Blood Stained

 

 

Blood Stained

Chapter 41: Final Destination

 

“We do not have to leave.”

 

Kagome raised her head and looked in direction of Sesshomaru.  They had already been packing their bags for the last 15 minutes.  They only had one location left, one last shard to find.  She was a little surprise by his suggestion.  Why would he want to stay in Australia, especially considering the fact that Kouga was here and from what she had seen so far, they did not get along well.

 

“Why?” she inquired, before resuming her packing.

 

Sesshomaru glanced her way.  “We have not stayed here very long, compared to India.  Since we can not rid the world of the jewel even if we find the last shard, I thought perhaps you’d like to do some sight seeing.”

 

She shook her head.  “Not in this condition.”

 

The best way to do sight seeing, in her opinion was to walk, but she had no desire to stand hours on her feet, especially since she was trying to conserve her energy the best she could.  They still had much to face and she would need every bit of energy.  Plus, meeting Kouga again might be awkward.  She knew they had left each other on good term, but right now, she didn’t want to stir up any problems there might be with staying.  The best thing to do was to resume their travels right away.

 

Sesshomaru nodded, before zipping his bag closed.  He was aware that their relationship was still a little tense and strange, but he also knew that traveling across the world was something she had never done before.  He thought perhaps she had wanted to take up the opportunity now, since she did not seem as tense in his presence lately.

 

To him, it mattered very little since he had already seen the world many times. 

 

“What is the next destination?” she asked, before sitting down on the bed.

 

“Brazil,” he quickly answered before picking up his bag and heading towards her.

 

Sesshomaru took her bag and carried it as he made his way outside of the room.  Kagome glanced around the room one last time, before forcing herself on her feet.  As if her feet killing her wasn’t enough, her back was also adding up to the mix lately.  At that point, she had pretty much decided that being pregnant and doing a lot of moving around was not the best idea.  There was nothing she desired more than to lay down for a few days, in her own room.

 

She followed behind Sesshomaru as they headed out of the hotel.  They got into a limousine, which she had been so familiar with since they had been traveling.  But, the choice of car surprised her.  There were many luxury cars he could have demanded that wouldn’t attract attention as much as this one did.   Since she had known him in her era, Sesshomaru had seemed like someone who was just trying to blend in with the humans.

 

Why the attention grabbing limousine?

 

She was brought out of her thoughts when Sesshomaru handed her a bottle of water.  She nodded her head and took it from him, before drinking a few sips.  Kagome allowed herself to relax and she rested her head against the seat.

 

“Are you well?” he asked when he watched her close her eyes. 

 

Kagome softly nodded. 

 

It wasn’t anything out of the ordinary.  She felt a little tired and a little bit of pain.  It was nothing out of the ordinary, especially for a pregnant woman.  She simply needed a little more rest.  Though, she was sometimes getting over 10 hours a day.  But, she blamed it on all of the emotional trouble she was having these past few weeks. 

 

Sesshomaru watched her and though he did believe she thought she was well, he thought something was off.  She had less patience.  As if, she allowed herself to give up, or not put up with certain situations.  She looked exhausted.  But most nights, he did not sleep and he knew for a fact she was getting all the sleep she could.  She mostly always awoke by herself, not because she had to.  He was probably looking too much into this, but nothing that happened to her while she was pregnant was re-assuring.

 

Another problem coming along wouldn’t surprise him at this point.

 

At least, they only had two more trips left, one if they took out this one.  Then she’d be back home with her family and she’d probably be safer.  However, she still had to figure out where she wanted to give birth, since she could not do it in a hospital.  It would be easy for him to provide her with the proper people to help her with the hanyou birthing.  He’d propose the idea to her when the time would be right.  He had little doubts that she would have any opposition to it.

 

The only question was, where would he be when the pup would be born?  Maybe she’d allow him to be in the same house as her, but he didn’t know if her family would.  Frankly, he could not blame them.  After what she had been put through, the last thing her family probably wanted was to have him around to further harm her.

 

Although he wanted to see the pup, he would allow Kagome to go at her own pace.  This would not be a difficult situation in any way.  But, at least he knew she was okay with the idea of him being in the pup’s life.  He was aware that the decision must have been difficult for her to make, but once again, she had put the pup’s well being before her own.

 

She would be a good mother.

 

Now the only question left was, what kind of father would he be?

 

He had raised Rin, but in his own way.  He had taught her how to survive even on her own.  Yes, he would have always been there to watch over, but he had wanted her to be independent, not like so many humans who waited for others. 

 

But this would be different.

 

To raise his pup, from the moment he was born, in a completely different world.  Sesshomaru had adapted, but it didn’t mean he enjoyed this new world.  Now, he would have to learn to be a father.  To her, it seemed to come naturally.  She had it in her to be a great mother, even to those who weren’t hers.  He lacked the same ability.  Mostly because it was not something commonly done in his family.

 

In youkai packs, some of them were, but not in his clan.  His father might have been a little more, but his mother was not.  She was the one who had raised him when he was still young and she always had the same façade on.  He had barely ever seen an expression upon her face.  He had grown up to be the same.  Thriving to be stronger, to prove his own worth.  Especially after his father had given up his own life.  In order to save the hanyou, instead of remaining by the side of his one true heir. 

 

Sesshomaru should have been able to prove that he was stronger than his father.  But that possibility had been taken away from him.  For a long time he had felt rage, but now, it was gone.  Perhaps it was because so many years had past.  He had been able to mature.  Or maybe it was because he had been able to prove his strength.  He had also managed to survive when many hadn’t.  And even in his human form, people still feared and respected him.  At least those who knew him did.

 

And he had managed to make himself a successful life as a human.

 

Everything should have been fine, he should be feeling satisfied.

 

But of course, his past was present and could not be ignored, nor could he ever forget what he had done.  He might learn to live with the guilt one day, but it would always be there.

 

A sigh almost escaped him, but he stopped himself. 

 

He didn’t show many emotions in front of her and he intended on keeping it that way.  Though, he barely showed emotions at all.  But, he wanted to keep his mask especially around her, because she needed a certain stability.  Granted she did not enjoy his company the best, but he had to be reliable just in case. 

 

Everything in her life was upside down, he knew the best thing in those situations was to have an element of consistency.  Out of all the roles he could play, he chose to take that one up as well.

 

Bringing himself out of his thoughts, he glanced her way. 

 

Her eyes were still closed, she looked like she was either resting or deep in her thoughts.  He made a mental note not to disturb her.  His eyes trailed down to her stomach and his eyes narrowed.

 

He still worried.

 

-B-

 

Dizziness.

 

Kagome was trying to focus but it was hard.

 

They were currently in the plane, on their way to Brazil and unlike the previous times traveling, she did not feel comfortable.  Her head was bothering her, she felt sweaty and nervous.  Also, it didn’t help that she was having intense nausea.  She did not understand why this was happening.  Nothing unusual had happened during the day so far.  She had breakfast like usual, she had drank enough water, had plenty of sleep.

 

So why didn’t she feel well?

 

Kagome couldn’t help the panic that was rising inside of her, but she was trying to hide it.  No reason to make a big deal over this.  It was probably nothing.  Maybe it was the height they were traveling at, or maybe she had not digested her food well. 

 

To help keep her mask on, her eyes were tightly shut, but it was hard to keep her fingers from twitching. 

 

Sesshomaru though had yet to notice.  Or perhaps he had but he wasn’t saying anything yet, which was strange because he always did. 

 

Then, all of a sudden, she felt a presence near her, her eyes flashed open.  She found herself staring at a bag of chips.  She then tilted her head to the side and saw a flight attendant smiling at her. 

 

“Are you hungry?”

 

Kagome couldn’t understand what she was saying, but she could assume what it was.  Since she couldn’t speak English, she shook her head to answer.  The woman nodded before focusing her attention on Sesshomaru.  Immediately, she bent a little more before flashing him a smile, asking if there was anything she could do for him.  Sesshomaru felt his annoyance grow, as he put down his book. 

 

Humans could be so shameless. 

 

Granted the Miko and him were not together, but to the outside eyes, he was pretty sure they looked like a couple, who was expecting a child.  Yet, this flight attendant was foolishly attempting to flirt with him.

 

Had they no respect for bonds and relationships?

 

“I wish for you to leave.”

 

While the flight attendant was somewhat surprised, Kagome couldn’t help but sense that it was weird to hear him speak English.  She had never really heard him speak any other language before.  The woman backed away slightly before offering a weak nod, as she walked away from him. 

 

Sesshomaru picked up his book, before turning his head to look at the Miko.  Her eyes were on him, but it was not the detail he noticed first.  Was she sweating?  He could see the sweat drops on her forehead.  The temperature in the plane was not high, it was actually quite cool.  He frowned slightly before looking away.  Kagome did the same when she realized she had been staring.

 

“You are not feeling well.”  This time, it was not a question, but rather a statement.

 

He would not let her tell him it was nothing, or that she was fine.  There was no reason for her to hide her illness from him. 

 

Kagome’s eyes flickered to the floor, before she took a deep breath.  “I just feel a little hot.”



“You were not feeling well when we left.”

 

Unconsciously, his eyes traveled to her bulging stomach.  There was no way this was because of the pup.  It was too early, even for a youkai pup to be born.  She was not in labor.  But what if she was?  This could not be good.  They were on the plane, with nowhere to land.  She couldn’t possibly give birth to a youkai or a hanyou in a plane full of people.  He didn’t even want to think about what would happen!

 

Sesshomaru decided that the best thing to do was to not tell her for now.  Since she was already feeling ill, there was not reason to add to her current state of mind.  If he saw more signs, then he would inform her, until then, he’d keep that information to himself.

 

Kagome licked her dry lips before closing her eyes; it was much easier that way.  When she couldn’t see, she didn’t have to focus and it hurt her head a lot less.  The best thing to do was to perhaps try to catch some sleep while they traveled.  Most likely, she would feel a lot better when she’d wake up.  A sigh escaped her lips, before she rested her head and closed her eyes.

 

Sesshomaru watched her concerned, his book hanging in his hand.  If only they were still in the feudal era, it would have been much easier to get access to some information and some youkais.  In this modern world, the only way almost to reach the knowledgeable one, was to go to them.  They hide in caves and whatnot, shielding themselves away from the changing human world.

 

Perhaps once they reached their next destination, he would be able to do some research.  He couldn’t constantly leave her in that state.  He himself could probably find out a lot about the pup by forming a bond, but for that he needed his youki.

 

The problem was, he wouldn’t be in control once that happened, meaning he might just never get the information he was looking for.  It was too risky for her. True the beast had not tried to harm her the past two times… but still he could not be trusted.

 

So, the only thing he hoped for was that everything was well.

 

-B-

 

Kagome couldn’t help but frown when she felt someone shaking her.  It took her a few seconds to open her eyes, but when she finally did she found herself staring at Sesshomaru.  She was confused for a moment, but quickly realized that the plane wasn’t moving anymore.  Had they arrived already?  Had she really slept through the whole flight?  It didn’t take her too long to figure out that she was not feeling any better.

 

Actually it felt worse. 

 

She swallowed hard, before trying to get up, which was what she assumed Sesshomaru wanted from her.  He backed away slightly, waiting for her in the aisle.  As Kagome tried to get up and make it to her feet, something unexpected happened.  Before she could stop herself, she fell forward, all she could do was try to hold on to him to prevent herself from crashing forward.  As soon as it happened, his arms were semi around her waist, the employees still on board of the plane, rushed to her side.

 

Sesshomaru quickly explained to them that she had been having some nausea, that she was fine.  He didn’t want to many people around her, suffocating her.  One of the men proposed to help him carry her to the car, but he refused.

 

As Kagome managed to regain her balance with his help, he put an arm around her waist, to offer her some stability.  Her face was flustered, as she held on to him, trying not to make a scene.  She had already attracted more attention than she wanted. 

 

Understanding why she was being fine with the whole thing, he began to move and helped her outside of the plane.  He could feel her fingers holding on tightly to the fabric of his shirt, pulling on it.  Her breathing was shallow and fast, as they finally arrived outside of the plane.  He spotted the car, gestured for the driver to get closer.  He waited with the Miko near the plane and once the car pulled over, he helped her inside.

 

Kagome found relief in the thought of sitting down again. 

 

It was not until she was fully awake that she realized that what she was experiencing right now was familiar.  She had felt like this before, back in the Feudal Era.  That was when she began to feel extremely worried.  She still didn’t know what had caused the pain from back then and now it was back?  Right away, Kagome knew Kiyoshi might be in pain.

 

She wrapped protective arms around her stomach as if she was attempting to shield him.  Kagome struggled to keep her eyes open, as she bared the pain going through her body.  She was trying to ignore the way the bumps on the road were making her nausea worse.  Kagome took deep breaths trying to keep herself under control.  She was completely oblivious to Sesshomaru who was watching her intensely.

 

His instincts inside of him were screaming at him to do something, but he knew there was nothing he could do to help her.  The one thing that might was not safe.

 

All he could do was watch, as she suffered and struggled. 

 

Then, Sesshomaru had an idea.  Though he did not have his aura, he was pretty sure that the pup was familiar with his presence.  Perhaps he could try to re-assure the pup?

 

He knew that this pain had to be coming from the pup, but he also knew it wasn’t because of the bond.  It was something else.  He hoped dearly it wasn’t because she was in labor.  Sesshomaru moved over to where she was sitting, causing Kagome to open her eyes.  He lifted his arms and looked into her eyes, silently making a request. She weakly nodded and he inhaled deeply.

 

Slowly, Sesshomaru put his hands on her stomach and began to slowly caress it.  Kagome did not even flinch under his touch.  Instead, she tilted her head to the side, hoping for some kind of relief of her current state.  To put it simply, this pregnancy had been extremely difficult.  There was always pain, always trouble.  Not that she didn’t think her son was worth it, it was simply that Kagome was very exhausted.  They had to find a way to stop some of the problems or she wouldn’t make it through two more months.

 

She took deep breaths as Sesshomaru kept moving his hands around her stomach.  Kagome crisped her fingers as she felt another wave of pain hit her.  It had been somewhat sudden.  Although, she had felt weird this morning, it hadn’t been so bad.  It was true that she had felt the situation worsen in the plane, but she never thought it would have turned out to be so bad in the end. 

 

Why now?  If she had known things would have turned out like this, she would have remained in Australia a little longer.  At least, she wouldn’t have gone through all the traveling which might have made the situation worse.  Sesshomaru frowned slightly as he noticed there was no change in her pain.  Which meant, he was powerless to really do anything much to be able to help her.  Not like this.  He couldn’t communicate to his pup without his youki.

 

It would be too dangerous, it was a reckless idea.  He sighed heavily before looking up at her face.  As if on queue, she opened her grey eyes and stared at him intensively. 

 

She could tell he wanted to say something, but he was holding back.  “What is it?” she asked, trying to focus properly.

 

“It would not be safe.”

 

Kagome understood immediately.  “You – you want to release him.”

 

He nodded. 

 

Of course, she felt herself slightly tense up at his suggestion, but she still allowed herself to think it through.  The beast was horrible, but he did care in his own twisted way.  He should be able to tell what was wrong.  Maybe her son was in distress again.  If it was the case, maybe there was something that could be done about it.

 

But what if he decided not to?

 

What if he didn’t pay any attention to the pup and instead, he focused himself on her.  It had been a long time since she had to really worry about that and she wasn’t sure she wanted to.

 

But could she bear the pain for so long?

 

Being with the beast represented so many dangers, it was such a difficult decision to make, especially considering the fact that most of her bad memories were associated with the beast himself.  Yes, she was working on moving on, but that was a big chunk.  How could she forget what he did, when he refused to let go?  Sesshomaru wasn’t pressuring her into anything, since he didn’t want to be with her, but it was different with the beast.

 

He wanted her to be his.

 

He wanted her body, her mind and her heart.  He wanted everything she could not give him.  Could she really be able to face him, watch as he tried to regain her again?  What if he used force like the previous times?  After all, when he raped her, he watched her scream in out in pain, he still claimed he loved her.  That meant there was no end to what he could do just to obtain some sort of contact with her. 

 

In her current state, she was even more vulnerable.  She really couldn’t defend herself while pregnant and weak.  He would be able to do anything to her.

 

So the question was, could she put her life into the hands of the beast?

 

Kagome felt as if she was being pulled in two different directions.  She had done so many things for the sake of her son, she’d do it over and over again if she had to.  So shouldn’t that include the beast as well?

 

What if he could fix everything, what if Kiyoshi could stop suffering because of her?

 

Kagome felt tears threatening to fall, before she slowly nodded.  “I – I thh-think we should.”

 

No one was more surprised than Sesshomaru to hear her say that.  For a second he wondered if the fever had gotten to her.  Though all the previous times had not been bad, the beast never had a full fifteen minutes.

 

And this time, the Miko would be at his mercy.  She could do nothing to defend herself and Sesshomaru doubted Kiyoshi would protect her against him.  He was seeking a bond with his father so he would not harm him.

 

“Are you sure Miko?  Do you understand what this means?”

 

Kagome softly nodded.  “If he can stop this, stop the pain for Kiyoshi as well…” She had to pause.  “Then, I think it’s worth it.”

 

He wished he could have the same kind of faith as her, but he didn’t.  Sesshomaru sighed heavily before deciding if he should do it.  Yes, she was asking for it, but did he want to?  He had done enough to her, if something happened, he wouldn’t forgive himself.

 

But what if something happened now?  Wouldn’t it be the same?  Watching, not doing anything, was it worse?

 

Unsure, he still agreed.  “We will wait until we arrive at the hotel.”

 

Kagome found herself slightly shaking as she bit on her bottom lip, praying she hadn’t made the wrong decision.

 

The ten minutes that separated them from the hotel seemed to last forever, but finally the hotel came in sight and Kagome found herself holding her breath.  She still had the time to change her mind.  But she didn’t want to.

 

Actually she did, but she knew she had to try.

 

If he attempted to try anything, she could perhaps try to distract him.  Fifteen minutes was not forever.  Maybe there was a way around it.  At least, she hoped there was. 

 

Sesshomaru helped her out of the car, but when he came to slide his arm around her waist to help her walk, she rejected the gesture.

 

“I’ll be okay.  Yo- You can go ahead.”

 

Sesshomaru gave her a long stare, before nodding.  He grabbed both of their luggage before heading inside.  He couldn’t help but look back at her, but Kagome didn’t gaze his way. 

 

She took a grip on the car, before slowly moving.  Perhaps she wanted to prove to herself that she could at least get upstairs on her own.  In the plane, she had been very disoriented, mostly because she had just woken up.

 

Although her current state was not the best, it was better. 

 

Once Sesshomaru had the key for their room, he waited for her to take the elevator. Obviously, he wouldn’t leave her downstairs all by herself.  He waited for a few minutes, until she finally reached the door.

 

It took her a few more seconds before she was beside him.  Once she reached his side, he pressed the button for the elevator and the doors opened a few seconds later.  He guided her inside, before pressing the button number 2. 

 

To his relief, the elevator was empty, so they didn’t have to deal with other people.

 

Against his will, he found himself staring down at his watch, the dreadful button looking back at him.  Could he find it in him to press it?  It would be like putting her right on the path of danger. 

 

Moments later, they reached their floor, he helped her out. 

 

Every step they took in the direction of the room, Kagome felt her heart beat increase.  It was pounding in her chest, almost causing an ache, but she tried to push it aside.  This had to be the right thing to do.

 

This would have been so much easier if she could have made the beast understand.

 

She didn’t want his care, or his love, but she wished he could see the wrong of his ways.  She would probably always feel a fear towards him in her heart, but if at least he felt regrets.

 

Sesshomaru slid the key into the door and opened it.  He found himself feeling quite annoyed, as he dropped their bags in the room, while Kagome walked in.  He needed to make sure she knew what she was asking for.

 

“Miko, are you sure?  It will be fifteen minutes.”

 

She nodded.  “I know.  I’m ww-willing to take the risk.”

 

She needed to focus on her inner strength and shield herself from what happened in the past.  If she could not focus herself on what he did to her, then maybe she could pull through this in one piece.

 

Sesshomaru ran his fingers through his short hair, before nodding.  “Very well.”

 

He would do his best to perhaps try to gain control if things were getting out of hand, but he could not promise anything.  He still didn’t understand very well how it worked.

 

The watch was staring at him, as he raised his hand and pressed the button.

 

Kagome held in her breath.

 

She glanced at him as the familiar sight took place in front of her.  Slowly, he transformed himself in front of her very eyes and she couldn’t help the feeling inside of her.  It was as if someone was twisting her guts. 

 

Her face felt hotter than before and she imagined it was because she was nervous.  Sweat drops were sliding down her back, while she licked her lips. 

 

Only a few more moments and she would be looking into his red eyes. 

 

And it happened. 

 

He looked up at her, Kagome realized she couldn’t make out his expression.  His eyes were slightly narrowed, but he had a mask on.  The kind of façade she had only ever seen Sesshomaru have.

 

The beast slowly walked in her direction, her breathing became sharp and shallow.  He closed the distance between them more and more, only stopping when he was right in front of her.

 

Then, he suddenly dropped to his knees, making them almost eye level.  He was intensely watching her face, before finally moving his hands.  He put them on her hips, before approaching his face to her neck. 

 

She felt him nuzzle her neck and she stiffened. 

 

His mouth was extremely close to her ear, she could feel his breath on her skin.  “You are in pain,” he stated, feeling her warm skin.

 

As soon as his aura had radiated through, he had felt her suffering.  He also didn’t fail to notice how she had not feared nor been scared that he was there.  Had she wished for him? 

 

At the thought, he found himself growling.  Did his mate need him?  Did she realize it now?  The thought pleased him immensely and he found himself running his clawed fingers through her hair. 

 

Kagome swallowed hard.  She was doing this for a good reason and she had to remind herself of that.  “Is Kiyoshi alright?”

 

He pressed a gentle kiss against her ear, taking in her scent, which he had dearly missed.  He trailed his lips along the skin of her neck, before softly shaking his head. 

 

“The pup is not well.”

 

Kagome felt as if her heart was caught in her throat when he said that.  So all this pain she was having, it was coming from her son?  She couldn’t help but think that it was only fair that she shared his suffering.

 

“What’s wrong with him?”  she asked, her voice shaking.

 

Tears were burning her eyes, but she was holding them back.

 

Sesshomaru moved his hand to her stomach and once again, a familiar white glow began to surround it.  After a few seconds, he found himself frowning.  This was a little difficult, especially since the pup wasn’t familiar with him, he only had Sesshomaru to blame for that.

 

He narrowed his eyes, before pulling away from her so he could concentrate himself better on the matter at hand.  He moved his other hand away from her hair, so he could rest it on her stomach as well.

 

There was a weird aura about the pup.  It was not normal, neither was it one he could recognize.  It could easily be blamed on the fact that the pup was developing and that since he was half human and half youkai, the aura had not completely formed yet.

 

But that in no way explained the pain the pup was experiencing?  His pain was so great that his mate was feeling it as well, in a very intense manner.  This was not right.

 

He was torn apart at the moment.  He wanted his mate, he wanted to hold her and touch her, especially since she was not complaining when he was so close to her, but his pup was in pain.  She was in pain.

 

He couldn’t allow that.

 

There might be something he could do to ease some of the pain.  Sesshomaru raised his head and pressed his cheek against her heated one. 

 

“Lay down, Mate.”

 

Kagome felt her heart hammering in her chest, but she slowly nodded.  She was going to trust him, no matter how much it hurt to do that and believed that what he was doing right now was for the pup.

 

Shaking slightly, she laid down on her back on the bed.  She tried to keep her body under control, but it was difficult.  Then she felt it.  He grabbed the hem of her red shirt and lifted it up.  But he didn’t lift it up the whole way, he stopped mid-way to her bra.

 

She couldn’t help but gulp slightly. 

 

His cold hands touched her warm stomach, he roamed them over her gently.  She found herself shaking a little more, but with much strength, she managed to keep it to a minimum.

 

Her skin felt soft, and he could remember what it was like to have her naked body against his.  She was so small, sweet, and soft.  She was perfect from him and he didn’t want to let her go.

 

So many things had been neglected.  Her, the pup and the mating bond.  He could feel it nagging at him, as it weakened with every passing second.  She was suffering, the pup was suffering.

 

This situation was not good.  If only she could allow him to love her, he would be able to take all that pain away.  Why wouldn’t she let him?

 

As he felt the stickiness of her skin under his fingers, he was reminded of what he was trying to do.  He would attempt to control the pup’s aura.  Perhaps if he could over power it with his own, he’d be able to take away most of the pain.

 

His large hands covered her bulging stomach, this time the glow around his hands was green. 

 

Suddenly, Kagome found herself gasping.  Her whole body was being enveloped in a rough and harsh aura, she quickly found herself reacting to it.  Her own aura, out of her control, emerged from her body and the green and pink were slowly clashing.

 

The beast knew that for a little while her pain would increase, but that was because she had no control over her powers.  Until he vanquished her aura, he would not be able to move onward.

 

Afterwards, she would feel better.

 

Burning.  Her whole body was on fire, she found herself squirming under his touch to try to escape him.  Of course, he was pressing quite hard down on her and the power of his aura was keeping her down.

 

Quickly enough, it was as if a dark purple fume was filling in the room.

 

A few minutes later, Kagome’s aura was dying out, since it was being pushed back inside by Sesshomaru’s more powerful aura.  It burnt her skin, it created a tingle inside of her and she could not stop it.

 

She began breathing out heavily, as she felt herself giving in.  She was getting weaker by the second and her eyes were slowly closing.  Sesshomaru gave it one last final push and he broke in.

 

The light surrounding her changed color.  All of a sudden, it was back to being white and this time, it brought her no pain.  Instead, it brought her a soothing feeling.  It also shielded her from the battle happening within her stomach. 

 

Sesshomaru was roughly struggling against the pup.  It wasn’t that he couldn’t over power his aura, but unlike with his mate, he had to be careful.  The pup was not fully developed yet and this could be harmful.

 

Kagome was fighting to keep her eyes open, the warmth surrounding her making it extremely difficult.  She wanted to give in, to rest, especially considering how exhausted she was, but she fought.

 

She wouldn’t fall asleep with him so close to her. 

 

Sesshomaru added a little more power, then he felt it.  He could feel his own aura around the pup, he could feel all of his power.  It was also then that he noticed a detail that was out of the ordinary. 

 

The pup was very well developed, perhaps too much for a hanyou.  But as he controlled the pup’s aura he could feel the mix, meaning that the pup could not be hanyou could he?  It should be normal for the pup to have human blood, because of his mother.

 

Nonetheless, he kept trying to calm the pup and the clash in his aura.  After a few minutes, he felt a difference and slowly, he retracted himself.  As he backed away from her, he checked up on Kagome’s aura, only to notice that it was better.

 

It didn’t feel as if she was in a bad struggle anymore. 

 

Although, once he glanced her way, he noticed her eyes were closed, but he knew, by her breathing rate, that she was not sleeping.  It was most likely that using so much of her powers, which was unusual for her, drained her energy and she was most likely fighting to stay awake.

 

Sesshomaru gazed upon her face, he knew she looked as beautiful as she ever did.  Actually, with her stomach swollen with his son, she looked even more breath taking. 

 

Ever since he had last taken her, she had remained completely untouched.  Her hormone filled body had been neglected completely.  Sesshomaru had apparently been refusing to lay a hand on her, even if she allowed him close to her.

 

That did not please the beast.

 

His mate should receive more attention.

 

That was when he decided to change his position.  He placed himself on top of her, but with his arms, he made sure their bodies were not touching.  He didn’t want to put his weight on her stomach.

 

His hands were on each side of her head. He found himself lowering his head down and then he pressed his forehead against her.  He could still feel the sweat on her skin and how warm it was. 

 

His eyes flickered down to her lips.  They were almost pouting, they were extremely dry, caused by the intense heat wave she had felt.  He wanted to moisten them, he wanted to lick her lips. 

 

Once again, Sesshomaru lowered his lips and pressed them against her.  He felt their roughness and slowly he took his tongue out of his mouth and lapped her bottom lip with his tongue.

 

Tasting her caused him to growl deeply.  He had missed this, he had missed her.  Once again, he attacked her lips and of course she was non responsive, he found himself wondering if she was indeed asleep after all.

 

Then it happened.  His control slipped away from him.  He knew too well what was happening, since it was the third time already.  But he was not ready to leave her.  He pressed his lips harder against hers.

 

He was growling against them, as it felt like he was being pulled away from the inside.  His clawed fingers were retracting, he was losing control bit by bit.  His grip on the sheets grew and they became tangled.

 

Before he could do anything, his red eyes became green, his silver locks turned to ebony.  But his lips were still tightly pressed against hers, her bottom lip stuck in between his lips.

 

His lips moved against her a few more seconds, before he gently pulled away.  His forehead was pressed against hers once more, before he began panting.

 

Her lips were swollen and red, as he licked his own. 

 

He had kissed her.  He had been in control and yet he had finished the kiss.

 

He made it to his knees, and backed away from her, before running his fingers through his hair.  He needed to get away from her.

 

Sesshomaru left the bed and headed for the chair near him.  He plopped down into it, his eyes still widely open.  As he past his hand over his lips, he found that he could still taste her lips on his.

 

What had he just done?

 

-B-