UnFaithful

I felt so horrible.......like a murderer. Feelings of guilt captured my heart....leaving me to feel like I just took the easy way out of everything. No matter how many times Yumi told me that it had to be done, these emotions refused to leave me alone. I cried until I had no tears left, she and my mom were hovering over me all day....Yumi even spent the night. I could have dealt with pain, it was the emotional stress.......especially after everything I’d been through lately. I tossed and turned....all I could hear was that doctor. I shut my eyes.....all I envisioned was the cold, sterile white room.
“Yumi......Yumi, are you awake?” I whispered. She turned to me as she yawned, her curly hair was all over her head.

“Now I am......whats on your mind?”

“Its just that.....I-I can’t sleep.” I pulled the covers closer to me.

“Oh, Kagome.....I know it hurts. Trust me on this, you did what was best.”

I whimpered as I sat up.....I didn’t expect it to hurt like this. “You think I should have told him before I-“

“No, Kagome I don’t. Its like Mrs. Hirgirashi and I both said, things would have gotten way too crazy.......a colossal mess.”

“I know, I know........just didn’t want to.....god, if I could do it all over again....” I couldn’t even finish my sentence.

“Hmm......I guess Koga wasn’t worth all the drama.” She concluded softly as she gave my hand a squeeze. I shook my head, unable the part my lips to answer her.

Yumi was the only one outside of my family that knew about InuYasha and those in his era. I had no choice but to tell her.....lets just say she caught us in a compromising position. She wasn’t the least bit freaked out nor did she give me shit about loving a him. That is one of the things I love about her, so open minded.....but hey, I was there when she came out to everyone. She told me if she can love another female, I can surly be in love with a hanyou from the feudal era.
“Yumi, what about InuYasha.....should I tell him?” I asked in a whisper, afraid she would tell me that I should.

“Now that, is up to you. I mean, you two are at a very delicate time in your relationship, then again, if he finds out through someone else...it might sever what little trust he has in you....for good.” She then sat up, gently placing her arm around me. “Whatever your decision, know that I’m here for you.....Oh, Kagome, please, don’t cry.”

I broke down again. My body shook as falling tears burned my eyes. I cried for the many, unforgivable sins I committed........for the innocent life I had to end. All I could hear, was my whispers of a thousand apologies I made, attempting to drown out those relentless sounds......that horrible sound innocence being sucked from my body. The only comfort was the squeeze of Yumi’s hand.....I was so glad to get out of that room, past that damn receptionist, looking at me as though I was some kind of whore. The nerve of her....judgmental wench! I bet she had no clue what I or any of those other young girls were going though......its hard enough already, damn her and everyone else that passes such harsh views on people! If I wasn’t so hurt....so weak, I would had reached across that desk and ripped her fucking face off!

Yumi just held me as I cried, her silence spoke louder then any words she could have used.
“Oh......Yumi....I-I just feel so empty. I didn’t want to do it but I- I just....” I couldn’t catch my breath between my sobbing.

“Kagome.” She whispered, trying her best to calm me.

“I’m a murderer...... mom didn’t do this to me, I- I just......I could feel him, fighting .....like he was begging me not to- to end his life.” I was hysterical by then, she was crying right along with me. My mother rushed into my room. She quietly sat on the edge of my bed, gently placing my head on her chest, arms wrapped around me.....her robe was soaked with my tears.
“Oh mom.....what have I done.....what have I done?” My voice was so shaky, it’s a wonder she understood me.

“Sssh.......Kagome, its alright.....just breathe.” She whispered in my ear.

“I should have at least told him.....I- I shouldn’t have....what if you just ended my-“

“Kagome.” My mom cut my hysterical sentence off. “I was in a completely different time, a different situation....you and I are two different people.....now calm down.” Her voice was soothing, calming and gentle. She always knew what to say. To this day, I’ll never understand how she stayed so centered in all this. After her breakdown, she was stronger then I had ever remembered her being. I slowly began to breathe easier, my mom on one side...best friend on the other side, for the first time in what seemed like eons...I felt safe. My body....my soul, I was so exhausted....still teary-eyed, I finally fell asleep with Yumi and my mom watching over me.

The smell of rose tea filled my nose......my eyes opened slowly, just in time to see the sun rise above the trees.....beautiful, reminded me of Sota....I knew he was right there with me. Not quite ready to get up just yet, I stayed curled up in the warmth of my blanket. I didn’t notice Yumi entering my room, she always was quiet......I jumped at the sound of her gasp. She grabbed my wrist, I quickly squirmed from her grasp.....hoping she wouldn’t ask me what I did to myself. The feel of her eyes burning a hole in the back of head, told me I had to tell her.
“Thats a nasty scar.” She remarked, her tone full of concern.

“Yumi.....it” I sighed. “I was at a real low place, spiritually, mentally.....I figured, I was better off joining my little brother.”

“No, Kagome, I don’t ever want you to feel like thats the way to go!” She was upset, I didn’t mean for her to find out like this.

“I know. It’s a good thing my mom found me when she did.” I paused for a minute. “Look, I’m....I’ll be okay. I have NO intention on doing that again......besides, I can’t leave my mom, Grampa would drive her nuts.” I joked. A smile crept across Yumi’s face, I knew then she felt better about the situation.

“So, does InuYasha know about......about that?” She asked, while curling up next to me. My silence answered for me. “Why didn’t you-“

“Because....I wanted him to come to me on his own, not out of pity or some type of rescue mission.”

“Makes sense....what about Sango?” Yumi met her once. I brought her along with me.

“No.....she would have torn InuYasha a new one. It wasn’t all his fault but she would have known it was his treatment that pushed me over the edge....but hey, I deserved it at the time.”

“Yeah, she is a fiery one indeed........it’s a shame shes straight.” Yumi added, her cheeks bright red. I just laughed......I knew she had a crush on Sango. After our little chat, she finally got me out of bed. I didn’t really have an appetite but mom would have fussed at me for not eating.




God......I graduated! Can you believe it? After everything I’ve been through.....all the classes I missed......I’m going to college! I mean things weren’t completely back to normal, I was still in a little pain due to the procedure I endured but I was happy.....I was for the moment. After the ceremony, my friends and I were preparing to go out. Ari and her boyfriend, Yumi and her girlfriend and me. My heart longed for InuYasha to be here by my side but, for obvious reasons.....he could not. Yumi told me to bring him anyway but I think all these people would bug him out a little. Yumi and I ran down the steps after my mom told she had a surprise for me. I almost tripped over my dress. My heart nearly jumped from my chest....I wanted to cry, I was so happy. I entered the livingroom, only to find a InuYasha standing there, his black hair slightly covered his face. I could tell he felt awkward in modern clothes but boy does he clean up nice!
“The new moon...right?” Yumi whispered in my ear. With all the excitement going on.....I forgot all about it. All I knew was that to spite everything I did, all the pain......all the fighting, he was here. I ran to him, the feeling of his arms wrapped around me......I didn’t want to let him go.


There was something almost magical about the night sky....one could see just about every star in the sky. InuYasha and I were beginning to connect with one another.....like we used to. I did tell him there were some things I needed to tell him but couldn’t at the time. To my surprise, he understood. The six of us roamed around the streets of Tokyo for hours. We finally settled in this small café, Ari and I went there a view times for the art work. Our table was upstairs by a huge window the view was incredible. Our laughter was cut short when I noticed Ari’s expression.
“What is she doing here?” She spat out. Yumi and I turned around, we both groaned.

“Ugh...Akira.” I hated her, she was always such a bitch! She was the one that “outed” Yumi during home room....noone needed to know she liked females, wasn’t anyone’s business. InuYasha grabbed Yumi. She was about to slap her......I was willing to let her, hell, school was over with.

“No....hes right. Its done, lets just ignore her and her stuck up friends.” Perhaps Yumi was right. We did ignore them, every now and then we glared at them for their bursts of laughter....knowing it was about us. I knew how mean Akira was but I never thought she’d go as low as she did.

InuYasha and I were standing near the pool table, I was trying to explain to him what the game was all about.....Akira and her friends started in on me.

“So......thats Kagome’s man huh?”

“Oh....he is gorgeous.” One of her friends responded. “Hmm...I’d like to get my fingers in all that black hair.” They all snickered, knowing damn well I could hear them. InuYasha squeezed my hand at the sound of my growl.

“Yeah...well he keeps little miss Hirgirashi very busy I hear.” Akira spat out.

“Oh please.....that little virgin.....hes not getting a damn thing from her.” One of them said.

“Yeah....thats miss Polly Pure.” They all laughed but Akira.

“Hmph...thats what you all think.” She chimed in. All her friends shot her a look in disbelief.

“Come on Akira....thats Kagome Hirgirashi......you know how their family is. You have nothing on her, just give...” The girl stopped in mid sentence at the twisted grin on Akira’s face. “What do you know?”

Akira cleared her throat. “Well, apparently....that black haired player had Kagome all turned out. She had to make a run the Planned Parenthood clinic my mother works at.”

Her friends gasped. I was in shock, my body went stiff.....InuYasha was confused, worried about my expression. I knew he had no clue was a clinic was.

“Akira.....no way!” She snickered with delight.

“Way, you know mom is the receptionist there. Well....its seems that our miss Polly Pure got herself knocked-up, she had to get an abortion.” A mile wide grin slid across Akira’s face as she ran her fingers through her long red hair. “Her mean ass mother pushed her into it.....can’t bring shame on the Hirgirashi name”. She finished in a mocking tone. My mom was never mean.....she just saw through Akira and her nosey mother.

“Ooh.....No way....she terminated the baby....I bet that hes why she did it.....InuYasha, he looks like the type that would make a girl get rid of his child!”

InuYasha let go of my hand with such a force....if he didn’t get it at first, he sure as hell understood then. My whole world came crashing down......my knees buckled, I soon fell to the floor. His eyes darted down on me......such anger.....disgust. I wanted to cry but I couldn’t. Yumi ran to me, her gentle expression changed at the sounds of Akira’s laughter.

“Inu....Yasha.....please-“ I couldn’t finish my sentence, I- I couldn’t breathe. It was as if someone placed a noose around my neck....the more I moved, the tighter the grip. He shook his head....his hands in the air.

“ You know what.....no more. I’m out” He turned to walk out on me, let me there, shaking in the middle of the floor. All was silent.....various pairs of eyes staring at us. I felt so naked.....bare with nothing left to protect me. Akira followed InuYasha, blocking the door way. Her emerald tone eyes locked on him.

“You don’t have to go....not yet.” She said, using a seductive tone, running her fingers up and down his chest. He glared at her like she was an offspring of Naraku. He growled as if he were in hanyou form. She whimpered as he gripped her arm.

“Out of my way bitch.....you ain’t worth the cunt you sit on!” He hissed out. Akira quickly squirmed away, letting him pass. Her cheeks were instantly red at the roar of laughter coming from the staff and passers by......served her right! She quickly turned around only to find Yumi in her face. I believe I could remember hearing the owner tell Yumi to take it outside.


If my life depended on it, I still couldn’t remember how I got up......all I can remember was my heart racing with such intensity , the cold feeling of midnight wind on my tear soaked face as I ran after InuYasha. I yelled out his name, not giving a damn who saw me.....who heard me. My fear of losing him for good, out weight any need for signs of approval. I kept calling to him.....broke my heart each time he didn’t answer. Finally, he stopped at a nearby park he and Sota had their “man to man “ chats.
“InuYasha.” I was out of breath once again, his back was to me. “InuYasha....I- there were so many times I wanted to tell you but-“

“But what Kagome.....god, its always something with you!” He said.

“I told you I had something to tell you and you-“

“Yeah.....I know. Damn Kagome, I didn’t know it had to do with my unborn child.” He paused, his brown eyes filled with tears he fought the minute he heard what I had done. He was in human form, overwhelmed with all these painful emotions. I walked up to him, reaching for his hand.
“I....I didn’t know you didn’t want to carry my child.” My heart fell to the bottom of my feet, I knew then I had to tell him......god, I didn’t want to.

“InuYasha....”

“I mean, you didn’t have the.....dammit Kagome, you couldn’t find it in your heart to tell me.” He finally let go of his tears, cursing himself the whole time. “Of all the things you’ve done.......its nothin’ compared to this.”

“InuYasha....I-“

“WHAT......What could you fuckin’ say to fix it up?” His fury quickly took the place of his tears. I swallowed hard, I was scared. I couldn’t lose him.....not again. “Why you have an abortion and not........” He stopped, his eyes fixed in my direction....never had I seen such a look of sheer disgust and rage within him. His whole body stiffened.......he looked almost sinister. I knew he figured it out. I backed up when he started to laugh.....it was eerie. Slowly he walked towards me, before I could move he grabbed my arm.
“InuYasha....you’re hurting me!” I whimpered.

“Whose child was it?” He growled. I’d never seen him like this.

“Please......don’t do this.” I cried.....I was shaking.

“Whose was it......tell me, now!” His growl was low.....his grip grew tighter.

“InuYasha.....I’m sorry......I’m so sorry.” I didn’t know what to do, no matter how hard he persisted....I couldn’t say it. I had not even admitted it to myself. “Please.....”

“TELL ME!” He screamed out, getting a hold of my other arm. InuYasha was beside himself with rage, pain.....disgust. All these feeling pulling at him at once......as a human, it seemed to blind his judgement.
“Koga........it was him! “ He was shaking me, my crying meant nothing to him. I was beyond afraid, my arms were bruising.....I felt dizzy. InuYasha’s brown eyes were black...his rage owned him. “Wasn’t it.....SAY IT KAGOME.......IT WAS KOGA’S BABY!!!”

He threw me to the ground as I sobbed....I couldn’t speak as I turned around to find InuYasha on his knees. An arm draped with white, silk fabric wrapped around his neck. A cloud of silver hair surrounded them both.
“Calm yourself.....little brother.”


A/N: Oh....just when it started to get a little too sticky.......I hoped you all liked that. Of course this means there is more...lol