Breaking Hearts Only To Heal Them Later

Last Chappie:

I chose this moment to walk out. Miroku jumped to his feet and hugged me, I flinched. He felt it and shot a look to Inuyasha. He released me and sat back down. I looked around for the demon-slayer.

"She's gone, Kagome." Miroku said, his voice soft as if he's explaining this all to a small child. "In the battle. She died by his hand."

I was at a lose for words. One sweep and my best friend was gone. She had fought with more courage then anyone, including Inuyasha. I felt this sudden sadden take control of me, and I knew it wasn't going to go away for some time. I needed to get away from all this pain and suffering around me.

"I'm going home for a little." I declared aloud, stopping all conversations.

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Chappie five:

Inuyasha had said nothing to me as we walked slowly towards the well. I knew he was going to follow me all the way there, but I didn't know he was going to follow me threw the well. I stood on the other side, holding Koinu. He was asleep again..It seemed he sleeps a lot. I've no clue if it was normal, so I'm going to have to ask my mom. Inuyasha moved in front of me, and I jumped as a reaction. His eyes went to the floor, he was ashamed of himself..Good. I felt a tug at my heart. As much as I wanted the guilt to consume him, he was always there for me in the past. He always protected me, until the end at least.

He reached out his hand looking at Koinu. I moved forward and he wrapped his arm around my waist. I flinched at the contact and he stiffened. Without further notice he jumped out of the well and step me down on the well house floor. I looked around. My head began to swim with the possibilities of what was going to happen, and I realized he was there to take the punishment from my family. I felt a sudden hope that he would be able to redeem himself. I walked out of the well house and towards the home I haven't seen in eleven months. Tears began to fall as I walked closer. I had the urge to run in the front door and scream that I was home.

As I made the move to do so, my feet stayed in place. My dreams of my mother rejecting Koinu, of her sending me away from my home, of them gone...The possibilities seemed endless as I looked down at myself. I realized I was still in the skimpy grab and knew my mother would only be more upset to see me like this and with a child. I turned to face him, and I my breath hitched in my throat. He was standing behind me, a few paces away. His head was bend and his hair moved to cover his face. I seen the tears falling down to the ground though. His arms hung limply at his sides. I moved to close the distance and held out his sleeping child. His eyes shot up at me.

"Hold him. I have to go change, before my mom sees me." I said as a command.
"What if he wakes up?" He asked holding the Koinu as if he were glass.
"Hold him. I'll be right back." I said and walked away.

Quietly as I could I crept into the house and up to my room. My heart dropped when I opened the door. It wasn't empty. It wasn't full of things to take up the space. My baby brother Sota was asleep on my bed. He was wrapped in my blanket and I could feel the sadness in the room. Quickly I grabbed the first thing in my closet..It was a slinky black dress. I dropped the dress to the closet floor and reached in again. This time I pulled out a light baby pink sun dress. It was form fitting to how I was before and I frowned deeply. Giving up on the randomness I found my school uniform I hadn't worn in a long time.

Sliding back out of the room I went to the bathroom and changed. I walked back into my room and looked for my shoes. I found a pair and then went in search of socks. As I pulled a pair of white ones from my dresser I felt pressure around my waist and something quivered against me. Sobbing filled my ears. Tentivly I turned my head to see Sota holding me tightly. He was taller then I remembered so when I turned he came to my breasts. I put my arms around him and slid to the ground. He replaced his arms around my neck and all but choked me.

"So..Sota..I can't breath.." I said threw my own tears.
He pulled back and looked at me with big eyes, "Wher...where were you? Mom and...and I were...so worried.."
My heart broke into more pieces then I thought possible. I couldn't feel any hate at this moment, only sadness from my brother. "I'm sorry. Sota I'm sorry. I would have come home sooner, but there was something wrong after the battle." I couldn't tell him what had happened. He was to young to understand and I was not going to poison my brothers mind.
A shrilled screech echoed threw the quiet house and I wanted to kill Inuyasha at that moment. He had brought Koinu inside threw the front door. I released Sota who grabbed my hand as I started to walk down the hall. I was coming down the stairs and found my mom holding my baby. She looked older then I could have thought. She looked up at me and I noticed tears falling freely down her cheeks. She turned back to Inuyasha, he was crouched in the corner by the door. I realized he had told her and she must have freaked. He was in a fetal position as if she hit him...She had indeed, a red welt showed on his cheek when he looked up to see me and Sota. I looked at my mother and frowned. I knew she wouldn't take it well, but she was not going to strick him.

Releasing Sota's hand I walked over to him and he turned his head away from me again. I jumped when my mom spoke. "Get away from him, Kagome. I don't want him in this house, nor near you. The hanyou will go back to his time and stay there. You will never be going back there, understand. There is no reason to any longer and I will not have you being risked by the likes of him. Get your ass out of my house and out of my daughters life now, demon."
I growled at her without stopping my movements. "Inuyasha?"
"Go. It's better if I'm gone." He said in a low voice, a whimper behind it.
I stood and glared at my mom. Sota was holding my son looking down at him with a huge smile. It warmed my heart to see he was accepted by my brother, but looking back at the woman who birthed me my heart turned to ice. "Sota take Koinu upstairs, please."
"Alright." He said and walked up the stairs laughing to himself.
"I don't care what he did, mother, but you will not hit him. Regardless of everything, I love Inuyasha. He will be in my child’s live. I will not allow you to cast him aside. If you are going to stick with your choice, then there is no place here for me nor my child." I said looking her in the eyes.
"Kagome, you may not think this is serious, but it is. To the extreme. I will not have him in this house. He defiled you and yet you back to him like a love sick puppy. I will not allow you to run with him any longer. You are still my child and you are just that. You are only seventeen Kagome. You are still under my rule." She said equally as cold.

I turned away from her and crouched in front of Inuyasha. I took his hand in mine and forced him to his feet. I walked past my mom and up the stairs. She had made her choice and now it was time for me to make mine. Inuyasha walked behind me slowly. I pulled on his hand and forced him to move. He followed.

Walking into my room, I saw Sota sitting on the floor with Koinu cradled in his lap. Sota laughed as the child gripped his finger. I smiled slightly and grabbed a book bag out of my closet. I turned as my brother wouldn't be able to see what I was doing. I knew I wouldn't be able to keep the courage if he started to cry. I gathered clothing and shoved it into the bag. I walked to my dresser and grabbed my black wallet. I had enough money in my wallet to get some clothing for the child and to put a down payment on an apartment. I was always gone, but for holidays I received money from realities. I had money put away in the bank that my dad left me for collage...well that didn't look to be a possibility right now.

I sighed as I slung the bag over my shoulder. Walking over I held my hands out for my son and Sota complied, releasing the child to me. He noticed the bag and put a smile on his face. "How long are you going to be gone now?"
"I'm staying in this time. The three of us are..." I said as Sota pulled himself from the floor.
"I can't stay here Kagome!" Inuyasha protested looking right at me.
I winced at the welt. It was still bright red and looked painful. I reached out and touched his wound, my hand felt cold on his face. "You can. Inuyasha, you'll be fine. I wouldn't say it if i didn't mean it."
"No. I am not staying in this time Kagome. Either I stay in this house, and that's not going to happen ever, or I go back to my time. With or without you and Koinu." He said moving away from me.
'Perfect! He was returning to normal...Faster then I thought, but that's fine.' I thought as I looked at Sota. "Out."
"Fine." He grumbled and left, closing the door behind him.
"Inuyasha, you'd leave us?" I asked looking at him with soft eye
"Kagome," His voice soft as I sat on my bed, holding our child. "I can't stay here. I don't belong here."
"Well I don't belong there, do I? But I passed back and forth for a while." I said suddenly becoming defensive. Usually I would have started to cry, but I couldn't feel the tears. Anger surfaced before the sadness could.
"Damn it girl. You belong there. You've belonged there since you came. How else would you have been able to pass threw in the first place. If you want to stay here, fine. I'm not going to stop you. I'm going home though."

I placed Koinu down on the bed and glared at Inuyasha. I felt like crying and screaming at him. I didn't understand why I felt this way. I knew he wouldn't want to stay here, but I couldn't go back, not yet..

"Fine, baka. Go. I don't really care!" I yelled causing Koinu to start and begin to cry. I picked him up and rocked him. Looking up Inuyasha was gone, leaving the window open. "Bastard."

I left my home and decided I needed to get Ko clothes anyway. So with my son and little brother, we went to the mall. Entering a store that sold baby clothes, Sota was more then happy to help pick things out. Since I was staying home, I was going to return with no money left in my name. My son need things and I was going to provide him everything. We went to a furniture store and Sota picked out a crib he liked. I paid for it, and gave them my address for delivery.Then Sota began to claim he was hungry. I realized I need to eat too.

So at the food court I had my brother go find the food, have given him money he should have no problem. After eating only meat and berries, I wanted pizza and a coke. Before my brother could return I found myself surrounded by three girls and remembered it was Sunday..There was no school to keep people from seeing me. Eri, Yuka, and Ayumi had found me and sat down. Immedility began chatting away...Saying that I was in America for an operation of sorts...At least that would explain why I was gone for so long.

Then I head Ayumi cry out. "Gods Kagome, who's baby is this? He's so cute!!"
"Your mom didn't have another kid, did she?" Eri asked
"No," I said touching him. "He's mine.."
The endless questions began. I was releived when Sota came with our food. "Hey, I'm going to eat. I'll talk to you when I'm done."
"It was that over-protective boyfriend of yours huh?" Yuka said. "It's his child?"
"Yes." I said and began eating.

They stood and left. Sota took Ayumi's chair and began to eat. Afterwards we continued to shop. I spend so much money on new clothes for me and Sota, I felt bad for scaring him, and bought him a lot of stuff too. We also got a whole bunch of stuff for Koinu. Walking back to the parking lot of the car, I saw him at my mom's car, which I took to come here. I watched him as we walked closer. Opening the door, Sota set up the car seat and put the child in it, without saying a word. I opened the trunk and dropped the bags in. I was fuming and didn't want him to talk to me.

Inuyasha watched me, as he leaned against the car. His eyes moving from me to Koinu and back. "I'm sorry." He said gruffly.
"Just get in the car." I said as I opened the door.

On the way there I was like a basket case. We had no car seat and Sota had to hold him in the back seat. I would look in the rear view mirror every twenty seconds making sure he was alright. Now I didn't have to worry and drove off. I had gotten my license a while ago, on a time I came home. I was almost eighteen, which meant Inuyasha was close to being nineteen. Parking at home, I jumped out and stalked to the back of the car. Inuyasha was sitting in the passenger’s seat and he now took Koinu, allowing Sota to help me.

"I'm not staying, but Miroku made me come back to say that." He said looking at his son. He smiled as his spawn grabbed a chunk of his long white hair and pulled. "He's a strong little guy."
"Yeah he is...Takes after his Da." I said smirking, then walked in the house.

End chappie

I know. I know this chappie sucked!! forgive me!! But you got to see what they decided to do about Kagome's mommie...I hope my brain works better tomorrow...Only three days and I have 9 reviews!! Better then my other ffs...