My Hearts Desires

As nightfall came over the countryside, the trio made there way over to a clearing near a crystal clear lake, to set up camp for the night. Jakken started to make the pit for the fire, setting the stones and clearing the space for the wood to burn. Rin unloaded their supplies and set up camp. Sesshomaru watched the horizon, waiting for the sun to dip behind the mountains, making it too dark for Rin to follow him. Rin went to the lake to gather water for them have with the rice that she had prepared for supper.

Rin arrived back at the campsite right as Jakken lit the fire and the last beam of sun disappeared from over the meadow. Sesshomaru realizing that it was time for him to take his leave, he nodded to Jakken acknowledging that he was leaving, as Sesshomaru promised that he would. Jakken recognizing the signal,

“Rin would you please go and fetch some more wood for the fire, don’t stray too far.”

“Sure, I will be right back.” Rin left the campsite to behind some shrubs to look for fallen branches, but knew that something was going on, she had noticed that Sesshomaru was even more quiet than he usually was and maybe even a little more distracted. She hoped that it was regarding her future with her lord, but thought better of it.

At the campsite, “I will return late after Rin has fallen asleep.” Sesshomaru said.

“Yes my lord.” No more words were spoken as Sesshomaru disappeared into the darkness.

When Rin returned to the campsite, she noticed that Sesshomaru was not there. She scanned what she could see of the clearing that surrounded the site but he wasn’t there. Just a troubled Jakken eating some of the rice that Rin had made, he was startled when he saw Rin return from the darkness.

“He left again?” She asked, realizing the answer and feeling betrayed.

“Yes, he will return later.” Jakken said seeing the hurt in the girls face, he just hated these nights. Rin was always such a happy girl and when she was upset you could see the hurt all over her and you hurt at the sight.

Rin sat by the fire and began to eat, in silence. Her mind racing, “How can he go off tonight, after what I said to him last night.” She thought angrily to herself. She came to the conclusion a few years ago, why Sesshomaru would disappear on certain nights. That he went off to find a woman any woman to ‘court’ for the evening, usually it followed a battle that left him unsatisfied he went off to quench is aggression. Jakken never confirmed it, when she foolishly asked him why Sesshomaru would leave, but she knew better. But why did he leave tonight, there was no great battle, it was just another pathetic demon puppet, so what brought him to this and why didn’t he consider staying and having her tend to his needs as she explained that she wanted to do.
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Sesshomaru walked through dark forest back toward the village that he smelled before they set up camp. He was looking for any woman, that he could overpower and calm his now frazzled nerves. Over the passing years Sesshomaru had craved the touch of female flesh, he would go out after battles or run-ins that left him hungry for something, either be pleasure or vengeance. It wasn’t something that plagued him too often, that is until recently when he noticed that Rin had started to invade his thoughts, and here laid the reason that he wanted her to leave. He spent too much of his energy trying to free himself from the visions that clouded his mind.

As he walked through the out skirts of the village he sensed a mortal woman, a peasant sitting alone by a well, she was distraught. The perfect kind of woman for what plagued him this night. He would never say anything to the woman that he would sleep with, he was a stranger and with his tall strong stature and mysterious golden eyes that pierced the darkness, made for the perfect draw for most woman. He kept out of sight that he was a demon, which was usually a deal breaker. The woman noticed Sesshomaru standing a few yards away. His eyes caught her attention, they mesmerized her and she flocked to him. Sensing that he was in need of some attention, she approached him and allowed Sesshomaru to capture her with his strong arms. He led her off to secluded brush and began to kiss her, taking charge right away he thrusted his tongue through her wanting lips. He caressed her as he laid her down on the ground, careful not to scratch her with his claws. He began to undress the woman, her breathing became labored as he seized her exposed breast with his hand and massaged it. He lowered his mouth and hungrily suckled at her nipple, careful not bit too hard with his fangs.

The woman tossed and lightly groaned as Sesshomaru ran his hands down her bare stomach to her warm womanhood. He could smell that she was wet with the want of his touch. Which is where he moved next as he still continued to run his tongue over the woman’s nipples. He slid one of his fingers into her, minding his claw. She had known a man’s touch, so the journey of his digit in to the woman went without a hitch. He knew that it would he hard to disappear after, if the woman was a virgin. They are often clingy and made it hard for him to release his tension. The woman let out a soft scream as Sesshomaru pushed another finger into her. He felt himself getting aroused from his actions and was prepared for what he had to do. He broke himself from his hold on her breast and removed his pants to free his arousal. The woman blushed as she noticed that her stranger lover was very endowed. He started to edge his way into the woman’s tight warmth. The woman groaned loudly as he was started to penetrate her. He let out a small groan once he got partially in, knowing that his angst would be over soon.

Sesshomaru started to thrust his length slowly to make room for his girth. With each movement of his hips the woman below him would toss and flail. But all that would come to his mind was the thought of how it would be if it were Rin that was receiving his ‘attention’. These thoughts always set him off, he began to quicken his paces letting out moans as he pushed deeper in to the woman. He hated that it was Rin that would make him so eager to get off, but always hope that one day he would let himself experience her touch. He began to feel himself reach his peak of pleasure, shifting his weight to better feel his release. He stroked himself to hurry his orgasm, he released into the woman as she screamed in pleasure as she reached her own peak.

Sesshomaru waited for the woman to fall asleep, before he to his leave. The last thing that he needed was the woman wanting him to stay with her, or her telling her village that she had sex with a man in the woods and have the villagers chase him. Once the woman was dressed and asleep he got up and left, making his way back to the campsite. Expecting to arrive there and his companions to be asleep, so that he could have a moment to reflect. But upon his arrival he was surprised to notice that Rin was still awake. She rose up from her position by the fire to notice her lord return to the campsite.

“Rin, what are you still doing up?” He asked with a small amount of shock in his voice that he didn’t mean to be there.

“Sesshomaru we need to talk.” Rin said. Sesshomaru noticed her tone and the fact that she had not referred to him without his title as she always referred to him as. “But not here, lets walk a bit.”

Even though he was a bit tired from his recent escapade, he followed as Rin lead him toward the lake. They walked in silence until they reached a stump on the bed of the lake that she had noticed earlier when she came down here to fetch water.

Finally she broke the silence, “Did you not understand me last night?” She blurted out, “I told you that I love you, why did you leave tonight?”

Confused by Rin’s outburst, up to this moment Sesshomaru didn’t know that Rin knew why he would leave the group. He answered, “I needed to clear my head.” unsure why he had to justify his actions to her.

“That wasn’t all you did this evening.” She snapped.

“Now wait a moment,” a bit outraged that Rin snapped at him, “I told you last night that I couldn’t be with you, you shouldn’t question me!”

“And I told you that I wish to be with you, but not just as your faithful servant, but as your mate. I want to be with you in battle and in bed. For years I’ve seen you leave our camp to find a woman’s touch, and it pained me. I couldn’t help but asking myself why I was not fit to be the one that would help you ‘clear your head’

Sesshomaru a little embarrassed by Rin’s comments. “What I do is NONE of your concern. But its not you, because you are a member of my pack and I couldn’t defile you…” his words trailed off as Rin walked over to him and climbed on to his lap, placing her hands on the side of his face. Tracing the lavender marks on his cheeks with her fingers.

“I want you to ‘defile’ me.” As she raised her head and landed her hot lips against his.
Her tongue explored his lips hungrily. Sesshomaru vacated his composure and ceased her tongue with his own. He took control of the passionate kiss and explored her sweet lips, mouth, and face with reckless abandon. He started to let his hands roam around the developing body of his young ward. Rin ran her fingers through his silver hair. The thoughts that invaded his earlier exploit popped back into his head again. But this time he snapped out of it and broke their passionate embrace.

‘Rin we can’t, I don’t want you, I’m sorry.” his words were only betrayed by his body. His erection was pressing into Rin’s thigh, something that tickled Rin in a couple of ways. She was glad that she had this effect on her lord. This was a sign that she did have some glimmer of hope in being with Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru looked at the young woman sitting on his lap, realizing that he had to get away from her. Before he lost all his senses, and deflowered the young beauty and then he would be unable to talk her into settling down in a village without him.

“Go to bed Rin, enough of this foolishness.” Sesshomaru said sharply.

“Not unless you join me, Sesshomaru.” She purred with a blush rising on her cheeks.

“NO!” He snapped.

“Alright, my lord. But I only give in because you have known another woman’s touch, but the next time you WILL stay with me. You will not infect me with all this passion without finishing.” She raised her head again and laid a tender kiss on his lips and walked back to the campsite.

“Damnable woman!” Sesshomaru thought to himself as he watched her walk back to camp, he then dived into the lake to cure his fevered mind.