Lust or Love

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Lust or Love?

An alternative fanfic
created by Phlie.

Chapter 4 - Inu Yasha's Realization

Kagome took her time relaxing as she waded down the cold spring. It was such a
beautiful day and she was in a great mood. She wasn't going to rush anything.
She had no where to go and nothing to do. Besides, she had a feeling that being
so leisurely would really upset Inuha. ha. He seemed to always be in such a
hurry. Running here and there. He always seemed to be
in the middle of what was going on. ‘Speaking
of which, here he comes’, she thought to herself as she spotted him coming
around behind a smaller tree. Kagome pretended that she didn't see him. Instead
she took that moment to start examining the light fluffy clouds up in the sky.
Inu Yasha waited for a minute and then stepped out into the open. Kagome didn't
look up, just kept gazing up at the sky. Inu Yasha slowly started walking
towards her. He was almost up to her before she turned and started walking back
upstream to where Sango was sitting on the bank of the spring, trying
desperately to keep Miroku's hands off her.

‘What? Is she ignoring me’, Inu Yasha wondered. That pissed him off. He
knew that she was different now, but nobody just ignored him! He quickly caught
up with Kagome and spun her around to face him, only to find that she had a
smile on her face. “Eh?” She had been playing with him. He was about to yell at
her, gonna tell her that she needed to stop fooling around cause they needed to
get back to looking for the damn shards, when she leaned in and whispered to
him. “Stop messing around. We need to get going.”

Inu Yasha just stood there as Kagome walked back towards the village. He was
too shocked to move or say anything. He couldn't believe that she was being
this way. If she gave him one more mixed signal, he would end up going nutty.
It was bad enough that she was toying with him, but she seemed to know how it
was affecting him. He turned to follow her and the others, staying to the back.


*
* * *

 


By the time they got back to Kaede's hut it was almost noon. Shippo skipped out to meet
them, going on and on about how he had helped make the meal they would eat. Inu
Yasha ignored the child as he stalked into the room and let himself drop into
the corner. His brain was almost like mush, trying to figure Kagome out. He
didn't think he liked the new her too much. He still loved her, but couldn't
stand her - all at the same time.

Shippo was put out by the fact that Inu Yasha wasn't being his usual, grouchy
self. It was almost like he wasn't even there. The kitsune thought he could
cheer him up. He brought Inu Yasha a bowl of ramen, but Inu Yasha wouldn't even
look at the food. ‘He must be brain dead if he's not gonna
even eat ramen’, thought Shippo. He tried everything he could think of to
get Inu Yasha to respond to him, even though he just knew he was gonna get hit
over the head. Nothing pried the hanyou out of his stupor, not even Shippo
dancing with the bowl balanced on his head, until Kagome stood up and announced
that she had a strange feeling.

“It's
like my brain is tingling. Why is my brain tingling? It's getting stronger.”
She looked towards Inu Yasha. Somehow she just knew that he would be able to tell
whatwhat was going on. “Make it stop”, she yelled to him.

“The
shards! Kagome, that's what it feels like when shards of the Shikon no Tama are
near. Grab your pack, bow, and arrows. We have a demon to kill!”

Hearing the word 'kill' sparked a new, even stranger feeling than the tingling
in her brain. She grabbed up her belongings and ran after Inu Yasha and their
friends. They all looked around, not seeing any dangerous looking creature
around. Suddenly, Kagome pointed to an innocent looking squirrel and yelled
out, “The shards. That squirrel has the shards!”

All heads turned to the girl. Who was she kidding? That innocent squirrel
couldn't hurt a flea. Inu Yasha was just about to say as much when his own,
built in signals started going off. He whipped his head around just in time to
see the squirrel start morphing into a huge black shadow demon. By the time it
had completed its change, it was as tall as the trees and was blocking out most
of the sunlight. It was actually sucking in the light, thriving on it, leaving
nothing but its shadow.

Miroku and Sango both pulled Kagome back away from Inu Yasha. They knew that
the girl would be all but useless in a fight against the creature. Her bow and
arrows wouldn't be able to harm a shadow. Kagome fought them off. She wasn't
afraid of the demon, even though she couldn't remember seeing anything so
horribly fantastic in her whole life. Of course, that wasn't saying much. As
far as she new, this demon was child's play.

Inu Yasha pulled out the Tetsusaiga and ran charging at the demon. He leapt
thru the air and slashed at would have been the demons neck, if the demon had
been something other than a shadow. Nothing happened. The blade didn't make
contact with anything but air. The shadow swatted at Inu Yasha, slicing thru
the fire rat cloak and piercing the hanyou's side. Inu Yasha fell to the
ground.

Kagome was visibly upset. She was about to run to Inu Yasha when she noticed
that it was getting darker. She glanced up at the sky. The pillowy
white clouds she had observed earlier in the day had drifted over the sun,
leaving little light to shine down on the shadow. As all shadows, the demon
needed light to exist. Without the sun, the demon began to morph back to his
smaller size, retaking the form of an innocent woodland creature.

Kagome was ready. She pulled back her and and let the arrow go. She could hear
it zipping thru the air as it reached its target. It was almost as if it was
singing to her. The arrow found its mark and the demon's heart exploded with
the impact. A lifeless pelt was all that was left. Shippo timidly crept over to
the corpse. He wasn't much bigger than the squirrel. He gulped and looked over
at Kagome.

“Please
promise me that you will remember to look before you do that again. I would
hate to think that you would kill me by mistake!”

'Kill'. Once again that word sparked something in Kagome. She had killed a
demon. Her whole body sizzled. She picked up the kitsune and started dancing
with him in her arms.

Miroku and Sango ran over to where Inu Yasha was slowly picking himself up off
of the ground. He had already started to heal, but he would be sore for awhile.
They tried to help him over to the hut. He pushed them off.

“I don't
need your help. I can walk; I'm not a fucking baby.” Inu Yasha growled as he
approached the dancing girl. “You could have gotten yourself killed! What the
hell did you think you were doing?”

Kagome swung Shippo into the air, towards Sango's waiting arms and grabbed Inu
Yasha. “Saving you”, she replied.

Inu Yasha didn't find this dancing very amusing. They could have been killed.
She could have been killed, and he didn't want to think about that. He tried to
push away from her, but she grabbed his prayer beads and brought him in closer.
He was afraid she was going to say the 's' word, but she just smiled up at him.

‘I can't
believe I'm this giddy’, she thought. Suddenly she sprung up and quickly
gave him a kiss, then spun off. Inu Yasha was left to stare after her, along
with their friends.


* *
* *

 

“I think
that it's cute”, Miroku said quietly to Sango. “Kagome seems so happy and Inu
Yasha seems so confused.” ‘Maybe I could use that to my advantage’, he thought to himself.

Sango looked up from the fire that they shared together. Kagome had gone off on
one of her nightly walks and Inu Yasha had mumbled something about not wanting
to be near anyone. They hadn't seen him in a few days. “It's not cute. He seems
miserable. The more she kills, the more she toys with him. It's like the thrilf thf the kill is making her drunk and stupid. She's gonna wind up hurting him, or
worse herself.”

“Well, I
guess you're right. He does seem mad at her all the time now. I know that she's
different than she used to be, but for the most part she treats us the same.
She's still friendly and sweet. She still looks the same too, those long legs,
those curves-”, Miroku stopped in mid sentence as he realized that he had been
thinking aloud. He was rewarded with a rock upside his head.

“Stupid
pervert!” Sango got up and stomped away. She was never jealous of her best
friend, but sure did wish Kagome didn't have to look as good as she did. It
seemed like all men liked Kagome. All she wanted was for the monk to show some
emotion for her. She had slowly started to have feelings for the lech, but to
no avail. He seemed as though he had feelings for her, but couldn't keep his
mind out of the gutter, or off of Kagome.

Before she realized it, Sango found herself down at the spring. Kagome had gone
there to take a dip and relax. Sango new the girl was there, her clothes were
hanging on a branch near the bank, but couldn't see her friend. She peered into
the dark night and finally found her friend. She had heard Kagome swimming
about in the water.

“Kagome,
mind if I join you”, called out Sango.

“Of
course not, come on in. It feels wonderful”

Sango disrobed and timidly put her foot into the water. Kagome was right, it
did feel wonderful. The sun had warmed the water, yet it was still cool enough
to make her skin tingle. Diving into the water, sht tht the water wash away her
worries. She came up giggling. “I left that stupid pervert back at the fire,
drooling over you, with a huge knot on his head.”

“Oh, not
again. I get so sick of his attentions. Come to think of it, I get sick of
every guy's attentions. Especially Inu Yasha's.” Kagome leaned her head back
against one of the larger rocks that jutted up from the bed of the spring.

“But
Kagome, you encourage him.”

“I do no
such thing!” she said as she jerked her head back up to look at her friend.

“Yes you
do. Remember just the other day? After we had that encounter with Sesshoumaru?
Inu Yasha offered to carry you back to the camp site on his back and you just
patted his butt and said that you would walk behind him so you could keep an
eye on his 'nice ass'. What did you think he was gonna do? Ignore tou touch?”

“No, but
I certainly didn't think that he would try to crawl into my sleeping bag later
that night!”

“And so
you insulted his manhood and then threatened to go find Kouga because you would
rather sleep with him. No wonder Inu Yasha doesn't want to have anything to do
with you. You are giving him mixed signals. It's been nearly two weeks of this
and it's wearing everyone thin."

Kagome lowered her head, trying to hide the tears that were welling up in her
eyes. “I know, but I can't help it. I don't want to have anything to do with
him, but it seems like I can't help myself after a battle. Something about the victory
just makes me giddy. But it's not just him. I don't want to have anything to do
with any of the guys around here.”

“Well
you both seem pretty miserable. Maybe it's a good thing that Inu Yasha is gone
for awhile.”

“I don't
need him for anything. I find the shards and kill the demons. I don't get
kidnapped anymore, either. Seems as though the relationship he claims we used
to have is none existent. So he can stay away as far as I'm concerned.”

Kagome got out of the water and went over to where her clothes were. She got
dressed and sat near the bank, waiting for her friend to join her so that they
could help each other get back to camp. It was darker than usual out and Kagome
realized that there wasn't much of a moon out tonight.


* *
* *


Inu Yasha had crawled up in the tree that overlooked the spring. He hated to
admit it, but he wanted to get a glimpse of Kagome's wet body glistening in the
water. She had been a thorn in his side, constantly turning him on and then
being icy cold to him. He couldn't resist her, though. Everything about her
screamed out that she wanted him, especially now. He knew she was in heat and
he had left the company of the group. He knew everyone would think it was
because of their last fight. That did have some bearing on the situation. And
now after listening to the conversation she thought she was privately having
with her friend, he knew why. ‘She fucking hates me.’ It was as if Kagome
had shot him and made his heart explode like she had done to the shadow demon.

Inu Yasha waited until Kagome and Sango had gone back to the camp site before
he sulked away. He knew he had to stay away for good.


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