Mistakes we made

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--- No way to turn around ----

He made a step against his will back. His breathing nearly stopped and his heart didn’t beat for a moment. All his alarm bells rings loud but nevertheless he made another step back, away from her until his back met the tree and he couldn’t go further away.
Her fingers dug in the dark-brown hair of the young man. His warm breath touches her skin like his hands. She let it happen, she let him do this. No more strength to stop him; she didn’t have the power anymore to stop anything. No more strength to fight for anything. She was so tired. She wanted to forget by any price. The price seemed too high, but it was too late now. She had done this to herself. That she lay here. Simply fallen and let the man have his way with her. Betray her own feelings, heart and soul. Everything in her cried for the Hanyou with the golden eyes, everything in her called loud to him. And she knew, he wouldn’t come for rescue and the last spark of hope was dying. She have lost the fight, she never could win from the beginning.
A fight against Kikyou....
Against Naraku...
Against the time.
A fight which she could tell the end from the beginning but…. nevertheless she followed her heart and everything she got was this.
It was unfair.
It was simply unfair!
Why was she only so stupid?
Why couldn’t she leave it alone?
Why had she fallen in love with him?
Why did have this night to come and why she had to lie here?
Rüjo pushed the strange object to the side and exposed her breasts. His fingers brushed roughly over the sensitive skin.
"You will bring me fun"
whispered the village boy before he locked his mouth against her warm skin. He groans against her and quietly and slowly opens his clothing. He couldn’t wait any longer, he must have her now. The village boy rubbed himself on her and her heart nearly stopped. Not much material separated Rüjo from his goal and didn’t notice that Kagome suffered under his hands. He didn’t see her tears running down her cheeks and dripped to the floor. He didn’t see she didn’t want this. He didn’t see that she love somebody with everything she had to give.
He didn’t see it... and he don’t want to see it.
Rüjos hand slipped slowly more deeply and pulled on her slip. Pulled a little more on it...
He stood on his feet and a hand was around his throat. The blood runs quickly trough the veins. And pull the boy higher in the air. Hiss eyes flickered in rage. He pushed the hand a little and the boy wriggles more. He heard that the boy get a problem with breathing and it pleased him. A growl rolled trough his throat.
"Ka.. mi"
stammered Rüjo when he saw the purple strips on the cheeks of the Demon and red eyes looked in rage at him.
"You.. kai"
stammered the village boy again and the Hanyou threw Rüjo roughly against the next tree. Inuyasha kneel beside Kagome. His blood rushes in his veins but he would never hurt Kagome in this state. He wouldn’t never able to hurt her on propose. The salty smell hurt his sensitive nose, when he wraps the young Miko in his red robe. Her whole body was flabby, her arms hung down and she didn’t hold on him, like she always do.
Inuyasha had put her into her sleeping bag and his eyes change back to golden. He touches with two fingers over his cheek, where the purple stripes were. He closed his eyes for a moment. Until know, he thought only his human side was in love with Kagome.
Only his human side of him…
But know… he knows better. His youkaiblood demanded for his mate.
The human mate Kagome….
His Youkaiblood decided she was worthy to be his mate. He hasn’t enough problems within his heart and soul. Weren’t it enough and now his blood having a word with him. He hates his instincts. Everything was screaming to her. How was he now able to keep her away from him and bring her back to her time, without a way back?
Would he be able to forget her in time?
He didn’t know, because he knows the answer. Hadn’t he lost against himself? Sure. But he couldn’t let himself win. No... No... He couldn’t but also he couldn’t let Kagome hurt herself. She should throw her anger at him. He has earned it…. nevertheless. But not one “Osuwari” slip from her rosé lips. The whole time, nothing. Not one bad word from her mouth. She was sad and words didn’t form. Words, he also couldn’t bring to say.
Her eyes were closed. But he knew she didn’t sleep. She couldn’t face him and know this. Her salty tears hurts further his nose and he sit still beside her. She felt his presence and against her will she wraps herself deeper in his red robe. His smell wrapped around her and calmed her. It makes her also… she didn’t know exactly. It wasn’t necessary anymore, it was just…. she was glad that Inuyasha rescued her from the hurtful situation. That he had brought her back to this hut and stay with her and don’t vanish with a trail of dust and run away from her. No, he sat still here with her. Perhaps she shouldn’t give up. Perhaps she should store a little inside… just maybe… maybe…

How much time had probably passed? He didn’t know it, but he sat surely for awhile here when his friends came back from the fest. Quietly they sat down.
"Inuyasha?"
Miroku asked the Hanyou who looked absent to Kagome.
"What had happened?"
Sango asked gently but Inuyasha rose from his seat.
"Inuyasha?"
the exterminator asked again. And his look said to them that it wasn’t something good and left the hut. The monk twitched with the shoulders and followed Inuyasha outside. Miroku looked around to find out to, where the Hanyou had run off. He ram slightly Sango, who stood out of nowhere behind him.
"Soul catchers”
and the monk followed her view and nodded slowly. It wasn’t good. It wasn’t good at all. The two looked at each other and nodded. The monk ran toward the soul catchers and Sango disappeared in the hut to get her boomerang. Sango only see the moving certain. Kagome followed Miroku and the soul catchers. Her first thought was –Let him be- but her legs betrayed her and run now as fast as she could towards her target. No matter how much pain it gives her heart. She couldn’t let Inuyashas life in Kikyous hands. He had to live! Even if it’s a one-sided love, Inuyasha must live and don’t give up his life for a stupid thing.
"Kikyou"
he said silently. Her hate-fulfilled eyes looked at him.
"Sleep a little"
she said when it runs through him like lightning and his world fade into black. He couldn’t see anything, not able to speak anymore, not move anymore but he heard the low wind, the rushes from the leaves and that his friend approached. That Kagome approaches. In his head he screams, they should leave, remain where there are at the moment. But no word escaped him and the unseen chains pulled firmly around him. The Miko from the future stared at Inuyasha unconscious form, bound to a big tree. Quickly her eyes fell in the dead Miko ones.
"Kikyou"
she murmured
"Hello Kagome"
said Kikyou filled with anger.
"I had hoped you would stay behind”
Kagomes face tell Kikyou that the girl have none sympathy for zombie Miko.
"You’re always between us. Always! Because of you… everything is different"
"Different?"
"Go... Go into your time! You don’t have the right to be here! Disappear from his life!"
"Don’t fear that I don’t go... because I’ll leave”
Inuyasha ears rang. Kikyou smiled at her for the very first time.
"Then disappear now..."
"No"
Kikyous eyes became larger
"No?"
"No!"
"Disappear... Otherwise..."
"Otherwise what? Try to kill me, like you always do?"
Inuyashas ears rang again.
"I believe, I have saved your life for Inuyashas sake two times too often
"Disappear! You do not have to be right here!"
"Like you! Your body is dead…”
Kikyou burst nearly the collar.
"I advise you: Disappear! Today Inuyasha will redeem his promise to me and you won’t stop it!”
Kagomes eyes looked at her sharply.
"He belonged to me, he wanted to live with me, his heart and his life is mine!!!"
she shouted to Miko from the future.
"You’re right. His heart belongs to you, but his life. His life belonged to nobody only to himself!!”
"I’m sorry that he loves me and not you”
a big fat lie from Kikyou and laughed. Kagome closed the eyes. The words hurt but she won’t give the victory to the dead Miko. No way! She would fight with her weapons and Kikyou would experience her own medicine.
"One question... You wanted always Inuyasha as a human, to live together. Do you actually know what he looks like as a human? Have you ever seen him in his human form? Had he even show you his human side, do you know when it happens? Had he ever told you things from his childhood or his parents? Was he ever nearly killed to protect you from harm? Has he ever said he needs you, cared for you, nurse you when you are ill or cried for you?”
Kikyou stared to her and couldn’t answer one question with yes.
"Probably not... Then I would say you love someone you don’t know..."
Kagome remarked. Kikyou shot one of her arrows and it landed directly to Kagomes feet.
"Be quiet!!"
she screams
“I won’t let you steal his life!”
Kagome shouted back.
"Disappear, disappear finally...."
"I won’t! Months ago I swore to myself that I won’t let him die, even when he loves you!”
"Haha!! And you mean when you help him to get out of his promise to me, he would love you?”
the dead Miko laughed in amusement.
"No... I want only that he live..."
and shot also an arrow directly to Kikyous feet. Inuyasha fight against the odd spell with everything he had. He knows now, Kikyou won’t hold back and would kill Kagome, without any feeling of regret. He knows now… he had heard it. This wouldn’t be the first time and probably not the last. Why didn’t he know about Kikyous attacks? But he could answer his own question. Kagomes loud cry of pain helped him to shake of the spell completely tore himself from the chains and landed roughly on his knees.
"How?"
Kikyou asked loud and saw that the Hanyou looked for the other Miko. She lay on the forest floor and doesn’t move. Slowly he crawled to her, when an arrow should hold him back. But he crawled steadfastly further to Kagome, too much energy was robbed from the spell and it hurt all over his body.
"Not further!!"
Kikyou cried and the Hanyou looked her into the eyes. His eyes said what she already assumed but didn’t want to see.
"You love her, you actually love her?"
Inuyasha turned his view away and continued to crawl. The next arrow touched his shoulder and the blood dripped to the earth. Slowly he stood up. A little shaken on his own legs.
"How could you... How could you?"
Inuyasha nevertheless said not one word and looked simply with pity, which Kikyou hardly bore.
"Then you will die!"
and let snap her arrow out of the chord.
"NO!!"
Kagome cried and jumped on Inuyasha to push him down. But the arrow eats himself through his shoulder. His eyes were closed and his breathing heavy. He tried hard to open his eyes. He only see a blurred vision of Kagome, he smell the salt. She was crying again and put a little smile on his lips with the thought –Sorry- but it never get over his lips. His eyes closed firmly and his breathing stropped for Kagome. Her hand pressed strong on his bleeding wound.
"Inuyasha, Inuyasha... remain with me"
she cried softly when she noticed a cold hand on her shoulder
"Go away from him"
"What?"
"I said to you: Go away from him!"
"No!"
Kagome cried. Kikyou pulled now on her and Kagomes grasp on Inuyasha went firmer.
"NO!"
she cried and a bright light surrounded the two Mikos. The dead clay woman wasn’t able to take her hand from the shoulder, when the pictures run through her head. It was everything she doesn’t wanted to see:
Like when Inuyasha fell down the cliff with the knowing he would die but was glad Kagome would live.
How he protect her again and again for harm.
How he protect her every time, without a second thought about himself.
How he was concerned about her wellbeing.
How he always smiled to her.
How he was always worried.
How he cry for her, for them
How he kissed her.
How he held her in his arms.
How he slept with her.
Kikyou landed roughly on her butt and saw how Kagome cry bitterly on Inuyashas chest. Now she understood her words from before. She understood why he liked, better... loved her. He likes her too, but in another way. He would always carry her in his heart but his love belonged to somebody else. Kikyou rose and the nearly invisible barrier vanished. Miroku and Sango stormed with Shippou and Kiara to the two friends.
"Kikyou"
said the monk, who collided earlier like Sango with the barrier
"I understand..."
Kikyou meant quiet.
"I understand… you are really not like me..."
and was carried away by her soul catchers into the darkness of the night...

Kagome had bandaged Inuyashas wound. His injury was bad, and one moment she believed he doesn’t breathe anymore. But he still was alive. Luckily! He was a Hanyou... and that saved his live. His youkaiblood won’t let him die so easily. But for now, she couldn’t do more for him and so they travel trough the night back to Kaedes. Kiara carried Inuyasha. They had hurried, since Kagome didn’t have the correct herbs and the village Miko couldn’t help them further. The old Miko Kaede nurses him correctly with the right herbs and sat down to Inuyashas friends outside.
“And?"
Sango asked
"We see in a few hours he it tough….”
she meant lightly depressed.
“A magic arrow… is nevertheless gone through his shoulder and that isn’t an everyday injury”
But apart from that, the old Miko fall everybody happy around the neck. This was the first time she had waited so long for her –Kids- come home.
"Baa-chan"
the young Miko said who fight for air.
"Everybody is ok?”
"Hai!"
said Kagome in a forced manner. Kaede noticed, she know Kagome well and know she was lying. But she won’t ask right now. Later would be better. She noticed the heavy air around the friends but Miroku reported from the lost fight against Naraku.
"Oh Kagome"
grumble Kaede distressed.
"Oh my child"
she grumble further.
"Kagome should go home"
said Miroku monotonous. Kaede stutter
"H... Home?"
Sango looked away.
"Because... Well... She doesn’t belong here... And there is nothing what holds her back, right?”
the monk asked. The words let Kagomes heart becomes heavier. But she didn’t even twitch with the lash. Kaede nodded sadly. She thought about the fact that Kagome was after all in love with Inuyasha…. and nevertheless… that Inuyasha has also fallen for her. But on the other hand, they are right. She didn’t belong to this time, but you are home where your heart is. Isn’t it right?
It was already late in the evening. Kagome sat outside Kaedes hut on the wooden bench. Sango, Shippou and Kiara slept already. Miroku still was on a walk. The curtain moved a little and Kaede stepped out of the hut to sit with Kagome.
"Baa-chan"
smiled the young woman. Kaede sat down without expression beside her.
"Oh my child"
she said sadly
"You will leave us? And Inuyasha? I mean, your heart is here and the fight against Naraku is only lost when we goes down"
Kagome nodded.
"What will you do?"
the old Miko asked
"You love him…”
Kagome stared into the distance
"In a few days I will go… You all are deep in my heart and it will bring me also pain. The pain would be large… but what should I do?”
"I don’t know”
Kaede said unhappy.

Kagome sat on the next day under a large tree. Sango had reported Kaede the more or less fight between Kagome and Inuyasha, and what he had said to her. The old Miko looked to Kagome in the distance.
"My poor child"
Sango looked sadly.
"I like to kill him"
hummed she in fury
"What he did… is… is”
"Worst is the word you search for… how he could do such a thing to her?”
Kaede brought the sentence to end. Sango nodded.
"However, I can’t believe that he isn’t in love with her. He had fallen for her… very hard…”
Sango shook the head. This is something she couldn’t believe anymore.
“But of the other side, I understand Inuyasha…”
"WHAT?!?!?"
Kaede nodded
"Could you ask someone who had already a life in another time to remain here? 500 years before her birth?"
Sango blinked
"Could you ask someone to die here, if you know elsewhere the person will live save?”
Sango lowered her head.
"I didn’t see that from that side..."

3 more days went into the country. Silence days in those Kagome won’t say a single word and Inuyasha didn’t awake from his unconsciousness. Days, she won’t cry any longer for him. Her tears are dry know. Although her heart, soul and whole body cries. The sun was setting slowly.
"So far he is well. I think maybe he wake up latest tomorrow, when his stomach don’t wake him earlier”
"’kay"
Kagome said and took her backpack into her hand.
"Don't you want to wait until he had waked up?"
She sucked the air deeply in
"No"
came from her softly and left the hut. She didn’t want really to say goodbye to her friends. And her friends accepted her way and her silent goodbye. She wanted to go home with the happy thought she would come tomorrow back. Without any tears and the separation pain.
In her memories her friend should smile and don’t cry. She doesn’t want to think about all the tears in Sangos and Shippous face. Kaedes and Mirokus sad eyes. She shook her head ran to the well, without a look back. She only looks straight ahead and her view falls into the dark whole of the well…