Blood Stained

Blood Stained

Chapter 3: Shattered Dreams

This was the first time she had gone home in over 2 weeks, and it had been quite a short trip. They had run out of a few supplies, and Inuyasha had let her go home for a few hours, so she could stock up again. He hadn’t put up much of a fight, and she figured it was because she would only be gone for a short while. As she climbed out of the well, in the Feudal Era, her heart started to beat faster. She had this strange déjà-vu feeling taking over her body, and mind. Kagome held her breath, almost expecting Sesshomaru to appear out of nowhere; she hadn’t thought about it in a while, and having the memories come back to her mind like this, wasn’t exactly thrilling. She finally breathed out, before shaking her head at herself.

Kagome was well aware that she wouldn’t see him again, though many questions were dying to be answered. Her main one was if her recent pain attacks were related to him. Frankly, she doubted it, but she couldn’t help the little voice within her head. Ever since their encounter, chest pain would come around twice a day at least and it was becoming so frequent, that it was daily routine. But, something was different about them; they were affecting her heart.

She felt heartbroken, as if a being in need was calling out to her with its whole soul. Kagome really couldn’t explain what she was feeling, but it was almost terrifying; sometimes, tears even came to her eyes, and she couldn’t stop herself. She could see the worry in Inuyasha’s eyes every day, but there was no explanation she could give him. The only hint of a suggestion was Sesshomaru, but even that was far fetched. How could it have anything to do with him?

No, this was something else, probably stressed. Kagome wasn’t getting enough sleep, and they were often running around, fighting and her body was simply trying to tell her it was tired. Yes this was the logical explanation. Kagome was brought back out of her thoughts by footsteps. Immediately, her whole body froze, and she closed her eyes, hoping this was all just a dream. As the footsteps got closer, her heartbeat increased. Again?

She almost jumped when she felt a hand on her shoulder. “Kag?”

Kagome felt so relieved when she realized it was Inuyasha. Wrong Brother. She put her best smile on before turning around and facing him.

“You al right?” he asked, trying to catch her in a lie. Most of the time she was having panic attacks, as she called them, and she would lie to them, pretending it was something else. He had smelled the fear when he got near her and naturally assumed she was having another episode.

She nodded. “I’m just a little tired.” And have a little too much imagination…

Inuyasha didn’t believe her one bit, but he still let it go, so he grabbed her back from her, and started heading in direction of the village. Kagome was grateful that Inuyasha dropped the issue so often since she didn’t want to lie to him more than she already was. Plus, she’d probably end up sitting him into oblivion; she was very PMS, causing her to have less patience than usually with the hanyou. She was pretty sure he noticed too, because he seemed to try to not annoy her.

Kagome watched him walk ahead of her, and her heart felt heavy. It had been two weeks now, since he had finally put Kikyo behind him, and made his move towards her, yet nothing had happened between them. Kagome brought her hand to her lips, touching them; she still hadn’t her first kiss. Some little voice inside of her was wondering if he were still interested in her. She would reassure herself by saying he wouldn’t have come forward if he hadn’t, but she still wished they could make more progress.

Kagome understood this was still new, and they were still young, but honestly all she was asking for was a kiss, while most girls her age had already gone all the way. But, she knew better than to push Inuyasha when he wasn’t ready. Although, he wasn’t good at decision-making, and could never make up his mind, so maybe he was waiting for a sign? Maybe she would need to be the one to come forward and initiate everything.

Kagome took a deep breath before walking faster so she could catch up to him. Her heart was beating like crazy as she reached out for his hand. She could feel herself blushing, and she didn’t know why; it was only a kiss.

But, this would be her first kiss.

“Inuyasha?” she asked, her voice almost a whisper.

Immediately he stopped walking, and focused all his attention on her. He didn’t know what had her feel so distress, but he didn’t like it. Her eyes looked all tear up, and her cheeks were red. Was she sick? She closed her eyes, and leaned forward slightly. Immediately, Inuyasha let go of her hand, and his surprise caused her bag to fall on the ground. He was trying to figure out if Kagome was implying what he thought she was. Did she want him to kiss her?

Since she remained like this for a few more seconds, he nervously decided to take his chance. Inuyasha wasn’t very experienced with all of this; he had only kiss Kikyo before, and only a few times. Inuyasha put his hands on her shoulders, and brought her forward crashing his lips on hers. Kagome felt the whole world around her stop for a second as she finally had her wish. She was kissing Inuyasha. Her heart was beating like crazy within her chest. At first, both of them were going very slowly, keeping a certain distance, but after a few instants, Inuyasha wrapped his arms around her waist, and brought her closer.

She had never been so happy of her whole life. She lost herself into Inuyasha, finally getting a taste of him. Inuyasha gently nibbled on her bottom lip before releasing her. As he pulled away, they were staring at each other, a little bit out of breath. Kagome couldn’t hide the small smile on her face as she grabbed Inuyasha’s hand.

Maybe today wasn’t such a bad day after all.

***

Something had happened.

Sango watched as her best friend walked beside her, a smile on her face. Ever since she had come back with Inuyasha the previous night, her mood had been extremely good. Heck, she hadn’t even sat Inuyasha when he was acting like a jerk. Sango was determined to get to the bottom of his, so slowly she got closer to her friend, and bumped into her. Kagome, who had been lost in her thoughts, turned to look at her friend. She immediately recognized the look in her eyes.

She wanted answers.

Kagome shook her head softly before looking around. Inuyasha and Miroku, who had Shippo on his shoulder, were walking ahead of them, and Kagome decided they were far enough.

She got closer to her friend’s ear, and whisper, “I might have kissed Inuyasha last night.”

Sango couldn’t help the smile that took over her face. Although Inuyasha had his bad side, ever since he had dropped Kikyo, and officially taken Kagome, her friend had been happy. Her mood had been better than Sango had seen in years. If things were finally good between them, and he made her happy, Sango couldn’t ask more for the woman she considered her sister.

“Kagome, that’s great!” said Sango before wrapping her arms around her.

Kagome smiled at her, but couldn’t help but feel a small sadness. She wished Sango could be happy too, and make progress with Miroku. After all the taijiya deserved it a lot more than she did. After the loss she had gone through, it was about time she got some happiness.

“You know, you could make the same progress,” she said before looking in direction of Miroku.

Immediately Sango blushed, and looked away. It wasn’t as though she hadn’t thought about it, but Miroku’s ways always stopped her. Not only did he flirt with every woman he saw, but also she knew it would only encourage his perverted side. Not that she disliked that side of him that much or anything…

When Sango remained silent, Kagome shook her head. “You know he would never turn you down Sango!”

“Miroku wouldn’t turned down any woman,” said Sango, her tone extremely serious.

Everyone was aware of Miroku’s lecherous side, but Kagome also knew that no matter what he did, the houshi had feelings for Sango. It was shown by the way he tried to grope her more often than anyone else, or those moments where he actually behaved himself, and was there for her. More than once he had risked his life to save Sango. Maybe her friend couldn’t see the sign yet, but Kagome could.

Kagome shrugged her shoulders. “I still think you should give him a chance.”

Sango remained silent, but deep inside, she wanted to. Maybe if Miroku made an attempt that wasn’t all about grabbing her ass, maybe she would go for it. Scratch that, she would probably let him. Before she knew it, she giggled softly, earning her a strange look from Kagome. She had a feeling whatever Sango was thinking about, it had something to do with Miroku. It brought her attention back to her hanyou; a big smile still adorned Kagome’s face as she watched Inuyasha walk in front of her. Usually, he would carry her but today, they had no lead, and there were in no rush to get anywhere. Plus, she had a feeling Sango had wanted to talk to her, so she set it up so they could have some girl time.

Slowly, Inuyasha turned his head to look at Kagome. She was brightly smiling at him, and it made his heart melt. Deep inside, he had a feeling he had done the right thing by breaking things off with Kikyo. He still missed the clay miko, but Kagome could fill that void in him that Kikyo had never been able to. He still couldn’t believe he was lucky enough to have someone like her in his life. She loved him, and only him. He had noticed her devotion over the years, and he knew there was nobody like her.

Once everything with Naraku would be over, he intended on mating Kagome. She was the first one to accept him, and he didn’t want to risk losing her. Of course, he hadn't talked about this with her yet, but he could hardly see her saying no. Especially since he could also travel through the well. He would even let her pick which side they would live on, whatever made her happy. He smiled at her, before turning his head back on the road.

Kagome hadn’t felt his good in a long time. Actually, she didn’t have any panic attack today; maybe things were looking up for her! Now that she felt like the weight of the world had been lifted off her shoulders, Kagome’s spirits were brightening. Not only did she have confidence in herself, but also into their victory. Often, when Inuyasha had picked Kikyo over her, it had affected her self-esteem, but now, she felt as though she was more than the dead miko, and loved. Right now, it felt as if nothing could come shatter her happiness.

After all, Inuyasha and her already had their ups and downs, and they had come through all of them. She had no doubt they could make it through whatever lay ahead of them. The wind caressed her face, as she closed her eyes. Yes, her heart, her soul, and her body belonged to Inuyasha. She would give her life for him, and never would she endanger him.

After all the heartache he caused her, she still loved him.

***

Nothing better to relax.

Kagome was at the springs by herself. It had taken her a few minutes to convince Inuyasha that she would be just fine on her own. He had insisted it would be dangerous since it was a fairly good distance from their camp, but she had sat him, and he had let her go. Sometimes he was over protective of her, but she liked it. Although right now, she liked the hot springs maybe a little better. The stress from the past weeks had started to affect her, and this break had been exactly what she needed. Plus, unlike Inuyasha she wasn’t worried because if something were to happen, she wasn’t really far from the camp. She knew if she screamed, Inuyasha would hear her and come running, so there was no risk.

She moved her bag to the edge of the water, and took out all the products she needed. Kagome poured shampoo in her hand, and stared to massage her scalp; she loved the scent of mango and pineapple coming from the shampoo. Inuyasha would always complain the scent was too strong, but she didn’t care because for her human nose, it was perfect. Slowly she dipped her head under water, rinsing off all the shampoo from her hair. Kagome felt a little lonely without Sango there with her, but the taijiya had not the same view on bathing as Kagome. Unlike her, they did not think bathing every day was a necessity. It probably wasn’t, but she couldn’t chase the habit she had her whole life.

Nonetheless, it was nice to have someone to chat with, at the moment she felt extremely lonely. She thought about herself in a bubble bath with a little plastic duck floating her, and she chuckled. It used to be her favorite thing in the world when she was a little girl. Kagome closed her eyes, and rested her head on a nearby rock. Here, she was naked and all by herself. The thought made her blush, and she couldn’t help but think about Inuyasha. Surely, there would be a time where they would become closer physically. Maybe not now, or not until Naraku was defeated, but one day.

Of course, thinking about such thing only made her go three different shades of red. The thought of being naked in front of Inuyasha was extremely embarrassing, but at least she was relieved that both of them had no experience in the domain. She wanted her first time to be special, just like every other girl. Although, for her special didn’t mean roses, candles, and a big banner. She just wanted to be with someone she loved, and who loved her back.

The presence of someone nearby brought Kagome out of her thought. She felt a warmth in her lower regions as she wondered if it were Inuyasha. What would she do if he showed up while she was here, alone and naked? Her heartbeat increased as she opened her eyes, only to gasp. In front of her was standing the last person she expected to see, and the one she had been trying to chase out of her mind.

Sesshomaru.

Fear took her over when she noticed that just like the previous time she had encountered him, his eyes weren’t amber, but crimson. His aura was just as unusual, and his fangs were sticking out of his mouth. Her whole body went on alert, as his unexpected presence was a mystery. Last time, she had blamed his presence on her blood, since it had appeared that was the object of his interest. But this time, she had no idea what he was doing here. After all, she hadn’t hurt nor cut herself, and her period wasn’t for another couple of days.

“Sesshomaru?” she tried, as she slowly swam away from him. She could already not trust him when he was acting normal, so when he was in this state, she knew she couldn’t.

He didn’t say a word, but simply sniffed the air around. Had he been looking for something, but simply stumble unto her? Why did that sound way too convenient? Kagome slightly jumped when she hit a rock, thinking it was something else.

Sesshomaru locked his red eyes on her, and proceeded to walk forward. He wouldn’t come in the water would he? She was naked for Kami’s sake! Although she had a feeling Sesshomaru couldn’t care less about that detail. Kagome knew it would be safer for her to be out of the water, then in it and also, from the look of it, Sesshomaru was ready to go in the water if he had to. Slowly, and carefully, she came out of the water, and hid being a rock; she didn’t want to give him a free show.

Then, Kagome started to consider her options. She could run, but Sesshomaru would probably catch her in not time, or she could also scream for help, and Inuyasha would come running, but that would be dangerous. She knew Sesshomaru could kill his half-brother in a second, and she didn’t want Inuyasha to be dead because of her. Technically, she had no reason to fear Sesshomaru; last time he had crept her out extremely, but he hadn’t hurt her in any way. Not a scratch. Maybe she would be able to deal with this on her own.

Kagome gulped before covering herself the best she could, trying to get to her clothes, or at least the towel. She thanked the Kami when she reached the light blue towel, and grabbed it with her left hand. She was about to wrap it around her body when Sesshomaru stopped her. She felt his hand wrap tightly around her wrist, and her heart skipped a beat. There, she was standing completely naked in front of Sesshomaru, and on top of that he was staring at her naked body with no shame, causing Kagome to be even more uncomfortable.

Kagome tried to pull away, but he only yanked her back painfully. He growled at her, his eyes growing even bigger. Kagome felt a lump caught in her throat as she watched the powerful youkai approach her. His face was only inched from hers, when he stopped and smelled her face. Apparently, he wasn’t happy with what he found out because a deep angry growl came out of his chest, almost causing vibrations.

Kagome couldn’t help the fear that took her over, and once again, she tried to pull away from his grasp, but it was hopeless. Angrily, he dragged her over to a grass patch area, and threw her on the ground. She wanted to say something, but her words were caught in her throat. Sesshomaru wasn’t the nicest person, but she knew he wasn’t that horrible. He was cold and careless, but didn’t go out of his way to harm people who hadn’t done anything to him.

As far as she could think, she hadn’t done anything to him. If she had, she certainly didn’t remember, but surely it hadn’t been her intention to do so! A silent scream escaped her lips when Sesshomaru kneeled down to the ground, and slowly went in between her legs. Kagome tried to back away, but before she could do anything, he had her pinned down to the ground. He held her hands above her head, while his other hand was holding her down by the waist. Kagome felt tears coming up to her eyes, as her body started to shake.

She wanted to chase the bad thoughts away, but she couldn’t help but imagined what he would do next. She wanted to scream, and hope Inuyasha would come, but she didn’t. She loved Inuyasha, and no matter how strong he was, Sesshomaru was stronger. Inuyasha had only half the blood Sesshomaru possessed, and she refused to endanger his life. Sesshomaru paid no attention to the tears rolling down her cheeks as he forcefully pressed his lips against her. He made sure to suck, and nibble on her lips, getting rid of the hanyou scent, which had been on them.

Satisfied, he left her lips to move down, and attacked her neck, while still holding her in place. He licked her collarbone, slightly nibbling her skin, while Kagome struggled under him. This was not happening. She couldn’t let this happen. “Please, Sesshomaru,” she begged, hoping he would come back to his senses.

The Lord didn’t even raise his head, letting her know her words mattered very little to him. Sesshomaru decided to taste her, his mouth moving to her left breast, and immediately, he took it in his mouth, sucking on it like a pup. Kagome’s body being so untouched reacted to Sesshomaru’s touch, but her mind didn’t. She ignored the feeling of warmth going through her, as she tried to kick him away with her feet.

“Let me go!” she said, a lot louder than she expected.

She didn’t want her first time to be like this; she didn’t want her first time to be with Sesshomaru, when it was meant to be with Inuyasha. She prayed to the Kamis he would come back to his senses. Once again, she tried to push him away from her, but it only made the situation worst. It was obvious that he wasn’t pleased with her defiance; he was her alpha, and she was supposed to submit to him. How dare she? Sesshomaru raised his hand and smacked her across the cheek. Kagome was too stunned at first to say anything. Her cheek stung like crazy, and her eyes filled with tears. She could not believe Sesshomaru had just hit her so hard; she was pretty sure she would bruise. He didn’t seem very fazed about the whole thing since he had gone back to her breast. He played with her nipple with his clawed fingers, causing them to harden.

“My bitch.”

At his harsh tone, Kagome found herself overwhelmed with fear again. No matter how much she had hoped, Kagome knew he wouldn’t come out of this. He hadn’t gone this far last time, and she couldn’t see his eyes changing back. She feared for Inuyasha’s safety but the more seconds that passed, and the more she wanted to scream. Surely, if all her friends came, they could at least get rid of Sesshomaru right? Maybe at the minimum cause him to flee!

That’s when her stupidity hit her. Sesshomaru would never be a coward in front of anybody. The result would be him killing all of her friends, and she couldn’t bare such a thought. Then all the sudden she gasped, when she felt an intrusion in her body. Kagome raised her head slightly and looked down only to find Sesshomaru still sucking at her breast. What she couldn’t see but feel was his finger inside her womanhood. He was fingering her at a very quick pace, being careful with his claws. Kagome had of course masturbated a few times, but when someone else was doing it, it was extremely different. The more his pace quicken, the more Kagome hated herself. She could feel herself getting wetter against her will, and it was killing her. I don’t want this. She wished this could all be a nightmare, and she could wake up. When Sesshomaru inserted another digit, she felt more tears coming. She needed to get him off of her, and right now.

She grabbed his wrist with her hand, and attempted to use what little power she had trained. Unfortunately for her that wasn’t much since she had mostly focus on bows and arrows. Still, a small pink glow came out of her hand, and enough to slightly burn Sesshomaru. He let go of her hand, but his expression told her he was very angry. She backed away from him, removing his fingers from inside her core simultaneously. Her wetness was slightly dripping as she tried to scramble on her feet, to run away. Of course, before she could barely make it on two feet, Sesshomaru had caught her again. His little bitch was starting to annoy him; especially with the way she kept challenging his alpha status.

“Submit,” he demanded. She needed to learn that her place was beneath him.

Kagome shook her head, trying to free from his grip. “DON’T TOUCH ME!” she screamed, trying to hit him, and break free. Let this be a nightmare. Let me wake up.

He felt saddened by her words; he loved his female, and her tears were stirring a rage inside of him. He had hoped she would have seen how good to her his attentions were and that it would have made her cries cease. He had struck her out of necessity, and had made sure it didn’t leave a mark. Why did she insist on fighting him? She was his, and he wouldn’t let her go back to that hanyou. He didn’t want to her hurt, but apparently, she wouldn’t see things his way; he would need to teach her how to treat her alpha, and he would secure her position at his side.

He would have been kind to her, but she didn’t want it that way. So be it then.

Sesshomaru, despite her struggles, put her on four on the cold earth. Kagome felt more tears coming, as she knew what was coming. “NO! PLEASE!” she screamed, as she felt something touch her virginal womanhood.

Oh Kami. This was never what she had imagined.

Sesshomaru positioned himself at her wet entrance before putting both of his hands on her shoulders, to keep her in place. He growled in satisfaction when the tip of his cock felt her wetness. Without a second thought he plunged his dick within her awaiting pussy. Sesshomaru stopped when he reached her hymen, proof of her pureness. A smirk appeared on his lips before he broke through, and took her virginity. Kagome cried out in pain as she felt him take something sacred to her.

“Stop, PLEASE, stop!” she cried as she tried to move away from him. Oh God, it hurt.

Ignoring her plea, Sesshomaru started to pounce his dick into her tight, wet cunt, as some blood dripped out of her. The scent of her blood combined with the scent of her heat was enough to drive him wild. Not hearing her cries of pain, he let his cock ravaged her pussy, thrusting harder, and deeper every time. The abuse was causing her wetness to disappear, but the blood inside and outside of her was acting as a lube, causing Sesshomaru to be able to slide in and out easily. Kagome’s eyes were tightly shut, as she prayed for this nightmare to end. Her first time was supposed to be sweet and filled with love, not with some disgusting beast. Up until now, she had no problem with Sesshomaru, but now, she couldn’t help the hatred that grew in her heart.

She couldn’t even find the strength to scream at him anymore, as he simply dismissed her. She could her him groan in pleasure, and it disgusted her, although, she was more disgusted with herself than she was with him. She was soiled; she was dirty. Sesshomaru ignored her pain as he enjoyed the feeling of being buried deep inside his little bitch. He couldn’t get enough of her warmth and tightness. He pushed his dick as deep as he could inside her bloody cunt, almost touching her cervix. Another kind of pain hit Kagome as he did so, giving her the strength to try to pull away from his grasp. When she did, he growled, and decided to modify their position slightly, to have a better hold on her.

He flattened her against the ground and covered her back with his body. Now Kagome was pinned between the ground and Sesshomaru’s chest. The feeling that there was no escape only upset her more. Sesshomaru groaned in satisfaction when their new position allowed him to plunge further into her pussy, while feeling her ass pressed against him. His release was close, and soon, he would fill the fertile womb with his seeds. He increased his rhythm, not noticing that Kagome was now silent, but that the tears were still coming. She had never felt so helpless in her whole life, and her heart was minute from breaking into pieces. She wanted Inuyasha by her side; she wanted him to be the one to take her virginity.

Then she felt it. Sesshomaru released his cum within her, completely coating her insides. What she hadn’t expected was for him to sink his fangs into her neck, marking her as his. For a second, the whole world stopped. Kagome silently cried out a scream of pain, as blood dripped down from her neck to her shoulder. Then, another wave of pain hit her, when he pulled away, lapping the blood around the mark. If she could have felt anything but pain, she would have felt relieved when he removed his length from her abused womanhood. When he moved away from her, Kagome went on her back, sobbing before curling up on herself.

Sesshomaru was standing naked in front of her, his breathing heavy. When he didn’t move for a few minutes, Kagome slightly turned her head to look at him. His eyes were flickering from crimson to amber. She bit her bottom lip, as she what was coming, and she had a feeling this time he couldn’t just run away like last time, although she wished he would. She hated him, and she never wanted to see him again.

Finally, his eyes settled to their original amber color.

***