Unrequited Love

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the Inuyasha series of the characters with in them. Nor do I own any rights to the song ‘Get Stoned’ by Hinder.

Chapter 5

Inuyasha sat in the booth laughing with Miroku and the two hot babes he brought with him. This wasn’t exactly what he had in mind tonight but it would do until Kikyo showed up. At least he hoped she did. It had been over a month now since they started to see each other again but they still weren’t really together. Kikyo couldn’t seem to bring herself to leave Naraku completely and it made Inuyasha mad as hell. Then there was Kagome. His sweet little Kagome. He really didn’t have a right to call her his but in his heart he would always feel like she belonged to him. In a sense his feelings toward her weren’t any better then that guy Koga but at least he didn’t stop her from having a life. She could see who ever she wanted as long as it wasn’t in front of him. He couldn’t stand the way guys would ogle her sometimes. She was too good to be treated like a common slut.

Inuyasha smiled to himself thinking about it. That one guy, Josh, sure got a surprise when he showed up to pick her up from work that one night. Shippo had mentioned it to him but when he confronted Kagome, she made it sound like Josh was just infatuated. That was so like Kagome. She just couldn’t seem to see the bad in anyone and she wouldn’t want to bother him with her problems and would remain aloof most the time avoiding conversation with him. It hurt his feelings that she didn’t feel like she could come to him about it and Shippo had to be the one to point it out to him. After thinking about it, he should have been able to tell something was up. So he took it upon himself to watch over her and saw just how much of a bother the guy was. Kagome finally admitted Josh was being rather persistent about dating her but since then ol’ Josh didn’t even go into the shop. It was obvious the guy was an idiot. He almost fell over himself to get away from him when Kagome wrapped her soft arm around his waist. It had been a long time since she touched him like that. It felt really good. Sometimes of he thought about it hard enough he could almost feel her warmth. “Who the hell is this Inuyasha?” Kikyo’s angry voice cut through his hazy thoughts. He looked down at his watch which read almost 10 p.m. then up at her.

“The question should be, where the hell were you?” He said back making the others at the table start to laugh. Kikyo shifted her weight to one foot and crossed her arms over her chest as she glared at him.

“You know I had that dinner party to go to. I couldn’t just leave for no reason. It took some time to get away.” She insisted.

“Yeah its always something isn’t it?” Inuyasha hissed at her with narrowed eyes.

“I don’t know why I bother.” Kikyo threw her hands up in the air dramatically and turned to leave. Seeing her turn away twisted something in him. Inuyasha jumped from the booth and grabbed her hand pulling her back to him.

“Come on babe. Don’t be like this. We hardly get to see each other as it is.” He ran his knuckles down her cheek.

just here me out
If it’s not perfect I’ll perfect it till my heart explodes
I highly doubt
I can make it through another of your episodes

“I can’t take this for much longer. Every time you call you expect me to jump and run.” She said softly. Her dark eyes staring back into his golden irises.

“Why not? You love me don’t you?” He smiled arrogantly earning some more snickers from the table. Her dark eyes glanced over at the scantily dressed girls who were setting with him then back to him as anger built in her eyes. He almost didn’t catch her hand before it made contact with his face.

“You’ve changed Inuyasha. You’re nothing but an arrogant pig now.” Her face twisted in disgust as her eyes glared at him while trying to pull her arm free from his grasp. He sighed heavily knowing this was going to take some time. Slowly he pulled her away from the table with Miroku and the girls so they could talk more in private.

Lashing out
One of the petty moves you pull before you lose control
You wear me out

“I know.” He admitted softly in her ear. “Let’s go to my place and talk about it. I have something to drink there so we can relax.” He kissed her ear lob gently.

but it’s all right now
lets go home and get stoned
We could end up makin love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
cause the sex is so much better when you’re mad at me
You wear me out (we could end up making love instead of misery)

“Is that girl there?” Her eyes bore into his heatedly.

“Kagome? Yeah probably. She has work tomorrow so she won’t be out. But she won’t care she’s just a room mate. She’s sleeping by now anyway.” He eyed Kikyo with sultry eyes. She frowned and looked down at the dirty floor beneath her high healed feet.

“You told me you would ask her to move out. It makes me wonder if you really want her to leave.” She bit out snippily with out looking at him.

“So what you’re saying is you don’t trust me to have a girl for a room mate?” He looked her up and down feeling really tired all of a sudden. “You want me to kick her out just because you’re jealous? I’m not going to do that. Kagome is a good friend. What kind of person would that make me?” He bit his lip when she stiffened. He really needed to be more sobber before talking to her about this sort of thing.

“Maybe this whole thing is a mistake. Sounds like she is more important to you then I am.” Kikyo said too calmly. His own anger was beginning to raise from her stubbornness.

“Don’t say that. You know how much I love you.” He pulled her close hugging her tightly. “I’ll do what ever it takes for us to be together. I don’t want to loose you again.” He kissed her neck not seeing the smirk on her lips.

But its all right now
without a doubt
the break up is worth the making up sex you’ve givin me

“Lets go to my place and talk about it. Kagome won’t even bother us I swear. She respects my space.” He said not wanting to plead with her but damn he needed to hold her. “Nothing else matters. Just us.” He whispered feeling heated from holding her this close. It had been almost two weeks since they were together long enough to touch and hold each other.

let’s hash it out
cause your bitchin and your yellin don’t mean anything

“I can’t stay that long. I’m still married and my husband expects me at home soon.” She insisted.

“Just leave him. Give me a chance to show you that I can take care of you.” Inuyasha buried his face in the side of her head taking in the scent of her hair. It reminded him of cigar smoke and expensive perfumes. His nose wrinkled as he pulled away to keep from sneezing. A frown appeared on his handsome face hating those smells all over her.

“I can’t do that. I have obligations to my family. You can’t replace that.” She insisted coyly. He let out a breath he didn’t even know he was holding as pain began to fill his heart. It seemed he was never good enough.

don’t count me out’
I can handle all the baggage that you’re carrying
you wear me out

“Just give me a chance. Come home with me tonight and I’ll show you that you’re all I need and I’m all you need.” He pleaded this time feeling weak and useless.

but its all right now
lets go home and get stoned
we could end up makin love instead of misery

“I can’t, I have to go home to my husband.” She insisted as she pulled away from him. But before she got more then a few feet she turned to look at him. “You want me to come to you then get rid of that girl. That’s all I’m asking.” She looked him up and down coldly. Her eyes darted back to the two girls that were still setting with Miroku and she wrinkled her nose. Finally they settled on his again. “But perhaps she is more suited to you anyway.” Then she turned and walked quickly out the door. Inuyasha leaned heavily against the table behind him just staring at the door. This was so insane. How could she think that he would want someone else more then her? He didn’t even move when he felt a hand on his shoulder.

go home and get stoned
cause the sex is so much better when you’re mad at me
you wear me out (we could end up making love instead of misery)


“You look like you could use this.” Miroku shoved a shot of tequila in front of his face. Inuyasha took it without taking his eyes off the door silently hoping she would come back but it never happened. Feeling the depression fill him, he put it to his lips letting the nasty fluid slide past his tongue and throat not caring anymore about anything. Then he handed it back as the wheels started to travel down the same old road of self loathing that usually ended up with him in trouble. His only self defense had always been to shut out all feelings and that was exactly what he was going to do. Miroku unknowingly waved at the waitress as a signal to bring another. Shortly she arrived and placed two more shots on the table where they were. “You know,” Miroku said after the third shot. “Perhaps you should give her some space. She’ll come around I’m sure of it. Come back to the table and party with us. The night is young.” He said trying to get Inuyasha to snap out of his funk. Inuyasha turned and looked at him with a dry smile.

“Sure and in the mean time, I’ll just have some fun.” He snickered as he stood and wobbled toward the bar. Miroku’s face went pale knowing full well what he meant by ‘fun’. Quickly he walked after his friend to stop him from making trouble as he pulled his cell phone from his pocket and hit speed dial.

“That sounds like a solid plan my friend but you should get some rest tonight.” Miroku said hastily. “After all you have a busy day at the shop.” He added cheerfully while waiting for the party on the other end of his call to pick up but Inuyasha’s smirk only became darker.

“What ever but I want another drink first.” He insisted and turned back to the bartender who shook his head.

“Dude you’ve had enough. I can’t serve you anymore.” The bartender said sternly. Inuyasha glared at him.

“Like hell!” Inuyasha yelled and was ready to lunge over the bar but Miroku stopped him by grabbing his shoulder. Inuyasha turned and looked at him angrily ready to plant a fist in his face.

“What the hell do...” Was all he got before his blurry eyes settled on the phone being held out to him. He blinked confused but took it from Miroku’s hand placing it to his ear.

“Hello?” He asked curiously.
“Hey there.” A soft familiar female voice answered soothing his raging senses immediately. Her voice seemed to flow through him like a cool glass of water making his frazzled nerves calmer.

“Oh hey, Kagome.” He plopped down on the bar stool. “Why you callin? Something wrong?” He asked feeling worry cross his senses.

“Well not really but I just had this feeling I should talk to you.” She replied with worry of her own. “Umm..are you ok?” She asked timidly. He sighed heavily fighting the emotions that wanted to spill out. Just hearing her voice broke every wall he had constructed. He could feel himself crumbling.

“No.” Was his reply.

“You want me to come get you?” She asked with hope in her voice.

“Yeah. That would be good.” He mumbled dejectedly.

“Ok, I’ll be there soon. Just set tight and listen to Miroku be silly.” She giggled making him smile. He flipped the phone shut then handed it back to Miroku. His hazy eyes looked at his friend for a moment then he snorted.

but its alright now
lets go home and get stoned
we could end up making love instead of misery

“Thanks.” He said and allowed Miroku to coax him back over to their booth. He really didn’t know how long he sat there waiting. All he could think about now was Kagome. When he heard her voice he suddenly realized just how much he missed her. The last time they even spoke for any length of time was when that guy was hassling her at work. He needed to talk to her and hold her if she would let him. It had been a month since she left his bed and since then they hardly saw each other. He would still find his breakfast or supper waiting for him in the oven, his clothes were still being cleaned and the apartment stayed looking nice but he couldn’t even remember the last time he saw her with a smile on her face. It was more like there was some invisible maid living there instead of another human being. At times he thought she was avoiding him. The two girls in the booth began flirting with him interrupting his thoughts but he didn’t care about them. All he wanted was to see the only person who understood him walk through that door. When the door opened his eyes shot up to look upon the angel he was looking for. She smiled and walked over to the table gracefully.

“You ready to go home?” She asked sweetly. He nodded and stood with her help placing an arm over her shoulders.

go home and get stoned
cause the sex is so much better when you’re mad at me

“Hey who are you and where you taken’ my date?” The brunette who had been playing with his leg just moments before said. Kagome looked at her startled but didn’t have to say anything.

“She’s my guardian angel. Now have a good night. See you tomorrow Miro. Can you take my bike with you?” Inuyasha tossed his keys to Miroku then he leaned his head on Kagome’s heavily. “Take me home.” He whispered with a heavy sigh. She nodded and helped him outside to her small compact car.

go home and get stoned
we could end up making love instead of misery

The ride home was quiet. Even though she was curious why Miroku would call her about Inuyasha being too drunk to drive. Kagome figured that Inuyasha would tell her what happened when he was ready. When they arrived she helped him into his room and set him on his bed. She pulled his boots off then began to unbutton his shirt. His eyes followed her nimble fingers reminiscing how those same fingers used to caress him lovingly. It made his heart pinch knowing that she didn’t want him anymore. “We got anything to drink?” He asked suddenly making her look at him with those beautiful eyes of hers. She smiled and shook her head.

“I think you’ve had enough for tonight unless it’s water, pop or milk.” She pushed the shoulders of his shirt off and down his arms letting her fingers linger on the hard muscles of his biceps. She paused for a moment just staring at the muscles of his chest that showed through the wife beater he had on under the other shirt. “I...I was really worried when Miroku called me like that.” She looked up at him with worry in her eyes and something else he wasn’t sure if he wanted to see or not. “Are you going to tell me what happened?” She asked then finished taking his shirt off. He didn’t know if he should but in a way she did deserve to know.

“Maybe if you kiss me.” He said with a grin. She shook her head and smiled weakly.

“I don’t think that is a good idea.” She started to lean away from him but he caught her wrist and pulled her to him smoothly flipping them over on the bed. His golden eyes scanned her face as if searching for something then slowly he leaned close enough so that he could smell her. Her breath caught for a moment thinking he was going to kiss her but she released it when he didn’t. He smiled. She smelled fresh like a summer rain with the light scent of flowers.

“You always smell nice.” He nuzzled the side of her neck as he continued down to her breasts where he buried his face between them with a smile.

go home and get stoned
cause the sex is so much better when you’re mad at me
you wear me out
(we could end up makin love instead of misery)

“Inuyasha.” Kagome said his name holding back the pain that seeped from her heart from his action. “I can’t do this. It hurts too much ok?” She said feeling week and pathetic. He didn’t want her to love him. She could accept that but it was already to late. She couldn’t stop. She only hoped that over time the painful emotions would calm down to what he wanted. She could be a good friend if only she was able to stay near him. That wold be enough. But this sort of contact was painful for her knowing he didn’t want her the way she craved him.

“Please....just....just let me....hold you. I miss you so much.” His voice cracked brokenly. Now she knew something bad happened. Inuyasha was one of the strongest people she knew so for him to sound so broken meant something terrible had upset him. Tentatively she lifted her hand up and buried it into his soft silvery mane.

“Alright.” She bit back her own sob. Just hearing him say that made her heart flip but she couldn’t allow herself to even think he might care more for her then as a friend. She allowed him to lift her so they could shift onto the bed fully with him laying half over her, his nose still buried between her breasts. She could feel the warmth of his breath and a wetness she was pretty sure was tears. Sadness and self loathing filled her thinking that she might have caused this reaction from him. But then she berated herself. He didn’t care about her in that way, it must have been something Kikyo did. As calmly as she could, she continued to stroke his hair and let him hold her like he asked until he fell asleep.

but its all right now
(cause the sex is so much better when you’re mad at me)
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned