Just Grind

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, but if I did, do you know what I would do with those kawaii ears? ::grins evilly:: Take a wild guess...

Author's Note: It's been a long time, right? ::Sighs:: I know, I've kept you All waiting for, far too long. Anyway I hope this chapter makes up for my absence. I know that I haven't been here in a while, but I've had temporary writer's block and I suddenly got inspired to write when I saw a person that I've been yearning to see so long, erhm... but you really didn't need to know that.

Damn, I lost my train of thought, where was I?

Oh yes, right so yeah this is chapter 7. I hope you all like it, it took me a long time to actually come up with it, because I didn't know how to start it, until I was listening to music, but anyway let's move on to the reviewers. I want to thank;
CHIBIchibi,
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animelo, - - - ::laughs:: trust me, he will suffer, he -WILL- suffer ::grins maliciously:: - - -
Moon Dog, - - - Woah, slow down, he's going to suffer, he will suffer, relax, lol - - -
New Fan, - - - well I guess if you want your questions to be answered, you'll just have to keep on reading, now won't you? - - -
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Paige C., - - - I was really considering your question and it actually piqued my curiosity. But no, I still wouldn;t have felt differently if Kikyou asked Inuyasha to go to heaven with her because basically it's still the same, well not really, but still. I just don't know. I mean I like Kikyou, just not with Inuyasha. The moment I saw Kagome's eyes land on Inuyasha I knew it was meant to be and yeah that was enough backsass for me. Thanks I needed it. ::Grins:: - - -
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One Last Quick Note: Please give me your honest opinion of this chapter, it was angst well, sort of anyway. Cause that's how I wanted it to be, but I want to know your opinions too. So please review. I love reviews. Feedback is always appreciated!
Anyway onto chapter 7, I've kept you waiting long enough

Chapter 7: Move

Fire...

The flames raged and snapped violently at him making him groan with need. Swirling, dipping, and bending to some unknown force as they gathered into a huge inferno.

Why, oh why did she have such an effect on him?

She wanted to make him beg with need.

Beg until he had no voice left.

She laughed at him and danced away from his skilled fingers making him groan with frustration and impatience. He had gotten frustrated, knowing that she was so very close, but so very far away. The fact that he knew her name didn't matter to him anymore. He had gotten over it. Yes it had hurt for a bit, but that didn't change who she was.

She was a woman, his woman.

His mate and he would claim her.

He would mark her and know where she was at.

Always.

Her black silken locks spilled over her bare shoulders illuminating her beautiful pale and soft skin. Skin that he wanted to devour. But the thing he wanted most was blood.

Her blood.

A sweet nectar that the beast within him wanted to taste.

Both he and the beast yearned for it.

She smiled at him coyly, her pink and fleshy lips looking very tempting, especially because they were swollen from his kiss, and his kiss alone.

Her brown eyes glittered and danced with a promise, a promise that was laced with dark pain.

She walked forward, her feminine body swaying gently. She looked at him, hesitantly, as if silently asking for permission to sit on his lap.

He wasted no time pulling her on to his lap to show her how deeply she had an effect on him and she felt it, judging from the way her brown eyes widened in slight fear and pure delight. She giggled at him and he growled at her, pulling her close, already missing her scent.

Rin had felt his growl vibrate against her chest and she shivered, her nipples instantly hardening against rock hard body.

He was like a Greek God, or a sculpture.

Beautiful.

She pulled back to look at him and felt her heart leap quickly inside her chest.

Something akin to a pitter-patter.

She traced the lines and contour's of his face.

He was so very beautiful.

Like a porcelain doll.

Fragile.

Beautiful.

Cold.

So very, very cold.

But then that's why she was here. She wanted to warm him up and make his heart beat unsteadily.

She wanted to own him, all of him.

Her fingers lightly skimmed his face. They stopped briefly at his lips and her eyes widened momentarily when she felt him kiss her fingers softly, his own strong hand curling around her wrist making him realize how very small she was compared to him.

She smiled at him softly and felt his hand glide over her skin making her body tingle and then to the nape of her neck making the back of her hairs stand on end, then going higher and his pale and long fingers tangling in her silky and long black hair. As he got ready to bring his sensual lips to her own very luscious ones, her fingers were placed over his mouth and tears began to fall.

Like glass.

Shattering.

"I love you" she whispered softly and he felt his heart constrict within the confines of his chest.

"I love you so much... Sesshoumaru."


_ _ _ _ _


He gasped waking up. His heart was beating rapidly, very painfully as he struggled to breathe.

Each night... and each day was the same, except in the morning it brought the same effect.

His body gleamed with sweat and his member, rigidly stiff, his bed soaked in a mixture of semen and sweat. He sat up and swung his legs out of the bed rising to his feet. He looked down at his body in disgust.

He moved around his bed, pulling off the disgusting and soiled sheets. He threw them on the floor, in an uncaring manner, knowing that the maid would come in sooner or later and would eventually pick up his dirty laundry, and it was - dirty. -

Also disgusting.

On second thought...

He picked up the sheets on the floor and walked to the bathroom, each movement painful for his throbbing and pulsing member.

He refused out right to lower and degrade himself to... he shuddered once more just thinking about it. No he wouldn't lower himself to doing... - that. -

He threw the dirty sheets in his hamper, disgusted beyond belief. His body was betraying his mind and his youkai was yelling at him, telling him he was stupid for leaving her, when he really should of marked her.

He shook his head and turned the knobs of the shower on, needing a very, very COLD shower at the moment.

A very cold shower to deter his raging hormones, his still raging hormones, judging from the way he was painfully aware of his every movement.

He was very tempted at the moment though, very tempted to finish off what his dream had started, but him, being the proud male he was decided that a shower was better. A shocking chill swept through his body and he shivered, glad that finally some of the tension in his lower body was finally leaving him, making him forget all about the erotic dream he had just had.

His fingers combed through his long glossy silver locks and he sighed, closing his eyes, relishing the dream, if only he had the real thing with him, although Kagura would be a good distraction, if only for a while...

'No!'

His eyes snapped open, shock, being the only thing that registered in his mind at the moment.

'No!'

There it was, the same snarl. But this time it was deeper.

'I will never accept that bitch as - OUR - mate' his youkai hissed at him dangerously and he could feel the corners of his eyes bleeding.

'Never!'

His youkai breathed, his voice deepening in pitch, becoming rougher, more metallic.

He sighed, closing his eyes once again, his eyes growing weary, tired even.

He stepped out of the shower, pulling a black silk robe with him. He didn't bother to dry himself, he just slipped on the robe. His feet padded lightly on the plush carpet of his room and he opened the window. He inhaled, closing his eyes. Her scent was driving him crazy. The wind blew slightly through his hair, making him feel somewhat comforted.

"Rin" he mumbled, his voice laced with anguish and longing.

"Rin..."

All he wanted to do was hold her and tell her he was sorry for what he did to her and that...

He exhaled.

He loved her...


_ _ _ _ _


Rin felt paralyzed. Sesshoumaru had rejected and called her a 'whore,' not in so many words, but he had called her 'easy.' She made a soft noise, closing her eyes wishing that she would stop crying. Never in her life had she cried for a guy.

Never.

But Sesshoumaru was... different.

He was... special.

And she loved him. She couldn't help it. Her heart had chosen him. And here she was in her soft bed, hidden...

Hidden completely under the covers, in a fetal position. Dark rings encircled her eyes as she continued to stare blankly into space, unmoving. She hadn't slept at all, especially because of what happened with Sesshoumaru, that encounter, the way he pushed her away... like trash...

She closed her eyes even tighter, sinking deeper into her bed.

That scene had been playing inside her mind repeatedly throughout the entire night. The pleasure and then... the pain. The pain and betrayal. It made the pain seem even worse and of course it hurt. It was fresh. But, she could only take so much and then her brain finally shut down leaving her in a state of hollowness and emptiness.

She blinked and heard the door of her room creak open.

"Rin?" A soft inquiring voice called out timidly.

Kouga... it was Kouga. Why was he treating her like this? Like a child. Like a broken doll that needed fixing.

'But... I'm okay, right?'

She closed her eyes tighter wishing he would desperately leave.

'Go away, please just leave me be' she thought, her fingers tightening on the covers of her blanket.

He watched her helplessly.

He felt useless.

Unwanted.

He was supposed to be the older one.

The person who could set an example for his younger sister.

He was supposed to be her knight and shining armor.

Her savior.

The one who could protect her from anything and everything, and yet he couldn't do anything... at all, at least not at the moment.

All he could do was stand by and watch as she fell into a state of depression. He shook his head and closed his eyes to stop the pricking sensation that burned his baby blue irises.

"Rin" he called out again softly.

She stopped breathing, waiting for him to leave.

"Rin why are you still in bed. I came in here countless times, but you still haven't answered me. Talk to me. Do you know how worried I was? Come on, get up! Ayame's coming back later."

"Get up!"

Rin heard her curtains being opened.

Rin..." he paused, suddenly unsure of himself.

"Are you still feeling under the weather? Are you still tired? I'm sorry about yesterday..."

A long pause. Rin tensed. Kouga pulled the covers off of Rin who started to show some signs of life by looking at him with sad, broken eyes.

Shaking his head, he sat down on the bed next to her. His fingers ran through her unruly black hair.

'Papa, Mama I need you' she thought, her eyes prickling with unshed tears once again.

Kouga knew she was hurt. She was unknowingly drifting away from him, it had been going on for days.

His fingers stopped combing through her hair abruptly when he saw something, something that made his heart literally stop.

His precious baby sister had a hickey.

A hickey, for Christ's sake.

How, and more importantly when?

He moved away from her, feeling sudden rage coursing through his veins.

He growled angrily and his hands clenched into fists, recalling the incident at the club and at first he was angry Ayame got called in, but when he saw her, when he saw his sister, when he saw Rin he felt as if he was going to have a heart attack. Panic and anger had gripped his heart and he literally stopped breathing. She was in a ridiculous outfit, he believed it was the "Little Miss Muffet" outfit, at least that's what Ayame had told him, he couldn't care less though.

All the men in the club were giving his sister cat call's, something that made him so angry that he wanted to knock all of them out or rip their eyeballs out.

She looked sick, heart-broken and ready to collapse. What had happened to make her, like this...

What had happened?

But when she closed her eyes, he literally ran to the stage and caught her just in time and she looked up at him with an expression he never wanted to see again.

The last time she held that expression was when... when their parents had died in the car accident.

She looked lost, and most of all vulnerable.

And he saw that same look again last night.

That same look of vulnerability and sadness. A sadness that was so deep, he felt as if he was being suffocated, burned. Sadness that had struck a cord deep within his heart. But then again it was a look of sheer agony, as if her heart had been ripped out and literally torn into pieces.

What had happened?

Again it was the same question, the same question that had rang throughout his mind the entire time...

He laughed softly to himself, he was acting like a flustered parent.

He moved back onto the bed.

"Talk to me, who gave you a hickey?" He mumbled softly, but Rin could see the anger, the rage.

Uh-oh.

She shrunk away from him, wanting nothing more than to have the earth swallow her whole.

She closed her eyes.

"Please..." she whispered so softly that Kouga had to strain his ears to hear her.

"He didn't mean it, he's special, please Kouga, I forgive him. I... I lo... love him" she whispered the last part brokenly and Kouga's eyes widened before narrowing.

"Who... who is he?"

His eyes hardened.

"Sesshoumaru, Sesshoumaru Takahashi, too bad the person I fall in love with has to be untouchable."

She laughed bitterly, tears sliding down her now, pale cheeks. Kouga's eyes widened and then narrowed into slits of rage.

"Rin..."

"Just go. Leave me alone Kouga, please."

He sighed, defeated and nodded his head solemnly. He got up and shuffled his way to the door.

"Rin, I'm always going to be here. Always..."

He left and Rin sighed. She sank deeper into the bed, wishing with all her might that tomorrow she wouldn't see Sesshoumaru at all because if she did her calm demeanor would break and she would surely cry. She closed her eyes and finally slept.


_ _ _ _ _


"Is this really for me papa?" A little girl with long black hair and bright brown eyes asked.

"Of course it is, sweetheart. You're my little angel and I'll always be there to protect you, all you have to do is wear this and always think of me and I'll be right here" he whispered his fingers touching her heart.

He had jet black hair, and a soft smile, his obsidian eyes glowed and his eyes crinkled in amusement, adoration and affection.

"My heart?" She asked looking at her father.

He nodded.

"Thank-you papa" the little girl cried, her eyes glowing and her mouth curling into a dazzling smile.

"But you must promise me Rin that you will always take care of that necklace. Do you promise?" He whispered soothingly.

"Yes papa, I promise. I will wear it, always, and think of you."

"That's my girl."

He picked her up and she laughed, delighted.

"I love you papa"

"I love you too, sweetheart, I love you too."


_ _ _ _ _


"Where is he?" She whispered, her brown eyes wide with fear, and desperation.

"Where is he?" She repeated.

"Rin..." her brother bent down to look at her.

"He's... papa's gone, he had a terrible accident and he's not coming back" he whispered, trying to calm her, his fingers combing through her long black tresses.

"You mean he's dead, don't you? Why can't anyone tell me that? Papa's dead and he's never coming back!" She yelled breaking free of her brother's grasp.

"Hush, sweetheart, it'll be alright" her brother said softly, his voice cracking in the process.

"NO! I refuse to believe you. Papa's coming back, he said he'd always be with me. He's never broken his promises Kouga. Never! Why would he start now? NO! Don't touch me!" She yelled, completely hysterical by now.

"Rin..."

"NO! I can't hear you!"

She put her hands over her ears.

"Rin..."

"Lalalalalala, I can't hear you! Why are you lying to me Kouga?"

"Rin" he yelled and grabbed her.

"Papa" she whispered, sinking to the ground pitifully, her brother following her shortly.

He pulled her into a tight embrace.

"Papa" she mumbled, softly.

"You promised me, you promised me, YOU PROMISED!" She yelled against the roaring of the wind.

"NO! NO! NO! NO!"

"I hate you papa! I hate you!" She yelled. She squirmed in her brother's arms. He tried to comfort her.

""No, Rin, no..." he said quietly.

'Because you left me alone' her mind finished for her.

She grasped the necklace in her hand tightly and held it. She ripped it off her neck and heard it snap.

"Papa" she whispered rocking back and forth, hugging her knees to her chest, whispering something inaudible over and over again.


_ _ _ _ _


She gasped, waking up. Her body was covered in sweat and tears. She hadn't had a dream like that since she was twelve, she couldn't believe she still remembered her father. It was so long ago... and the time seemed to fly so fast. Speaking of which, today was Monday.

She glanced at the clock and rubbed her eyes furiously. Time to get up. She swung her legs out of the bed and sighed, closing her eyes. She rubbed her forehead and let out a shuddering breath. She stood up and swayed.

She sat back down on her bed.

She finally got back up and shuffled into the bathroom. Turning on the hot water, she let it run over her tired body. She quickly got out after she finished washing herself. She got out and slowly dried herself with a towel before shuffling back into her room. She slowly slipped on her school uniform before walking to her mirror. She stared at her reflection and shivered.

She looked so... lifeless. Her usually bright and glossy brown eyes were now dull and broken. Her skin was pale, but she had to look... right. Her hair didn't have it's natural gloss, it's natural shine.

She had to look good. At least for today, at home she could look broken down and lifeless, but not at school. Never at school.

'I won't let him bring me down. I won't!'

She picked up some black eye liner and ran it over her eyes making sure it was thin, If she was going to cry, then she didn't want her make up to smear. She blinked, instead of her eyes looking wide and round, they now held a dark, shapely and very, very sultry look to them. She smiled, she already liked it. She picked up some blush and applied that to her ghostly looking cheeks before she set it down. After she was done with that she applied some clear lip gloss to her mouth. She combed her hair and left it loose in an uncaring manner. She picked up her book bag and walked down the stairs of her house.

She was surprised to see both Ayame and Kouga near the door. She gave them both a look.

"Rin..." It was Ayame who started this off.

She smiled brightly at Ayame startling both her and her brother.

"I'm fine guys, really. Can I... can I go to school now?" She questioned, shifting on one foot to the other in a nervous gesture.

They both exchanged confused glances and Rin's grin widened. She bit the insideof her cheek to stop from laughing. So far so good.

"Rin... are you sure your.. al... alright?" Ayame questioned softly.

Rin nodded solemnly, lowering her thick black lashes.

"Yes" she murmured softly. "I'm sure."

They both moved out of the way and watched as she walked out of the house. Kouga was staring at the empty space his sister had currently occupied. He grit his teeth and closed his eyes. He blinked, startled when he felt a hand touch his shoulder comfortingly. Ayame gave him a soft smile. He turned around and pulled her body to his own.

"Don't worry honey, it'll be alright. Everything is going to be alright" he murmured in a soft tone, his fingers gently moving over her soft skin. She nodded her head and flushed hotly, resting her head on his shoulder.

'It has to be...' she thought drowsily. 'Because I don't know if you'll survive when I tell you the truth.'

She held onto him tighter, practically clinging to him.

"I love you Kouga" she mumbled.


_ _ _ _ _


Rin's heart started to beat wildly when she neared the school. For some strange reason she knew, she just knew that - he - was there. She could feel it. She slowed down and started to take deep breaths, trying to control her rapidly beating heart. Nearing the school she saw a familiar figure.

He was cradling a text-book between his legs, a pen tapping his mouth. His long and stunning silver mane was tied into a tight braid and it hung over his right shoulder, gleaming against the sun's rays. His long, dark lashes were lowered so she couldn't see those blazing eyes, but oh... his mouth. It was soft and sensual. It always looked like that. She closed her eyes.

Sesshoumaru...

Unwittingly she drew in a sharp intake of breath. Her heart dropped and she stopped breathing when her eyes opened, only to find that the alluring cat-like eyes were staring at her own soft cocoa colored orbs. An uncomfortable and unpleasant sensation crept into her body. His eyes were like liquid. Metallic, hard and cold, tinged with detest and anger, also something else...

She stumbled back, not being able to look him in the eye. Wordlessly she turned to run, but stopped dead when she saw who sat next to him and tilted his face to look at her.

Kagura...

Rin stood paralyzed in the same spot for what seemed like an eternity, and watched as Sesshoumaru let Kagura kiss him. Everything turned numb. There was absolutely nothing in her.

No thoughts, no feelings, nothing at all.

As the numbness passed, waves of sadness, longing, anguish and disappointment overtook her and she had to start breathing.

She was seeing so many things.

Everything hurt.

Why?

Why?

Why...?

It was almost too much to bear.

Tears pricked the corners of her eyes.

Papa and now, Sesshoumaru?

A wave of nausea hit her and she stumbled backwards unsteadily, desperate to run away... far from Sesshoumaru, far from the thoughts, the memories, and the feelings that were assaulting and haunting her.

The pain would never go away and she finally let her tears fall and she turned to run to the place where her betrayal had first started.

Her father's grave.