Collection of Inuyasha Song Fics

~*~Hey! First of all, for this to make sense, I suggest you go and read my other fic "A Love That Transcends Time". This is a song fic for Kikyou. I still can't believe I'm doing this! :D

This is for Sabi-chan and Catesy and to all of my other readers. Hope you get a kick out of this one again!

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~*~How Could An Angel Break My Heart~*~

My heart quickened as I felt him near… it’s been too long since we last saw each other. Him—the man who betrayed me yet at the same time, offered his life for me…


~I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine…~


Yes, he did promise me that his life is mine… mine to do with whatever I pleased. And I find that it would comfort me to know that he’s with me even after death… even in Hell. To know that he would willingly go there with me and endure all the tortures by my side–it would give me the peace I need and dish out the vengeance I vowed I would get.

But now… Now, it appears someone else has a hold on him. Someone else owns a piece of his soul and his life… and his heart…

‘She’s marked him…’


~I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found it so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me…~


I could almost see it happening in my mind. The two of them embracing each other, with him whispering sweet words and promises in her ears. And she believes in him. Like I did…

Then their lips met, a joining beyond words. And that thought I couldn’t bear. I was his first kiss—the first person he opened up to. The first person that understood him—but can never accept his heritage. The issue is too great, with my being a miko and all.

But that didn’t matter when passion and longing called. And I, in my weakness, allowed him to kiss me despite of my resolve not to be touched by him…


~How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn’t he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn’t wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart?~


I wonder if he found her kisses much more to his liking than mine did. That girl seems to be full of life always, warm and giving. The exact opposite of me—her being my reincarnation is an irony. She’s nothing like me…

I find myself drowning in misery s I imagine them making love. The way he holds her and caresses her… that should have been me. I should have been the one in her place had our plan succeeded. I should have been the one he makes love to every night, the only one who’ll know his body like he will know mine. The one who should have been his mate…
I don’t know how he allowed it to happen when he knew he owed me. He said,

“My life is yours… just as yours is mine,”

I thought that meant forever, that I am really his destiny. That all the things he said about loving me are true. Only, it’s all a lie…


~I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name…~


I know she can never compare. What we had together can never be usurped by anything or anyone. We’ve been thru too much—passion, love, betrayal. We loved each other for a long time to simply just forget about it. He’s been mine from the start and he’ll still be mine in the end…

Yet that belief ended the moment he told me he loved her. My arrogance waned in the face of his confession. I wanted to yell at him; to let him know just how much he hurt me again by his betrayal. I wanted to weep over the pitiful dilemma I’m facing.

He’s the only one I had left—the reason why I came back to life. Be it for love or revenge never mattered. But even that is being taken away from me…


~I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn’t make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me…~


He told me loved her; more than he loved me and more than his life. That hurt and rattled me, because I know he loved me so much before. And for her to mean so much more…

I refused to see why he would now choose her over me. I refuse to believe that my reincarnation could actually replace me in his heart and be so much more to him. Then I remembered his words and cannot refute the truth behind them…

She mated with him even while he’s still a hanyou; I had to wait for him to become human before I would let him touch me. She accepted him as he is and loves him for it; I understood him, yes. But I can never accept the fact that I would love a demon. It’s unacceptable. She trusted him like trusts her and she believes in him no matter what.

That is one thing that we never had together: Trust. Because we were afraid to take a chance and be betrayed in the end. The kind of love we had is unusual and unheard of; a priestess and a half-demon. We are enemies by who we are. We were born and created to be what we are chosen to be. And fearing it isn’t really love, I refused to give him my trust. And in doing so, he never gave his. That is what destroyed us…


~Oh, my soul is crying
It’s dying
I’m trying to understand
Please help me…~


I cannot blame him now for preferring her to me. She became what I can never be and loved him completely like I can never ever do. That’s why he loved her…

I feel as though he is betraying me once again, like the one over fifty years ago. How I wished
I was really dead at that moment so I cannot feel this soul-shattering pain I’m experiencing. Knowing and understanding his reasons did nothing to squelch my fury… or my anguish. I acted on instinct alone, not caring that I’m dealing with the very devil who made my downfall.

I know I may regret it, but I brushed the thought away, consumed by my jealousy and rage to care anymore. I would have my revenge no matter what the cost…


~How could an angel break my heart?
Why didn’t he catch my falling star?
I wish I didn’t wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart…~


Decisions are made and bargains struck. There’s no going back now. I will ruin him and have him still in the end. The fires of Hell will scorch me even more so as I do this, but no matter. All that matters is that we’ll be together.

Oh, but how I wish I could turn back time and bask in his adoration once again. To wish that I could have had her strength and courage to love him with all I have and still be willing to let him go if he chose. And to trust him like I never did.

Maybe then things would change. Maybe then I’d still be alive. Maybe then we’ll still be together… And I want him to know that I did, and I still do, love him in my own strange way. That is why I’m doing this…


~How could an angel break my heart…~


Free to hate… and free to love. I choose to keep my love alive and drown in my revenge…

~*~So what did you guys think? The song is How Could An Angel Break My Heart by Toni Braxton. A great song, if I may say so. Hope you review! tc!~*~