Song Of My Soul

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WARNING: Lemon ahead. I suck so don't grade my story based on it ok.

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Song of My Soul

Part 6

Kagome watched Inuyasha for long moments after they dressed. They had both agreed that maybe some clothes would make it easier to concentrate on their issues. It was true they both had pent up sexual tension but now wasn’t the time to express it to the other. Especially since that aggression was toward each other. She nibbled on a piece of cheese from the food tray on the night stand and tried to wait patiently for Inuyasha to sort out what he wanted to say. If anyone knew how hard it was for him to express himself it was her. She had spent most her life talking him through the difficult parts of his life. That had happened so many times it was hard for her decipher where his life left and hers began. It seemed like their paths in life were completely intertwined in every way and no matter what happened to one the other would be there for support. This time it was much harder. They had to find a way to separate friendship from being lovers.

Once again her eyes traveled from his clawed hand that was resting on his leg, up his bare muscular arm to his broad shoulders. Her eyes lingered on his firm chest. She had always marveled at how tightly his skin seemed to fit over those strong muscles. She followed his tanned skin down to the six pack of muscles on his stomach. Involuntarily she shuttered with desire. Inuyasha’s ears perked up and he looked at her startled.

“Are you cold? Do you want a blanket?” He said quickly with concern. She was too embarrassed to speak and only shook her head. This was insane. Why couldn’t she be in the same room with him and not want to jump all over him. She wanted to rip his sweat pants off him and just...’Oh God!’ She thought. ‘I’m a nymphomaniac.’ She groaned subconsciously. “Kagome? Are you ok? You look sort of pale.” Inha pha put his hand on hers and she shivered again.

“No.” She whisper and hung her head. The concern on his face grew deeper. Realization finally sank in and she groaned with a hand on her face. “I don’t think this is going to work. I should probably go to my mother’s for tonight.” She said dishearten and started to get up. He grabbed her hand quickly. A look of pure sorrow was in his eyes.

“Please Kagome don’t go. I want you to...no I need you to stay.” He swallowed the lump in his throat.

“Inu..yasha?” She could see the pain and turmoil he had been hiding. She put her hand on his cheek and he leaned into it closing his eyes.

“I have to explain but it’s hard. You know I’m not goith ith words. Especially when it comes to my feelings.” He hung his head at the sad look in her eyes.

“You can tell me anything.” She scooted closer and put both her hands on his face so she could lift it up and look into his eyes. The tears he was holding slipped down his face breaking her heart even more. “First and foremost I’m your friend. That won’t change no matter what. I don’t want us ever to stop being friends.” He nodded, closing his eyes and placing his larger hands over hers. He kissed them both then pulled them down into his lap.

“All I can ask is try to be patient. I have tried so many times to sort this out and sometimes it still doesmakemake sense how this all got so far out of hand.

“Just start at the beginning of it all. Like when Kikyo and Naraku moved back.” She squeezed his hands and smiled reassuringly. He smiled back finding strength in her just being there with him. She was so selfless. How could have listened to anything someone else said?

“Well did you know that Kikyo actually came back to Tokyo about 2 months before Naraku did?” She raised an eyebrow and shook her head. “I didn’t think so. I don’t thinks she contacted anyone at first. She had been here about 3 weeks before she called me one day and said she was in town. She wanted to go out for lunch to catch up on things. I didn’t even think anything of it at the time but you were out of town on business, she must have known. Anyway we had a nice time just talking and catching up on things like we used to when we were in collage.” Kagome frowned a bit but didn’t interrupt. He noticed and squeezed her hands.

“Don’t worry, nothing happened at that time that was out of the ordinary accept she did ask me not to talk to you about out little lunch. She said that you would get jealous and she didn’t want to cause any problems between us.”

“And you listened to her.” Kagome blew up feeling angry.

“I know, I know it was stupid ok but even you have to admit that you used to get pissed off sometimes when I spent time with her and you weren’t around.” She scowled ready to object but he held up his hand. “Remember New Year’s Eve when she took me off somewhere and it was so close to midnight? You had a hissy-fit so don’t even try to deny it.” Kagome frowned even more.

“You had not right to be going off with her. Everyone was looking at me like I was the biggest idiot there was. Even Naraku was getting mad. You never did explain what she wanted.” She crossed her arms and pouted.

“Yes I did but you didn’t listen.” She turned and looked at him. “She asked if we were thinking of having kids because Naraku had mentioned that it was time for them to start a family and she didn’t want to. I told her to talk to him about it.” Kagome stared at him for a moment when the thought hit her.

“That is why your New Year’s resolution was to do your best to have a child if I wanted to.” She scowled again. “You just wanted to beat him to having kids!” She hissed, her anger renewed.

“NO! There you go again flying off the handle thinking the worse. I wanted to make you happy and I had been thinking about it for awhile anyway. When she mentioned it, well it just seemed to be a good time to let you know I was ok with it. I could have cared less if they had a child first.” He fought hard to keep his natural dominant instinct in control. She looked at him sheepishly.

“Sorry.” She said and looked down at the comforter on his bed picking little pieces of lint off.

“Ok, as I was saying before I was rudely interrupted.” She looked at him and twisted her mouth into a frown. He grinned at her wolfishly then quickly grabbed her face with both hands and pulled her into a heated kiss. She squirmed for a moment then relaxed with a groan and closed her eyes. He kissed her lips a couple more times then leaned back. “Get too bitchy and I will do something more.” His breathing was heavy on her lips.

“Promise?” He chuckled then let her go. She slapped his knee playfully and smiled. “Jerk.” He laughed again then cleared his throat.

“Ok just set there and be a good bitch.” She scowled at him again. “Let me finish before you start getting all pissy on me.” She looked at him with ‘as if’ written in her eyes but nodded for him to continue. “Alright anyway, she called me again a few days later and wanted to meet for dinner. I told her I couldn’t that night and she seemed ok with it. We met a few times a week after that for lunch. There were times I could definitely tell something was wrong but she wouldn’t talk about it and always made me promise not to tell you about our meeting.” Kagome couldn’t hold it in.

“And you didn’t think that was strangome ome on Inuyasha how stupid are you? What was big big secret about me knowing unless she was planning something. Geesh your still as big a dope as you were in high school.” She said with disgust.

“What did I say? Shut up and let me tell you what happened.” Kagome frowned but didn’t say anything else. Satisfied by her silence he began again. “Yes I did think it was odd and asked her about it but she insisted it was because you would get jealous and she didn’t want to cause problems. She began to pick odd spots to meet and each time she seemed to be more troubled about something. I finally got her to tell me what was going on. She said that she wanted a divorce but Naraku had threatened her. She also told me she had lied before and that she didn’t want you to know about her meeting with me because she was afraid you would tell Naraku about it. I went over all the things I thought she should do to get away from him. She seemed to be listening and agreed to take some of the steps to start leaving him but then you came home that night and said that Naraku had shown up at the Tokyo office unexpected. Considering what she said and then you were surprised he was there well it just seemed that her story was true.

She said she couldn’t even talk to her parents because they told her she was imagining things and Naraku couldn’t possibly be doing anything to make her feel that way. I know what it is like to have your family aga you you. They were against me marrying Kikyo, I knew how she felt so you see even that seemed possible. The only person who even tried to accept my love for her was you. You never made me feel bad for my choice and you stood by me when she did exactly what they all said she would do. I thought she needed a good friend. One that was willing to put her above themself to help her. She needed someone like you but all she had was me. I tried to be that friend but I’m not like youcan’can’t be an angle and I wasn’t careful enough and it caught up to me.

Regardless of what Naraku might have told you, I was working late most the time. We met during the day all the time accept that last night in that hotel. I’m not as stupid as you might think. I could tell she was coming on to me more and more. I had told her that day when she called to have lunch that I couldn’t meet with her anymore in secret. She became upset and hung up on me. I was ready to leave and come home that night when she called. She was crying and said that Naraku was going to hurt her. You know me, I got mad and asked where she was, told her to stay there until I came to get her. I wasn’t prepared for what she had planned in that hotel room. When she opened the door she had on one of the hotel robes so I thought she had just come out of the shower.

She explained snew new she was keeping me from my dinner so she took the liberty of ordering something for us. I was so tired from that day at work I guess it showed so she talked me into loosening my tie to relax while she went into the bathroom to change. The shoe thing is like a subconscious act for me. I do even now. I’m really sorry about that but I took them off to help relax because my feet were killing me. I was in a board meeting all day giving presentation but that doesn’t really have much baring on this. While she was changing room service showed up and started to put things on the table. I assumed the guy thought it was supposed to be romantic and lit the candle trying to adjust the mood. I should have stopped him but didn’t think much of it at the time.

I was in pure shock when Kikyo walked out of that bathroom wearing that see through thing she called a night gown. I walked straight over to get my shoes to leave and she began tugging on my arm trying to get me to set down and eat. She begged me not to leave and threw herself at me telling me she was all I would ever need. I was in the process of pushing her off me when Naraku’s goons busted in the room. I was already pissed off at her then they showed up. It just added to my anger. But I never expected he would bring you there too. God the look in your eyes killed me. I wanted to die right then. It all came crashing down. You were so shattered and I knew I had caused it. There was nothing I could do to help you understand. They wouldn’t let me explain and then he was going to take you away.” A single tear slid down his face but he wiped it away quickly.

“I felt like my soul was being torn away from me. I couldn’t let you go. Kagome I don’t deserve you but I can’t live with out you. I felt like a part of me died that night. When I saw you tonight it was more like a dream. It still feels sort of like one of the many dreams I’ve had about you over the past two years. I need you.” He looked at her with regret and sorrow written deep in his amber orbs. She recognized the look of his broken spirit. It was much like when Kikyou had dumped him to marry Naraku but it seemed worse this time. She hugged him close to her relishing the feel of his strong arms when they wrapped around her in return.

“I’m sorry I didn’t give you the chance to explain. I was too afraid because I knew I would accept what ever you sand and just try to forget the whole thing. I didn’t trust myself to be able to tell lie from truth anymore.” She hugged him tighter. “I was being so selfish, I’m really sorry.” His arms tightened around her more and he buried his face in her hair.

“No I was the one being selfish. I should have trusted you more. If I had told you that she didn’t trust Naraku you would have listened and I didn’t give you the chance. I’m sorry for being an idiot.” He whispered into her hair as he inhaled her sweet scent.

“You mean like you usually are?” She said smiling.

“Hey I’m being serious here.” He snorted. Silence filled the room for a short time while they just g tog to each other.

“So you used to dream about me?” She asked curiously.

“Every minute of every day. I couldn’t get you out of my mind.” He nuzzled her neck then kissed it.

“Mmm...that’s nice.” She began to relax into his arms.

“The kiss or the dreaming?” He asked jokingly. She slapped his back playfully then ran her nails down his spin just hard enough to get his attention. “Oh god. You keep doing that and I won’t be able to stop.” He groaned.

“Stop what?” She snickered. He pulled away from her and raised an eye brow.

“This.” His mouth swooped in on hers to devour her completely. She moaned into the heated kiss feeling every nerve coming to life again just like it had in the shower. Slowly he lowered her down on the mattress so he lay half over her. He broke the kiss and stared down into her sparkling eyes. “I love you.” He whispered then dove in for another searing kiss. She slid her arms up and over his shoulders kneading the muscles drawing more passionate moans from him. Her hands seem to move on their own as they moved down his shoulders to his back dragging the nails as they went. He growled in approval and slid over her and pushed her legs apart so he could get between her legs.

Slowly he began to grind his still clothed groin into hers building the aroused heat he desired. With each push, his member became harder with desire. One clawed hand slid under her tee shirt and began to massage her left breast. She arched her back up toward him rubbing her already hot body against his moaning her acceptance of his touch. He moved his kiss down her chin then to her neck nipping the her hot skin then licking it to sooth the tender spot. She could feel the pressure building quickly in her groin and knew she wouldn’t last long at this rate.

He sat up on his legs and pulled the shirt over her head. As soon as it was gone he sank into place again. His fangs grazed over one of her perk nipples causing a welcomed groan from her. She slid her nails up his back and down again in reaction when he slowly began to suck on her plump orb.
With his free hand he rubbed the nipple of her other melon shaped breast between two fingers then chedched so neither would be left out. All the while he kept up the excruciating slow grind of his hips. It sent shock waves through her blood stream with demanding desire. This time when her nails reached the waist band on his sweat pants she slid her hands under and drug them up and down the cheeks of his butt.

His beast was almost uncontrollable as it was and she had to go and do that. He grunted and groaned. A deep growl formed in his chest when she began to slid his pants down and he couldn’t take it any longer. His hands slid down her waist to her hips ng hng her sweats and underwear with them. He had to be inside her now and he couldn’t waist time. She had his down to his thighs so once he had relieved her of hers all he had to do was kick his off.

She didn’t get any warning as he placed the head of his engorged manhood at her entrance and slowly pushed in to the hilt. Normally he would have taken more time caressing her but his beaas tas threatening to come out if he didn’t satisfy it soon. They both moaned in pleasure at the feel of each other. It had been so long and their bodies still fit together like they were made to be together. He stayed still for a moment to make sure she had adjusted. He looked into her half hooded eyes panting hard from the control. The lust in her eyes excited him even more then he already was. She pushed her hips up to let him know she was ok.
Even though his beast side wanted toust ust into her quick and fast he restrained himself to a slow agonizing pace while swig hig his hips. She groaned and moaned with each push as they worked deeper and deeper into her body. The heat built up to a point she didn’t know where she stopped and he began. Each thrust hit her sweet spot with a bold burst of power driving her to want more. She was ready to burst but needed it harder.

“Please Inuyasha...faster.” She panted and groaned when he did pick up the pace. He pushed harder with each thrust building up the pressure and heat. Her pants and moans came in unison to his thrusts. He could feel her reaching her end. He grunted and pushed once more. She clung to him with her nails latched on to his back. Her walls clamped down on his excited member and they both climaxed at the same time. He rested his upper body on his elbows while he finished pumping his seed into her waiting womb. They rode the throws of their climax with shivers and groans for a long time. He never wanted to move from this place. It was where he belonged, with her in the grip of passion and love.

He pushed hair from her sweaty face and kissed her nose. She kissed his chin then kissed up his jaw line until she reached his lips. Tenderly she nibbled and kissed him with an undying love he never expected to know let alone be able to grasp. He hugged her close to him then rolled over to the side. He cuddled her next to him breathing in her scent mixed with his. She snuggled into his side andted ted her head on his shoulder with a yawn. He knew she was probably beat from the trip and all thotiootions she had been feeling that day. Her breath became slower and more even. He thought she was going to sleep but then she shifted until she could look into his face with her chin resting on his chest.

“Inuyasha, there is one thing I need to know.” She looked very serious. He ran over what they talked about in his mind but was at a loss. ‘What could I have missed?’ He thought in a panic.

“Ok ask. I don’t want there to be any secrets between us ever again. I don’t care what it is.” He ran his finger through her hair out of nervousness.

“What happened to Kikyo?” He looked at her surprised. “I mean where is she now?” A sad expression came over his face. ‘Of course she didn’t know. How could she? Naraku had kept her in the dark about everything.’ With a sigh he rolled over on his side so he was facing her. This was going to be a longer night then he thought.

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AN: I know not very good lemon. I am not good at those things. I can hardly read them llonelone write one lol. Anyway I hope you enjoyed the chapter content. I did notice the amount of reviews I have been getting are going down. I hope I am not loosing readers due to story content. I hate to disappoint anyone but to be honest I never really put much thought into it. I usually write because I like to. But as I said I wouldn't want to disappoint anyone. Hope you like it so far.