I am the Moon

A/N: I do not own Inuyasha, the talented Rumikio Takahashi does.


For Honor and Dishonor

“What have I done Sheng?” Katashi said bewildered.
“She transformed and tried to destroy you. What could you have done?” Sheng said with repressed anger.
“Kami, she was beautiful was she not?” he said with admiration.
“Hai, my Lord. She is a beautiful killing machine.” Sheng said bitterly.
“I need to get this wound bandaged and we need to be on our way.” Katashi ordered.
“Hai.” His friend replied.
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I awoke to find myself in my chambers with nothing but a thin silk yukata on. My abdomen was wrapped and so was my right arm. I had transformed and tried to kill him. I was angry at my lack of patience and my recklessness yet again. I had ignored my father and went so far as to defy him publicly. I supposed if I wished to avoid his wrath that I could blame it on the loss of blood. I had not wanted to truly kill him but to prove a point. I was curious if my father would aid him since Katashi had won. I wanted him desperately and wondered if it was my beast that was driving me. I got up from my futon and threw on a dressing gown and left my chambers. I was heading to the great hall. I felt my mother coming up to me quickly and I turned to meet her.
-Were you trying to get yourself killed? - She pathed.
-No Mother. I inflicted quite a bit of damage on him did I not?-I replied in her head.
“You defied your Father. He is seriously angry right now.” She said.
“Tell him I was obviously not thinking clearly.” I snapped.
She grabbed my arm and made me face her. She searched my eyes and stared me down.
“You have not been yourself seen you met this inu. You have been excessively reckless and defiant.”
“What do you want from me Mother?” I asked angry.
“I want you to face the truth. You will end up destroying yourself avoiding it!” she admonished me.
“I do not have the luxury of wants and desires. I am female in a male's world Mother. It was not Osamu born with power…it was me!” I snapped.
“What do you think it was like for me Asuna? You think because I am obliging to Sesshomaru that I have somehow become less powerful?” she asked in disbelief.
“I know your history Mother and I am not you. I cannot share all of myself because the outside world will try and destroy me. I realize that I am the heir because I have the most power of all his pups but how often is it that a Lord just hands his empire to a female?” I yelled at her.
“Sesshomaru would not make you his heir without preparing the way for you.” She said.
“Sure. Tell that to all the other youki in the world. I cannot show weakness by allowing personal feelings to enter in.” I said narrowing my eyes.
“Do you not see that by denying those feelings and repressing them that you are endangering yourself? You may already have done so.” She said.
“I have neither the time nor inclination to continue arguing with you Mother.” I said trying to walk away.
“You are foolish if you think you can continue on as you have. You are pregnant.” She said angrily.
“How do you know?” I asked in surprise.
“Foolish girl. You are my pup remember? I have masked the scent for now to give you time but Sesshomaru will find out. You need to figure things out and quickly.” She replied.
“I do not need him.” I said with a growl.
“Do you honestly think he will leave his own blood? He is a lord Asuna. You carry his heir. I have seen the way he looks at you. He wants you despite good sense.” She said frankly.
“Good sense? All he wanted was and is to copulate Mother. I knew the consequences of my actions, but I will be damned to the seven hells before I give him MY pup.” I snarled.
“You are complicating things further Daughter.”
“It is my problem Mother.”
“You make it our entire problem ASUNA.” She snapped.
“I will take care of it Mother.” I said calming down.
“Although it is not spoken aloud often, you are loved Asuna. We all love you.” She said quietly.
“I have no doubts of that Mother but I am considered grown.”
“I understand that my dearest daughter but it is not weakness to open your heart, your father did. I will stand by his side till the end of times. This Katashi seems different than most inu males.” She replied.
“All inu males wish to dominate and control. That is their instinct; it is very hard to go against instinct.” I said.
“That is a true statement. Let us enjoy a meal.” She said leading me toward the Great Hall.
I pondered my Mother's statements and cursed her power of precognition. I had not stopped myself from getting pupped. I was going to have to stand my ground or I would lose the pup based upon Inu tradition. I realized that there would be a great deal of power in this little one. There were not that many taiyouki running around and the idea that two inu of great power coming together, that would create an upset of the balance of power in the islands. My problems kept mounting and I was getting a massive headache. My father was seated at the head of the table on a silk cushion and he narrowed his eyes at me. I proceeded to lower myself and bow prostrate in the hopes that he would cool off.
“I ask for your forgiveness my Lord. I was injured and in a blood lust.” I said with my eyes downcast.
“You are forgiven. Do not ever defy this Sesshomaru in front of others again!” he said coldly.
“Hai my Lord.” I answered.
I rose up from my prone position and took my place at the table. My mother sat to his right and me to his left. My two brothers sat across from each other and exchanged glances. My father stopped eating and made sure he had all of our attention and spoke.
“This Sesshomaru has decided that the West will aid the Lord of He Gang.”
“My Lord, how do you intend do aid him?” I asked.
“You will be heading a small army to Manchuria.” He replied coolly.
My life kept getting more and more complicated and I wanted to scream in rage. I looked at my father and nodded. I would not get away with arguing with him after my stunt that morning. I picked up my chop sticks and stabbed a lentil and shoved it in my mouth. My mother looked at me but I refused to open myself up to pathing back and forth. My brothers felt the tension but wisely kept their mouths shut. Osamu tried to path to me also but I shut him out too. I rose after finishing my bowl of chazuke and bowed.
“When am I to leave?” I asked coldly.
“This day.” My father answered.
“Hai as you wish my Lord.” I answered.
I left the Great Hall and went in the direction of my chambers. I entered and called for my maid servant. She scampered in and bowed.
“Mayu, prepare a trunk for an extended travel.” I commanded quietly.
“Yes milady. May I speak?” she asked.
“Yes Mayu.”
“You were magnificent this morning.” She said in awe.
“Thank you Mayu.” I said smiling gently.
She left me to follow my command. I slipped out of my rooms and went to Katashi's quarters. I put my stoic face on and knocked on the screen.
“Come.” I heard him call.
I slid the screen open and shut it quietly behind me. He looked at me with a blank expression on face and I stared at him.
“Lord Sesshomaru has decided that we will aid you in your mission. I will be heading an army that will follow you and conquer your enemies.” I stated dispassionately.
“You? Sesshomaru is sending you?” he asked incredulously.
“I have proven myself in battle several times and the youki of the West will follow me!” I snapped.
“I am trying to distance myself from you and your sire sends you with me?” he asked in frustration.
“This is the aid that he offers, take it or leave Lord Katashi.” I said devoid of emotion.
“I will take it bitch. If there were any other way then I would take that course of action.” He said angry.
“We leave this day then.” I said.
“I will be sure to treat the Lady Asuna as she deserves.” He said sarcastically.
“This has gone beyond honor or dishonor Lord Katashi. I will do as my Lord commands and no more.” I said narrowing my eyes.
“What happened to you in your life that makes you so heartless? He asked in anger.
“Nothing that concerns you.” I replied smoothly.
“When you were in my arms you came alive.” He said with passion.
“It was lust Lord Katashi.” I said quietly.
“Your beast is not screaming?” he asked surprised.
“Why should it.” I asked raising a brow.
“Why am I wasting my time.” He muttered.
“I have no idea.” I said.
“Contrary to your behavior; we inu are naturally affectionate creatures Lady Asuna.”
“Hn.” I said in a bored tone.
He moved behind me and moved my hair from my neck. I stood completely still and he lowered his lips to my neck and placed open mouth kisses along it. My eyes fluttered shut and a sigh escaped my mouth.
“You true form is exquisitely beautiful.” He murmured against my skin.
I fought myself from responding and stood there. I could feel his power just below the surface of his skin and I could not contain the chill that went down my spine.
“Do not mark me.” I commanded.
“No, I will not mark you until you beg me to.” He whispered.
“I do not deny that I lust for you, but that is all.” I mumbled.
I knew my scent was radiating copious amounts of desire and I felt my guard coming down. He ran his hands up my arms and I leaned my head back.
“Take me. “He whispered hoarsely.
“What?” I asked him not understanding.
“Let me show you.”
I nodded and he came around and led me to his futon. He lay down and brought me with him. I stared at him in understanding, he was giving me control. I slipped off my dressing gown followed by my yukata. I reached over to Katashi's hakamas and undid the ties. He was holding still but I could see that his breathing was coming faster. I pulled his arousal out and looked at it with overwhelming need. I leaned down and took him into my mouth. He about came off the futon and hissed in pleasure. I swirled my tongue around the head and on the underside along the vein. He continued to hiss in pleasure but restrained himself. I took the rest of him into my mouth and started to suck. I was mindful of my fangs and bobbed my head up and down. I fondled his sack and his thrust against me. A strangled moan ripped from his chest as I increased my speed and pressure.
“No.” he cried softly.
I understood that to stop and increased the suction and slowly pulled his member from my lips. I spied him from underneath my silver lashes and saw his heartbeat at his pulse point. On instinct, I lifted my head and pressed my body against his. I lowered my lips to his and he lifted his head to meet those lips. The kiss was violently passionate; his tongue invaded my mouth and battled with my own. While our lips were trying to conquer one another, I straddled him and slid his member inside of my scorching core.
“Kami.” He growled.
I sucked in my breath and thrust my hips against his. He threw his head back and snarled in passion. I slid back and forth starting to build a momentum. The position was erotic and gave me a feeling of power. He placed his hands on my hips and made me thrust harder. I was close to coming to fulfillment and I could see that Katashi was close too. He sat up while I still straddled him. His eyes were crimson but I saw the battle he was raging against his beast. I reached between us and rubbed my clitoris. My eyes turned scarlet and he and I were staring at each other as I started to tighten and convulse around him. His hands gripped my hips harder and I moaned loudly. My fangs started to lengthen and my instinct took over. As I shook from my orgasm, I wrapped my lips around his pulse point and bit into it viciously. His powerful blood filled my senses and I almost passed out. He roared as he spilled inside of me. His mouth was at my pulse point but he did not bite down. I sat back a little and stared at the wound where I had marked him. I leaned down and licked it. Katashi and I both shook. My beast was still in control and I licked along his jaw. His eyes had returned to their green and mine stayed red.
“Asuna.” He murmured.
I growled low in return but did not speak. I had lost all control and my beast was not going to be reigned in as it normally would, it was happy to be entangled with its mate and was not leaving.
“Asuna.” He tried to call me forth but my beast whined.
I growled while I bared my neck, and he shook his head no at first but I thrust my hips against his and he groaned. The battle returned to his features as he tried to maintain control but I kept moving against him. I kept my neck bared to him. His eyes were bleeding red but he still maintained a shred of control. I took both hands and grasped his back and pierced his flesh with claws. He roared in pain and when he looked at me; his eyes were fully changed and his beast was in control. I kept thrusting against him and he matched them with his own. I bared my neck to him again and he snarled. He put his fangs to my pulse point and bit in. We both came at the same time and I collapsed against him.
“I need to sleep.” I said in a whisper, barely audible.
My beast had decided on its mate and I could not undo what was done. Katashi's breathing had evened out and I heard a light snore. I too passed into a deep sleep, limbs completely entangled with my mate's.
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I do not know how long we slept and I hoped that the servants had the good sense not to bother us. My beast had betrayed me and I was a mated inu bitch. I sighed and my mate stirred beneath me. I laid my head against his chest and listened to his heart beat. I decided to hold off telling him of the pup. I could mask the scent well enough for awhile. I needed to force myself to get up and finish preparing for my campaign to the continent. I disentangled my limbs from his and retrieved my yukata from the floor.
“Leaving?” he asked sleepily.
“There is much that needs to be done.” I replied.
“Are you running away again?” he inquired.
“No Katashi. I am not running away. I tried to rein my beast in but it has chosen and forced my hand. You are my mate, not my master.” I replied coldly.
“I have no wish to be your master onna. I would not know anyone who would put up you!” he sniped at me.
“There is an alliance between our lands and a war to prepare for; I suggest we gather arms and not worry on personal issues.” I commented.
“Do as you well Asuna. I do not wish to spend centuries with someone who despises me.” He said sighing.
“I intended to do my will.” I said stepping away from the futon and the door.
“Can you open yourself at all except during mating?” Katashi called after me.
“When there is a reason to.” Was my reply as I exited the chambers.