Kagome's Diary
Sesshou
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I AM SORRY FOR THE LACK IN POSTING BUT THERE HAD BEEN 2 DEATHS IN THE FAMILY
AND WELL I DIDN'T WANT THAT TO CHANGE THE WAY THIS STORYW AS GOING. BUT UNFORTUNATELY,
IT DID. MY COUSIN AND UNCLE PASSED AWAY IN A CAR ACCIDENT (HOSPITAL ACTUALLY)
AND I WAS EXECUTOR OF THE WILL. IRONIC. ANYWAYS, I STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN
EVERYTHING SETTLE. THE FUNERAL WAS THIST WST WEEKEND. HOWEVER, THE BEST THING
ABOUT IT..I WAS THE ONLY ONE THERE WHO WORE THE BRIGHTEST COLORS AND DIDN'T
GIVE A SHIT. EVERONE HAD SOMETHING ICE TO SAY...I DIDN'T. I THINK THAT WAS THE
BEST PART ABOUT THE FUNERAL. PISSING THE FAMILY OFF *GRINS*
WELL
I LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE WHO IS READING AND ENJOYING THIS FIC. IT HAS BEEN
BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION THAT THERE IS SOME CONFUSION BETWEEN THE INTERACTION OF
KAGOME AND INUYASHA.
TO
PUT IT PLAIN AND SIMPLE, WHEN A PERSON HAS BEEN KIDNAPPED OR IS BEING HELD
AGAINST THERE WILL THERE'S A BOND THAT GROWS BETWEEN KIDNAPPER AND KIDNAPPEE.
SOMETIMES IT CAN BE REVERSE BUT MOST TIMES, IT CANNOT. THIS IS THE SITUATION
WITH KAGOME AND INUYASHA. I CANNOT EXPLAIN WHY KAGOME DO WHAT SHE DOES WITH
INUYASHA MAYBE ITS A SURIVAL INSTINCT or MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE SHE'S GROWN TO LOVE
IT *shrugs* I HOPE THAT HELPS SOMEWHAT.
whom else I could have told. Everyone looks at me as if I have some sort of
disease. ::shrugs:: Maybe I do. ::sighs:: What do you think? DO you think I'm
crazy for wanting to know where he is? Do you think I'm crazy for loving a man
like that. ::lays down on bed, rolls onto side and look out the window:: I try
hard to forget him but look at me. There's not an inch of flesh unmarred. Every
piece of me has been beaten, sliced, and/or pierced. My mom and grandfather
talks about putting me in a home so I can be looked after and Souta avoids me
like the plague. ::shakes head:: I can't expect you to understand how I feel
but maybe...that just a little you can understand what I went through.
brother for the past couple of days. 'It was amazing that she even survived
with her soul intact,' he thought. Sesshoumaru listen to the rhythm of her
voice as she talked about her encounter with Inuyasha. HE notices the rise and
pitch of each syllable when it came to describing what was done.
then disappeared?'
about her room after her ordeal or the way she carried herself when she was
with him. The damage is all on the outside.
mention where he was going?"
mean he never came right out and said it but he implied it," she mumbled
into the pillow.
Inuyasha's brother looking pensive.
She offered trying to ease the tension that was building.
home."
mother and she refused to do it.
in this. I know I can live with this nightmare and I will. Not my mom,
grandfather or you will keep me from my life."
walked over to the open window and looked out.
brother has done this too. You are the only one that makes any since. The other
girls that were committed were broken. You," he turned and looked into her
eyes, "you are still you. But I wonder?"
He turned back to the window and kept talking.
piece of you has died. Your outside has been horrible scarred yet you wear them
with pride when you should be ashamed. You puzzle me, Higurashi."
people to talk to whomever you want me to talk to."
he's just a child. I want you to talk to him. Watch him while I am away over
seas."
kid?"
back.
sister was committed, he had no one to take care of him. He went into the
system and I took him and gave him a home. His sister was one of those
girls."
of you without the guilt."
pity me."
saying. You are making up lies to sooth your own mind when in fact you do know
the truth. They pity you. They feel bad that this happen to you. They will
never look at you the same again. Your heart knows this but your mind refuses
to believe it."
over to the door.
me and for your own sanity while it’s still intact. I will pay you and you will
take this money and take care of yourself and Shippo. I won't be back until I
have my brother."
back.
easy on you. I have seen his handiwork and it’s not pretty. I think you held
his demons at bay before he did this too you and that's why I think you are
still here now. I think in his own sick twisted way he loved you unconditionally
and he had no way of showing you. This is my opinion only, a simple
guess."
That he is not "MY" mother's child."
her mouth wide open.
funeral to attend and arrange. This chapter was shitty because I lost what
train of thought I had after the accident. If you have comments or you want to
flame the hell out of me GO right ahead. HELL would be HOTTER than whatever you
can throw at me ^_^ Read and review