Dirty Little Secret

He watched her from the door. She lay in the tub, hair up in a bun, steam rising from the water and hear heated skin into the cold air of the bathroom. She rubbed her hands up and down her legs in a bit of a massage before stretching out again and laying her head back, giving him a good look at her chest. Making his move, he walked into the bathroom and to her, picking up a wash cloth on the way to the tub. Delicately, he wiped the small beads of sweat that had formed on her forehead.



Kagome opened her eyes. "So, do you plan on joining me?"



He laughed at her straightforwardness. "Possibly. What do I get out of this?"



"I'll let you wash my back," she said with a smile.



Slowly he stripped out of his clothes. "I think you may have won me over."



She scooted forward a bit to give Sesshoumaru room to join her. The water moved in tiny waves as it rose higher in the basin, his legs stretched out to their full length along side her own, he pulled her back against his chest and wrapped his arms around her. "You know, I would enjoy baths much more if I always had a beautiful girl soaking with me."



Kagome sat up and whirled around, looking at him. "Any beautiful girl?"



Sesshoumaru shook his head. "There is no one that I'd rather be with, only you."



That seemed to placate her and she turned back around, once again leaning against his chest. "Thank you for today," she said quietly.



"No need to thank me, kitten. I always take care of what is mine."



"Yours," she mumbled, lacing her fingers through his larger ones.



At times she wished it would be completely true. She knew she was the only one in his life, she just hated hiding. That afternoon at the restaurant was the first time he had actually shown any sort of affection toward her in public she was thrilled yet scared at the same time; none of her previous boyfriends ever liked public displays of affection, especially Inuyasha. Any time she was out with Sesshoumaru she always had the fear of being caught by someone they know doing something they shouldn't be. Of course then she would feel like the kid caught with their hand in the cookie jar, trying to sneak just one little taste of a delectable treat.



The thing that they had was special in her eyes; it was a dream she never wanted to wake up from.



"What was your childhood like?" she asked. They had talked about many things when they got time together, but that was one subject they never touched on.



"Hmm..." He began to think. He wasn't really used to talking about his life; he was perfectly fine with Kagome talking about hers. He wasn't quite sure where to start. "You already knew I grew up in Kyoto. My father left for Tokyo to be with another woman when I was a teenager so I was left with my mother who was a nervous wreck. Before he left life was great; we were just an average family with a nice house and a dog. I never wanted for anything. Dad was always busy with work, but he was always there to tuck me in at night." He smiled. Before he left his father bent over backwards for his son. But then he met that wretched woman and had another child with her. "I have a half brother."



Kagome turned around to face him. "You do?"



Sesshoumaru nodded. "As a matter of fact he is about your age."



She thought for a moment. "Do I know him?"



He nodded and laughed. "You dated him."



"What??" she shrieked. "I dated him and you didn't tell me?? Did I know you then?" She cocked her head to the side in question.



"Inuyasha," he said plainly. Kagome opened and shut her mouth repeatedly, trying to figure out the right thing to say. "You are doing a really great fish impression, even better than the first time we met in this bathroom."



"What do you want me to say?"



"That the real thing is much better than the imitation."



She laughed a bit but quickly stopped. "Why didn't you tell me?"



"I didn't think it was important to be honest. I never speak to him, I don't even acknowledge his existence," he said cooly. It wasn't that he hated his brother, he just had a very strong dislike for him. He wasn't going to go out of his way and interact with the boy. The day that Kagome brought him as her prom date was priceless, they even exchanged words while Kagome was upstairs with Rin doing the little finishing touches to their makeup. They mostly consisted of "if you hurt her I will kill you" and "shut the fuck up, I'll do whatever I want with her". The only thing they agreed on was not to mention it to Kagome. There was no point in their eyes.



"When did you plan on telling me?"



"Seriously?" he replied.



She nodded.



"Never. In our dream world?"



She nodded again.



"At the wedding."



Even after dropping a bomb like that on her he still managed to make her heart beat painfully in her chest. She turned back around and leaned against him, relaxing into his arms and tucking her head underneath his chin. "You would seriously marry me?"



"If circumstances were different I would have married you the same week we met." He lifted her hand out of the heated water. "You are turning into a prune," he said before he kissed her fingertips one by one. "Let's go to bed."



"You never washed my back."



"We still have a full day for me to wash your back."



"Ok."



He stepped out of the bath first and then helped her out. Reaching back into the tub, he pulled the stopper out to drain it. When he stood back up she was already covered in a towel and had one open in her arms waiting for him. He took the towel from her and wrapped it around his waist.



Without a word he grabbed her hand and led her from the bathroom to the bedroom. With languid even strokes he brushed the towel over her skin, drying the little beads of water from the bath, then pulled her hair out of the bun letting it fall down her back.



He sat her on the bed before drying himself and sitting next to her, pulling her into an embrace. "Lay on your stomach," he said, moving away from her.



Kagome crawled up the bed and lay on her stomach just like he instructed. She wondered if he was going to do anything when she felt something cold on her back. "Hey!" she screeched, trying to get away from the cold sensation, when he placed his hands on her back to stop her from moving.



"Stay still." Slowly he began to massage the cold lotion into her back, working the muscles with practiced ease. "The project is getting to you again isn't it? You have a lot of knots."



"I'm afraid it won't be good enough," she confessed. "We have worked so hard but I don't think we've worked hard enough."



"Nonsense. Everything looks great so far, and you still have three more weeks to complete it. As your friends so kindly pointed out, you have two of the smartest girls in the school working with you. There is no way you will fail it, even if you do a half assed job." He started working on the knotted muscles in her shoulders, smoothing away all of the tension that had built there. "Relax and forget about projects. Forget about real life. Right now the only two people that exist in the world are you and me; the only place in the world is this room. Nothing else exists to me right now but you."



Kagome nearly melted at his words, along with the soothing effect his hands were having on the sore muscles of her back. The melt down was almost complete when she felt his lips along the back of her neck. She moaned slightly, taking his advice and forgetting about everything but him and the bedroom they were in.



Even though he was kissing her neck and successfully turning her on more than Inuyasha ever did, his hands never stopped working on her back. She was almost asleep when his hands stopped. "Hey," she groaned, but was quiet again when he flipped her over onto her back.



"Relaxed?" he asked.



She nodded. "Completely."



"How about we see if we can change that." Slowly, his hand made a path down her stomach and to one of his favorite spots. "I love how wet you get for me," he mumbled, moving his head down to her chest to capture a nipple and tease it with his teeth.



Her moans and gasps pushed him to give her more pleasure. Teasingly he slipped a finger into her, moving it in and out enough to make her cry for more of him. "Quit teasing me, Sesshoumaru," she said in a commanding tone.



"I don't know what you are talking about, darling." He pulled his finger out completely and added a second one.



She shook her head. "Oh, I have a feeling you know," she panted. "More, I want more of you."



His hand stilled, fingers still buried in her heat. "Do you now?" he asked playfully. When he looked into her eyes there was nothing playful there at all. "Tell me what you want, Kagome."



"I want you to make love to me," she whispered.



"Are you sure you want to give yourself to me?" he asked. The last thing he wanted was for her to regret what they were about to do.



She nodded. "You are the only person I want to give myself to."



He pulled his fingers out of her, quickly licking them clean, before he positioned himself between her open thighs. "Are you completely sure. If you aren't say so now because I don't think I will be able to stop myself once we start." He brushed a lock of hair away from her forehead.



"Completely sure," she said. "I always told myself I would wait until I found the man I love, and I'm done waiting."



He was nearly shocked into silence at her admission; she shared his feelings. Finally feeling complete for the first time in a long time he began to kiss her face, run his fingers through her hair, enjoy the feeling of her naked body against his own. "I love you too, Kagome." He positioned himself at her entrance, all the while keeping a close eye on her face for any sign of pain. Slowly he pushed into her, inch by inch to give her virgin body time to adjust to the intrusion. "I love you," he repeated once he was completely inside of her.



Kagome looked up at his face and saw nothing but love shining back down at her. She smiled and pulled him down for a slow heated kiss. She had always heard her mother talk about the look on her father's face as he told her he loved her; now she knew what she meant. He surrounded her, filled her. "I love you."



Keeping his movements slow and steady he began to move his hips, still looking for any sign of discomfort. "I've waited for this," he said, his breath coming out in light pants. "I've waited for the day that you would give yourself to me completely." He dropped his head to her shoulder and kissed the skin there.



She moved her hips in time with his, shocked at the lack of nasty pain that Kagura said came with losing one's virginity. She raked her nails over his back, surely leaving nice red welts. Battle scars he had once called them when she gave his shoulders the same treatment when he went down on her. "More," she moaned in his ear.



"I don't want to hurt you," he replied.



"You could never hurt me, Sesshoumaru."



Following her wishes he picked up the pace of his thrusts, grunting lightly in her ear with every movement. "Fuck, Kagome," he moaned.



Kagome wrapped her arms around Sesshoumaru's shoulders as he thrust into her. She had never felt so complete until now. Of course if anyone found out they would simply say it was teenage infatuation but deep down in her heart she knew she loved him, and when she heard those words from his mouth the light shining behind his eyes was unmistakable for any other emotion. "I love you," she repeated.



"I love you too," he grunted. His thrusts became wild and uneven. Before he knew what hit him and his whole body shuddered.



She felt his entire body quiver before collapsed on top of her. They lay in the sheets, a tangle of sweaty limbs. She kissed his forehead and rubbed his back lightly as he came down from his high.



"I'm so sorry," he said, picking his head up from her chest and looking into her eyes. "I didn't expect to end that quick. I disappointed you."



She laughed and shook her head. "You didn't disappoint me. Nothing you could ever do would disappoint me." She pulled him up for a kiss.



"Even though..."



She placed a finger on his lips. "Ssh. Weren't you the one who taught me that practice makes perfect?"



He laughed a bit. "I did, didn't I," he said with a smile. "Just give an old man a minute, I don't have as much stamina as I used to."



"There's no rush," she said, "we have the rest of the weekend."



"I would prefer the rest of our lives, but the weekend works too," he said.



Even though their first time was less than perfect, he made up for it. He made love to her in every position he could think of until the first rays of dawn peeked in through the blinds.



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When they finally woke up around ten they picked back up from where they left off at dawn. Finally she managed to talk him into letting her go to the kitchen to make something to eat, yet the moment she got there he surprised her again by throwing the dress she wore over her hips and taking her from behind right at the kitchen counter. They showered and once again ended up in the kitchen, Kagome cooking a late lunch and Sesshoumaru at the table reading the paper.



"Sesshoumaru?" she asked timidly.



He was confused. Kagome was never so quiet and timid when it came to talking to him. "What's the matter?" he asked. He stood from the table when she looked at him with a fearful look in her eyes. "What's wrong Kagome?"



"Uh...we..." she stammered.



"Kagome?" he questioned. He approached her form that stood at the counter, her hands gripped firmly on the corner like she was trying to hold herself up. "What's wrong?" he repeated. He pulled her away from the counter and into his arms, holding her against his chest.



"We forgot to use protection," she said, looking up at him.



He closed his eyes and pulled her even closer. "Fuck," he cursed quietly.



"Yeah," she whispered against his chest.



"I can't believe we didn't think about that."



They were silent for a moment, collecting their thoughts. Then he spoke up. "When was the last day of your period?"



She thought for a second. "Thursday."



"We should be fine then, but I will take you to the doctor if you want, just in case." He ran his fingers through her hair. He was scared, yes, but more for her than himself.



She shook her head. "What will we do if....if....I know I wouldn't be able to..."



"Shhh," he quieted her quivering voice. "I would never ask that of you and you know it. I wouldn't love you any less, there would just be one more little person there to love and care for."



She relaxed into his embrace even more. "You wouldn't hate me?"



"Never," he whispered into her hair. "And I wouldn't give a damn about what everyone thinks. The woman I love would be carrying my child, and that would make me the happiest man alive."



Suddenly the front door slammed open. "Dad! I'm home! Dad-" Rin walked into the kitchen to see her father with Kagome in his arms, whispering something to her. "Dad? What's wrong with Kagome?"



'Think fast, Sesshoumaru, think fast,' he thought to himself, but Kagome was already speaking.



"Inuyasha and Kikyo decided to come to the shrine. Kikyo never visits on her own. I think she just wanted to rub it in that she was with him now. I didn't know where else I could go." Kagome had tears in her eyes from her pervious conversation with Sesshoumaru and Rin seemed to buy her story because she dropped her suitcase and ran over to her friend.



"I can't believe those jerks would do that!" She pulled Kagome from Sesshoumaru and into her arms and pressed her head to her shoulder. "Let it out, hun, just let it all out."



To Sesshoumaru's surprise Kagome started to sob onto his daughter's shoulder, only he knew the real reason and wished it was he that was holding her. "Rin, why don't you take Kagome up to your room and I'll bring you some tea."