UnFaithful

A/N I just wanted to thank you all for your reviews. I hope you dig this chappie, I tried something different with this one. Enjoy!!:)

Sesshomaru! What was he doing here?....How did he....? InuTaishou must have been one hell of a youkai! InuYasha struggled to free himself of his brother’s grasp, he was no match for him, not as a human. He opened his eyes....they were brown was once again. He reached out to me the second he realized what he had done. I knew he didn’t mean it, I knew deep within my heart he would never raise his hands to me but.........I just shrieked out at him...I jumped as soon as he touched me. It didn’t make sense......all I could see was the bruises he left on me, my mind was spinning.
“Kagome.....I-“ He looked away, ashamed of letting his rage rule him. Sesshomaru slowly walked towards me. I backed away from him as well.....I couldn’t think straight and he knew it. I was curled up under the branches of the tree behind me......my body shook violently from sobbing so hard. I screamed as InuYasha moved towards me......he looked so hurt, so rejected. Sounds of Yumi and the others calling for me alerted Sesshomaru.
“We must be off now.”

“But I can’t-“

“InuYasha....we must leave. Do you not see she wants nothing to do with you?”

“Kagome.....Kagome are you.....” Yumi stopped short. The very sight of Sesshomaru silenced her. “What the......you must be his brother. “ She finally said. He glared at her.....before she knew it, he was gone, off into the night with InuYasha in his arms.

The sounds of my crying soon snapped her out of her daze. She knelt down to face me, knowing my mind was almost gone, she didn’t touch me.
“Kagome” She whispered. “Its okay now......lets go.”

I pleaded with Kimiko not to take me home, the last thing I wanted, was to explain these bruises to mom and grampa. I was lying on their bed, all kinds of thoughts rushing through my head......I thought I was going to explode. Yumi sat down next to me, running her fingers through my hair.
“Yeah....Yumi, I know it’s a wavy mess.” I said as I stretched.

“I was about to ask if....I mean.......did he, did he hit you?” Her eyes, so sympathetic.

“Oh...no, no.....InuYasha would never hit me. “ I sighed. “He was just so angry....so enraged. All he wanted was for me to say it and- and I just couldn’t.”

“Say what, Kagome?” Kimiko asked while tying up her dreads.

It was time. I knew if I did not say it then.....I would have never said it. I took a long breath before speaking. “That the baby was Koga’s.....I was carrying Koga’s child, I was late......a few months passed and I knew. I knew it when InuYasha and I made up.....I said nothing.”

“Kagome.” I know that whine of Yumi’s, her way of saying my actions were wrong. I hated when she did that shit! Even if she was right.....I wasn’t trying to hear it.

“Damn....that is a lot for him to take in!” Kimiko spat out. I shot her look...as if I didn’t deserve her remark, I was just ticked off because she was telling the truth.

Before Yumi said anything, I apologized. No need to get pissy with everyone because of the lies....the secret I chose to keep from the one person who told me everything, the one man who, to spite all his fears, all his bad experiences......loved me, trusted me with all he had. His brother warned him of treacherous, lying mortals.....all I’ve done was prove Sesshomaru right. As I sat there in silence, thoughts of what I feared most, entered my mind. Perhaps grampa was right......that this constant emotional tug of war InuYasha and I were locked in was proof that our relationship has run its course. My infidelity has opened flood gates that cannot be closed......no matter how much it hurts, I’m the cause of everything and I hate myself for it.
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My head was in a damn whirl......like one bad dream after the next, I didn’t know how much of this shit I could take. I swear on all the teachings of Buddha...I love Kagome with all I have ...dammit! I tried so hard....so hard to forget what she did, the way she betrayed me, it haunted me, still does sometimes. Of all the people she could have turned to.......why Koga, why him? Every time I closed my eyes, visions of them fuckin’ was all I saw......made my blood run cold. All I wanted was to take his life....for Koga to die. I had the taste of his blood in my mouth. If it wasn’t for Sesshomaru, he would have been dead. Nothin’ anyone has done to me hurt me the way she did, hell, not even that shit I went through with Kikyo.

Still.....there is no excuse for the way I treated her......I let my rage take over. When I’m in human form, all these emotions hit me like a ton of bricks, just comin’ at me .....all at once. It was bad enough she slept with him but to have carried his child.........what was worse is that she knew.....Kagome knew she was pregnant the whole damn time we were trying to rebuild our relationship. Thoughts of everything I did for her family, taking care of Sota flooded my mind. It killed me inside to watch such a young life slip away. Sota was like my little brother.....I never had anyone look up to me the way he did, not even Shippo. He made me promise to always take care of Kagome after he died.....I took that vow seriously. To have her violate me like this..... I was so pissed, all I saw was red, my blood ran hot all through my body.....it was like I knew what my rage could do, what I was capable of but I couldn’t stop. Cut right through me, the way she screamed at the very thought of me touching her.....the fear in her eyes. I started to think back, she didn’t even fear me when we first met. After all the adventures, after all the destruction caused at my hands......Kagome was never afraid, when the shit got its thickest, she was always at my side. Now, because of my intense anger, my burning rage..........my incapability to control it, she’ll never look at me in the same way.

Hours past as I walked around the forest, cursing these hands that put such fear in Kagome’s heart. All I wanted was for this night to end so I could be a hanyou again...it easier for me not to feel, well thats the lie I’ve been tellin’ myself ever since my mother died. Maybe Sesshomaru was right, that Kagome and I should have never been.....that she was a mistake I already made. How the hell could he be right if it hurts some much? There are times I can’t breathe without her.
I fought my tears as I paced back and fourth by the well, just as I was about to go to Kagome.....Sesshomaru appeared.
“I would not advise that InuYasha.” He said cooly.

“What am I supposed to do?”

“Let her be....how many times does she have to deceive you before you understand she is not for you?”

I didn’t answer him. There were no words to express the emotion I felt......I just wanted Kagome and I to be alright, like we once were. I sank down next to the well.....these damn emotions again! If this was what human is all about, I wanted no parts of it.........my heart longed for her, I started to think maybe I should just erase everything she did, just forget it all. I just wanted her back. My hair covered my face once I lost the fight with my tears, Sesshomaru sighed in what I thought was disapproval.
“Come with me little brother.....you’ll feel better in the morning”. His tone was soft, almost sympathetic. We walked in silence, I thought about how lucky Kagome was.....she had all her friends, her mother and grandfather. While I had my brother, he wasn’t one for affection, not one I could really seek advise about love from. Love.....I don’t think Sesshomaru can part his lips to say the word. I parted ways with him after he stopped to speak with one of his fellow InuYoukai acquaintances....I was in no mood to deal with their attitudes towards humans or hanyous.

‘Dammit....I wish this night would end already!’ I thought, while trying my hardest to punch a hole through a large tree. I almost forgot I was still in mortal form. I was losing control again, I continued punching the tree, unable to feel pain or realize the blood flowing from my fists.
“HEY!......What did that tree ever do to you?” Her voice was familiar. Where in the hell have I heard that voice? I decided to ignore her, I didn’t feel like bein’ bothered any damn way.

:”You’re going to hurt yourself.” She continued.

“PISS OFF!” I yelled back at her. I didn’t even look back.

“Hmm....same old hot-headed hanyou I see.”

I quickly turned around with fury in my eyes. I was human, how did she know? My eyes widened as I saw her. Her hair was long and wavy.....same silver tone as mine. She had a deep, olive skin tone........damn, where did I know her from? She smiled at me.... her light, violet eyes had such a warmth to them........her eyes.......it couldn’t be! She was so young the last time I saw her!
“Sh-.Shiori?”

“Thats what they call me.” She said smiling at me. She looks so, so grown up! Damn, I didn’t expect her to be so.......never mind, it was good to see her.

“Time has been good to you.” I wanted to kick my own ass for blurtin’ that out but what the hell....it was true. Shiori just laughed at me as she gave me a hug. She noticed my hands.

“You’re bleeding.”

“Its nothin’......I’ll heal come sun rise. “ I tried not to show any pain, I didn’t want to act all concerned. She quickly grabbed my hands, placing them into the pond near us. As she gently wrapped my hands with some fabric, I couldn’t help but think of Kagome....the way she fussed over me, took care of my wounds.

“There...all better. So, how is Kagome?” She asked. Her smile faded at the expression on my face.
“What, what did I say?”

“Nothin’.....its nothin’. Kagome and I , we’re.....we been goin’ through some changes.”

“Oh....changes huh?” She leaned against the tree behind her.

“Yeah.....changes.” That was all I could say. Shiori picked up on the fact I didn’t want to talk about it. She was cool, hell at least I wasn’t by myself. We talked a lot that night, she told me that her mother passed away a year ago, that she felt alone. I knew her pain more then anyone else, being alone....being a hanyou...all that shit. I did tell her of the fight I had with Kagome but I didn’t go into all the details.

“Sounds more serious then you’re letting on.”

“It is......I just, I can’t go into it now.”

“I understand.” She gave me yet another warm smile. I felt a little better. Sang would be cursin’ me out right about now. Miroku has been there for me since this shit happened but I ain’t willing to drive a wedge between him and the woman he loves. Finally....day break! As the sun rose over the mountains, my hair was silver once more, my eyes shut tightly as claws grew threw my skin, I unleashed a low growl as my fangs grew in........I was hanyou again. Shiori looked up at me, her eyes had a concern for me.
“InuYasha.”

“Yeah.”

“Is it.....does that hurt?”

I was taken back by that.....noone ever asked me that before. Perhaps she did because she is a hanyou and knows what its like. I sighed as I looked at my now clawed hands.
“Every time.” I answered as I placed my hands in my pockets......never did I admit that to anyone, not even to myself. I suddenly remembered, someone did ask me that.........Kagome.


I found myself walking Shiori back to her hut, wasn’t too far away. I was sitting outside when she handed me a cup of tea.
“You here by yourself?”

“Yes....its better this way. Especially after-“ She stopped her sentence. Looks like I wasn’t the only one going’ through something.

Damn....I picked up Sango’s scent a little too late. She was already close by, before I could leave, she noticed me. She said nothing, her glare was enough. Miroku followed her over to us. Shiori greeted her.
“I can’t believe it....Shiori, you’re all grown up.” Sango flashed a fake smile looking her up and down. Her issue was with me however.

“Why yes, you have indeed grown up.” Miroku added, with a mile-wide grin on his face. “Such a beautiful young lady.” He winked at her, ignoring Sango’s evil look.

“So, InuYasha....you spent the night here?” Miroku inquired.

“No....no, its nothing like that.” Shiori disliked the monk’s implications.

“Hmm.....well then, I guess you won’t mind if Kagome knows about it!” Sango blurted out, it was clear she was pissed at me. Her fists were slightly clinched. You know, I’ve always resented Sango’s way of coppin’ an attitude where Kagome and I were concerned.......she never could mind her damn business!

“Sango....lets not interfere.” Miroku pleaded with her, sensing tension between us. She tossed him yet another evil look.

“Kagome is my friend. I get tired of her being shit on by this idiot!”

“Sango, please!” Miroku whispered. Shiori had no clue what was goin’ on now.

“Miroku......do somethin’ with her!” I growled.

“What?!.....You know InuYasha......not everyone-“

“Piss off, Sango...learn to mind your fuckin’ business!” I was beyond ticked off.

“HEY.....Do not speak to her like that!” Miroku was sick of the both of us. At the time, it made my blood boil, why the hell was he takin’ up for her? He knew damn well she was loud and wrong! Lookin’ back on it, I can see why he defended her.

I leaped over towards Sango....Mirku jumped in front of her, guarding her. Got’ta hand to him, the monk had some heart, gettin’ in my face like that. Deep down, he knew I wouldn’t hit her.....I’d just shake her ass ‘til her damn teeth rattled. Still, he refused to move. All the while Sango kept runnin’ her mouth.

“Ya know what Sango.....I’m so sick of everyone blamin’ me for Kagome FUCKIN’ KOGA!” I must have lost my damn mind, putting Kagome out there.......I was breakin’ down. “I did my best to work through all that, then last night I find out she had an abortion......she terminated her pregnancy and had no intention of tellin’ me a damn thing. Ok.......ALRIGHT.....so don’t you ever stand in judgement of me you nosey, self-righteous bitch!” I stood there, my fists balled up, my ears twitching..........I didn’t mean to make Sango cry. I turned from Miroku’s glare. Shiori said nothing. All this shit I unleashed in front of her home and she wasn’t pissed....just shocked.

“I’m gonna just leave.” I slowly stepped away from the people I called my friends, unable to understand why I couldn’t just ignore Sango rants. She always sounded off on me......I guess it really hurt, it wasn’t my fault this time.

“InuYasha......wait!”
I payed Shiori no mind, didn’t want to end up sounding off at her. She finally caught up with me.

“InuYasha...I-I had no idea things were this bad.” Her voice was soft, understanding. “I know how you feel......believe me I do.”

“Shiori.....don’t, its nothin’ I won’t get over.” I said as I leaped from the tree branch.

“Oh really?.....well that performance of yours tells me different.” She answered in a “know it all” tone. Whether or not I wanted to admit it.......I was far from bein’ alright.

“So, how....how is it that you know how I feel anyway?” I changed the subject.

“Well, I was in love......it didn’t work out.” She answered quietly. “He was....he is an evil, treacherous man....youkai, whatever he is.”

“Hmph.....sounds familiar.”

“His evil is like no other.....the way he uses people as if they are toys, just for his amusement. I though he loved me......all he wanted was my power.” She paused. “When I refused to play his game....he-“ Shiori was in tears. “He tried to absorb me into his flesh”. I stopped short.......she couldn’t have loved who I thought.

“Shiori, what was his name?”

She took a long breath as if it pained her to say his name. Her eyes still teary, she finally told me.
“His name is Naraku”.


A/N: I know...it took me a minute...so anyone remember who Shiori is?? At any rate, I hope you all liked it.