Unrequited Love

AN: From here on out the chapters are all centered around the wonderful music of ‘Hinder’, which, by the way, is the source of my inspiration for this story. Don’t ask me why I just go with what comes out of my puny little brain. Anyway, I hope you enjoy it. Constructive criticism only. Thanks to all who have read it so far and commented.

Disclaimer: I don’t own any copy rights to Inuyasha the series or any of the music written by ‘Hinder’


Part 3

Lips of an angel

It had been 3 months since they arrived in LA. Inuyasha made some what of a truce with his estranged brother, Sesshomaru, after 5 years of no contact. At the moment they shared a fairly nice apartment not far from where Kagome worked as a clerk in a book store. Inuyasha had opened up a motorcycle repair shop with his best friend, Miroku, using some of the money he inherited from his father who passed away while he was in prison. Things were going fairly well between them. Kagome knew from the start she would probably fall hard for the egotistical biker but she wasn’t prepared for how hard she fell. He had been her savior in more ways then one. He took care of her, provided for her and protected her. They had spent hours talking and knew almost everything about each other. Inuyasha’s sister in law, Rin, told her most of what happened before he went to prison. Kagome knew there was a girl involved and someone set him up to get him out of the way basically. Rin told her that Inuyasha was deeply in love with Kikyo then and that she had betrayed him by not confessing she was with him when the crime happened because she was afraid of her father. But that was all Rin could tell her. There were still some things Kagome didn’t know about him but she was confident that as time went by he would open up to her more and more. Their life together seemed almost too perfect.

Kagome heard the phone ring as she was wiping her hands off with a towel after drying the dishes. She walked toward the bedroom to get it since she thought Inuyasha was still in the shower when she heard his voice answer. She smiled as she put her hand on the door to push it open until she heard his words causing her to stop.

“I told you not to call me here. How’d you get this number?” His voice was almost too low for her to hear.

Honey why are you calling me so late
its kinda hard to talk right now

Kagome stepped back from the small opening just before he turned glancing back into the living room. “This isn’t a good time. I can see you tomorrow at work.” He said quietly. “Don’t cry, I’m not trying to get rid of you.” As she listed she could make out the conversation by what he was saying in return.

honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can’t be too loud

“Yeah I miss you too. I wish we could be together right now but things are kind of complicated.” He smiled softly. Kagome leaned heavily against the wall just outside the door holding her breath afraid of making too much noise.

well my girls in the next room
sometimes I wish she was you

“No I don’t like being apart. I can’t tell you how nice it is to hear your voice. I was really surprised when you called. I thought you never wanted to see me again.” He leaned back against the pillows of the bed as he relaxed.

I guess we never really moved on
its really good to hear your voice sayin my name
it sounds so sweet

“No one can make me feel like you do.” He paused. “Don’t think that. No one can replace you.” He frowned slightly.

comin from the lips of an angel
hearin those words it makes me weak
and I never wanna say goodbye

“She’s nothing compared to you. We’re friends that’s all. She listens to what I got to say and supports me like a good friend should. We split the bills and stuff that’s all. I do as I want. She’s just a substitute for now anyway.” He said aggravated. “Well you’re the one that made that choice 5 years ago remember.”

but girl you make it hard to be faithful
with the lips of an angel

“No I don’t want to argue about it either. Not after we finally get another chance. You know I’ve been thinking about you a lot.” He smirked that roguish smile that Kagome thought was for her alone. Inside her heart pinched with painful realization.

its funny that you’re callin me tonight
and yes I’ve dreamt of you too

“Hey you ok? He isn’t getting after you is he? Just hang up and come see me tomorrow. We can go someplace more private then.” He said suggestively.

and does he know your talkin to me, will it start a fight

“Kagome? No she’s too naive to know anything. Don’t worry he won’t find out from her. But I have to get off soon or she’ll come looking to see who I’m talking to.” He chuckled lightly. “Yeah you could say she’s a busy body of sorts. But that doesn’t matter cuz we’ll be together again soon.” Another pause while he listed to the person’s sweet words. “Yeah me too. You have no idea what you’re voice is doing to me right now.” Kagome’s lip quivered as a tear slid down her pale cheek. “I’ll have you screaming my name before you know it.” He chuckled again. “Hey I gotta go. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Kagome’s heart shattered as more tears slid down her face. “Love you too.” The sound of the phone hanging up brought her out of her frozen state. Kagome realized he was getting up off the bed to come out into the living room. Frantically she dashed silently toward the outer door to the bathroom, entering it just as he came from the bedroom. She quickly shut the door locking it then went to the bedroom entrance shutting and locking it too. She slid down the door pulling a towel down with her to bury her face in as she cried.

no I don’t think she has a clue

“Hey Kagome?” Inuyasha’s worried voice came from outside the door as he jiggled the knob. “You ok?” He asked. She swallowed hard trying to gather her thoughts. He would get mad at her for listening in on his conversation. After all he did imply this arrangement they had would probably be temporary. She scrambled over to the bath tub hastily and turned it on.

well my girls in the next room

“Yeah, just taking a quick bath.” She managed to keep her voice from quivering too much.

“Oh well you should have said something. We could have showered together.” He chuckled heartily. Kagome felt like she would die. That was all she was to him, a substitute bed partner. It was her fault really. He told her from the beginning she could say no but she couldn’t resist the way he held her so lovingly. At least she thought it was love but now she realized it was only a fantasy of her own. He was probably thinking about her every time they made love.

sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

“I wasn’t ready then. You needed something to eat after working so hard.” She said almost choking on her own words as she fought the sob from escaping her throat. “You’re supper is on the oven.” She added quickly hoping it would get him away from the door.

“Ok cool see you in a bit. I got some stuff to tell you.” He said. She listened at the door as his foot falls became lighter as he got father from the door as silent tears slid down her face soaking the collar of her shirt. Slowly she walked back over to the tub turning it off. Her body felt boneless as she slid to the floor holding the towel to her face to cover the sobs that wracked her small body. She was so stupid. She left Koga because he wanted to keep her like some kind of prize but he didn’t want to love her. And now she was with Inuyasha who wanted to keep her as a substitute fuck until the woman he truly wanted was available. How pathetic could someone be. Kagome cried even harder into the towel. She didn’t know how long it was before she stopped crying. All she knew was the emptiness her heart felt as she laid her head against the cool porcelain of the tub while she ran her fingers languidly through the cooling water staring into nothing when the knock on the door came startling her from her thoughts.

“Kagome, you better not fall asleep in there.” Inuyasha’s strong voice called out to her. Her puffy blue eyes looked up at the door. Her whole body felt numb from the emotional strain. Even though he was the one to cause her pain, the sound of his voice calmed her nerves and warmed her heart with his caring words.

its really good to hear your voice sayin my name
it sounds so sweet

“I’m ok, just soaking some. I’ll be out after I dry my hair.” She said back half heartily hoping he couldn’t tell the difference in her by the sound of her weak voice.

“Ok.” He said softly. There was a pregnant pause before she heard him again. “You would tell me if something was wrong wouldn’t you?” His worried voice touched that spot in her heart again making it scream with pain and sadness.

“Yeah of course.” She said as light heartedly as she could even when she was dying inside. ‘Why does he act like he cares?’ Her mind screamed as her heart pinched even more. How could she stay with him when he didn’t want her but at the same time she couldn’t stand the thought of being away from him.

comin from the lips of an angel
hearin those words it makes me weak
and I never wanna say goodbye

There was only one thing she could do, make him believe she found someone else. That would give him the freedom to do as he wants and maybe he would let her stay by his side where she could love him without him knowing. Another tear slid down her face. How was that any different from Koga? God she was going insane.

but girl you make it hard to be faithful
with the lips of an angel

“Kagome?” His voice called to her again from the other side of the closed door. “Talk to me baby.” He pleaded softly. She bit her lip to keep from sobbing as a stray tear slid down her face. ‘Don’t act like you care!’ Her mind screamed weakly.

its really good to hear your voice sayin my name
it sounds so sweet
comin from the lips of an angel
hearin those words it makes me weak

Quickly she dunked her hair over the side wetting it and splashed just enough to make it sound like she was in the water. “What? I was under the water rinsing my hair.” She replied hating herself for lying like this. How could she find someone else when her heart belonged to him. Mechanically she stood and wrapped a towel around her head then stripped her clothes off before wrapping a robe around herself.

and I never wanna say goodbye
but girl you make it hard to be faithful

“Kagome open the door.” Inuysha’s voice pressed worriedly. She closed her eyes forcing the tears back.
with the lips of an angel
(and I never wanna say goodbye)

“In a minute let me dry my hair.” She said more harshly then she meant to and turned on the blow dryer.

but girl you make it so hard to be faithful
with the lips of an angel

“Kagome open the damn door.” Inuyasha’s voice sounded slightly stressed even angry. She glanced at the door confused why he would be so angry. Before she could contemplate the matter any further, the metal of the screws screeched as they were forced from their holes. Suddenly Inuyasha was in front of her holding her face in his hands firmly but not hurting her. She looked at him with startled eyes that she knew were blood shot from crying. His golden orbs were dark with anger as they scanned her face. “Why are your eyes red?” He asked almost too calmly. She blinked at him stupidly as her mind spun with yet another lie to cover up her emotions.

Honey why you callin me so late

“I...the shampoo...what is wrong with you?” She asked timidly feeling the fear swelling in her bosom that he knew why she was in there for so long. She could hear the blood pumping through her veins and was sure he could hear the thundering beat of her heart. Misunderstanding the look in her eyes, his eyes softened as his hold on her face slackened. The fingers of one hand gently slid over her still damp cheeks as his eyes searched hers. He looked over at the still full tub then at the blow dryer in her hand. He smirked slightly as he stepped away from her over to the tub.

“You weren’t very dirty were you.” He said more as a statement then a question while leaning over and releasing the captive water. She rolled her eyes and turned away from him.

“I just wanted to soak and get the sweat from moving boxes today. I took a shower this morning.” She wrinkled her nose and pulled the towel from her hair before she began to lightly fluff it dry with the blower. She did her best to ignore him as he sat on the edge of the tub watching her. It was all she could do to keep from looking at him in the mirror as she worked on her thick wet hair. Each time she glanced at him she found his eyes still locked on her. It made her so nervous she wanted to scream but held her ground as calmly as she could. After almost 15 minutes she couldn’t take it any longer. She shut the blower off and fluffed her hair with her fingers gingerly before she started to head out the door. “I’m going to bed. See you in the morning.” She said coyly as she walked quickly into the room they shared. She stepped into the closet and pulled on one of his tee shirts before coming back out and climbing into bed without looking at him. She felt his weight as he climbed in behind her.

“I wanted to tell you something.” He said lowly. She bit her lip but knew she couldn’t avoid this. They talked almost every night before going to bed. It was a ritual of sorts and then they would... She didn’t want to think about it. Forcing a smile on her face she rolled over and propped her head up on her raised hand.

“Oh yeah sorry about that. You said something earlier. What was it?” She forced herself to look into his eyes as if she was really interested but inside the fear was growing as a feeling of foreboding began to fill her. Inuyasha looked into her beautiful face as he thought about what he was going to say. When she locked those doors it gave him an uneasy feeling. Then she wouldn’t respond the way he felt she should when he called to her. He could tell something was wrong even though she was hiding it well. He was bound to find out sooner or later if he played his cards right.

“I told you about how I got framed for robbing that house.” He lifted his eyes to hers getting a nod from her. “Well there was more to it then that. You see there was this girl and we were deeply in love. There was this other guy, Naraku, who wanted her but I happened to be in the way so he’s the one who arranged for me to be framed. I was with her when it went down but she was so afraid of her dad that she wouldn’t tell the cops that she was with me to give me an alibi.” Kagome couldn’t stop feeling bad about it. After all sympathy was in her nature.

“I’m sorry that happened.” She said softly placing her hand over his. He smiled slightly and intertwined their fingers.

“Well anyway that is all in the past. She called my shop a couple of weeks ago and we’ve been seeing each other quite a bit since. It seems she married Naraku even though he framed me and they are still married but she said she wants to a divorce and wants to be with me even after everything that happened. We’re meeting tomorrow to talk more.” His golden eyes came back up to hers. She blinked stupidly completely stunned he was actually telling her this. Would he tell her about the phone call? She didn’t know if she could stand going through this.

“Oh...um...well that’s great if that is what you want.” She said with out emotion in her eyes. “I guess I should start sleeping in the other room since you might want to bring her over some time. It would look sort of awkward if she found me in here too you know. I mean, we’re just friends after all so...yeah. Anyway, I know how I would feel if it was me and all so...” She began to ramble but he pressed a finger to her lips to stop her. Her eyes looked up into his. He had that worried look again. The one that made her heart feel like he actually cared about her but she now knew that was only wishful thinking. “I should probably start as soon as possible.” She flung the blankets from her body and stood up before he could stop her. Her long legs carried her almost all the way to the door before his large hand caught her wrist pulling her back to him.

“That’s not what I meant. You don’t have to move into the other room.” His warm breath whispered against the shell of her ear sending shivers up her spine. “I promise I won’t bring her here. It’s just, I was so excited I wanted to tell you.” He said quickly as he smoothed her hair from her neck. He began to place soft kisses on her neck. Her heart lurched painfully in her chest. She knew she couldn’t do this and wiggled from his grasp. “Kagome?” He asked as he reached for her but she stepped way. She stood there with her arms wrapped around her stomach fighting the tears that wanted to spill. After taking a couple of deep breaths she looked up at him with a weak smile.

“I can’t be the other woman Inuyasha. How is it any different from what I left behind?” She looked at him with pleading eyes hoping he would understand. “I’ll be here to support you if you need me as your friend but I can’t...” He opened his mouth to say something just as a tear slid down her face and his mouth snapped shut. Slowly she turned away from him having nothing else to say. Her feet carried her numbly to the guest room where she locked the door before she climbed on the bed and slid under the covers with her back to the door. Sobs from the pain in her heart soon wracked her fragile body.