Gotta Get Thru This

Important Note: Please be more civil and kinder to people who work at fast food joints. They don't get paid enough and most of them work hard. I know this because I work at Mcdonalds, and its freaking retarded how some of the customers treat us! So...it would be nice if people were less rude and a bit kinder, alright? So, my readers and reviewers...whenever you order food, please be patient and nice, k? Being rude and mean won't help at all. I know a couple of girls who cried because some of the customers were being harsh, really harsh.

And there are times I just want to punch someone in the face...and/or tell them off, but I have to bite my tongue because I don't want to get fired. A pregnant friend who works with me at mcdonalds...well, she came in one day in the morning to excuse her sister who had not come in because their mother had died that morning. She looked so upset...looking at her was heartbreaking and her voice sounded broken. I did what came to instinct, I hugged her and comforted her as best as I could as she cried and talked about it. Her name is Liz and her sister's name is Laura. They are orphans now. They don't even have grandparents. They have it pretty hard from what I know...but even through the misery, they are still awesome in my eyes. The point is, a customer in drive thru basically got pissy with me, she said: "You guys can go solve your personal problems later; we're waiting on our food!" OOOOOOOOOOO! You do not know how much I wanted to tell her to fuck off!

So, basically, please be nice and considerate, k? ^^ Thanks...

Now on to the story!

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InuTaishou was the first to wake to the weak rays of the sun setting. He found his very nude son spooned against him. They were both naked, of course. And sticky. Sesshoumaru's room still had the musk of sex in the air.

The events of that very morning came back to him in a flood of horror and realization. He had had sex with his own pup!

The older inu youkai's body shook slighly, most likely from shock, as he rose from the bed and quietly left Sesshoumaru's room. With a grimace, he entered the bathroom, closed the door, and stepped into the shower. His long, silver hair was still bound up in his usual high ponytail, so he released his hair from its restraint. He sighed softly as his hair tumbled over his shoulders and down his back, free at last.

With a deep sigh, he turned the hot water on and indulged in the hot spray that washed away evidence of what he had done that morning.

InuTaishou rested his forehead against the shower wall as the scalding water both woke him up and relaxed him. His thoughts were intensley troubled and with the edge of panic.

'...What...have I done? Damn....what kind of father am I? I had sex with my own son! I know incest among the youkai is not an uncommon occurence, nor is it frowned upon...but it does not appeal to me. Or...does it? No...I would not willingly take Sesshoumaru's innocence from him. I took advantage of my own pup, who was and still probably is, if not worse, in a lot of mental and emotional agony. At least I did not take him. At least his virginity is still intact...' The inu youkai lord mused bitterly with a hint of optimisim.

He grabbed the nearest soap and started furiously scrubbing it all over his body as if it would erase what he had done. He scrubbed every inch of skin on his body, even his face. He scrubbed his body for so long and so hard that his whole body was an irritated red. After he was finished, he let the searing hot water, which didn't even borther him at all, wash away all the soap. Grabbing his favorite shampoo, he lathered it into his hair, rubbing it into his scalp. With a satisified sigh, he let the water wash all the shampoo out, along with anything that had been in his hair or on his scalp.

InuTaishou then added the conditioner, which easily took out all the nasty tangles and made his hair more healthy and soft. As it washed out of his hair, a disturbing thought came to him.

' When I was molesting my son...I had actually wanted to take him...'


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Sesshoumaru rolled off his bed and landed on his hands and feet like a cat. His body felt oddly sticky, yet it really didn't bother him. Otherwise, he felt great! He felt more energized and more complete. Both the weak feeling the throbbing headache was gone at last.

The young demon blushed deeply as he vividly remembered what had occured that morning, but he did not regret it at all. The only thing he did not regret was he knew he wasn't InuTaishou's mate...yet.

'...I wonder where father is...? Oh, well, I'll find him later. I should go take a shower first..' Sesshoumaru mused as he yanked on some random pants and pulled on a t-shirt. He exited his room and headed straight towards the bathroom. The boy opened the door only to be frozen in shock at the sight of InuTaishou naked and dripping with water. Somehow, like sweat, the water made the older man's skin glossy and glisten in the light. It was sure an exotic sight to behold and Sesshoumaru loved it.

InuTaishou had been about to grab a towel to dry his soaking wet body off when the door opened and his son stood there stunned, gawking at the older demon. The inu youkai lord frowned, but did nothing but stare at his pup.

Sesshoumaru, always being the obediant and highly intelligent pup, averted his eyes and bowed his head in respect.

"Forgive me, father, I did not know you were in here or in your current...state of undress. I only came in because I wanted to take a shower." Sesshoumaru drawled and turned to leave, only to be stopped by InuTaishou's voice.

"No, take your shower, Sesshoumaru. After you are done, get dressed in fresh clothes and meet me down in the den. I will have...dinner waiting for you. After that, I wish to speak to you. Understood?" The older demon ordered firmly as he wrapped a towel around his waist. His eyes never left Sesshoumaru.

"Yes, sir." Sesshoumaru stood aside and watched as his father passed him. The boy trembled at InuTaishou's power and dominance. But not in fear or anger. He didn't know why, but his father's strengh both impressed and aroused him, as did his dominance. He also didn't know why he loved it when the older youkai was in complete control.

Sesshoumaru rid himself of his dirty clothes and stepped quickly into the shower. He turned the water on hot first to rid himself of...well, of everything that clung to his body that wasn't supposed to. After he was finished scrubbing his taut, slender body, he moved on to wash his hair with shampoo, and eventually conditioner.

What was so strange about Sesshoumaru being so submissive was the sole fact that he was not a submissive youkai. He was never known to submit to anyone, not even his elders. His personality was very dominant and he would do things on his own terms, never by anyone else's. He never let anyone else tell him what to do nor did he ever try to please anyone else.

Except for his father.

InuTaishou was the only one he'd roll on his belly for. He was the only one he'd submit without question, without hesitation for. And Sesshoumaru loved submitting to his father. It never struck him as wrong and it never felt wrong, so the incest factor did not bother him.

The boy was indeed nervous; InuTaishou wanted to talk to him, and it had sounded serious, too.

Sesshoumaru squeezed the water out of his hair and stepped out of the shower. He tried himself off as best as he could and he stood in front of the mirror, scrutinizing himself. He frowned as he examined his own body.

'Maybe I should work out more...' He thought to himself and then wrapped a towel around his slender hips. He carefully combed his wet hair and once he was satisfied that his hair was tangle-free, he left the bathroom. Once he entered his room, the young youkai pulled on some blood red silk boxers and looked for fresh clothes in his closet.

'...What should I wear...?...' Sesshoumaru mused, but soon resigned to wear something simple, yet unconsciously sexy. He grabbed a pair of black shorts and pulled them on quickly and put on a maroon long-sleeved shirt. He only buttoned it up enough so it was deemed appropriate, yet the creamy flesh of his chest could be seen.

He didn't believe it was respectful to see his father with wet hair, so he blow-dried his beautiful hair and brushed it. He checked himself out in the mirror to make sure he looked satisfactory. With a small smirk, he left his room and tried to not make haste to get to his father faster...


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InuTaishou, after having set the delicious dinner on the table, paced back and forth in the den. He was nervous and conflicted.

'...What have I done to the boy? When he saw me in the bathroom, he looked like a doe caught in the headlights. And yet, I could smell his arousal. But why? Why would I arouse him so? Its my fault. What I did to him earlier has confused him. I must make this right...' InuTaishou mused, too distracted to notice his pretty son enter the den.

"Father?" Sesshoumaru shyly asked, not sure whether he should move closer or not. His father was the alpha, afterall.

"Oh, Sesshoumaru...I did not hear you come in. Come, sit down. Eat. We will talk when you finish." The inuyoukai lord instructed and then left the room to make a quick phone call to his company. He had to have some reason to recollect himself because his son's beauty took his breath away.

Sesshoumaru pushed his food around on his plate with his chopsticks. His father was a great cook and the boy loved to eat the food he cooked, but he was just not hungry. His stomach was all in knots and his chest felt awfully constricted. The thought of his father being displeased and disappointed with him for not eating forced Sesshoumaru to eat.

After he had finished eating, the young demon put away the leftovers and washed the dishes. Then, as soon as he was finished with that, he sat on one of the den's couches, awaiting his father.

Minutes later, Sesshoumaru's cell phone, which was in his shorts, vibrated. With a sigh, he fished it out of his ample pocket and answered the call.

"Hello."

"Good afternoon, Sesshoumaru! This is Kian, Shippou's father. I tried to reach you this morning, but no one answered..." Spoke the pleasant, light voice of the fox demon.

"I was still sleeping. I had a rough night. What is it that you want, Kian?" Sesshoumaru replied, his voice the usual bored, emotionless drawl.

"Oh, really? If its been such a horrible night for you, I can find someone else. You are a family friend and I don't want to make you suffer..." Kian replied, truly not wanting to make Sesshoumaru's day any more worse.

"You need someone to babysit Shippou." Sesshoumaru stated, not asked. Sometimes it annoyed him at how sensitive tha fox youkai was, but mostly, it touched him in a way. Kian was one of the very few who ever showed him any concern at all. He never tried to strut his seniority and nor did he ever attempt to boss the younger youkai around. It was as if Kian treated the boy...more than an equal. Of course, Kian's family had always been close friends with the InuTaishou family, and they were the only ones there to offer any comfort and solace whenever InuTaishou's mates or pups passed away.

"Well, hai, I do, but..." Kian was hesitant; he never liked to force Sesshoumaru to do anything. The inu youkai boy was like a son to him, in a way.

"What time? I have nothing to do, anyway. You know I babysit your son on a regular daily basis, Kian."

"I know, but usually I don't have you babysit him on weekends..." Kian sighed.

"Usually you are free on weekends..." Sesshoumaru's eyebrow quirked; he knew Kian always made sure he had weekends off so he could spend more time with his young son, Shippou.

"I got called into work today. And tomorrow. Your father is taking time off of work, so I have to fill in for him. Not that I mind, by the way. Speaking of your father, is he alright? Its about time he take some time off for himself. .."

"Its my fault he took time off from work. He's concerned about me and wants to look after me..." Sesshoumaru confessed and he was disappointed and angry with himself. His father had to put up with a depressed little suicidial boy.

"No, I think he's finally realized he needs to pay more attention to you, Sessh. I do not fault him at all for anything. I know he's having a hard time, especially with recent events. I know its been hard on you, too. Just know that I have a rather big taste of what you two are going through. Remember, my mate was killed a year after Shippou's birth..."

"Why do they always have to die, Kian? They never deserved it. InuYasha was only an innocent pup..." Sesshoumaru could hardly contain himself. His repressed sorrow and pain was leaking through, desperately trying to free itself.

"I believe they don't have to die. I believe that the Devil Himself has his pawns take them away from us so He can break us. So he can do with us as he will. You are not alone, Sessh, you have your father to lean on. Just make sure your father has you to lean on, as well."

"I know. I will do whatever he lets me do." Sesshoumaru replied thoughtfully.

"Good. I have to go now, Sesshoumaru-sama. I will drop Shippou off at your house in about an hour. Until then, Ja Ne."

"Bye."

After that moment, InuTaishou chose to walk into the den, his face grim.



TBC


Yeah, I know its a bit sappy and angsty in this chapter, but its essential for a good fic, ya know? The next chapter should be longer and maybe I'll put some nice lime in it, too.


To My Reviewers:

Kasey-Thanks, I appreciate it! ^^

YoukaiObsessed-Yup, evil cliffies, and there will be more cliffies GALORE! ^_^ hee hee... Don't worry, things will get hotter. Oh, and thanks for reviewing!

Atocha-Yeah, there's too much inuTaishou/Sesshoumaru rape fics out there. Some of them are good though, in the morbid sense, because they are a take on why Sesshoumaru is the way he is when he's older. Oh, don't worry, there will be plenty of fun in this fic. Afterall, this fic has only begun. I anticipate how its going to transform into and turn out as. ^^ You know, you gave me an idea. You should see what that idea is in a couple of chapters or so. Thanks! ^^

Shadedfaith-Thanks ^^, I understand, I hate cliffies, too, but it only makes you anxious for me, eh? What kind of cookies I get? o_o

Eye of Ra-Lol, you sound like me! I dunno if thats good or bad, but methinks I don't care. Yesh, I love writing evil cliffhangers as well. Oh yeah, thanks for both your reviews, even if one cut off, lol! Yeah, seme InuTaishou and uke Sesshy are good together, too, methinks. I never saw InuTaishou as a bad guy, but more...well, you know, a bit stern, firm, but a good guy, you know? At least, that's my take on him.

Ja, I want to see where this story leads. This one...is a bit more difficult because I like to keep it...a bit realistic, with lots of conflicts, you know? Some stuff is harder to write than others. I hope that as I write, that I do stress enough that Sess's feelings for his father had stemmed for awhile now and that they didn't just pop out of nowhere because of that one morning. And of course...InuTaishou is going to be rather conflicted and stubborn, you know... I always thought InuTaishou was more like Inuyasha, too, so InuTaishou is gonna be hard-headed, too, lol...