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Chapter 29
Musing

Kagome raced through the forest heading towards her new home she knew that her friends were probably all ready there waiting for her. She was nervous because she knew without a doubt that the youkai would be able to tell by her scent her activities and with who. She practically reeked of him and sex. She knew that if she was going to be able to walk into her palace full of youkai then she would have to bath before she returns otherwise the stares she was sure to get would embarrass her to no end.

Kagome did not regret what she had done and it was an incredible experience. The part of her that was still human, however, was unsettled with the fact that she had a one night stand with someone she use to conceive as an enemy. The part of her that was youkai reacted to the idea in a different manner. Her blood would heat and her stomach would pool with warm feelings as her neither area began to throb at the idea of what he could do to her body.

Now she had no other choice, but to take a nice cold bath in a river somewhere to cool the heat her thoughts had caused. So with that in mind she turned towards where she could smell the scent of fresh water.

It did not take long for Kagome to come to a stop at a small river. She knew it was going to be cold, but she did not mind in the least and soon her kimono was off and she was in the river taking a quick wash.

After an experimental sniff she was out of the river and back in the kimono given to her by Sesshomaru. She knew that the kimono would smell of him but at the very least it would not smell of sex. She still could not believe that she had done ‘it’ with Sesshomaru! It was like some surreal nightmare only more pleasurable.

It was not all that surprising to Kagome that he was good at it. He did not do things half ass and sex was no different. ‘I suppose I should be grateful that my first time was with someone who knew what they were doing.’ she thought as she ran the scenery passing by as a green blur.

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Sango sat on the futon with Kirara in her lap as Miroku takes his place beside her “You must be anxious” Miroku commented at his wife’s hazy look she gained in her eyes as she was thinking of things that worried her.

“Yes I can hardly believe it that Kagome is back and as a youkai. Her life is going to become complicated. She wont understand most of her instincts and they will rage with her human mind. I wonder if she is ready to deal with the problems of coming back to this era.” Sango said as she looked to her husband, she loved him so much he was so wonderful. ‘when he was not on his hentai role.’ she thought with a shake of her head.


“Ah yes, that was quite the surprise and I am happy though I hate to think what reason she was sent back for. She had said that we all die in a fight with this new evil… I assume it is the same youkai we have been trailing. What I am wondering about it what happens if we don’t die? If we don’t die then Kagome would have never come across the swords in the future and therefore never sent back. Time is a fickle thing, would she return home the human she once was, or would she just cease to exist?” Miroku scratched the back of his neck as he said those words because he was unable to think of the answer.


“If she had never come across the swords and in turn sent back as she was what would happen? If she was never sent back then wouldn’t that mean that she had never returned to save us? If she did not return then we would have died in the battle like she saw.” Sango answered back still very much confused on what course of action to take.


“Finishing one mission only to learn that she was needed again and this time she would come as something she was not. It must be hard for her still since the change took place not long ago.” Miroku said as he excepted Sango into his embrace.


Sango leaned her head back into the chest of her husband and exhaled happily “I am happy she is back and will stick by her in her time of need as she had for all of us.” Sango said while she threaded her fingers in her husbands that was over her stomach.


“Yes we will be there for her” Miroku agreed whole heartedly. He knew the coming months were going to be hard ones and he did not mean the battle. There was sure to be some type of confrontation in the coming days between Inuyasha and Kagome maybe even Suki. He felt slightly responsible for this new problem because it was he that told Inuyasha to move on because she was not coming back, but she had and not Inuyasha can never have her.

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Suki looked over at Inuyasha from her position on the bed “are you ok Inu?” she asked knowing he loved the new Eastern lady. She was worried, she knew that Inu’s mated for life, but she also knew that Inu were rarely loyal to their mates. She was not willing to sit back and watch as her mate makes eyes at this Kagome.


Inuyasha looked over at his mate now feeling guilty “Yea Suki I’ll be fine.” he knew what he was doing was not fair to his mate, but he could not help it. He still loved Kagome as much as he did those ten years ago. Because he still loved her does not mean his feeling for his mate had diminished either. He knew however that whatever chance he had with Kagome was gone the moment he mated another. She may have been willingly there for him while he sorted through his Kikyo problem, but he was not mated to Kikyo. He knew that Kagome would never allow herself to be the other woman in a mated pair. He just needed to move on, but he knew that he could never forget his love for Kagome because he would never stop loving her.


Suki watched as Inuyasha walked over to the bed and sat down beside her. He reached an arm over her shoulder and brought her to him in an embrace. A same amount of her fear left her then as she laid her head on his shoulder to except his embrace. “I Love You Inuyasha.”


Inuyasha kissed her forehead “I know Suki and I you.” he replied not noticing the was her shoulders sunk with his declaration.


Suki’s shoulders drooped at his failure to actually say he loved her back. ‘I guess I should be worried.’ she thought as she closes her eyes sadly. She hoped that this Kagome would try and take her mate because she would not let him go so easily.


Shippo looks around his new room, he could hardly believe that Kagome was back! At least his decision to mate Rin would help her out in the long run. With his mating Rin the west would be his ally and since he is the prince the west would be her ally. Ally to the eastern lands. He was worried, with the way Kagome had returned and mixed with her temper. He shivered at the thought of what she would do should she learn she was pretty much bullied into mating so young. Now that Kagome was a youkai her temper would be much more fierce and I am not so sure she can handle Sesshomaru, if she did decide she wanted ‘tell him off’ as she would say. Deciding to bathe and change he went to the springs that Asiko had pointed out.

Once she finished showing everyone to their room Asiko went about finding the tutor in both reading and writing and in defense. She figured she could ask her husband and they could do the lessons after she gets home for a few hours. She would be sleeping less yes, but youkai did not need sleep much and she only did it as a way to pass time. She also figured that she could get a lesson twice a week for reading and writing only used to explain new things or go over what she could not understand. She would get some work to take home or due in between normal work. Both would insure that she was available when her mistress needed her.

This chance she was given had given honor to her family and her mate. This was an opportunity a mere servant of her credentials just does not get and she was determined to do her best.