With Love

Chapter Twenty-nine: Losing but Winning

Warnings: Sexual Content

Inuyasha felt the girl standing next to him tense and turned his head. A frown replaced the easy smile on his face to mock the one Sango was now wearing. That one had a lot of nerve to walk around with that tart at his side. Where the hell was Kagome or Botan when they were needed? He had the urge to go ask the man what his problem was. Of all the ways to get to the cafeteria the fox had to come this way with his latest fling. How did the man expect the girl to get over him while he showed off the one that had done the replacing? He should be more than angry that Sango was being forced to go through with it. Since the prom she’d been putting on a brave front but he wasn’t fooled and neither were her friends. The girl was still hurting. “Shit, I forgot to grab a notebook from my locker. Want to walk with me Sango?”


“Sure, I need to hit the bathroom on the way.” She turned from the pair strolling towards them. She couldn’t watch them, it stung. Only two weeks to go before graduation then she’d never have to see him again. Unlike Kagome or Botan she’d already decided to stay away from Onigumo’s and any other place the guys tended to hang out at. It was difficult to hide the tears and the pain. The others were worried about her and she appreciated their concern but this was something she had to deal with on her own. This was her life and her problem. She’d known there was a chance this would happen when she’d gotten involved with him. He’d never stayed with any girl that long so why would she be any different? Just because she’d come to love him didn’t mean he had to return the feelings. No one could dictate or force him to feel things that he didn’t. Perhaps she should be upset over the way he had ended things. It must have been hard for him to find an easy way to let her down. With any luck next time he’d just shove her in front of a speeding truck to get the same impact. Despite him moving on she loved him.


“Alright, so I take it you aren’t going to the party.” Amber eyes met green in a cold stare. He wanted to scold the guy for forcing the situation on Sango. The girl had her head bowed watching her feet instead of watching where she was going. Doing her damn best not to look at the approaching couple. The fox only looked at him for a brief second before turning his eyes to the sullen girl. Did he even care what he’d done? The bastard had something good and had tossed it aside like trash. Inuyasha knew how it felt to realize you’d made a horrible mistake. There was nothing he could do to get Kagome back but he was trying his best to do right by her and her friends by being the best friend he could be. It wasn’t just the physical part of a relationship he hadn’t wanted to lose. Each of the three girls were wonderful in their own way. That guy was a moron and had best remove his eyes before having them gouged out.


“No, I’m not.” There was no way she’d be going to the party even though she’d been invited by Naraku. No doubt Kurama would be going and they were more his friends than hers. Kagome and Botan would go to be with their boyfriends but she was going to stay home. Or head to Karasu’s to work on a few things. She hadn’t gone in all week and the man had called her several times to see what was keeping her. How could she admit that she didn’t feel like doing anything? It was hard just to get up in the morning and go to school. Not that she was lacking the energy, just the motive. Half the nights were spent crying herself to sleep when she wasn’t looking at pictures. Just last night she’d stayed up until after three looking through her yearbook. Most of her friends had already signed it. She’d also gone about taking all the pictures she owned of Kurama and put them all in a special album. That way she didn’t have to look at him if she didn’t want to. It was bad enough she was constantly thinking about him.


“Don’t blame you.” Inuyasha sneered when he sensed more than saw that the fox had stopped in his tracks. If the guy so much as called out one word then he wouldn’t care if he got suspended. Sango kept walking but he stopped to turn and see what the fox thought he was doing. Confusion filled him seeing the fox had stopped to watch the girl walk away. The eyes that had been staring at him in silent anger was locked on Sango’s retreating back. The surge of emotion he saw baffled him. They were hard to pin down and gone quickly. If the man felt anything then what was with the blonde holding onto his arm?



Butterflies had made a home in her stomach as the door shut. Botan felt her nerves doing the jig as the lock clicked into place. Damn, she was so nervous she was sure she was shaking. She had agreed to come up here knowing what he had in mind. There had been no mistaking the look in those crimson eyes as he’d sent the invitation. Where was the boast of courage she’d felt seeing Kagome and Hiei going into the spare bedroom. She could do this! She wanted to and he seemed eager as well. If Sango could get up the guts to give herself to the fox then surely it wasn’t that bad. Not like she didn’t know what to expect. The party was happening out in the living room at full blast. No one would hear her scream. Now if only she could get her feet to move from the spot they were stuck in.


The bed looked empty and almost scary. Was she really ready for this? A hand went to her shoulder to slide down the thin strap holding the dress up. She’d known this would happen when he told her of planning the party for Yusuke. It was to celebrate the upcoming graduation. Exams were over and they’d all be graduating in only seven days. Her and Kagome had come to celebrate with their male counterparts. Sango had stayed home for her own reasons. The girls had picked on her that she’d be walking funny while receiving her diploma. Despite all the foreplay this was going further than what they had before. The firm arm around her waist stated he wasn’t going to let her leave very easily.


Naraku felt the tension in the slim shoulders, she was nervous. It thrilled him to believe that she might indeed be a virgin. If she was then he’d have to go slow or he’d end up hurting her. He traced the outside of a breast while placing a small kiss on her neck. She shivered in front him, urging him to continue. She might be nervous but she wanted it. He could smell the thick scent of her desire drifting up as his thumb raked over a taut nipple. It hardened underneath the flimsy excuse for a dress. His free hand found the zipper in the back. She tensed hearing the sound of it being pulled down.


The material was open in the back letting cool air wash over the naked flesh. There was no turning back as the other strap was pushed aside to slide down her arm. She knew he was done with kissing and necking. They’d been doing plenty of it for an hour before he’d felt she was ready to join him in the bedroom. A crash echoed under the door as the gown pooled to her feet leaving her only in pink panties. A strangled cry filled her throat as a palm cupped and kneaded her left breast. Two fingers were pulling and playing with the erect nipple sending tiny jolts of pleasure to her core. Just that simple touch and she could feel the heat flooding her center.


Teeth scraped over the curve of her throat, he felt himself growing even harder with every whimper she produced. He had to get out of the damn pants before he broke something. “Go lie on the bed for me.” It meant releasing her but she stepped away from him and towards the bed. The precious seconds were needed in order to remove his own clothing and regain some control. Being patient had never been his thing. The mattress dipped under her weight as she crawled to the pillows and got comfortable. He smiled seeing how she was laying on her back with both pale thighs clamped shut. That wouldn’t do at all, that was exactly where he wanted to be.


The flapping in her stomach got worse as he took a step towards her. It’d been one thing to go down on him when she had control, seeing him naked and coming towards her with the large erection had her worried. It hurt the first time on principle, how much worse would the pain be with his size? She trusted him which was the only thing that kept her from running for the door. She blinked and he was on the bed with her, coming to rest at her closed legs. Long, lean fingers got a firm hold on her knees. She blushed as they applied pressure to part them. Her eyes closed as her sex became available to his view. How would he proceed?


His eyes took in the sight of the damp petals nestled between the girl’s creamy thighs. Damn, he could feel the blood rushing through his veins in anticipation. He wanted to bury himself deep and fast. Regardless of her size he wanted to shove every inch of his cock within the wet sheath. Hearing the small pants that were mixed between desire and fear he reached a hand out to touch. The moisture was there, getting thicker as he fondled the slick folds. Testing for proof a digit parted and probed to find the hidden entrance. It roamed and explored looking for a hymen, there wasn’t one. Still unsure, he knew there was another way to find out. He shifted his weight until he was laying on his stomach between her legs. The missing sign could have been torn due to her activities as a cheerleader.


Botan groaned feeling the finger being pushed into her body. The friction was incredible and wasn’t painful at all. It helped her get over the fact that his head was buried between her legs watching what he was doing. She couldn’t see his face since he had his head bowed and the long raven hair was hiding his expression. Her body was producing more of the moisture as he slowly pumped the finger. If his finger felt that damn good she couldn’t imagine how good he’d feel inside. No wonder Kagome and Sango had been doing it so regularly. Was she about to experience what it felt like to have a man possess her? She was panting so hard her mouth had gone dry.


His cock jerked feeling the muscles stretching from just the one finger. She cried out as he added another to join the first. She was so tight getting his dick in was going to take some work and lots of patience. She was wet enough to get the fingers in without much effort but they’d need more to make the initial penetration quicker. He lowered his face until his lips were pressing against the feminine mound. The musky scent of her lust spiked tenfold. His tongue found the small nerve that had been neglected so far.


White heat flared in her core as the licking motion had her squirming. “Naraku!” The tight coil was winding even tighter with the skilled tongue making short work of her clit. Her touch had never felt like that and her body was loving the difference. No longer able to remain still, she fisted hair with both hands as the peak hit a sudden stop then exploded. The orgasm took her by surprise, the strength of it leaving her shaking. “Oh, ah, oh gods.” Another finger was being pushed into her contracting body. The feeling was severe as they pumped fast and hard, stretching the walls.


His fingers were pulled out as the last tremor ended. His tongue ached to clean up the moisture he’d produced but he let it be. The fingers hadn’t let up in his scalp and a few strands were pulled as he maneuvered himself up the shaking form. He knew she was aware as he placed the tip of his shaft to the dripping folds. The tip was rubbing itself in the wetness, preparing himself. Her eyes widened as he pressed forward to embed the engorged head. The walls clamped down around him, refusing to let him go any further. “Relax, I’ll try not to hurt you.” Easier said than done with how tight she was. He captured her mouth, licking the dry lips.


She was being torn in half, she had to be. There was no other way he was fitting. He was taking his time but that might be making it worse. Her body was throbbing as the thick width kept sinking deeper. The feeling was overwhelming, leaving her speechless and forgetting to breath. “Owe,” She hissed when he hit something deep inside sending a jolt of pain into her abdomen. Her eyes flickered down to where they were joined. He wasn’t all the way in yet but she didn’t think she could take anymore, he was already killing her. Damn, he wasn’t fully in and she felt exhausted and abused.


His patience was far gone. Trying to force himself inside had taken several minutes and now he was having to let her adjust to his size. The walls clung to him, tempting him to move, to pleasure her and himself. Another few seconds went by and she bucked her hips impaling him deeper. A low vibrating noise trembled through his chest feeling the tip hit the end of it’s journey. He was in as far as he could go leaving at least three inches unsheathed. Very slowly he began to withdraw, sliding out, the walls pulling at the girth.


Her world spun, he was entering her again. This time it didn’t take as long and wasn’t as intense or painful. It was a strange feeling, the friction took some getting used to. With each time he pulled almost completely out only to thrust back inside she started to enjoy the intense feeling of being stuffed. It was hard to believe that the thickness could be so good. She placed her hands on his shoulder as he picked up the speed. The penetration became one steady smooth motion spreading heat through the muscles wrapped around it.


“Hey Kuwabara,” Sango greeted the large man with a smile as the door opened. She couldn’t believe she’d had the nerve to get out of the car. She had to be out of her mind. It was just a party and both her friends were here and she had an invite, so nothing wrong with her being here also. The returned grin helped her relax a tad bit as she walked inside. The party had quieted down some, only about six people were in the living room. Nice place the older man had. A couple was making out on the couch. She was instantly relieved that neither had red hair. That would have caused her to turn around and run for her car. Did she want to talk to him if he were here? No, because she knew he didn’t want to talk to her. She’d tried to call his phone several times and he’d wasn’t picking up. It had rang several times so the blasted thing was on. When he had his phone off the voice mail automatically picked up. He was ignoring her calls just as he had ignored her presence.


She wouldn’t think about that now. No, she’d made a decision. She wanted to talk to him about something. Even though he’d dumped her she had one regret. It wasn’t having wasted her time with him or that he’d used her. She’d gone with him willingly knowing of what kind of person he was. He’d never promised her anything, or boasted about false feelings. They had tried things out and it hadn’t worked for him. She knew how he felt about her but did he know how she felt about him? There was a good chance he did even if the subject had never been broached. Still, she only had one week before they went on with their lives and she’d probably never see him again. This was a chance for her to corner him and tell him how she felt. It wouldn’t change his mind or make things better between them but she wanted to know that she’d told him at least once.


There was no sign of him, had he left already? Yukina was sitting on a chair talking to a blonde. The very same blonde that had taken her place in Kurama’s bed. Pain laced her chest as said girl spotted her and smiled maliciously. No doubt the fox had already bedded the blonde several times but he was still hanging with her. His next girlfriend? Tears threatened but she fought them back. She knew all of this before coming and had already seen them together at school. Hell everyone was talking about how Kurama’s tastes had dulled. It didn’t make her feel better that people were saying she was better looking than his newest piece. She didn’t want him to want her because she might be prettier. She wanted him to want her because he loved her. Something that would never happen. “Hey, have you seen Kurama around?”


“Um, yeah. I think he’s in the kitchen.” Kuwabara pointed in the direction the fox had went in about five minutes ago. Yusuke had followed him saying something about getting a beer. What was Sango doing here? Was she going to talk to Kurama? Good, Yukina had been telling him that her cousin wasn’t the same since they had split. Some said she’d been the one to do the dumping. Others said it was him that had moved on to his next piece of ass. Gross, considering it was the blonde tart that had come with him. With any luck the two would work things out and get back together. “He should still be in there.”


“Thanks.” The kitchen not the bedroom, a plus. His thing was still sitting there trying to get friendly with Yukina, so unless he’d found another chick to fuck real quick he wouldn’t be in the bedroom. If he had company in there with him she’d have to see if he’d talk to her in private. The answer would most likely be no, he was busy. She’d managed a smile for him one day in the halls and he hadn’t even acknowledged her. Just kept walking, looking away as if she were a stranger. Fine, if he acted that way she’d just blurt it out regardless who was in there with him. She had something to say and would try to get it out. Her feet stopped hearing voices coming from the open doorway.


Yusuke’s voice, the toushin was with him. “I don’t know man, I still don’t like it. Better you than me. I wouldn’t just fork up five hundred like that but I guess it’s no big deal between you two. You should have just handed it to him months ago then he wouldn’t have to go through with it. Why not just admit to losing when it became apparent that you weren’t going to win? “ There was a long pause before he continued. “Or were you still trying to win? Is there something going on that I don’t know about? You haven’t been home lately and with you dumping Sango all of a sudden. What was up with that? Or were you just dating her to begin with as a means to get closer to Botan?”


“In truth yes, that was the initial reason. And we both know that no matter what I would have admitted to your brother would have kept to his pursuit. He wanted to win and he has, he’s slept with her first or is as we speak. He can have the damn money, he’ll need it once his wife finds out. At least I had nothing to risk by fucking her. So I didn’t get to it first, no big loss. Not like he is going to stay with her.” This came from the one she’d been seeking. His voice cut through the thick haze that had settled around her mind.


“Maybe but who the hell knows. I wouldn’t bet on it though, he’s almost as bad as you. I don’t see how you could walk away from Sango like that. You even had me fooled man. I thought you really cared but I guess if anyone knows how to make a girl think she’s special it’s you and him. Pisses me off that you two can use females like that without blinking. You know she has feelings for you. Doesn’t that bother you? What if she loves you? Ever thought about you’ve made her feel?”


“How she feels isn’t my problem,” the reply was cold. “You are no saint either. So save your preaching for your brother. I may take a girl home to fuck tonight but I’m not the one that’s married. Besides what is between me and Sango is over, I should have ended it right after it began. I’ve learned from my mistakes and it won’t happen again. Now if you have nothing better to say move so I can fetch me a beer before my date comes to hunt me down.”


Shame and resentment were only two of the emotions consuming her. Rage, denial, bitterness, pain, sorrow; all were there as the words sank in. Her feet moved her from the doorway as the fridge was heard opening. She only made it a few feet before everything sunk in. Their relationship had begun because he’d wanted to get close to Botan over a fucking bet. A bet between him and Naraku about who would fuck the girl first. She really hadn’t meant anything to him. She’d been a tool that had given him a free piece of ass. He’d used her! Why hadn’t he ended things before it became too late? Why keep using her? Because he hadn’t had to work to get in her panties. She’d been more than willing to give it up with a smile. Every word spoken had been a lie.


All those times he’d touched her or smiled, making her believe she was special. None of it had been real. As Yusuke admitted to, he was good at making a girl feel special even if she wasn’t. She should have known better, what the fuck had made her think she was special enough to make him want her? He hadn’t paid attention to her years prior for a reason. She was an idiot to fall for it. She’d wanted him so much that she’d been more than happy to look pass the obvious. Hadn’t he stated to her face that Botan was his type and NOT her. How many times hadn’t he let her know that she wasn’t what he wanted. She was a fool to hope that he’d ever come to love her.


She paused on her way to the door. Naraku was upstairs winning the bet. Botan was upstairs giving herself to a man she thought cared for her. Instead she was nothing more than a bet. Anger filled her as thoughts of her friend came to mind. No, she wouldn’t let Botan be used as she had been. She wouldn’t stand by and remain quiet like the others had. Yusuke might not have gotten involved because Naraku was his brother and Hiei might not have known but she did now. Her feelings were one thing but she couldn’t walk away not after what she’d heard. It wasn’t her place to beat the shit out of him but she’d stop Botan and let her know before the damage could be done.


A couple was shoved out of her way as she made her way to the bedroom. Her eyes were burning as she came to the only closed door, they had to be in there. She heard Kagome calling her name but ignored the questioning look. Her fist came down on the door with enough force to shake it. All conversation stopped as she screamed for the blue haired girl on the other side. “Botan! Answer the fucking door now. Botan! Botan!” she didn’t care that someone turned off the radio as she screamed. Kagome was touching her elbow in a concerned gesture. Let everyone know what kind of bastard the man was. She wouldn’t let him win.


The wooden frame swung open to reveal a displeased Naraku. She scowled past her tears seeing that he was very much naked and erect. “Get the hell out of my way now before I break that off, you sorry son of a bitch.” She was too late, they had already slept together. Seeing her friend covering herself with the blanket confirmed it. Most likely she’d interrupted the process but she didn’t care. She shoved by the man and went into the room. “Get up and get dressed, we are leaving.” She didn’t want to scream it out now that a crowd was forming. It was embarrassing for her she could only guess how Botan would feel.


“What? What is the matter with you? Are you out of your mind? Do you have any idea what you interrupted?” Botan felt her cheeks go red but Naraku was just standing there with his arms crossed. What was wrong? What was so important that her friend couldn’t have waited until she’d come down? Whatever it was could wait. Hopefully he wouldn’t be pissed at her that her friend had come barging in during their first time together. “No, leave. I’m not going anywhere, I was planning on staying the night here. Kagome should have told you this before you came pounding on the door. Go away, please.”


“You’re a bet!” The words slipped out before she could stop them. She didn’t want Botan to stay believing a lie. That got everyone’s attention and a murmur went down the hall. She could feel eyes boring into her, probably his knowing she was about to interrupt his fucking score. If Botan wouldn’t come quietly then she’d have no choice but to reveal what was upsetting her. So be it, they weren’t in the wrong here. “I didn’t want to tell you here but I will not let you stay another minute with him. Don’t you understand? You are nothing but a bet, a fucking bet!”


“What are you talking about?” Kagome spoke up from her spot in the doorway. What was Sango talking about? What bet? Theirs? No cause she had already won that and it had nothing to do with Botan and Naraku. Whatever it was Sango was close to tears and Botan looked confused. She felt Hiei’s hand land on her shoulder trying to draw her away. Kurama and Yusuke had also joined them, coming to stop just outside the door. “What bet?”


“The bet between Kurama and Naruku. It was to see which one got to fuck her first. I just heard them in the kitchen.” She turned to glare at the two men standing behind Kagome both with different expressions. She saw the guilt on Yusuke’s face but couldn’t read Kurama’s. “I heard both of them talking. You are a bet Botan. Five hundred to whichever got you in bed first. We both remember him hitting on you all of a sudden. Why else do you fucking think he dated me?” She didn’t bother to stop the tears that had started to fall. It was the truth, the first he’d told where she was concerned. “Oh, and the real kicker is that the bastard is married. He has a wife, her name is Kagura.”


“No!” Botan felt her world crash around her. She’d pictured what things would be like right after they’d been together. This wasn’t the way it had gone. This had to be a horrible nightmare. He wasn’t married and he hadn’t been with her just to win money. He had plenty of money, he didn’t need it. She searched his face for denial. Sango wouldn’t lie about hearing it, it had to be a bad joke. She could see that her friend was just as upset over what she’d heard. No, cause that meant her relationship had been a lie and so had Sango’s. It meant she was the reason that her friend had been used and hurt. Her head shook in denial, not wanting to accept it.


“It’s true, they didn’t know I was listening.. Look at his face, he can’t deny it.” Sango wasn’t sure what else to say to make her friend believe her. She wouldn’t have told her it otherwise. It would hurt her friend and she didn’t wish that on her but it was better than letting the man win and thinking the man had actually loved her. She herself knew how it felt to be used. At least now she knew the truth and where she stood. The truth was better than false hope. “I’m sorry but I had to tell you.”


“I’m a bet, a bet.” Botan looked up at the man she’d come to care about. He’d used her for something so stupid. He’d led her to believe that she meant something to him. The whole time he had a wife and hadn’t meant any of the pretty words whispered. She had to get out of here before she lost it. It was humiliating but she wouldn’t let him see how much he’d just hurt her. She straightened her shoulders and gave him an icy glare. “Stand there if you wish but know that this is not over. You may have just won your money but you will pay. As for you,” She turned to the fox that had backed up. “I should have done more than kicked you in your dick. I can’t believe you would do what you did. Why the hell would you use her to get to me? Especially when I made it obvious I would rather dry hump a barbed piece of plywood than fuck you? What did you think? Did you think that she’d brag to me about how good of a fuck you were and that I’d want to try you for myself? I’m not sure who should be more insulted her or me. You asshole, you’re as bad as he is if not worse. Didn’t it ever occur to you what you would have done if you had succeeded? Of course not, neither of you did. You both deserve to rot in hell. If I have my way, you will be there soon.”


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