By My Hands

~*~CHAPTER 5~*~SONATA IN D~*~

Kikyou woke up, still laying with Sesshoumaru. She looked over his pained face, feeling really guilty over what she had done. It almost felt like it wasn't real, that song with Inuyasha, and this is what she wished, for now she was a whore, who used her friends for her own gain. It made her feel like shit, she wanted to die right there, but staring at Sesshoumaru made her stay. And she only wished she could withstand the pain long enough to stay with him. He opened his eyes at the sound of her crying, and looked up at her worriedly.

"I'm so... sorry Sessh..." she whispered, the tears coming faster down her delicate face. He wiped her tears with his soft fingers, gently hushing her. She whimpered quietly while he kissed away every tear that stained her cheeks. "It's okay Kikyou. Because I love you."

"Sessh... what can I do... I didn't mean to... I want to make it right..." she sighed, bringing more tears to her eyes. 'What went wrong? Why did I do this? Why did I hurt myself like that?' she asked herself over and over again in her head. "Kikyou... you don't have to... I know... it's okay..." he kissed away the rest of her tears, letting his soft lips do the work. She wrapped her arms around his neck, letting him kiss her softly. Soon he moved up to kiss her lips, softly, gently her entered her mouth, letting his tongue caress hers. Comforting her, and making it all okay. If Kikyou wanted someone... it would be Sesshoumaru.

"...Kikyou..." he whispered, telling her the agenda for the evening, "...I want to love you..." he moaned. Kikyou smiled at last, as his warm breath hit the delcate skin behind her ear. She held around his neck tightly, waiting for him to start. He turned her over slowly, giving her a smile of passion that he had never shown before. Kikyou smiled back, and stroked his face. He shivered and started to loosen the edges of her underwear.

Feeling himself harden strongly, he took in her scent and it made him crazy, he was nearly dizzy with a haunting pleasure. "...Sessh..." she whispered, taking off the rest of his clothes. Running her hands down his chest and over the hardened spot beneath the fabric of his pants. She smiled to know that he wanted her deeply, and she lay down and let him continue. He nearly colapsed in desire, and could barely manage to kiss her.

'How wonderful is this? To be able to be forgiven? To be happy again, to have Sesshoumaru love me.' she thought. Their tongues danced and twirled to unlock the great passion behind the love making. Sesshoumaru knew he couldn't hold back for long, he slowly parted her legs and she shivered, from the pace, and the warmth from her koibito. He let his fingers traces the folds of her womanhood, and she moaned into his mouth, making his blood run hot.

He played with her, increasing her desires as well as his own. His member pulsed and throbbed hard, and his heart leapt. The many thoughts running through his head, and he pushed his finger into her slick entrance, she gasped, breaking their kiss to look at him. "...Sesshoumaru... don't waste time..." she breathed, and he smiled as he replaced his finger with his erection.

Kikyou gasped when his flesh was joined with her, and she arched into him and they both collapsed to the bed. Sesshoumaru remained unmoving, kissing the hollow of Kikyous neck to ease her mood. She sighed and then he knew she was ready, he started a slow smooth rythym. Kikyou's breath came in short gasps, and though she knew how he loved her, she was never quite ready for him. But she loved him as well, and would never let him go. She was so glad to be forgiven, to be happy. And she would eventually forget about Inuyasha.

"Faster Sesshoumaru..." she moaned, and he didn't take one more sweet second to listen. He kissed her gently, passionatley, letting his tongue caress the inside of her mouth, the sweet flavor of her was simply heavan. He didn't even notice the tears forming benath his eyelids, shutting his eyes tightly to sqeeze the drops from his golden eyes. The tears ran down to his mouth and Kikyou could taste the salty warmth. She stopped his kiss for a moment and gazed up at him with worry.

"What's wrong Sessh?" her eyes deepening to reveal her own worry. He smiled, and through his tears could speak his love, "I just can't belive I still have you... and I can make you forget... just by loving you..." he whispered, "Aishiteru Kikyou..." and he kissed her again, restarting the smooth soft rythym inside of her tight walls. And the barrier that held their passion was broken, and the feelings of ecstacy washed over.

Sesshoumaru went faster, and felt himself coming to power, Kikyou's chest moved rapidly with each of his powerful thrusts. He leaned down and took her nipple between his teeth, setting a torturous pace with his tongue. Sessh swirling his tongue over her breast, slowly moved his head to the other one.

Kikyou bit his ear hard as she came to her climax, Sesshoumaru didn't mind the pain, it drove him to go faster. He was kissing her mouth again now, his ear had a slight sting from her teeth, but he just figured that it would go away. And it did, as he came to his own powerful orgasm. Lights flashed in front of his eyes and he collapsed on Kikyou who held him against her chest tightly.

"I love you Sessh..." she panted, her chest making his head move up and down slowly. Sesshoumaru took a minute to rest before releasing her hands from his neck. He stared down at her, and she back at him. Kikyou could tell that he had something on his mind. She raised an eyebrow to silently question him. "Sessh?"

"Kikyou... I think... we should get married." he said, smiling. He kissed her passionately, he already knew the answer as soon as she had kissed him back.*

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Things returned to normal, and Kikyou could finally forgive herself. Sesshoumaru was always the one who had made her forget, the one who healed her. As usual he gave her a bowl of mint ice-cream mixed with oreo's. Her favorite. But then he got a taste of the cold chocolate, she kissed him at a moment he hadn't expected and ended up with the taste of wintergreen in his mouth.

They went back to their normal lives, nither ever got angry with each other, except for the fun pillow fights and petty competitions. There were walways smiled, and good times to be had, except lately there had been a strange air around their neighborhood. Kikyou couldn't go anywhere without feeling like someone was watching her, but she just assumed that it was Sesshoumaru looking out for her.

But one night, Kikyou was walking out in the park alone. She had wanted to get some fresh air after Sesshoumaru had gone to work. The air was brisk and the autumn months had begun to sink in. Kikyou drew her sweatshirt up over her neck and continued to walk beneath the light pink sakura trees, begginning to let loose thei petals. They landed in her hair and stuck to her face, and it made her look like she was caught in a light snow storm.

She walked beside the roads and slowly she became aware that there was a car behind her, it drove along slowly, seeming to be waiting for her next move. She stopped walking, and listened. She heard the engine rumble, but the tires remained still. Then she started walking again, she heard another engine rumble and then the brakes squeaked when they were released, and the tires began to crush the pebbles in the road. Kikyou took a glance behind her and noticed that it wasn't Sesshoumaru, it was not the farmiliar black sport SUV. Its was a strange black car, it was smaller and dark, she couldn't see through the windows.

But she saw the outlines of the driver, he had a bright face with dark eyes and dark hair, his features were strong and beautiful, and she recognized him then, she turned and quickened her pace, afraid of what HE might have to say. If this was true, then it may be an intervention. But what did HE* want? She ran and then heard the car speed up behind her, she ran into the back alleys and tried to lose him in the maze of run-down streets.

Her plan was succesful and she watched him give up, watching him speed off from behind a wall. She retied the laces on her sneakers and then ran home as fast as she could. She saw her car in the driveway and then went inside, she came to Sesshoumaru's worried face, and he could already sense that she was afraid. "Kikyou? My koshii what's wrong?" he breathed, coming closer and holding her shoulders. She panted and organized her thoughts. "It was... someone... following me... I... didn't see his face but... he's gone now." she breathed, forcing a smile.

Sesshoumaru however was not buying, he had been on his share of stake-outs. He was still a military man and knew the behind the scenes secrets that most couldn't imagine. "...I suppose that's why we haven't heard anything from InuYasha. He wouldn't want to draw attention to himself..." came half of his thoughts. "Sessh? Are you saying that... InuYasha is stalking me?" Sesshoumaru realized that he haid said that out loud and looked back into her eyes. "Well I hate to... but yes, Kikyou you can't possibly understand what a man will do to have the one he loves."

Sesshoumaru smiled and hugged her tightly, "Don't worry, he wouldn't hurt you. He just wants to stay close..." Sesshoumaru drew away from hugging her and let his face come close to hers, "... like me." he finished just as he placed his lips over hers. "Sessh... what's on your mind?" she asked, feeling a slightly different feeling in the way he had kissed her. "Kikyou, I've been called back to headquarters. They need me for another mission. And... they want to meet you." he smiled. It became contagious, and Kikyou smiled as well, "I get to pay my respects? And get to know... your friends?" she asked hopefully. Sesshoumaru nodded and kissed her again, this time it was just as loving and warm as always.

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Kikyou had packed a small bag, she had made some lunch for the brass* and made some sweets from the petty officers.* But something weighed on her mind, she was still being pulled to InuYasha, something in this history was binding her to him, and even though she tried to get away he just kept returning to her mind. He was so powerful, so kind, and so... incerdible. He had made her feel just like it was when Sesshoumaru loved her, only... dare she admit it... better. InuYasha had barely known her, and he had still managed to unlock her secrets.

She had to see him, atleast to say goodbye, for good. Maybe someday they would chance to meet. But for now she just wanted to be with Sesshoumaru. While Sessh was at work Kikyou dressed quickly in a white tank-top and black baggy jeans, she had taken on a rather street punk style and loved it. Pulling on one of Sesshoumaru's colorful ties and lacing up her shoes she stepped outside and walked towards the "Oboko Katachi."

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* She said "yes"
* InuYasha
* Upper-class officers in the army or navy.
* Lower-class soldiers, grenadeers or privateers. (mainly in the navy)

Okay then... in the next chapter... Kikyou says goodbye to InuYasha and then she goes to visit the army headquarters... but the mission gets serious and there's nothing Kikyou can do to keep Sesshoumaru from going... so she is left at home... alone... will the depression seep back in? Will her emotions fail her? Or had InuYasha still not forgotten? I leave it to your imaginations for now... xx Akira Kikyou Kanawa xx

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