verbally admit such an emotion to anyone, not even his adopted pup. Besides he knew she understood what he felt. As he thought about some of the positive qualities the beings have, he realized that not all humans are as low and vile as he first thought. Although humans are pathetically weak physically, some of them possess indomitable wills and beautiful radiate spirits like his Rin. He found it highly intriguing that such weak creatures were able to not only face the harsh world head on and survive to bring forth new generations, but most seem to easily accept the fact that they will not live long. Unlike any youkai that would consider a human a companion or more. Even after two deaths his little Rin is still full of life and will not let the possibility of a ‘final death’ keep her from living. Sesshoumaru however, wishes to find a way to keep her in the world of the living for at least as long as he planned on living. Which is an extremely long time…

Sesshoumaru believed the little miko by his side for all of her spunk and outspoken ways possessed same attributes as his pup. Being one to do what he wished when he wished it, he did not take to kindly to the idea of denying himself what he desired merely because of what occurred in the pass to a few other couples or because what others may think. Sesshoumaru also knew that the little miko desired him, she is just too afraid of the consequences to admit it. He would just have to get her to see things his way. And if someone did not like it, too bad for them. Hell, he figured he could shut up any “nay-Sayers” to his decisions with an artic glower, the sharp tip of his Bakusaiga and the pointy acidic tip of his claws.

After taking several more deep breaths to calm her ire she looked him directly in the eyes and spoke:

“I beg to differ; ye cannot pursue any relationship of the sort with me unless I allowed it.” The formerly elderly miko stated smugly as she looked right into those cold yet fierce exotic golden orbs. She knew that forcing himself on anyone was beneath the daiyoukai. Especially since Kagome told her about how Sesshoumaru saved her and her friends from one of the band of seven members who thought it was a good idea to molested the young miko while she and her friends was paralyzed.


Without missing a beat the daiyoukai fully turned to face her, stared at her with those intense golden eyes that were cold yet possessed an emotion Kaede could not quite read and responded with a soft tone that contradicted his fiery gaze:

“My my…so sure of yourself aren’t you.” He stated running the deadly talons on his right hand through her thick long raven locks. Letting his right hand slide down to her left shoulder and his left hand come up to grasp her right side, very close to her pelvic area. Kaede had the breath knocked out of her by his mere touch and could do nothing stare at him in awe. She really had the hot’s for him…bad.

Sesshoumaru than leaned in close to the right side of her neck allowing his warm breath to ghost across her sensitive skin. He smirked as she automatically turned her head to the side to give him better access…her hazel and golden eyes full of lust. Her anger momentarily forgotten.

Kaede shivered and gasped as he continued to slowly move his head towards her right ear, blowing the warm welcoming air up her neck, to her jaw line, cheek and finally hear ear. As he did this, he allowed his left hand slide along her side, hip bone, than inched a minute amount into her pants tickling the skin just beneath her white kimono robe with those wicked claws of his. Than he whispered in a low, baritone, husky voice.

“When this Sesshoumaru is done with you little miko, you will feel privileged to have this one touch (grope her ass) and taste (lick her jaw line) every part of your being (blow air into her ear) inside and out.” After saying his piece, he nipped her ear lightly just enough to sting and let his long smooth tongue lick the shell of Kaede’s ear before blowing his warm breath across it.

Finally he backed off and Kaede nearly tumbled to the ground before gathering the strength to stand on her own. She had not even realized that she was leaning on the daiyoukai for support. Her anger resurfaced after awaking from her stupor of lust. She was pissed off and a bit frighten which was rare for the tough miko. She was afraid because unlike last time, this time she barely resisted him at all when he caressed her! Why was that, she did not know. Did he put some time of spell on her, was it some type of chemical his body was throwing off to entice her or was it her own lust getting the better of her? During her bath, that was the first time she was ever touched like that by a male. Perhaps her body had been denied that sort of pleasure for so long that once it got a taste of a male’s touch, it craved it ravenously even if her mind did not. She feared that if he had continued his advances she would not have wanted him to stop.

Caught of guard by his heat and her own, Kaede attempted to mask her fear and gave him a dirty look that gave Sesshoumaru’s glares a run for it money before marching ahead of him. Granted she had no idea where Totosai new home was located, but she had to distance herself from him before she proved him right and end up feeling privileged instead of angry every time he touches her.

Sesshoumaru inwardly chuckled at the formerly elderly miko antics. Yup, he was determined to get his way and refused to let any doubts or beliefs on Kaede’s behalf or anyone else’s for that matter stop him.

‘This Sesshoumaru has just begun little miko, prepare yourself…’

TBC

A/N: Sorry about the long wait five courses, family plus working takes away a lot of my time when it comes to writing. Reviews are always adored and appreciated!!!