Lessons

A/N So sorry I took so long....alot goingg on:) Enjoy!


Chapter 5


“Kagome.......I’m talkin’ to you”. His growl was low, deep in his throat. I felt Kagome shiver. Slowly, I sat up, gathering all the strength I had. I was not about to let his anger drive him to do something he would later regret. I swallowed hard as his silver hair blew in the wind. ‘Oh kami....is he about to transform?’ I thought to myself, no matter, if he ever raised his hand to Kagome, his life would end at my hands. My hands instinctively reached for my weapon, his eyes followed my hand with lightening speed. InuYasha let out an eerie laugh, Kagome motioned for me to leave.
“I won’t....not when he’s like this.” I whispered.

“Oh...how cute, this dyke is willing to loose her life messin’ around with you.” InuYasha hissed out. “Leave us, Sango!” I threw him a looked as he cracked his knuckles....did he really want to kill me? Hell, I can’t say that I blame him, if anything, I hurt him......I was supposed to be his friend. I betrayed him.
“I should’ve let you alone, you and your crazy little brother.” His tone was dangerous. Those words were like someone stabbing me.......I deserved it.

Kagome looked at me. “Sango....its fine, just go.” She whispered. The thought of leaving her alone with him in his state of mind bothered me but I left. They were unaware of my watching from the open window. Taking a long breath, I knew she was nervous. Slowly, Kagome raised her head, facing the angered hanyou. Her eyes finally met his, she walked towards him.
“InuYasha.” Her whisper was almost too soft for me to hear her. “Gomen.....I never-“

“Gomen? So, it is true.” He hung his head as his hands retreated to his pockets. Silver hair was no longer blowing wildly nor were his eyes that menacing crimson red.

“H-Hai. Oh, kami.....InuYasha, I swear on my soul, I never meant for this to happen.....didn’t even see it coming.” Her chocolate eyes watered. It broke her heart to see tears fall from his golden eyes. “Oh.....” She cried out as she ran to him. Her soft hands wiped his face. “Forget it......forget everything, I-I will leave her.......I’ll never let Sango touch me again.” My heart fell to the ground. I should have guessed that Kagome would never stand up to be with me. My brain screamed at me to leave but my heart was so paralyzed....I sat there, watching everything. His arms held her as she reached out to him. They cried in each other’s embrace for what seemed like an eternity. His pulled away slightly........I wanted to die as he placed his lips on hers. Kagome gave all she had as she squeezed him. To my surprise......he suddenly pulled away completely. His clawed hands, still holding Kagome close. Her eyes widened as he shook his head. Kgaome was confused, as was I.
“Its......it just ain’t the same.” He whispered to her. Kagome cried to him.....pleading with him.

“InuYasha...it, it can be.....we can work this out. Onegai, don’t give up on me....don’t hate me.....Ai Shiteiru.....I do.” She was shaking. He gently caressed her face.

“Ssh...Kagome, stop. You and I both know......”we” are not the same, I’ve felt it for a while now. And you know, I could never hate you.” InuYasha continued to whisper to her. I was unable to pick up everything, wasn’t really supposed to. I kept watching as Kagome shook her head, disagreeing with him. It finally hit me.....she was afraid.

“No....no, we are soul mates.....we’re marked, made for one another. I-I traveled years just to meet you......its not supposed to end, not like this!” Kagome’s words were everywhere. She was rambling. InuYasha knew she was frightened.

“Kagome, listen to me......” He paused to give her time to calm herself. “Believe it or not....I’m okay with this.” InuYasha looked at her facial expression. “I mean it hurts, lettin’ you go but I realize that if we don’t end thing now...on a good note, everything we’ve ever had, ever meant to each other ...our friendship-“

“InuYasha.” Kagome whispered as she ran her fingers through his hair.

“I don’t want everything to go to hell in a handbasket, ‘ya know.” He added as he hugged her once more. Kagome leaned her head on his shoulder.....they were still locked in their embrace. A silence fell over them, as if they could no longer speak.

“I’m afraid to let go.....its like you’ll disappear if I do.” She whispered to him. “This wasn’t supposed to happen.” Kagome cried. Slowly, the hanyou pulled away, using his hand to gently lift her head.

“Perhaps it was. Maybe the fates brought you here to teach me to love. Loving someone can sometimes includes lettin’ them go.” He gave her a warm smile as he placed his forehead on hers. I had to blink my eyes, check my ears.........I never thought someone as hot-headed as InuYasha could ever be so understanding.....selfless. I would have bet my life that he would’ve cursed her out and tried to kill me.

“So, just like that huh, you’re going to let me go?” She asked.

“Hai.....somethin’ like that. My mother told me when I was little, if you love someone, let them go.......if the fates will it to happen, they will come back to you.” He chuckled at the thought of his mother. “You know, I never quite understood that......not until now.”

“Yeah well, Yumi says that all the time, then her sister will cut in a say that if the person doesn’t come back, you hunt them down and kill’em”. A smile crept upon her face at the sound of InuYasha’s laughter.

“Oh no,.......and you think I’m nuts.” He replied as he squeezed her. I am sure they both could have used the comic relief. Kagome cleared her throat......I knew where she was going to take this conversation.

“InuYasha, I- do you?” She paused.

“Come on, spit it out, I don’t bite ‘ya know........well, not anymore.” They both chuckled at his little joke.

“Do you hate Sango?” She cringed slightly, getting ready for him to yell. He sighed as he plopped his head on her shoulder.

“Augh.....” He growled out. I have no right to be hurt by his reaction but I was.....it stung more then I thought it would. “I knew you were gonna ask me that!” He said as he lifted his head.

“Gomen.....again”. She whispered.

“No, its......I- hate is a strong word.” Was all he could say. Kagome smiled.

“Oh, so you forgive her!” Her eyes sparkled. He looked into her eyes, an evil grin crossed his face.

“Feh.... forgive is such a strong word.” He swallowed hard as he looked at Kagome once more. “Kagome......its just, I-I knew all the shit Sango was pullin’. The lecherous behavior with all these women, the lying to Miroku, to Koga and Buddha only knows who else. It.....’ya know what, I should have known. Miroku is my friend, I sat there and let all this go down....might as well have lied to him my damn self. Perhaps this is karma.”

“InuYasha, you- how were you supposed to know she would-“ Kagome corrected herself. “We, would hurt you this way?” I know why she did it. She refused to let me take all the blame for what happened.

“The girl was, is good friends with Koga, that didn’t stop her from plowin’ Ayame......did it? Sango claims she has such a love for Miroku....was she faithful? Hell no.” He paused, as I sat there, listening........I felt like pure, utter shit. I wanted to run away and never face any of them again. “Hell, she hates the very air Kagura breaths......Miroku told me she slept with her to. If she did all that......I have no fuckin’ clue why I didn’t think-“ He dropped his sentence. “Kagome, don’t cry......it, none of that shit matters anymore......its done.”

She couldn’t help it nor could I at this time. As I cried outside, I wondered if he knew I was there. “Kagome, I want you to be okay.....to be happy.” He whispered to her.

“What right do I-“

“Every right. You have every right to be happy, with me......Sango, whomever. Long as its not that corn-ball, Hojo.” He joked. Kagome snickered.

“Kami...... InuYasha, please....he couldn’t hit it with a baseball bat.” She laughed again, giving him assurance

“Ha! I like that.” His tone was cocky. They still had not let one another go.

“Maybe I should-I mean.....perhaps things will be a little easier with me gone for a while.” Kagome finally whispered. He shook his head, not wanting to tell her to leave....that would mean releasing her from their hold. They stood in the middle of the small hut, still holding each other.

“Hai, maybe.....I don’t....want you to go but I know its best.” InuYasha finally answered her. Their lips joined together, saying one last ‘good bye’ as a couple. They slowly pulled away from one another. His hand wrapped around hers. “Let’s get you back to the well.” Kagome was so touched by his kindness......she was speechless. I quickly ran from the widow as they stepped outside. I cursed myself when I fell into a large bush. The rustling of the leaves caused the hanyou to pause......I knew by the look on his face, he was aware of my presence. Still, he said nothing to Kagome as they continued on their long walk.

I jumped from the bushes after they left. My heart was heavier then it has ever been. What the hell was wrong with me? I was a complete mess and I had no where to go. Water fell from my eyes until they almost swelled, never had I wished Yamiko was alive more then right at that moment. My head was spinning as I finally decided to get Kirara and my thing and leave. I started to leave a long letter but, who the hell would have cared where I went.........noone, not after the pain I’ve caused. Just as I opened the door, I saw a pair of indigo eyes staring back at me. I held Kirara closer to me.
“I-I was just leaving.” I whispered sheepishly. I was too ashamed to look at him anymore.

“So, that’s it huh? You break my heart, Kagome and InuYasha’s relationship and now you just leave the scene of the crime?”

My eyes fell to the ground. “InuYasha will be back. He.....he walked Kagome to the well.” I didn’t want to fight with him......I was weak, I couldn’t face all these various attacks on me. I held enough self hatred in my heart.....there was no need to collect anymore for someone else, even if I did deserve it all.

“Do whatever you want Sango, hell, it never stopped you before.” Miroku’s tone was calm, it sounded like he had thrown in the towel on me and everything we shared.......no.......I did, the second I betrayed his trust. He didn’t go after me, just let me walk off into the dangerous night.....not caring what evil lurked within the forest. That made two of us. As I walked through the forest, thoughts of my sins against others, raced in and out of my head. I was so used to going about relationships and love the wrong way, by the time I reached Miroku.....and Kagome, I was unable to break this vicious cycle that I wrapped myself in. It didn’t matter......I was leaving all of their lives now, thinking they all were better of without me. Bofore I got much further, I felt a hand on my shoulder......I tried to run. My face hit the ground, someone tripped me, quickly, I turned around. As I looked up, I saw a bright, red Kimono blowing in the night breeze. I backed up slowly.

“Just where the hell are you goin’?” He asked.

“I-I’m.........its best that I leave.” My eyes drifted past him.

“Hmph.....let me get this straight, you break up Kagome and I and now, when she needs you most, you’re gonna leave her alone to clean up your shit!” Clearly, he was pissed.....I felt his golden glare, burning a hole through me.

“InuYasha.....please......don’t do this to me.” I cried, tears where streaming down my cheeks. He was completely unrelenting....cared less about my pain.

“Oh, now you want to cry! Tell me, were ‘ya cryin’ when you were screwin’ Kagome behind my back? Let alone Ayame and who knows all the others. You had me lyin’ right along with you and what did you do? You slept with my mate!” He just kept yelling. All I could do was cry.....I was weak. I curled into a ball on the ground......it was as if Miroku was screaming at me all over again.

“Stop....onegai.....just let me go!” I pleaded between my sobbing. InuYasha walked towards me, his eyes still glaring at me.

“HELL NO!” He yelled. “Kagome is home, pacing all alone in her room, tryin’ to figure out just how the hell she’s gonna tell her mother she let some-“ He paused. “How her feelings for her best friend developed into something she has never experienced before!” His hands wrapped around my collar as he yanked me up from the ground. “She is scared shitless and I’ll be damned if I let you leave her side......’ya got that?!”

“B-but InuYash I....My past was-“

“Oh, I could give a fuck! I ain’t got the time or sympathy to stand here and listen to your sob story about your psycho kid brother or how Naraku killed your first lover. You did this to me and Kagome, you came at her.....I know you did it, that’s the type of broad you are and now you’re gonna clean up the pile of shit ‘ya left behind!” The hanyou’s words were sharp.....so hard and cruel. Hurt most because it was true. I was shaking but his hold on my collar tightened. Deep down, I knew he was not going to hurt me.....not physically.
“B-but Miroku....he hates me-“

“I don’t blame him!” He cut of my sentence. “You’re damn lucky I don’t hate’ya but all this whinin’ from you is pissin’ me off! Once you’ve made your bed, you gotta sleep in it....or somethin; like that.....you get my drift!” Finally, InuYasha released the tight grip on me. I stood up straight as I smoothed over the fabric of my kimono. I looked into his eyes, knowing I had to face him head on.

“You are right. I messed up.” My tone was calm, strong.

“Damn straight I am.” He growled. “Now, I’m gonna tell ‘ya like I did Kagome, I in no way, shape or form, have I given up on her. I’ll be watchin’ you and if I even think you’re screwin’ someone else.........I’ll be on you like flies to shit. You will not get away with breaking her heart.
I will take back what has always be mine.”

I swallowed hard at his promise.....anyone that knew him understood he made no idle threats. Icy chills went up and down my spine...my blood almost ran cold. I shook my head, for the first time, I feared InuYasha. ‘Hmph, father would have been so proud.’ I sarcastically thought to myself. A youkai slayer, afraid of a hanyou......ironic but true.

“Hai...InuYasha, I understand.” I answered him, my heart was beating so fast, I thought it was going to explode.

“Then go to her.” He threw a shard at me and quickly walked away. Soon, his red kimono vanished into the darkness. As I walked to the well, I wondered what Kagome was doing.........what it was she planned to say to her mother.


A/N Yeah....I know, I know, it took me forever! There was a lot of harsh words in this chappie but hey, you’d be ticked off to if in the same situation....lol