UnFaithful

A/N I know...I know, it took me long enough. I really, really thank you for such a high responce. I knew I had to update. I really hope you enjoy......PLEASE KEEP UP THE REVIEWS!!

KARMA

I wasn’t quite sure how to break it to Koga. After all that has happened, I fell like he is the only one I haven’t let down. Now, I had to break his heart but I knew if I didn’t do this now....it wouldn’t get done. I could feel his blue eyes on me as I tried to find the right words.....who was I kidding....there is no right way to do this.
“What is it Kagome, I know there is something troubling you.”
He always knew how to read me. It unnerved me at times.

“Koga......I-“ I stopped my sentence as if someone took the air from my lungs. I shut my eyes, fighting the tears that longed to escape from my eyes. I felt even worse when he placed his arm around me.

“InuYasha has not forgiven you, has he?” His tone was so soft, one I hadn’t heard him use before. “Tell me Kagome, what is it? I am your friend, you know that.”

“You won’t be for long. Not after this.” Warm tears fell from my eyes. I slowly turned to face him.....his piercing eyes so soft and kind. “ Koga....the night you and I......I later found out I was pregnant.” His grip slightly tighten around me.

“You’re....you’re going to have my pup?”

I swallowed hard. “Koga, I....I’m so sorry.” I could feel him growing tense.

“Sorry?.....You miscarried.....the youki was too much for you. Kagome...Goman. I-I don’t know what-“

“Koga....there was no miscarriage.” I whispered out. My stomach dropped when he removed his arm from around me. He stood up quickly.....I watched as his expression changed.

“And what do you mean by that Kagome?”

“I......Koga.....I-“ Why couldn’t I get this out?

“Oh.....I get it now. “ He growled out.

“Please, let me explain-“ I was almost sobbing by now.

“No need...you killed my unborn pup....what else is there to say?” Never had I heard such disgust in his voice.

“Koga......please don’t, you don’t know how hard this decision was for-“

“Damn it Kagome....I don’t wanna hear that shit. You didn’t tell me a damn thing!”

“I...I did what was best for us.....you know how hard our child’s life would have been and I was already going through too much” I was babbling....I knew damn well it was a lame excuse....he knew it also.

“Ha....let me get this straight: You did this for us?” His tone was sarcastic.

“Koga.” I paused to get my thoughts together. “ Things in my era are way different....our child would have treated unfair and you know that! Just look at the life InuYasha has lead.” Something happened within his mind, the minute I mentioned InuYasha. I saw it deep in his eyes, like a bomb about to go off. Icy chills flew up and down my spine at the sound of his laughter.....there was something sinister after it.

“Thats it.....oh that is it!” Koga said throwing his head back in laughter. “It is all about that damn mutt! I get it now!” His laughter turned into a low growl.

“I don’t get it Koga.” I said softly, knowing exactly where he was going with this.

“Oh cut the shit Kagome....you know exactly what the hell I mean. You killed my seed because you knew damn well InuYasha would NEVER take you back if you chose to keep it!”

I could no longer hold my sobbing......Koga’s words cut like a jagged knife. The truth always does.....he read me like a book, well part of me anyway. I felt so empty and selfish......I should have known Koga would call me out........he never was one to bit his tongue....no matter how sharp it was.
“Koga....you’re not being fair.” I managed to whimper out between my sobs.

“Fair?....what the fuck....fair.....was it fair when I lost everything behind sleeping with you? Was it fair the I had to watch you and that dirty ass mutt work shit out while I stood alone? It sure wasn’t fair when you took the life of my unborn pup...was it....WAS IT?”

I couldn’t say a word, I just shook my head “no.” He started to walk away and turned back towards me. “You know whats worse? You had the balls to smile in my face, asking about me our friendship and knew then you were carrying-“ He couldn’t even finish......he looked as if he didn’t know whether to cry or kill me. He laughed again. “You know its funny Kagome.......you caused me such pain and InuYasha...he ain’t even with you anymore.”

“Koga...I-....I’m so sorry......Gomen-. “

“No.....I don’t even want to hear your voice, don’t even speak my damn name!” He growled “You could have at least told me what you wanted to do.” He glared at me one last time before walking away. I jumped up, grabbing his arm. Quickly, I let go at the sight of his glowing eyes.......he let out a menacing snarl.

“Keep your damn distance human.” He turned away, disappearing into the forest.

He left me there in tears.....I have hurt everyone I’ve come in contact with, it was never my intention to hurt Koga. He was always such a wonderful, loyal friend to me....I was blinded by my love for InuYasha, so desperate for his forgiveness. My head was spinning.....I hated every fiber of me being, my existence. What seemed as an ever present longing for death crept back into my spirit. Tears stung my eyes as I stared at the long scar on my wrist....I wanted all to end, the pain, the tears....the horrid nightmares about my now dead, unborn child. In a dark haze, I reached for my arrow.....what I thought was sweet relief. As I slowly brought the sharp edge to my creamy skin, what seemed like a cloud of silver and white surrounded me......it snaked itself around me, effortlessly unarming me .
“Such torment will not last forever.” He whispered in my ear. His tone was low and soothing.

“S-Sesshomaru?” I was so dazed.....I almost forgot where I was. I turned to him, his amber eyes were fixed on me. “Sesshomaru....I-I can’t....my heart wants to just let go......I know you could care less but.......I’m in so much pain-“ I cried on his shoulder. I felt his whole body grow sniff, he was not used to this...... some pitiful, weak little human crying on him. He let out a sight as he lightly tapped my head, just before pulling away from me.

“Surely whatever you are going through is not worth your life, miko” His tone was icy once more. I straightened up as I wiped the tears from my face.

“Miko, its been so long since I felt such strength......I forgot my reason for being here.” I said, looking up at the Taiyoukai lord stand to his feet.


“Hmm...I suggest you do what you must to remain strong.”

That was the last thing he said to me before disappearing like a thief in the night. My head was in one hell of a whirl. It wasn’t his words but more his actions that shocked me. Why did Sesshomaru save my life for the second time? I thought he hated the idea of his little brother being with me anyway. My thoughts were quickly interrupted by sounds of harsh arguing. I hid behind a tree.....I couldn’t believe my eyes!

“You are despicable....I loath you with very fiber of my being!” She yelled just before slapping him across his face. The man threw his head back, unleashing an all too familiar laugh. ‘Wait a minute.....is that.....is that-‘ My thoughts were again interrupted.

“Let go of me, Naraku!”

“Shiori.......I know you’ve been rutting that wretched InuYasha!” His grip on her arm grew tighter. She let out a whimper....he was hurting her and cared less. “No matter.....his life will be mine soon.”

“You bastard!” She slapped him again, he grabbed her by her neck before she could run off. Tears fell her eyes.

“If you behave, I might let you watch him die.” He laughed again while pulling her close to him. “Know this Shiori.....you will NEVER be free of my grasp.” He pressed his lips on hers forcing his tongue down her throat. He soon threw her violently, smiling as her face hit the ground.
“You are mine Shiori.” Naraku walked off, vanishing into the deep forest.

I stood there, still hiding behind this tree.....I knew I should have been comforting her......really, I do but......well I, I couldn’t get the sight of her, InuYasha “rutting” as Naraku so crassly put it. This poor girl was crying and screaming......utterly horrified and I let my jealousy, my contempt for her control doing what was right. Perhaps Koga was correct.....that I was...am a selfish bitch. Shiori slowly sat up, wiping the tears from her beautiful face, she quickly ran her fingers through her silver, wavy hair. She was clearly shaken up....no matter hard she tried, her body continued to shake. I swallowed hard, I was just about to step out from the tree.
“Shiori!............SHIORI.....where are you?”
It was InuYasha. He ran over towards her as she quickly wiped her face once again. The second he saw her face, like a knight in shining armor, he rushed to her side. He brushed the waves from her face, revealing her wet cheeks. She quickly turned from him.
“Shiori, what is it and don’t tell me its nothin’”.

“I just.....I’m fine InuYasha.” She her deep, lavender eyes darted passed him. Concern was written all over his face.....I remember he used to look at me the same way.

“Shiori.” InuYasha slowly reached for her still shaky hands. I wanted to take his damn head off! Seeing him care for another like this hurt me to my very core.


“InuYasha....please, don’t....just......just hold me.” She was about to cry again. Just what the hell went on with her and Naraku? I watched as he pulled this girl close to him, a small fire that had been raging within me began to spread out of control. I was fighting with all I had not to jump out from that tree!

“Shiori......ya got to tell me what happened.” He whispered in her ear, his strong arms that once reached for me.......seemed to stretch endlessly around her. My eyes burned as she placed her hands on his face......he leaned in....his lips met hers. My body went completely numb....why? Why did I fucking come back here?

“InuYasha....we shouldn’t.” She turned from him slightly. What was this? Was she turning him down?

“Ah....Shiori....we kinda already-“

“Yeah....we- but.....I don’t think we should have” She paused, taking a breath. “Things went too far.” She leaned her head on his chest.

“Says who?” Theres that defensive InuYasha we all know and love.

“InuYasha....you and I both know.....your heart still aches for her.”

She was talking about me. There were many too many emotions running through my head to sort them out. The only thing I could think of was....was that InuYasha and Shiori...they....he actually gave himself to that bitch! I knew I had no reason at all for anger, especially after the shit I pulled but I couldn’t help the way I felt.......I wanted to purify her ass with my arrow! Who was I kidding? Shiori was not to blame for this.........I was.

Dammit! I was stuck there....listening to them, watching them. Shiori telling him all the things he doesn’t want to hear.....InuYasha attempting to quiet her with his kiss. I slowly sank to the ground as I saw him squeezing her.....touching her. He was all over her....just like a horny little youkai! Shiori finally gave into his need for her. She faced him, returning his kiss as he pulled at her kimono.......tears filled my eyes as the fabric fell from her flawless body. Karma had come for me in the worst way and it cut more then the sharpest sword. The way his amber eyes looked at her........to my untrained eyes....it seemed as if he was way over me. I was unable to see the pain, the longing for me Shiori saw. Perhaps he could pick up on the pain she held at the wicked hands of Naraku.
His strong, clawed hands searched her caramel toned body like he knew her well. Her full lips softly called to him.....he knew exactly what she wanted. I cried out silence as she untied his clothing.......I felt sick to my stomach. I quickly turned from the sexual scene, refusing to look at them. Maybe I’m a masochist......I found myself watching them, her long legs wrapped around him. Over a thousand of my tears fell as my eyes witness his thrusting himself inside her world over and over again......each time he moved deeper. Sweat dripped from them both....they were so in tune.....it was as if they wanted to take away the pain the other was feeling. Never had I seen such harmony before. He called to her as he gave her one last thrust....I missed that low growl of his. Just when I thought I couldn’t take any more of this.....he fell into her warm, inviting arms. His head laid on her chest as she ran her fingers through his hair. I curled into a ball behind the tree. Sleep had taken me, the last thing I heard was InuYasha saying something about patching things up with Sango.

“Kagome......Kagome.” A soft voice whispered. I slowly opened my eyes. I jumped up, immediately remembering what my eyes had seen earlier. I felt more tears forming in my eyes.

“G-Ginta.” I threw my arms around him, not knowing if Koga sent him to kill me or what. He sighed as he returned my embrace. “ I didn’t mean to hurt anyone.....my whole life is fucked up now.”

“Ssh......sis....Kagome, please don’t....Koga will cool off, ah....eventually.” His voice was shaky, unsure about his last statement.

“I saw- I saw InuYasha. He and S-Shiori were.......they were.....he fu-“

“Oh, Kagome .....ssh......its okay”. He squeezed me as I cried out. His whisper was so calming, understanding as if he’d gone through the same thing. “ You two will work this out.”

Ginta held me until I could get myself together. I felt like I had been hit by a truck. I wiped my face, pulled my hair back and continued to take long breaths. We talked for a while, mainly about what transpired between Koga and I. He spoke surprisingly open with me about that situation and the “issue” with him and Hokkaku. For the first time in a while, I felt like I wasn’t this horrible wretch of a human being. Of course there was no excuse for my infidelity or my lying about the baby......I was not completely to blame.
“One looks outside of their mate when something crucial is lacking within the relationship”. He paused for a few seconds. “Ignoring the signs make the matter much worse.”

Who knew Ginta was so insightful? He later told me what happened with him and his lover. It took a lot for those two to be together but in the end, everything just fit together. After our talk, I gave him yet another hug and jumped down into the well. As I climbed outside of the well, back in my own time, various thoughts attacked me all at once. Quietly, I made my way up stairs to the sanity I knew as my room. I stepped into the shower, letting the warm water hit my face, my eyes shut.....visions of InuYasha screwing Shiori all but burned my retinas. Damn.....I thought I had no tears left. Safe.....under the covers in my bed, thoughts of the conversation Ginta and I had, came to me. I stayed up wondering......praying to every god I knew that somehow.....someway, all of the pain InuYasha and I caused one another could be seen as a distant, long lost dream.

Well, well......seems like theres more to da story huh...lol:)