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THIS IS CHAPTER HAS BEEN REVISED!!!

Dodges the Knife. Man!! Why are you trying to kill me!!!! * Mob of angry fans surround me* BECAUSE YOU TOOK TOO LONG TO UPDATE!! *Yells and runs into the computer room and locks the door* YES I DID IT! *Before the mob of angry fans can break the door down LestatsDarkAngel hands them chapter 7* HEY!! IT’S HERE!!!! Tosses the chapter at the fans and walks away


GOMEN, GOMEN, GOMEN!!!!!!! I had no idea it would be this long!! I am so sorry it’s taken this long for me to update. I had the chapter written up about 2 weeks ago… For some reason I just had a hard time making myself sit down and type this. And also as I said once before this is my senior year so a lot of stuff has basically toppled on top of me. God! Why don’t they just write a manual for being a senior! They gave me all this stuff that I don’t know what to do with or how to use it and it makes me feel really dumb. They should give out instructions when they give this to you if you are the only one in your house graduating. STUPID PEOPLE!!! This is the reason why I hate school its all a bunch of BS. Well anyway good news is I have 13 pgs written for chap 8…but I’m prob. going to break those up into smaller chaps to fool my mind…or just make it one big chap. * scratches head * haven’t quite figured it out yet. Well hopefully the length of this chapter will excuse the very, very delayed absence, considering this is 12 pgs typed J

(I decided to nix the color thing because it was too much work. So the only things that will be color will be the telepathy.)


This is * Thinking *
This is “ Speaking “
This is ~ Telepathy ~
(Telepathy between two characters will be done in 2 colors)

Well as always my lovely viewers …

ON WITH DA BLOODY FIC!!

Kagome stumbled through the forest, trying to get to the camp. Her mind screamed for her to go back, to go and care for her wounded hanyou, to protect him. Overcome with all of the conflicting emotions Kagome fell to her knees and screamed. She couldn’t take these feelings anymore. They were tearing her apart * Why? Why can’t I have someone to love me? Is that really so wrong? *


Kagome felt herself beginning to loose all hope of ever having anyone love her. Once there was a time when she thought if she tried she actually could have had something with Kouga. After all who wouldn’t want to be with someone who saw you as yourself? Unlike Inuyasha, who saw her as just a reincarnation. Not to mention he always told her he loved her. As it would seem Inuyasha made a small declaration of affection towards her and all thoughts and feelings of Kouga flew out the window.


Tears once again fell from Kagome’s eyes” When?” she whispered. “ When will I stop crying for him?” She crawled over to lean against a nearby tree. Why couldn’t she be happy? Every time she thought she could, it was savagely ripped away. Not only was she hurt, but it seemed the other person was hurt as well. Maybe she was destined to be alone after all. At that point the pain Kagome felt in her heart was almost too much to bear.


The pain she began to feel was almost unspeakable, it were as if invisible hands made their way around her heart squeezing it while suffocating her soul. * When…when will the pain stop? * Clenching her hand to her chest she cried, as tears now steadily made their way from her reddened face. “ WHEN WILL I BE FREE OF THIS?” she cried. The pain in Kagome’s heart built up so steadily that all she could do was scream. Scream a cry that pierced every person’s heart who could hear. For this was a scream of nothing but raw overwhelming pain and loneliness.


Suddenly she felt a tugging in her brain…as if something were trying to get her attention. Trying to clear her mind to understand, but she found it was no use. Her feelings were too raw and powerful. It was only coincidence that she happened to look down and gaze at the now discolored orb that hung from her neck.


Startled, Kagome noticed that the jewel was now swirling with lavender and a slight dark blackish color. * Oh no…not again…* Desperately she tried to lighten the pain …but it only got worse…for she had never dealt with pain to this extreme before. Seeing her efforts fail, she realized there was only one choice.

Kagome was a little frightened…she had never tried to do this before by herself. Miroku or Kaede always guided her in doing this. Sadly as risky as this was she didn’t really have a choice. *I’m really gonna have to try this by myself then…. why couldn’t they have taught me an easier way other then self purification? * Sighing she now forcefully tried to tone down her mental and emotional state of being.


Closing her eyes she brought herself into a slightly meditative frame of mind. Kagome was inside herself. She felt nothing; all she could do was see the bright purple spark that lay deep within her center. Reaching deep within her, Kagome felt for the familiar core that was only she. Feeling it she gently pulled it up to the surface as a soft blue glow came from under her skin. She needed to do this…she needed to dull the pain if she was to think clearly; for in her current mental state, she was easy prey for any youkai who wanted her. Slowly her skin began to glow a soft violate color. “ Midoriko …guide me in that which I do and keep your selected one safe…. for I desperately need your protection and wisdom.” She prayed as the purple hue fully engulfed her.

Slowly, Kagome drew her power inside, filling her body. Focusing she drew them deep within herself, as she felt for all of her negative feelings. She pooled it all into the one area she gently enclosed them in the soft purple light as they now were being burned away. Slowly she felt all the pain, hate, and sadness dull away to a more manageable point. Feeling satisfied; she gave in to the tree behind her when she noticed something was off. The holy energy wouldn’t leave her body.


“Huh?” Kagome stated as she looked and saw the purple light wouldn’t leave her body. Suddenly she felt herself starting to feel increasingly warmer from the inside out. Franticly Kagome tried to figure out what was going on, for she knew this wasn’t right. Remembering she knew Miroku said something of this nature to her long ago one day while training. * God what did he say…think Kagome think!! * She cried out desperately in her mind for the warmness inside her body was increasing to an almost intolerable point and still rising.


* Ok, you are the miko of the shikon no tama, defeater of Naraku, survivor of Inuyasha, and a mysterious youkai…you should be able to remember a baka houshi’s lesson!!! * An idea flashed its way across her mind, as she now knew what she could possibly do. Rapidly she reached into one of the many pockets on her left leg, as she drew the glittering silver bracelet that had a small purple like charm of a bow and arrow. Quickly fastening it on she gradually began to feel the bracelet slightly pull her power into itself. Sighing slightly she eased it all along until the silver trinket on her arm absorbed all of it and more.

Smiling a small smile of accomplishment as she wiped the brow of her now sweat soaked body. She was glad the pain was now on a more bearable level. Sighing once again, she shakily got up to continue her journey.


The pain was still there…it would always be there until the wounds healed. She was glad the self-purification went ok…considering it was her first time doing it by herself, she was rather proud. She didn’t like the fact that afterward she used too much energy. If she made any mistake she could actually purify herself into oblivion from the inside out…not a pretty way to go.


Luckily all she did was take away the darkness of her feelings as they started to affect the jewel. She refused to be responsible of corrupting the jewel…yeah she could feel pain, just like anyone else. She learned along ago while going through the ordeal with Kikyo and Inuyasha that when her pain gets too severe and intense, it will start to affect the jewel.


Sighing she rested her head against the trunk of the tree. “Am I ever going to have something normal in my life?” She whispered. Everything happened so fast! She was only one ningen girl…with only one simple wish that went so wrong. All she was trying to do now was come to terms with what fate handed her, but it still broke her heart...only this time the pain didn’t affect the tama.


Slowly she turned around and looked long and hard from where she came. Suddenly something clicked inside and she knew right there and then she had to come to terms with a decision. If she left now, she would be permanently ending any chance of a romantic relationship with Inuyasha. It would never happen. She would be walking away from half of her heart…did she really want to leave? Knowing that if she did friends might be the only things that could actually work? Or could she really handle trying again?


Kagome gave a dry chuckle as those words played over in her mind...try again. * Do I really want to try again? Or have I not learned my lesson enough yet? * Right now he nearly killed her because he loved her. Could she really trust him that way again so easily? Closing her eyes she held her hand over her heart as her soul cried and her head spun. She didn’t know what to do.


Kagome stayed frozen to that one spot fro so long, contemplating on what she should do. It was then she realized the painful truth that was always there that she chose to ignore. It would never work. Kikyo truly did too much mental and emotional damage in their relationship for them to every become romantically involved. “ Why…WHY COULDN’T YOU LET US BE!” she cried out into the nothingness that she felt loom over her. She now knew that she would never have the hanyou that she so desperately loved. With a heavy heart she did the only thing she could do.


Kagome lowered her head slightly as the wind carried her words off into the path behind her. “ Inuyasha, know that I did not abandon you, even though I cannot be with you…you will always be special in my heart.” She whispered.

Closing her tear filled eyes, she concentrated on forming a barrier, and sighed as she felt it form. “This is the only protection I can give you Inuyasha, I hope it will be enough until our friends come.” She voiced barely above a whisper. That day Kagome did the hardest thing she ever knew. With tears falling from her eyes, she turned and continued her path to the camp, leaving the only happiness she ever knew behind.


Sango was worried. “They should have been back by now,” she muttered for the 100th time that day. The poor girl was nothing but nerves, as she continued to pace back and forth. She couldn’t put her finger on it but something was off, and she wouldn’t settle down until both of their missing friends were ok.


“My Lady Sango, do calm down. Kagome and Inuyasha are more then likely fine.” Miroku said, trying to sooth the troubled girl before him. “ Now, why don’t you come and sit by me.” Miroku offered as he gave her an impish smile, while patting the seat next to him.


Sango blushed slightly as Miroku’s obvious perverseness. Walking over to the offered seat she bent down slightly and whispered “Miroku…” Eagerly he turned towards her with hope in his eyes. Only a deadly smack could be heard with the loud cry of Hentai filled the camp.


Miroku was now nursing his reddened cheek. “Did you really need to hit me so hard?” He questioned. Sango only glared. “ Do you really need to be such a pervert?” she shot back. Smiling to himself he gave her a friendly grin. “Ah My Lady Sango, how you wound me with such words, for my behavior can only be justified by my curse.” Sango narrowed her eyes. “ Houshi…you know just as well as I do that isn’t the case.” Nerves of their missing companions getting to her once more Sango once again bean pacing.


* Why aren’t they here? * She wandered. It was now a good 3 hours down and it was almost dark. Her body was screaming that something was wrong but she couldn’t figure out what. “What on earth could be taking them so long?” Miroku smiled as he grabbed her hand. “Why my dear Sango. They may have actually seen the light. Inuyasha could have realized his feelings for Kagome and she confessed her feelings as well.” He spoke while resting his hand on the small of her back.

Sango stiffened slightly as she felt his hand. *Damnit houshi you had better watch that hand or you might end up missing it* she swore in her mind as she eyed the hentai houshi. “Why Sango” he said, pulling her close to his side as his right hand twitched. “They have probably spent hours upon hours expressing their love.”


Miroku gave her a dazzling smile that nearly took her breath away. For a moment Sango got lost in Miroku’s piercing amethyst eyes. Realizing what she was doing, Sango slightly turned away desperately trying to hide the creeping blush that now adorned her cheeks. “Baka houshi” she muttered.


Miroku smiled at the lovely girl. Kami what she did to him and she, as always, had no idea. He was trying; he was trying to be so good!! But she was making it oh so hard. * Why is she so desirable to me? * It was something he always wandered since the day he met her oh so long ago. Normally his type would have been someone like Kagome, for he thrilled in showing and dominating ones as inexperienced as her. Taking them to heights they’ve never known. But Sango was different; maybe that’s why he liked her.


Turning her face towards his he gave her a devilish smirk. Sango knew nothing good was about to come from him when he smiled like that. “My Lady Sango” he began as he whispered in her ear. Smirking he placed his lips right by her red stained cheek. “ Isn’t it about time we expressed our hidden love?”


Sango felt herself blush even more *Damn houshi! * She thought. Suddenly Sango went rigged as a board, as she felt a hand caress her. Before Miroku could even speak, Sango grabbed her Hiraikotsu and slammed it down on his head. “ HENTAI!!!” she screamed ah she dealt him another deadly blow to the skull.


Turning away from the now twitching Miroku, she came face to face with a very wide-eyed and interested Shippo. Turning towards her he slightly tilted his head. “ Sango…. why do you hit Miroku when you like him and the things he does?” he questioned. Folding his arms he looked her in the eye “ You can’t say you don’t, because your scent says that you do.”


Sango couldn’t speak. She was shocked that Shippo of all people had been watching them. She was only grateful that she hit Miroku twice so luckily he didn’t hear any of what was said. How could she have forgotten about Shippo?


Sango had had enough; all males were her enemy today. Snatching Shippo up by the scruff of his shirt, she pulled him close as she growled out in his ear “ If you ever become a man like him I promise even after I die I will hunt you down and kill you.” With that Sango dropped the bewildered Kitsune as she walked away towards Kirara.


Shippo gulped and backed away from the angry taijiya. He knew the opposite sex were very complicated creatures. Also he also knew he didn’t understand them at all. One thing he found out though after his encounter with Sango. Shuddering at the now implanted memory he looked in the direction she had walked as he said the truest words of all. “Women are scary”. A weak pathetic voice wavered over to his as he agreed, “ You have no idea.”


An hour or so later the three of them had begun to start dinner when all of a sudden Kirara growled as she heard something approach nearby. Sango noticed Kirara growling and went to see what was troubling her neko companion. “ What is girl? You see something?” Sango asked, keeping a sharp eye on where the small neko was looking.


Suddenly everyone heard a rustle behind the trees. Not knowing what is was each person waited silently, ready to spring to action at a moments notice. At the sight that came before them they all gasped for it was the very least of what they expected. Staggering through the trees was a very battered and bloody Kagome.


“ Kagome! “ Sango cried as she rushed to the side of her injured friend. Miroku hurried to her side as well. Placing an arm around her waist to support her he held her up. “What happened Lady Kagome?” He questioned as they lead her over to the campfire.


Miroku cast a glance at Shippo who was strangely quiet. Considering the current circumstances at the moment the houshi merely wrote it off as shock until he had the time to think about it clearly. Right now his only concern was the wounded girl before him.


Guiding her over to a log, Miroku shifted all of Kagome’s weight on him, so she could have a type of comfortable support.” Arigato Miroku.” She sighed as she rested on his shoulder. Kagome was thankful she reached the camp when she did. After such a long trek in her condition…she didn’t know how much longer she would have lasted. She was only grateful that even if it was just for a few moments…she was safe.


Kagome gazed into the fire. Many thoughts made there way across her mind. Right now her heart may be broken…but it wouldn’t always be so. * Maybe one day…I will find love again. * That single thought eased her some as she now heard the strange whispers fading around her ears. The jewel was speaking to her again. The only thing she knew was that it wanted her to go somewhere. “ Do you want me to go somewhere? Is it Midoriko you want me to see?” she felt the jewel grow excited and knew that’s what it wanted.


Snuggling closer to Miroku she sighed. * So Midoriko huh? What part do you play in this I wonder? * Whatever fate had in store for her she only hoped she was ready, as she continued to gaze in the fire. Gently rubbing the back of the injured girl Sango once again asked the fated question. “ Kagome…what happened? Where’s Inuyasha?”


Hearing those words unleashed a dam in Kagome’s heart. * Inuyasha… * was the thought in her mind. She did the only thing she could do. She reached and grabbed Sango and Miroku in a tight embrace…and she cried. As they heard the young girl’s pain they did the only thing they knew to do. The held her tight as she cried. For this right now, was what she needed, and that was to be consoled. It was during that time that Shippo crawled into her lap. He hugged her waist as he two cried with her. Sango and Miroku knew that he knew something…after all youkai often sense things that ningens to not.


Gradually Kagome settled down. As she reflected on the events that happened to her in the last 24 hours she knew one thing. She was forever grateful that she had her friends. Yes…she knew she could do it on her own…but they only made it a little easier. She needed this security right now, even if it was only for a little while. She needed to leave camp tomorrow morning. Inuyasha would awaken in 2 days, and she needed to have done all she was going to do before that time came. * Ok I need to cover a fair amount of distance in only a few short hours…who do I know who can do it? * She racked her brain for an answer only to mentally smack her self in the head for over thinking once the answer hit her. * Guess I need to figure out how to find wolves * she thought as she stroked the Kitsune in her lap.


Sighing she leaned back against Miroku, as Sango continued to hold her. She cuddled Shippo in her arms as she began to lightly stroke his hair. She could tell Shippo knew what happened. How she wished he had ningen senses, but he was youkai…so she knew he could smell Inuyasha’s sent all over her wounds. After all Inuyasha could smell who she was with before and where they touched her…so why not Shippo? She knew his abilities were much better then Inuyasha considering the fact that Shippo was a full youkai. She wasn’t worried. She knew he would be ok, after all she knew that Shippo was a lot stronger then he gave himself credit for. * He’ll figure it out on his own*


Miroku gently stroked his hand down Kagome’s back. He knew now was not the time to act in his usual perverse nature. Something bad happened, and he prayed to Kami it wasn’t what he feared. Kagome needed them. That was the only thing that mattered to him at that moment. “ Kagome “ he told her gently “ Whenever your ready … you can tell us.” Kagome only nodded. She didn’t want to tell them. She knew how protective they were over her and did not want them to hurt Inuyasha. He would have to face himself for what he’s done.


Sango noticed Kagome drifted off to sleep. Peering into her lap she caught the eyes of a red haired kit. “Shippo?” slowly he lifted his head. “Yea Sango?” Gazing at the young boy she gave him a small smile. “ Me and Miroku want the three of us to talk. Will you come with us?” Shippo slowly nodded his head ad he followed Sango to where Miroku was.


As the trio met for several moments they sat in silence. Thinking of what might have happened to Kagome…except for Shippo Sango questioned him. “ Shippo what do you think happened?” Startled by her voice he jumped. “ Uh I-I don’t know “ he stammered. Looking away quickly he busied himself with drawing in the dirt. Sango felt sympathy for the poor boy. * I wander what he’s going through. *


Miroku narrowed his eyes at the deceptive kit. * He’s hiding something * was the thought in his mind. “ Lady Sango…It appears that Shippo indeed knows more then what he lets on. As you know youkai have far more advanced senses then us humans.” Miroku stated to the young taijiya. * What does that have to do with Shippo? * Confused by the statement Sango decided to sate her curiosity. “ Miroku what do you mean” she asked as she now looked upon Shippo who happened to be looking quite scared right now. Stepping closer to the young Kitsune “ I mean Shippo knows what happened to Kagome. “ YOU MEAN YOU KNOW AND YOU’VE KEPT IT FROM US?” Yelled Sango at the uneasy kit, she couldn’t believe he would hold back from them like that. She was going to teach the damn kit a lesson.


Shippo felt very uncomfortable. Not to mention scared. He didn’t want to talk about what he felt. He wasn’t ready to admit it was true. Right now he was happy believing it was all a bad dream and soon he would wake up. * Why are they doing this to me? Can’t they sense how I feel? * The Kitsune was not prepared to deal with the harsh reality of what happened between what was his idol and the girl he loved who was his friend. But unfortunately they were not in tune with his feelings. Well Sango wasn’t anyway.


Miroku could sense that Shippo was fighting something internal. Seeing this he decided to give Shippo a break. After all everyone needs to learn to face there own demons “Sango maybe we shouldn’t push it. Shippo I believe is having a hard time dealing with what he knows.” He told the now fuming taijiya as he led her back to Kagome “ Let us wait until Kagome feels right to tell us.” Knowing that the monk was right Sango reluctantly gave in as she and Miroku left Shippo to his thoughts as they went back to their original sides by Kagome.


Slowly Kagome awoke from her nap. She smiled softly as she saw Sango and Miroku Still by her side. * They still stayed with me. * She thought as she lifted her head from Sango’s lap. “ Ah Lady Kagome your awake. Did you rest well?” Miroku asked as he captured her eyes with his.


Kagome smiled weakly as she nodded her head. “ I’m ready to tell you now.” That got all of their attention as they gathered closer to Kagome if at all possible. Taking a shaky breath Kagome leaned against Sango as Miroku gently rubbed her back. Thinking carefully Kagome contemplated on how to ask them what she wanted. “Um…guys?” closing her eyes the nervous little miko continued. “ I want you to promise me first that you wont kill Inuyasha.”

To say they were startled was an understatement. Miroku thought it was Inuyasha’s death that caused Kagome such pain. * What could Inuyasha do to cause Kagome such pain? “ Was the thought in his mind, as he nodded his head and patiently waited for Kagome to begin. Sango narrowed her eyes. * Why is he agreeing so quickly?” Sango wandered. She didn’t like this. Inu obviously did something stupid and should be punished. Seeing Miroku’s pointed look Sango huffed and gave in. “ All right Kagome. We Promise.” Kagome looked from one to the other seeing truth in their eyes.


Finally Kagome began to tell them her story. She told them everything. She told them about how she saw Inuyasha’s flower and went to go look for him, she told them about how they realized their feelings and Inuyasha kissed her. When Inuyasha began his attack on her and their fight. The reason why he did what he did and how Kikyo manipulated his mind…and last but not least how she put a protective barrier to protect him, how she had to purify herself because her negative feelings were affecting the jewel, which she used too much energy and had to pull most of it into the bracelet Miroku gave her, and finally how she had to make the heartbreaking decision to leave him.


Sango and Miroku were absolutely livid. Sango rose up as she grabbed Hiraikotsu. Promise or no promise he was going to pay! She didn’t care if it was Kikyo’s interference or not in her eyes it was his fault for being so damn stupid! Miroku rushed to grab her “ Sango, I want to go after him just as much as you, but we gave Lady Kagome our word. You can’t go after him.” Sango glared at the offending hand on her arm. “ You heard what he did! His fault or not, he shouldn’t get away with it.” She huffed. Turning she saw the look in Kagome’s eyes and at that moment she knew she couldn’t do it. She couldn’t hurt her sister like that. Crying out in frustration she crashed her Hiraikotsu to the ground. “ Damnit why is it always the thickheaded ones!”


Sango walked over to Kagome’s side. Pulling her into a hug, she reassured the exhausted girl as she slid down onto her thighs. “ Don’t worry. I will not harm him.” She sighed as she closed her eyes. “ Even though I hate to admit it I know it wasn’t really his fault that he’s a baka. He’s just easier to get to right now then Kikyo.” Sango looked at the now sleeping girl in her lap. * I will watch over you Kagome…in body and in spirit I’ll always be there to protect you when you need it. * She thought as she ran her fingers through Kagome’s hair. “ I’ll always be with you.” She whispered as she closed her eyes as well.


Miroku was in deep meditation. He was trying to calm himself down in regards to the way he was feeling for Inuyasha, but was having a hard time. He had a feeling Kagome was going to ask something of them regarding the baka hanyou and if he was going to have to be around him. Miroku would prefer not having the urge to kill him.


The houshi sighed. When would Kagome get her happiness? She had been through so much and in return received so little. Shippo was the only one who appreciated the young miko the way she should be. He wasn’t sure but he suspected the young youkai to be smitten with her. Right now thought he only had two main concerns. And that was watching over Kagome and Shippo.


Miroku gathered Kagome from Sango’s lap and took her into the tent she had brought a few weeks ago. Leading a sleepy Sango in as well he felt content as he left Kirara guarding them. With Shippo on his mind he decided he would attempt to talk to the distressed boy.


Later on he found the kit by the campfire. The poor lad was in shock. He watched as Shippo stared into the fire seeming utterly emotionless. Miroku joined him as they both sat in the silence together. Growing use to the hushed calm, Miroku became a little startled as he unexpectedly heard Shippo’s voice. “ How…even if you thought it was the right thing… how could you try to hurt someone you love?” He couldn’t understand. They loved each other! He did everything he could to try to help Kagome with baka Inu, even though she didn’t know it. Gradually soft glittering streams made there way down his face.


Miroku comforted the troubled kit. “ Adults do not always make the right decision. Sometimes the most foolish or absurd choices are the ones made for the sake of love.” Giving Shippo one of his prized child-like grins, “ Not to mention Inuyasha isn’t exactly the smartest of our group as well.” Shippo gave a feeble smile “ He was like the brother I never had. Hopefully when I am older…one day I can look over this and forgive him…I know that is what Kagome would want me to do.”


Miroku smiled as he ruffled the boys’ hair. “ Your parents would be proud with the way you’re growing up. Even despite the obstacle of Inuyasha your growing into a fine young man.” Shippo stared in awe for the longest time. Realizing what he was doing he quickly looked away as he once again turned into the fire. “ R-Really? You really think that Miroku?” he asked timidly as Miroku nodded.


Giving him the biggest smile Shippo had now acquired a new respect for the hentai houshi. “Arigato… Miroku.” With that the happy boy bounded over to the tent to snuggle with Kagome as he fell into a peaceful sleep. Miroku rested by the fire as well; for he had a feeling tomorrow was to be a very eventful day.


Slowly the young miko opened her eyes. * Why in the world am I up this early? Or is it late? * She wondered. Turning her head toward the flap of the tent judging from the amount of light out it was the afternoon. * Do I really want to get up? * Remembering Inuyasha she realized she needed to get out of bed and hurry with what she planned to do. Scanning her body she saw that all of her serious injuries were healed and all she had now were just a few scrapes and bruises. * Nothing that wont be gone by tomorrow * she thought as she made herself get out of the warm and comfortable sleeping bag. Her body screamed in protest but she had a responsibility.


Reaching into her pouch she pulled out two of her red energy balls and started to pack her bags. She now had a black and blue messenger bag. When her yellow backpack had to be replaced over five times, she knew she needed something that was more durable and could handle the type of traveling she did. All she had to do was place an enlarging spell on the inside of the bag and they had everything they needed.


As a head peaked past the flap, Sango saw Kagome as a blur. “ Kagome? What are you doing? You need to rest baka you were injured!” Kagome glanced at her worried sister
As she continued packing “ I’m leaving. I’m going to see Midoriko.” She told her in-between packing “ I need her to help me with something, besides I’m already healed. Just a few scratches no big deal.” Smiling she turned to hug her. “ Thank you Sango for worrying though.”


Stepping back she resumed her current task. “Sango tell the others I want to meet them outside in about an hour. I have things I need to tell you.” Sango gave her a curious look as she nodded her head. “All right Kagome” She told her as she disappeared behind the flap.


As Kagome finished packing she double-checked everything making sure she had it all with her. Satisfied she pulled on her messenger bag as she prepared to walk out of the tent. Right as she was about to move past the flap she heard the screeching cry of “HENTAI!” Followed by a sickening crack, smiling a small smile she shook her head *When was he going to ever learn? *


Sighing Kagome reached the middle of the camp. She looked at the now recovering Miroku. Raising an eyebrow to Sango she merely glared “Don’t ask” she barked as she turned away. The moment she sat down Shippo bombarded her as he showed her his newest drawing. When she finally got him settles she cleared her throat as she now received their attention.


“ As you all know of the ordeal between me and Inuyasha, I want you to know that
I am going to make a journey to see Midoriko, also I would like it if all comments be held until I am finished speaking.” She said as she took a deep breath “ You have no idea how nervous I am.” Seeing them nod their head she continued. “ The jewel is speaking to me…what is says I don’t really know all I can do is feel it. I have a feeling there are answers I can get there that can help me. Also…when I return, I will make a wish on the Shikon.


All of them were itching to say something but were still unclear if she was done or not. She was still keeping something from them and they had a feeling they weren’t gonna like a word of it. Kagome started playing with a lock of hair that had fallen in her face. Could she really tell them? Sighing she knew she didn’t really have a choice.


“ Sango, Miroku, …Shippo? I know that I’m asking for a lot…but I want you three to look after Inuyasha until Kikyo comes for him. There is a chance he might still go with Kikyo. What ever happens…I don’t want you to interfere…this is something he needs to learn on his own.” At this point Kagome was struggling to fight back the tears. For the very thought if that broke her up inside, even though, she pressed on. “ I have something else as well…once I return…I’m going home…for good.”


Looking them all in the eye she waited. “ Kagome why!!!!!! Your home is here with me…with us! I wont allow it, you can’t leave!” Sango yelled. Why? Why did she want to leave them…they were suppose to grow old and have a family…why did she want to leave her? Sango was fighting back tears. “ Family isn’t supposed to leave the rest behind.” She whispered


Miroku placed a hand on Sango’s shoulder to try to reason with the distraught girl. “ Sango please…calm down…if this is what Lady Kagome wants then this is what she will do.” He threw a look Kagome’s way. “ Although I can’t say I don’t disagree. Lady Kagome, are you sure this is wise? Also why do you want to leave us for good? Are you not happy?”


Slowly Shippo made his way over to Kagome. She wouldn’t leave him would she? He tugged the leg of her pants “ Kagome? I didn’t do anything bad did I? If I did I promise never to do it again, and if it’s Inuyasha I’ll grow up big and strong and protect you from him so he can never hurt you again!” He cried. The young kit was sobbing, as he held tight to her leg and it crushed Kagome’s heart. “ Just please Kag…. please don’t leave me.”


Kagome felt as if her heart ripped in a million pieces. The pain she felt in that moment was unspeakable. * Does he not see how much he means to me? * At that point all the poor miko wanted to do was scream. Why? Why does she always have to be the one who causes people pain.


Pulling the sobbing boy into her arms she held him close. “ Shippo you didn’t do anything wrong.” She whispered to the kit in her arms. “ If anything, you did everything right…I wish I could stay here with you all but I have to go home and return to my own time.” She ran her hair through his little ponytail. “ Know that what ever happens you will always be a part of my life. Maybe one day I’ll find you.” She promised as she held the boy closer. Why? Can’t they see how hard this was on her too? She didn’t want to leave! She wanted to see Sango and Miroku get married and grow old…but it seems fate wouldn’t let her have that life. Duty called her to something else and this was the duty she was born with.

Shippo slowly nodded as he began to understand. This was not really goodbye…it was only a type of farewell. He knew now that he would see Kagome again without a shadow of a doubt. Feeling a sense of peace with that, he gave her a small smile as he hopped of her lap and sat near fire. This was between the three of them now.


Wiping the tears from her eyes she went and enveloped Sango and Miroku in a bone-crushing hug. “ We will always be together…for family can never be torn apart.” She whispered as she slowly pulled away.


Just as Sango was about to say something Miroku put a hand on her arm to stop her. “ She has already made her decision. You need to realize as have I that this is something she needs to do.” He informed the girl before him. Releasing her he continued “ After all this is not the actual goodbye…she will be leaving us when she returns. Right now all we can do is wish her a safe voyage.”


Sango was not happy that Miroku was right. She knew she was being selfish but she hated knowing that she might never see her little sister again, for this would be yet another sibling she would have lost. But she knew she could not argue with reason. Sighing in defeat she bowed her head “I guess your right houshi.” She knew she may not have liked what the miko was going to do, but she knew it was all for the better in the long run.


As the trio walked over to Kagome the enveloped her in a tender embrace, even Miroku the biggest hentai did not once try to do anything to damage the moment. “ Be safe Kagome.” Sango whispered as they all pulled away. Miroku gently rested a hand on her arm. “Lady Kagome…are you sure you do not want one of us to accompany you?” Nodding to them all the miko turned around as she set off for what she planned to do.


Feeling a scamper up her back, she turned to see a little body perched on her shoulder. Placing a kiss on her cheek he put his arms around her neck. “ Be safe and watch for youkai.” He whispered as he disappeared. Kagome looked back and gave him a watery smile. “ I will Shippo.” She spoke to wherever he was hidden.


Heading towards the trail she knew there was one person she needed to find. * Who knows * she thought. * Maybe finding him will be then I think *She concluded as she set off to find the ookami youkai.

Finally I’m done!!!! God you people have no idea how long that took to write. Well I have the chapter done so be happy. Through out writing this fic I’ve been trying to decide something. To make chapter 8 this insanely long chapter…or split it up into sep chapters. Vote and tell me what you want me to do k? Well I’m gonna go and see what I can come up with for chapter 8 ok? As always read and review ppl!!!!!! Lol and I promise also not to take as long as I did last time in updating…..so whatever I do will not be as long as this time ok? Unless I notify. Well as always hope life’s been good ta ya n keep the good times rollin

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