Forgive me Father

FLASHBACK – Inuno’s Dream


Inuyasha tripped over the step into Sesshoumaru’s room, falling almost right on his face he heard Sesshoumaru laugh drunkenly. Inuyasha knew that he was drunk and admitted it, but he doubted that the full demon would come to terms that a human drink had any effect on him.

“Pick yourself up off the floor Inuyasha.” The demon lord tried to sound imposing. But failed miserably as he swayed as he took another step into the small quarters that he was occupying for the present time. Flopping over to face his verbal assaulter Inuyasha tried to come up with some kind of a comeback but all his throat managed was a growl and then a yelp as Sesshoumaru picked him
up off the floor.

“I was getting to that!” the Hanyou struggled to release himself from the tight grasp that held him. Sesshoumaru didn’t give him the time to wiggle free. He was already moving into the apartment.

Inuyasha soon found himself in mid air. Tossed towards a bed. Flipping and landing on his feet just before the bed he stumbled drunkenly, slipped and fell on his ass.

The place smelt of Sesshoumaru. ‘This has to be his room’ Inuyasha thought to himself as he looked around from his position on the floor. The bed was already placed in the middle of the floor. An English style bookcase was only about a foot from the further edge, there was a desk in the corner and books scattered on it. ‘I wonder what all of the books are for’ Inuyasha thought to himself before looking back at Sesshoumaru.

Sesshoumaru was standing in front of him, with a look in his eyes that Inuyasha had never seen before, ‘yup he’s drunk off his ass to’ Inuyasha thought and smiled up at the older youkai.

“Now if you will just admit it. Join me in my drunken stupor as we drown away the memories of our mates that died.” Inuyasha thought that he had only thought that.

“Admit what Inuyasha?”

“Eh?” Inuyasha looked up at Sesshoumaru. ‘Is he reading my thoughts…?’

“What is it that you wanted me to admit?”

“Are you drunk?”

“Possibly, is this what like feels drunk?”

“Yeah you drunk”

“What do people do when drunk?”

“Stuff. Most stuff they don’t remember.”

“Oh? You mean that they could do something that they don’t normally do and wouldn’t remember?


“Yeah” Inuyasha said as he yawned, unprepared for the invasion that ensued. Sesshoumaru was kissing him, not only that but his tongue was in his mouth. Inuyasha tried to push the youkai off him, Sesshoumaru stopped.

“Something that I have wanted but wouldn’t do” he breathed before kissing Inuyasha again. Inuyasha had yet to close his mouth before the youkai was kissing him again, his tongue again in his mouth. Pulling back Inuyasha felt Sesshoumaru cup his and and lock him in the kiss. Biting down slightly Inuyasha tried to get Sesshoumaru to realize that pain means back off. Inuyasha dug his claws into Sesshoumaru’s arms as he pulled to get them off him.

Inuyasha heard the demon growl in pleasure.

‘Shit he is the kind that likes pain… all that I just did was turn him on.’ Inuyasha moved his left hand to Sesshoumaru’s shoulder and pushed hard. Sesshoumaru’s claws dug into the tender skin around his chin and neck. Inuyasha pushed again only to have his hand captured. ‘Not good.’ Inuyasha continued to struggle against the demon above him. Inuyasha twisted his wrist in attempt to free it, but Sesshoumaru’s grip was like iron and unforgiving.

Inuyasha could feel his lips bruising as Sesshoumaru seemed to need to claim his whole mouth. Sesshoumaru fangs grazed Inuyasha’s gums as Sesshoumaru took the kiss to another level. Attempting to free the other arm, and as Sesshoumaru pressed against him, Inuyasha fell back against the bed.

His struggle became frenzied. Fear reeked from the hanyou. Sesshoumaru was everywhere he filled Inuyasha’s senses. Sesshoumaru placed his weight on the hanyou to keep him pinned below him. Inuyasha tried to wiggle free. No matter what he tried he couldn’t get away. Sesshoumaru was pressed into him; Inuyasha could feel the force that was driving the Inu youkai. Every thing that Inuyasha did seemed only to urge Sesshoumaru on.

Sesshoumaru finally retreated from Inuyasha’s mouth after what Inuyasha was sure was an eternity. Sesshoumaru stared down at him intoxicated by the sight and smell of Inuyasha sweaty and needy beneath him.

“Stop” Inuyasha begged. He didn’t like the way that things were progressing; he didn’t like the feeling of being trapped under Sesshoumaru. Smiling down at the hanyou, Sesshoumaru pulled the captive appendages above Inuyasha’s head where they would be more manageable. Gripping them both in his right hand, Sesshoumaru’s left hand was free to torment, as was his mouth.
Inuyasha felt Sesshoumaru’s other hand trail down his arm. ‘He’s not going to stop’ his mind raced not noticing that the hand had left his arm and was untying his pants. Until he felt the slight tug as Sesshoumaru removed them altogether. Inuyasha was breathing in ragged gasps. Inuyasha persisted in fighting back. Inuyasha wiggled, bucked, pushed and kicked at Sesshoumaru in his attempt to get him off. Sesshoumaru could only grin as his prisoner’s body responded to his every command, as he passed his hands gently over the newly exposed skin, if he could only get the hanyou to arch… Opening the folds of Inuyasha’s haori Sesshoumaru taught the hanyou real torment.

Looking down into his prey’s eyes, Sesshoumaru’s smile mirror wickwicked intent, fear sprang up in Inuyasha again as he felt his brother take his sensitive ear into his mouth. Resorting to the last thing that he could do Inuyasha screamed, he screamed in pain as Sesshoumaru bit down, he screamed in pleasure as Sesshoumaru licked the tender wound that had just been inflicted, and he screamed for help. The sound momentarily stopped Sesshoumaru, but then he bit again, harder this time. Inuyasha didn’t stop ‘why wasn’t anyone coming, surly some human would respond to … oh god did he sound like he was enjoying this? But the screams someone would come and tell them to be quiet!’

No help came to his call. Sesshoumaru descended again on Inuyasha’s mouth, this time to shut him up. He heard Inuyasha’s muffled gasp as Sesshoumaru’s free hand traveled down and gripped Inuyasha’s throbbing errection.
“Are you going to stop screaming?” Sesshoumaru asked as he momentarily released his lips from Inuyasha’s. The hanyou was in a sorry state, covered in a layer of sweat, tears streaming down his face, bruised lips, and a look of helplessness in his eyes. Sesshoumaru squeezed. A flash of lust betrayed Inuyasha, as his body arched into Sesshoumaru. Sesshoumaru nearly took him right there. Inuyasha did desire him even if he had to keep it hidden it was there.

“Good” was all that Sesshoumaru said, he then released Inuyasha’s core. Sesshoumaru was doing something but Inuyasha couldn’t feel what.

‘Oh god… is he going to get undressed too?’ Inuyasha could barely hear himself think. Sesshoumaru looked back to Inuyasha as he straddled him. There was something in his right hand; it looked like some kind of a cloth. Inuyasha thought for a split second that his mouth would be invaded again and turned his head away in an attempt to make this as difficult as he could. But the attack never came. Instead he felt the silk ribbons snake around his wrists.

“IIE! Sesshoumaru! Stop! Onegai!” Inuyasha pleaded as he struggled with renewed vigor. Sesshoumaru wrapped the ribbons around the foot of the bookcase tying them securely he let go.

“Beautiful” escaped his lips. Sesshoumaru looked down at his prize, just waiting there to be claimed. Inuyasha didn’t like the look on Sesshoumaru’s face. It made his stomach do a flip. Anticipation for what he would do welled inside him, Inuyasha bit his lip. ‘Oh god-’ was all that he got to think before he felt Sesshoumaru slowly wiggle downward. Inuyasha couldn’t watch. He wanted nothing more than to forget the fact of what was happening. Closing his eyes Inuyasha found was the worse thing that he could have done as he felt himself arch into Sesshoumaru’s mouth as Sesshoumaru sucked on his nipple. Inuyasha opened his eyes to see silver hair sprawled around him. Inuyasha whimpered as Sesshoumaru bit down. Leaving his now tender prize Sesshoumaru stalked out new territory, leaving a trail of hot kisses as he traveled to Inuyasha’s awaiting nub. Blissful torment ensued. Inuyasha couldn’t contain the gasps and moans that ensued as Sesshoumaru tormented his skin, until he finally sat up again.
Sesshoumaru placed one hand firmly on Inuyasha, keeping him in place as he forced the hanyou’s legs apart. A whimper escaped Inuyasha as he closed his eyes. ‘He’s actually going to do this.’ Inuyasha pulled franticly against the bonds that held him. Time stopped as Inuyasha watched Sesshoumaru lick his finger.

‘What does he plan to do with that?’ Inuyasha thought to himself as he watched Sesshoumaru with the finger still in his mouth get off Inuyasha and move to a position between the hanyou’s legs taking the now dripping wet finger from his mouth Sesshoumaru then slid his finger into Inuyasha. Wide-eyed Inuyasha was afraid to move. Afraid to do much more than breathe. Enjoying this new development Sesshoumaru twitched his finger. Inuyasha growled in heightened passion. Sesshoumaru did it again,
Getting the same reaction, then again. Pleased with his hanyou’s reaction Sesshoumaru soon started to move in and out along with stroking Inuyasha’s insides with a motion similar to that of motioning someone to come towards him.

Gasping Inuyasha continued to plea “Onegai,” in short gasped breaths, he wasn’t sure if he wanted Sesshoumaru to stop or to continue anymore. His ‘please’ was translated to Sesshoumaru as a ‘please release me’ as Sesshoumaru removed his finger and Inuyasha found himself whining at Sesshoumaru’s tactical retreat.

Inuyasha howled as Sesshoumaru thrust into him. Quickly silencing him with hisd. Sd. Sesshoumaru continued.

Thrusting slowly at first, then quickening the pace as his need for release increased. A fresh flood of tears was pouring from Inuyasha’s eyes. Inuyasha bit down on the hand that was pressed against his mouth. He drew blood; he bit harder, trying to make Sesshoumaru stop. Feeling Sesshoumaru spazz and stop, Inuyasha knew that Sesshoumaru had cum. Sesshou only paused there to enjoy Inuyasha’s tightness for a minute before he attacked again.

Removing his hand from Inuyasha’s mouth Sesshoumaru went down, he took Inuyasha’s cock in one hand as he ran his tongue over the tip, swirling it around just below the head.

“IIE, Sesshoumaru!” Inuyasha gasped as Sesshoumaru took him into his mouth. It didn’t take long to get him to cum, four or five good sucks and Sesshoumaru found himself swallowing his hanyou’s seed. Sesshoumaru slid out from his advantage point and lined himself with Inuyasha, one arm wrapped it’s self around Inuyasha before the demon lord of the western lands fell asleep.
Inuyasha was not blessed enough to sleep after that. No matter how hard he tried he couldn’t get the knots to untie. His hands were still trapped by the bookcase when Sesshoumaru woke next to him in the morning.

Yawning and stretching Sesshoumaru was greeted with a deep growl. Looking over at Inuyasha Sesshoumaru calreacreached up and undid the knots in an instant. Blood shot it’s way up Inuyasha’s arms as he pulled them down from above his head. Sesshoumaru took one of Inuyasha’s hands in his and after refusing to let it go he massaged the feeling back into it.
Inuyasha glared at him the whole time that he did. Inuyasha growled when Sesshoumaru went to switch hands. It was but a matter of seconds before he had this one in his own hands as well. Sesshoumaru put Inuyasha’s other hand down as the fellinturnturned to it too.

“I’m sorry” Sesshoumaru sighed.

Inuyasha growled. Then tried to sit up, only to immediately fall back down to the bed.

“My ass hurts” Inuyasha whined.

“It will for a few more hours. Possibly until tomorrow”

“How the fuck do you know?!”

“I have been told, most say that their first time hurts the most”

Inuyasha growled. “Why the hell did you do that to me?”

“I have wanted to make love with you for a long time now … but I had never planned on raping you.”

Inuyasha stared at his half-brother. “You what!”

“You can’t tell me that you didn’t enjoy at least some of last night, I do recall you moaning while I was inside of you.”

Inuyasha blushed. “Still you fucking raped me!”

“But you liked it”

“No I didn’t like that!” Inuyasha yelled in Sesshoumaru’s face then added quietly “I don’t like being forced into submission.”

“Then I guess that I am going to have to get you partake a more active role next time.”

“Yeah fucking right, I won’t ever let you do that to me again!”

“I’ll make you eat those words Inuyasha” Sesshoumaru threatened.

“Go to hell Sesshoumaru” Inuyasha tried to roll over. Tears sprang to his eyes as fresh pain shot up his back. “I hate you”

“I’ll get you some food” Sesshoumaru sighed as he got up. He wondered if what he saw last night was a figment of his imagination. He hoped not. He returned with a bowl of rice to find the hanyou biting his lip as he tried in vain to sit up.

“Lie down Inuyasha” Sesshoumaru instructed. Inuyasha growled by was soon back on the bed as Sesshoumaru forced him down. Sesshoumaru then shoved a mound of rice into Inuyasha’s mouth as he began to protest.

“Eat”

Inuyasha grumbled but finished off the rice and continued to let Sesshoumaru to feed him. It was a little awkward to let his brother take care if him, even if it was his fault. Inuyasha found it strangely comforting to have Sesshoumaru there. Inuyasha looked up at Sesshoumaru, ‘maybe he is right. I did like it…but that doesn’t mean that it was right. We shouldn’t have done that in the first place. Mental note to self: never get Sesshoumaru drunk.’ Inuyasha thought as he finally drifted off into a thankfully dreamless sleep.

Inuyasha woke to find he was lying on his stomach and a pleasant sensation hovering around… He was wide-awake now. Inuyasha reted ted his reaction as he twisted around only to land hard on his back.
“What the hell are you do” he” he almost yelled

“Massaging your lower back to help with the pain.”

Inuyasha growled “I don’t need your help”

“I know”

“Then leave me alone!”

“This is my house, as long as you are here, you are in my care.”

Inuyasha looked around, he had forgotten where he was, the place no longer just smelt of Sesshoumaru, it smelt like last night, he smelt his own musk mixed in with Sesshoumaru’s

“Do I have to say here?”

“Yes” was Sesshoumaru’s simple answer as he leaned down and placed a kiss on Inuyasha’s forehead.

“Hentai”

“I could do much worse Inuyasha and you know that” Sesshoumaru smile made Inuyasha blush. “Here, it will help with the pain” Sesshoumaru handed Inuyasha a cup filled with green steaming liquid.

“What is it?”

“It’s not poison”

“No drugs?”

“Just painkillers”

“You aren’t planning on taking me again are you?”

“Sometime, hopefully soon, but you have to get better first.”
Inuyasha stared blankly at Sesshoumaru.

“Drink your tea, Inuyasha I will not be taking you again today.” Sesshoumaru helped Inuyasha sit up. Wincing Inuyasha drew blood from his lip to keep himself from screaming as Sesshoumaru leaned him against his mortal enemy from last night, the bookshelf.

Inuyasha growled a warning at the bookshelf then felt something warm press against his lips looking up he seen Sesshoumaru backing off. He had licked the trace amount of blood off Inuyasha’s lip.

“I wsee see you soon Inuyasha, I don’t think that you will be able to move before sunset, and if you can….” Sesshoumaru let his words sink in before he slid out of the room. Inuyasha knew what he meant, if he was well enough to be up and about he was well enough to have Sesshoumaru in him again. The thought alone made him queasy, or was that the butterflies in his stomach?
Inuyasha watched the sun dip below the horizon, he had lost the day sleeping while Sesshoumaru had massaged his lower half. Inuyasha found himself dozing off again.

Sesshoumaru half expected to see Inuyasha gone from his apartment and attempting to hide somewhere in the city, he wasn’t ready for what he seen when he walked in.

Inuyasha was asleep against the bookshelf where he had left him, only his sent was different, Inuyasha was…human. Sesshoumaru walked briskly across the room and picked up the strange black haired Inuyasha. Holding him in his lap Sesshoumaru mumbled

“Inuyasha?” Sesshoumaru gently shook Inuyasha.

“Erm…” Inuyasha mumbled and snuggled into the warmth that surrounded him.

“Inuyasha” Sesshoumaru breathed, he hadn’t felt the need to have a human since Rin, ready or not Inuyasha was going to loose again tonight if he didn’t wake up soon. Sesshoumaru couldn’t stop himself from cupping Inuyasha’s chin inhaling the sweet sent. He leaned down and kissed the sleeping human. To his surprise Inuyasha kissed back, nothing substantial but the movement was there even if it was unconsciously. Sesshoumaru ran his tongue across Inuyasha’s lower lip begging to be granted access.

Inuyasha looked up his eyes half open; he squirmed in Sesshoumaru’s lap until he was straddling the youkai. Sesshoumaru gripped Inuyasha’s slim waist, still itching to be inside. Inuyasha groaned and allowed Sesshoumaru into his mouth.
Sesshoumaru didn’t know if Inuyasha was dreaming or if he was, but he didn’t want this to end. Sesshoumaru searched the honeyed confines of Inuyasha’s mouth, growling as Inuyasha imitated, and fought for his own intrusion on Sesshoumaru.

“Inuyasha” Sesshoumaru gasped as he broke the kiss

“Mmmm” Inuyasha replied as he rested his head on Sesshoumaru’s.

“It is no longer today. Your human form is going to be your undoing.”

Somewhere in the back of Inuyasha’s mind things made sense.

“Human?” the word sounded foreign to Inuyasha, ‘tonight is the new moon… now he knows’ Inuyasha thought to himself.

“Yes human,” Sesshoumaru mumbled as he kissed Inuyasha again.

‘HUMAN! If I can’t keep him off as a hanyou how the hell am I supposed to do anything against him as a human?!’ the thought crossed Inuyasha’s mind.

“Sesshoumaru… Onega-”

“Gomen Inuyasha” Sesshoumaru cut him off. For the first time that day Inuyasha realized that he had yet to put clothes on. Sesshoumaru ran his hand over the fragile human skin of Inuyasha.

Inuyasha’s breathing quickened. The emotions were worse as a human. He could hardly keep back from forcing Sesshoumaru down. Every touch lit his skin on fire. Inuyasha knew that he wouldn’t be able to take much of this. Inuyasha felt Sesshoumaru twitch as he was brought back to reality of the fact that he had been letting his hands roam Sesshoumaru’s chest.
Inuyasha blushed. “Gomen” he breathed but he didn’t mean it and Sesshoumaru knew that. Between Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha, Sesshoumaru lost his haori fast.

‘Maybe human blood isn’t that bad.’ Sesshoumaru thought to himself as he readied a much more willing Inuyasha for his second time. Little did they both know that the second time would turn into a third and then a fourth.


(AN: mwahahahaha evil author and no lemon. I figured that the first one was good enough)

Inuyasha woke the next morning fully back to being a hanyou, also fully aware of what he had done the night before. ‘Oh god…. Things have gone from bad to worse? Why did I give into him? God he was good! I shouldn’t think that!’ Inuyasha’s thoughts were all over the place, as he knew better than to sit up yet. Sesshoumaru walked into the room holding a bowl of what Inuyasha could tell was rice.

“Can I ask one thing Sesshoumaru?”

“What would that be?”

“Can I have tonight to just sleep?”

“Sure, now eat you missed lunch and supper yesterday.”

“Yes… brother” Inuyasha couldn’t help but smile as the great lord of the western lands blushed and forced a heap of rice in
Inuyasha’s mouth. Inuyasha spent the rest of the day being entertained and fed by Sesshoumaru and reading the books that were located with in reach on the bookshelf. When night came Sesshoumaru was true to his wond tnd the Inu Youkai held Inuyasha but didn’t attempt to go any further. That was the first night that Inuyasha had enjoyed sleeping since Kagome had gotten sick.
Inuyasha had finally gotten over the ache that had followed Sesshoumaru’s second lovemaking attempt, no wonder Rin died with child, who could take that. Inuyasha was walking out the stiff muscles that occurred when spending any length of time in bed. Sesshoumaru had almost been hesitant to let him go out, after repeatedly promising that he would come back Sesshoumaru reluctantly agreed, it had taken him longer to get the now protective Inu youkai to let him go by himself.
The market was alive and fresh, but the insides of his thighs still pained him. Inuyasha paused for a moment, in an ally to massage them a bit when he heard a voice behind him.

“Inuyasha! Inuyasha!” the kitsune pounced towards him, dragging him to the ground.

“Shippo you little runt where have you been?”

“Was that you?” the young adult kitsune asked with concern.

“Was what me?”

“Three nights ago, I heard something howling in such pain that it sent shivers down my spine.”

“Why would you think that it was me?”

“Cause you are walking funny”

Inuyasha hit Shippo on the head.

“Baka”

“What happened Inuyasha? I know that it was you! What could make you make such a horrible sound?”

“Something that you don’t want to know about Shippo”

“So you admit that it was you!”

“Shimatta”

“TELL ME”

“ No”

“Inuyasha why is it that you smell of another Youkai?”

“Eh?”

“You” Shippo smelt the air around Inuyasha. “Smell like…Sesshoumaru”

“EH?” Inuyasha tried to think of an excuse fast. “We were having a fight”

“But this is a different smell…” Shippo tried to place the smell, when he stopped suddenly and looked like he was going to get sick.

No denying it now, there was no doubt in Inuyasha’s mind that Shippo smelt the musk that remains on a youkai, and on their partner, for several days after mating.

“Shippo, are you going to be alright?”

“Br- he is your…”

“Yeah”

The kitsune squeaked as it fainted.

- can anyone figure out how i picked the titles?
HINT 1: try honesty