Of Gold and Adamant

My Silent Pain

I hide the truth from all I see
A pain so strong that within me bleeds
Keeping things deep inside of me
I don’t wish to burden those with my needs
Still it lingers like a dagger cutting deep
Hiding like a needle in a haystack of pins
So silently I will continue to weep
Keeping to myself, my own and others sins


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Sesshoumaru looked at his very pregnant wife in concern. Inuyasha was very tired all the time and this pregnancy seemed a bit harder than the first. Perhaps bringing the boys early was not such a great idea.

Inuyasha sighed in his sleep cuddling against his beloved mate. He was dreaming that they were playing with the pups outside. A life where his pups stayed with him, never grew up and didn’t go away to be with others. That part frightened him more than anything and some nights he would have nightmares about his children being taken from him too soon. Today though the dream was good and Sesshoumaru was being so patient.
Sesshoumaru was really a good mate and Father putting up with Inuyasha’s wild moments of flying off the handle over nothing.

Yesterday Inuyasha lost his fan and swore that someone took it. He blamed and interrogated everyone while ordering food since he had to have noodles or he was going to die. If he died that would be Sesshoumaru fault so Sesshoumaru had to get him noodles and of course he accused Sesshoumaru of stealing his fan all because he found it. It was on the table in the atrium, but because he knew where it was Sesshoumaru was at fault for tricking him into thinking it was in their bedroom. Of course this was no ordinary fan, but his favorite so it was complete drama for hours. Inuyasha bawled and then finally tired from all his emotional stress he fell asleep on Sesshoumaru’s lap in the study.

Sesshoumaru got used to his wife’s temper tantrums and the strange mood swings. What he couldn’t get over was the weird food and he definitely had a hard time watching Inuyasha eat it. Pickled radishes wrapped with rice, seaweed, doused with sugar. Then there were the noodles with shrimp, eggs, and peaches?

The worst thing had occurred to Sesshoumaru since Inuyasha’s first pregnancy was Inuyasha taking his hard work from hunting and cooking it rather than eating it raw after his demon went out of its way to skin it then talking his demon into eating cooked meat. Sesshoumaru thought that day would never occur. He thrived off of raw delicious bloody meat and Inuyasha was damn near domesticating him.

As they pulled up to the castle Sesshoumaru carried his tired mate out of the carriage and told the boys to follow the silver falcon demon servant to their rooms.

Shippo noticed that the silver falcon was around his and Choukichi’s age.

“Hey, what is your name?”

Shippo asked the pretty boy.

The young falcon demon was surprised that one of these boy’s rank would bother to talk to him. Most kids his age would not lower themselves to ask a servant what their name was considering it was irrelevant unless they needed something from that particular servant. Sven was his name and he was from the cold lands of one of the large continents.

“My Lord, my name is Sven.”

Sven bowed low to the two boys.

“No need to bow and shit. Just need a name. When the big guys are around act stupid like that but otherwise we are all good. I am friends with lots of servants at my Father’s castle.”

Choukichi stated.

“This Sire is not your castle. It is the castle of the Great and Powerful Inu No Tashio Lord Sesshoumaru, the greatest of all Inu demons. It is my great honor to serve him whom is the savior of many demons, who has the power of life and death……….”

Shippo frowned at Sven.

“You got hit in the head too many times didn’t you? Sesshoumaru ain’t all that without Inuyasha.”

Sven smiled widely.

“Ah yes, our Great Lord’s mate is of course………….”

Choukichi cut him off with a wave shaking his head at the falcon.

“Shippo don’t get him started. Servants will go on forever about how great their masters are even if they are bastards. Of course the Tashio’s ain’t bastards, but believe me I know some real bastard Lords and what one says on the outside don’t mean that is how they feel.”

Sven was flustered. These young Lords were………strange. Was this not the same Shippo who fought valiantly with his Lord and the one who was going to mate the lovely young Princess Fuu the favorite of his Great Lord?

“Ya he has been hit on his head once too many times. I bet Inuyasha did it to him too.”

Shippo stated with a shrug.

“Ok so lead us to our rooms and we will teach you how to act normal around us since you can’t be all formal with us or we will have to beat you up.”

Sven’s eyes went wide.

“You…….would beat me?”

Sven dropped to his knees and sobbed.

“What have I done to deserve such? I am only doing my duty to try to please you. I beg of you, show me how I may do so…….”

Shippo pulled at the kid.

“Will you get your ass up? You are way too high strung…..man……..come on……..get up……”

Choukichi was on the ground laughing his ass off. Suddenly Sesshoumaru showed up to see what was taking the boy’s so long. Smirking a little he could see they were picking on his servants. Typical boys and poor Sven having to deal with the two hooligans.

“Sven get up and cease your emotional outburst.”

Sesshoumaru stated firmly. Then he gave Shippo and Choukichi a stern glance.

“I assume you have a good reason you are both not in your rooms preparing for lunch?”

Shippo looked at Choukichi and elbowed him. It was his fault they might not get lunch. Choukichi spoke up.

“We were just trying to get to know Sven Lord Sesshoumaru. We were trying to make friends.”

Sesshoumaru then looked at Sven.

“Ah………I see. You will be friends with these boys Sven since this is why I ordered you to take care of their needs. Why are you creating a ruckus?”

Sven was confused, but then nodded to his Lord bowing.

“My Lord I will not fail you again.”

“Hn….we shall see….”

Sesshoumaru stated. With that he nodded for them to continue on and left although he eves dropped a bit on their conversation finding them to be amusing. Perhaps this would be good for them all and will keep Inuyasha happy.

“See I told you we would get in trouble you jerk. You are not supposed to be so damn friendly with the help at this place. Sesshoumaru will strangle you if you aren’t careful.”

Shippo stated recalling the many times he had strangled Inuyasha.

“Why do you speak so informally of the Lord and Lady?”

Sven asked politely as he bid them to follow.

“Because Shippo here was practically raised by Inuyasha and of course Sesshoumaru was a big jerk to them back then although he had changed after a while right Shippo?”

Shippo nodded.

“Sesshoumaru saved my otter demon friend’s Father and he saved us even though he won’t say he did. He also tried to kill us a few times, but that was a long time ago.”

Sven shook his head not believing his Great Lord would do terrible things.

“I don’t believe the Great Inu No Tashio Lord Sesshoumaru would try to kill anyone. You would be dead if he was going to kill you or Lady Inuyasha. Lord Sesshoumaru’s power is greater than even his Father.”

Shippo thought about that.

“You know Sven, that is true. If Sesshoumaru wanted to kill us he would have. Still he and Inuyasha didn’t like each other very much at first. Now they love each other. I am happy for them both. I wish that I could stay with Inuyasha again. I miss the old pack a lot.”

Shippo looked a bit sad. Sven smiled widely.

“Well maybe if you show great respect and promise Lord and Lady Tashio would let you stay here.”

Sven liked Shippo right away, he wasn’t sure of Choukichi who laughed at him, but Shippo was one of his heroes.

“Don’t sweat it kid, like I said. If Uncle Hideharu thinks he can keep you and lie about not beating you anymore………”

Shippo scowled at Choukichi to shut up in front of Sven.

“You are beaten my Lord?”

Sven looked so sad. It was terrible. A tear came down his face from this and Shippo moaned in frustration.

“That is just great Choukichi. Now why don’t you just tell everyone? I made a promise and Uncle Hideharu deserves a second chance. I was going to tell Inuyasha, but forget it now. Why can’t you shut up sometimes?”

Shippo stormed past them both and ran off.

Sesshoumaru overheard it and took off after Shippo. He would get to the bottom of this.