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Helping the Enemy - Chapter 6
"talk"
'thought'
*action*
Sounds
Chapter Six
Helping the Enemy
It had been six days since the youkai sorceress had come to Kagome in the springs that day and Kagome still could not make up her mind on what she was to do. She understood what it would mean if she did not, but she also understood what she would have to do if she was so inclined to save a youkai who was not even her friend.
A fire was the only light in the dead of night the only being awake within the clearing was a young raven haired girl. She could not sleep there were just to many things going on in her life at the moment, and she could not catch a wink of sleep no matter how hard she tried.
She sat up most of the night thinking about her situation, Kagome knew one thing for sure. She knew that she would not be able to live with the guilt of his death on her shoulders if she did nothing to help him. But she was scared; it was not a fear of death that made her so afraid. No it was the fear a virgin female felt before she gave herself to a male for the first time in her life.
Kagome could not believe she had to do this; that she had to give Sesshomaru her virginity for him to live. She was having a big problem with the idea mainly because she was going to have sex with someone she barely knew, and knew nothing of him but his species. 'This is not how I imagined losing my virginity!!!' her mind yelled in anger at the situation she found herself in. She had not even seen him since he had dropped her off with her friends! 'How do I know what that witch told me was the truth?' she asked herself, it was a very good question that she did not know the answer too.
Kagome knew he had been following them since that day, but he had yet to show himself. 'If he was dieing wouldn't he come here and tell me so?' she thought before shaking her head 'No he wouldn't. Spell or not he would never lower himself to ask for aid from a human, his pride would not allow it to happen. If there was anything she knew about him it was that he held a lot of pride and high ideals in honor.
But there were so much she needed to consider, for starters what about her friends? What would they think about this? Inuyasha would probably say good riddance let the bastard die, he deserves it and more… Probably filled with more colorful words than the normal Japanese language would allow. He would make sure she did not help him, and then he would probably taunt Sesshomaru about his problem. Miroku however would probably be wearing the largest hentai smile he could manage before a good whack from Sango. And Sango well she was not too sure what she would think of this, but there was one thing she knew for sure: she had to go to him and it had to be kept a secret. She knew that her friends would stop her if they knew what she had planned to do, no matter the consequences of not going would be.
Kagome knew she could not live with herself if she allowed him to die. Blinking she watched the embers of the fire glow, the glow reflecting off her eyes. She leaned forward to pick up a log and place it in the fire and watched with interested eyes as the previously unburnt log caught fire and started to blacken before finally retaining the same red glow as the rest. It was kind of symbolic for her, the embers.
The embers of the fire reminded her of her life. First it was uncomplicated, untouched and not bothered. But then someone went and took them from were they lay happily and their existence was never the same again. The moment the log was moved it was doomed, much like her life. The events that started all the chaos in the life of the log just spread until there was nothing of the log left but ash.
Kagome closes her eyes shutting out the outside world; she knew that after tonight things were not going to be the same again because tomorrow she would search out Sesshomaru, and find out if what the demented witch said was true. And if it was, she would give herself to him for that one night.
With her mind made up she decided to try and get some sleep.
0ooo0
The sun rose high in the sky and the sleeping campers all woke one by one. Kagome being amongst the first to wake she began to cook breakfast for her friends. She was nervous about what she was planning to do later that day. Kagome knew she had to tell her friends she was going home for the night; thankfully they would be back at the village so none would know better.
Thinking now was as good a time as any "Inuyasha when we return to the village I will be spending the night at home, in my bed." Kagome informed her companion already knowing that there may be a small argument and a couple of 'sit' commands before he would agree to let her go.
"Oh No you aren't!" Inuyasha replied while crossing his arms over his chest and his hands diving into his haori sleeves.
A slight tick found it's way to Kagome's right eye, and she knew she had to make it look good so they would not suspect anything…right? "Oh Yes I am!" she retorted to the hot tempered hanyou.
Inuyasha was going to yell that he told her no before he was interrupted by Miroku "Inuyasha if Kagome-sama wishes to go home for the night to sleep in her own bed then so be it." he told Inuyasha before turning to Kagome to finish his thoughts "But however, if you find yourself lonely, you are welcomed to join me on my mat." he said while wiggling his brow suggestively.
Smack
Thump
Thud
CRASH
The sound of Kagome smacking the Houshi's face, then Inuyasha punching the houshi on top the head, followed by the Hiraikotsu hitting him on the head then him falling to the ground unconscious echoed throughout the clearing.
"He will never learn." Shippo whispered to Kirara while shaking his head and looking at the irritated adults.
As they had predicted the group had arrived at Kaede's village a little before sunset. Kagome was happy that she at least had a little time to prepare herself in her time, for what she was about to do. So with a couple sits for Inuyasha's mouth and a wave goodbye Kagome jumped into the well and into the future.
0ooo0
He tried to stay away he really did, but he could not. It hurt not only emotionally but physically as well, the further from her he was the weaker he became. He did not take the kijo's words seriously, how could a simple spell cause so much trouble for him? That was a question he knew not the answer to, and he would do anything to learn it at this point.
He could remember the day he decided to stop following the miko; it was the same day the kijo told him what was to become of him if the spell was not allowed to achieve what it was cast to do. When he returned to his companions he did not feel any different so he thought the kijo stupid for her assumptions that he could not overcome a mere spell.
It was not until the next day that he began feeling differently, his chest constricted painfully it was like he could not breathe. He had to struggle slightly just to draw a significant amount of air into his lungs. He was feeling as if he lost something that he needed to live. His once hollow heart that was forcibly filled with this obsessive possessive love, was now replaced by an all consuming pain. Still he did not submit to the call of the potion and stayed away from the miko.
One the second day since he returned to his companions the feeling did not lessen instead another infliction was added. He had fallen asleep the night before because for some odd reason he felt drained. When he woke up instead of feeling his energy restored as it was supposed to he was still weak. The effects of the spell were not causing him physical problems though he was weaker then normal. His strength was almost nonexistent. It was that feeling that made him realize that no matter how much he disliked the idea he had to stay around the miko because if he did not he would be no better then a human.
That was the first time in the long life of the Western Lord the he felt fear. He knew she would not help him with the spell, and give herself to a former enemy. Her status as a virgin only reinforced his opinion on the subject. He knew he was going to die, and there was nothing he could do about it other then take the ningen miko by force, and that was not something his honor would allow.
'So I am to die.' he resigned to himself sourly while his mind taunted him with a relevant question 'Why would a miko as pure as she give something so valuable to someone she considered to be tainted, to someone who had once tried to kill her?' it was the truth of the question that made him realize he was not to be saved. 'Saved.' he snorted the word sounded funny in his head 'This Sesshomaru has no need to be saved.' he thought as his ego started to shine through his thoughts. His pride and ego could not and would not save him this time, so he relented and searched out his half brother's group, he had been there ever since.
He stood high in a tree downwind from the group as he watched as his miko jumped into a well and disappear without a trace.
~~
'thought'
*action*
Sounds
Chapter Six
Helping the Enemy
It had been six days since the youkai sorceress had come to Kagome in the springs that day and Kagome still could not make up her mind on what she was to do. She understood what it would mean if she did not, but she also understood what she would have to do if she was so inclined to save a youkai who was not even her friend.
A fire was the only light in the dead of night the only being awake within the clearing was a young raven haired girl. She could not sleep there were just to many things going on in her life at the moment, and she could not catch a wink of sleep no matter how hard she tried.
She sat up most of the night thinking about her situation, Kagome knew one thing for sure. She knew that she would not be able to live with the guilt of his death on her shoulders if she did nothing to help him. But she was scared; it was not a fear of death that made her so afraid. No it was the fear a virgin female felt before she gave herself to a male for the first time in her life.
Kagome could not believe she had to do this; that she had to give Sesshomaru her virginity for him to live. She was having a big problem with the idea mainly because she was going to have sex with someone she barely knew, and knew nothing of him but his species. 'This is not how I imagined losing my virginity!!!' her mind yelled in anger at the situation she found herself in. She had not even seen him since he had dropped her off with her friends! 'How do I know what that witch told me was the truth?' she asked herself, it was a very good question that she did not know the answer too.
Kagome knew he had been following them since that day, but he had yet to show himself. 'If he was dieing wouldn't he come here and tell me so?' she thought before shaking her head 'No he wouldn't. Spell or not he would never lower himself to ask for aid from a human, his pride would not allow it to happen. If there was anything she knew about him it was that he held a lot of pride and high ideals in honor.
But there were so much she needed to consider, for starters what about her friends? What would they think about this? Inuyasha would probably say good riddance let the bastard die, he deserves it and more… Probably filled with more colorful words than the normal Japanese language would allow. He would make sure she did not help him, and then he would probably taunt Sesshomaru about his problem. Miroku however would probably be wearing the largest hentai smile he could manage before a good whack from Sango. And Sango well she was not too sure what she would think of this, but there was one thing she knew for sure: she had to go to him and it had to be kept a secret. She knew that her friends would stop her if they knew what she had planned to do, no matter the consequences of not going would be.
Kagome knew she could not live with herself if she allowed him to die. Blinking she watched the embers of the fire glow, the glow reflecting off her eyes. She leaned forward to pick up a log and place it in the fire and watched with interested eyes as the previously unburnt log caught fire and started to blacken before finally retaining the same red glow as the rest. It was kind of symbolic for her, the embers.
The embers of the fire reminded her of her life. First it was uncomplicated, untouched and not bothered. But then someone went and took them from were they lay happily and their existence was never the same again. The moment the log was moved it was doomed, much like her life. The events that started all the chaos in the life of the log just spread until there was nothing of the log left but ash.
Kagome closes her eyes shutting out the outside world; she knew that after tonight things were not going to be the same again because tomorrow she would search out Sesshomaru, and find out if what the demented witch said was true. And if it was, she would give herself to him for that one night.
With her mind made up she decided to try and get some sleep.
0ooo0
The sun rose high in the sky and the sleeping campers all woke one by one. Kagome being amongst the first to wake she began to cook breakfast for her friends. She was nervous about what she was planning to do later that day. Kagome knew she had to tell her friends she was going home for the night; thankfully they would be back at the village so none would know better.
Thinking now was as good a time as any "Inuyasha when we return to the village I will be spending the night at home, in my bed." Kagome informed her companion already knowing that there may be a small argument and a couple of 'sit' commands before he would agree to let her go.
"Oh No you aren't!" Inuyasha replied while crossing his arms over his chest and his hands diving into his haori sleeves.
A slight tick found it's way to Kagome's right eye, and she knew she had to make it look good so they would not suspect anything…right? "Oh Yes I am!" she retorted to the hot tempered hanyou.
Inuyasha was going to yell that he told her no before he was interrupted by Miroku "Inuyasha if Kagome-sama wishes to go home for the night to sleep in her own bed then so be it." he told Inuyasha before turning to Kagome to finish his thoughts "But however, if you find yourself lonely, you are welcomed to join me on my mat." he said while wiggling his brow suggestively.
Smack
Thump
Thud
CRASH
The sound of Kagome smacking the Houshi's face, then Inuyasha punching the houshi on top the head, followed by the Hiraikotsu hitting him on the head then him falling to the ground unconscious echoed throughout the clearing.
"He will never learn." Shippo whispered to Kirara while shaking his head and looking at the irritated adults.
As they had predicted the group had arrived at Kaede's village a little before sunset. Kagome was happy that she at least had a little time to prepare herself in her time, for what she was about to do. So with a couple sits for Inuyasha's mouth and a wave goodbye Kagome jumped into the well and into the future.
0ooo0
He tried to stay away he really did, but he could not. It hurt not only emotionally but physically as well, the further from her he was the weaker he became. He did not take the kijo's words seriously, how could a simple spell cause so much trouble for him? That was a question he knew not the answer to, and he would do anything to learn it at this point.
He could remember the day he decided to stop following the miko; it was the same day the kijo told him what was to become of him if the spell was not allowed to achieve what it was cast to do. When he returned to his companions he did not feel any different so he thought the kijo stupid for her assumptions that he could not overcome a mere spell.
It was not until the next day that he began feeling differently, his chest constricted painfully it was like he could not breathe. He had to struggle slightly just to draw a significant amount of air into his lungs. He was feeling as if he lost something that he needed to live. His once hollow heart that was forcibly filled with this obsessive possessive love, was now replaced by an all consuming pain. Still he did not submit to the call of the potion and stayed away from the miko.
One the second day since he returned to his companions the feeling did not lessen instead another infliction was added. He had fallen asleep the night before because for some odd reason he felt drained. When he woke up instead of feeling his energy restored as it was supposed to he was still weak. The effects of the spell were not causing him physical problems though he was weaker then normal. His strength was almost nonexistent. It was that feeling that made him realize that no matter how much he disliked the idea he had to stay around the miko because if he did not he would be no better then a human.
That was the first time in the long life of the Western Lord the he felt fear. He knew she would not help him with the spell, and give herself to a former enemy. Her status as a virgin only reinforced his opinion on the subject. He knew he was going to die, and there was nothing he could do about it other then take the ningen miko by force, and that was not something his honor would allow.
'So I am to die.' he resigned to himself sourly while his mind taunted him with a relevant question 'Why would a miko as pure as she give something so valuable to someone she considered to be tainted, to someone who had once tried to kill her?' it was the truth of the question that made him realize he was not to be saved. 'Saved.' he snorted the word sounded funny in his head 'This Sesshomaru has no need to be saved.' he thought as his ego started to shine through his thoughts. His pride and ego could not and would not save him this time, so he relented and searched out his half brother's group, he had been there ever since.
He stood high in a tree downwind from the group as he watched as his miko jumped into a well and disappear without a trace.
~~