I am the Moon

A/n: I do not own Inuyasha, Rumikio Takahashi does.


Till Death Do Us Part

I was stalking him and he did not know it. He was actually doing what I asked of him. I was thinking clearly but very sadly. I had come to realize that I too was fighting two natures. Even though I appeared fully inu, I was in fact a half breed myself. I detested fighting myself all the time. I was exhausted and did not want to fight everyone else too. Nobody had noticed that I had been putting my affairs in order. They all thought I had been depressed. I had avoided arousing attention and I even avoided being alone so as not to invite trouble from my infatuation with Naraku.
“I thought I told you to leave Japan.” I sneered at Katashi.
He turned to me and glared at me. I knew I would have to provoke him more than what I was.
“I have extended family through the Ookami dens but I can be in that part of Japan.” He snapped.
I sighed and decided to go for the jugular.
“So how much did you see in the forest outside of Kyoto?” I asked
“Do not taunt me today.” He said angry.
“Did you see him take me?” I asked raising a brow.
“Shut up you heartless bitch.” He snarled.
“Come now Katashi you enjoy shows. This time I was not flat on my back though.” I laughed.
He back handed me hard and I knew I was getting to him. I drew my fang and appeared furious. Sheng would have known that I had no heart for this. He would not have given into me.
“You come here to taunt me of your inability to stand by your union?” he asked.
I saw raw pain in his eyes; I had to get it burning hotter.
“I am not the one who got drunk and bedded a creature of the Netherworld. You could not scent her stink? You have a son by her and you dare to judge me? I told you to get the hell out of Japan.” I snarled.
“I will leave when I am damn good and ready.” He snapped back.
“You will leave now and go tuck your tail between your legs.” I said taking a swing with my fang.
He blocked with his own and I ducked and threw a small amount of Dakkasou at him. I could smell the burnt flesh. He looked at me and threw me backwards. I was slower than I normally was and I was making him use his fang. I channeled a small bit of youki and it threw him back and brought his fang down and cut my arm. I winced but I moved forward recklessly and put my fang to his neck. I had left my middle open and he swung and met my belly. I took my opening and grabbed the blade and shoved it in deep. Katashi eyes widened when he realized what I had done. Blood covered my hands and I pulled his blade out. I laughed and continued on with my stupid charade.
“Come now is that all you have. Fight me you coward.” I said.
I gouged him in the chest with claws and they had small amounts of my poison. He did not completely see my plan and again I was burned by his blue fire. Pain was overcoming me but I managed to bring my fang up and seemed as though I was going to fully attack him. He stabbed me in the chest and I laughed at him and walked forward driving the blade deeper.
“What in Kamis name are you doing?” he asked enraged.
I shut my eyes and forcefully pulled his weapon out and threw it at his feet. I was panting and he was staring at me. I had not tried as hard as I normally would and he realized it. Blood was oozing out of the two big wounds and my former mated was horrified.
“You can go. Make sure you tell others I attacked you first.” I said as I went and sat beneath a tree. My breath was shaky. I did not try and staunch the wounds and he still stared at me.
“Go on. You honor is avenged and the whore is dead. You can go now.” I said in pain.
“You staged this attack. You wanted me to kill you?” he said in disbelief.
“Hai.” I said weakly.
“Asuna you are an idiot.” He said coming to my side.
I lashed out and caught his throat in my hand.
“You do not understand, these are mortal wounds and I will not be saved from them. This is my choice.” I said closing my eyes.
“Do not do this.” He said starting to panic.
“It is done; I will not hurt you further.” I whispered.
“Asuna!” he said.
I took my own claws and sunk them into the belly wound. Katashi grabbed my hand and I was covered in blood. I looked at him and his eyes were watering.
“I have been fighting both of my natures. I am sorry I dragged you into my world. I do love you and I can do this for both of us.” I sighed.
“You wish for death?” he asked horrified.
“It will stop hurting. My heart will stop hurting.” I said.
“I brought you that much pain.” He said.
“No I brought it to myself.” I said calmly.
“I cannot allow this.” He said standing.
“I will be to far gone to save in less then five minutes. The angle of your fang was perfect. I believe it pierced my liver.” I said smiling.
“You have lost your mind.” He said horrified.
“Hai I think I have. Go and spread how you stopped me.” I said.
My head lolled to the side and I was breathing heavily. My body was trying to heal but I had inflicted too much injury. Katashi got up and used his yoki to try and transport us. I knew he was going to try and grab me and I used the last of my strength for a barrier. His face was in a panic and my vision was blurring. Bleeding to death was not so bad. He left me and I knew he would go for assistance. I thought I scented Naraku and I laughed at the idea. I might as well lie to him too. I was right and Naraku came out of the trees and stood before me.
“Go ahead and finish me.” I stated.
“What in the Kamis happened to you.” He snarled.
“A battle. It was fair and I lost. I betrayed you remember? I stole that cursed jewel. It was because of me that you took a century to heal. Do you keep an eye on me?” I asked.
“You are becoming delirious. You make no sense.” He leaned down and grabbed me to him.
“I will bleed on you.” I said laughing.
“You stupid girl.” He said pulling me into his miasma.
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“Where is she?” Sheng raged.
“This is where I left her.” Katashi yelled.
“You tried to kill her? I thought you loved her!” Sheng said furiously.
“She provoked me.” he said in defense.
“You really do not know her at all. She feels guilty for what happened between her and me. I forced myself on her you fool. I was too cowardly to admit it to you.” Sheng said in worry and fear.
Katashi looked down and shook his head. They scented and discovered a strange smell mingled with Saunas.
“We are going to have to involve her family.” Sheng said panicked.
“Kami what have I done.” Katashi said mournfully.
“Come we have to find her.” Sheng said leading the way.
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I looked around and I was in a castle that I recognized. My head was still fuzzy and I felt my abdomen and I was still bleeding.
“I asked you to finish me off.” I said in anguish.
“So you are trying to die.” He said above me.
“Hai. I would be an easy target.” I said laughing again.
“Well as much as I enjoy ending lives, I will not end yours.” He said smoothly.
“Do it!” I demanded.
“Who are you, who is this sniveling onna before me?” he asked in a fury.
“I care not what you think or why you think it. If you even like how I rut just do this for me!” I demanded.
“I end my enemies lives on my terms and not theirs.” He said.
“It is inevitable anyway.” I sighed.
“I have tried to staunch the bleeding. You are ill and I cannot stop that but I will not help you hasten your death.” He replied fiercely.
“So as of right now I will die but it will be slow and painful. Perfect. Will you burn my body?” I asked.
“This is disgusting.” He remarked.
“Because we are youki does not mean we are impervious to emotional pain. I have hurt and been hurt and I am tired.” I said closing my eyes.
“You are feeling sorry for yourself.” He said disdainfully.
“Why did you just not leave me there? You owe me nothing.” I said
“Because I am bored.” He replied.
“I see. Well good then. You can watch me die and amuse yourself. Why not torture me?” I offered.
“Stop it now. You are trying to provoke me and it is not working.” He snapped.
“I would rather die a little quicker. I put my affairs in order you know. I am freeing Sheng and restoring Katashi's honor. It is a good move.” I said sadly.
“You are leaving your sons.” He commented.
“Yes I know. My mother is there. You remember Augusta? Yes I know you do. You tortured her. She is my mother and will be a good one to the pups.” I said quietly.
“I had not realized that I had such a hand in your parents meeting.” Naraku said.
“Well I mean your torment of one and torture the other, they are bound to bond.” I said laughing.
He shook me and my eyes cleared as I looked at him. I realized I must be feverish. That even seemed funny to me.
“Does hell burn you think?” I asked.
“You will stop the nonsense.” He growled.
“I will be quiet now. I truly could not think how to fix everything. It is a little egocentric of me to end my life but it is honorable.” I said wanting to sleep.
“Who has hurt you this badly that you think death is preferable?” he asked brushing my hair off my forehead.
“Myself.” I said.
“You continue to perplex me inu. I have not had enough fun with you. Would you deny me my fun?” he asked sardonically.
“Unfortunately yes. You have been the most dependable foe I have faced.” I said smiling.
“You honor me then. My plans for you are not finished.” He said.
“I have been fighting my Uppyr side right along with my inu side. Uppyr are not faithful but inu are supposed to be. My mother is an oddity, she truly loves him. You know what it is to fight two halves do you not?” I said smiling weakly.
“I had not realized that you were anything but inu. I understand the conflict.” He said quietly.
“You who are as powerful as any full blooded youki but have a ningen heart in you somewhere.” I said wistfully.
“If you cannot see your own strengths and power then you are a fool.” He said forcefully.
“I do not want to. I do not want the mantle but I do. I want to love but I do not want to be burdened by the same boundaries. You are right I am a fool.” I said sleepily
“You are trying to fade but I will not allow it.” He said snarling.
“You act as if you care.” I said gently.
“I enjoy the rutting.” He retorted.
“Of course you do, I have ruined you.” I said as I passed out.
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I woke up and I ached all over. My abdomen and chest had been bandaged and I scented fresh meat. I looked around and saw a ningen woman.
“Who are you?” I asked surprised.
“I am Kisseme.” She said bowing.
“Who did all this?” I asked.
“I was directed to by the Lord.” She said.
“Naraku?” I said aloud.
“Hitomi my lady.” She said bowing.
I laughed at Naraku's covering his tracks. I admired the hanyou more than I could say. He had managed to save me from mortal wounds. I suspected he had injected me with his miasma. Powerful stuff when controlled. I was annoyed that he presumed to let me live when I had not wanted to.
“My lady would you care to eat?” she asked quickly.
“Is it cooked?” I asked.
“I can leave it uncooked my lady.” She said.
“Leave it uncooked and you may leave so I do not disgust you.” I said gently.
“Hai!” she said scurrying away.
She left the plate of meat by me and she left. It was beef and it truly smelled divine. He was tempting me. I did not know how someone who should have been a mortal enemy could have been one to rely on. He came in and he was wearing blue hakamas and a white haori with cranes on it. He looked beautiful and I looked away.
“Is this what you look like in your humanoid form or is it what you choose it to be.” I asked.
“This is what I look like.” He confirmed.
“So while my uncle was nailed to the God Tree you played a Lord's son.” I asked.
“Hai.”
“You are devious.” I said.
“I never claimed to be anything but.” He said shrugging.
“No you have not.” I said.
“Is the meat to your liking?” he asked.
“I will let you know.” I said picking up a slice and devouring it.
He watched me and I ate in silence.
“You must join me or I will be self conscious.” I said.
“No.” he replied.
“I insist.”
“No.” he replied again.
“You do not eat at all or it is not to your liking.” I asked.
“I prefer to eat alone.” He said.
“I prefer to hunt fresh meat in my true form but I will take this.” I said.
“I am glad it is satisfactory.” He snapped.
I sat up fully and grunted. I speared a piece of the meat and scooted myself closer to him.
“You have to eat something; you have youki blood so therefore you should prefer raw meat.” I said.\
“You are annoying me.” He said looking away.
I bit into my wrist and my blood started flowing. I pressed it to his mouth and his eyes widened. His tongue darted out and licked it. He groaned a little and I smirked.
“You are hungry too. Please eat with me. It is true you are part Tsuchigumo?” I asked.
“Hai. Amongst other types.” He said.
“Tsuchigumo is the dominant youki though is it not?” I asked searching his face.
“You are talking too much again.” He responded.
“How about you answer the question.” I snapped.
“How about you not ask them.” He retorted.
I put a little beef in front of his mouth and he darted his tongue and I pushed it into his mouth.
“Please answer my questions.” I asked.
“Ask but I may not answer.” He said.
“Is this the face of the ningen before you were Naraku?” I asked.
“Hai.”
“Are you mostly Tsuchigumo?” I asked again.
“Hai.” He answered.
“You are annoyed with me aren't you?” I asked amused.
“Hai.” He eyed me.
“You saved me why?” I questioned.
“I told you I am not done with you.” He replied.
“You should have killed me when you had the chance.” I said pushing more beef toward his mouth.
He accepted it and eyed me again. I ended up feeding us both the whole plate.
“Why did you wish to end your life?” he asked me.
“I saw Katashi in Kyoto. I have been regretting everything since I met him.” I said looking away.
“Love can be a twisted awful thing. It can render you useless.” He remarked.
“Hai it can but why not try for it?” I asked him.
“Because you end up giving too much and little things can eat you alive.” He commented.
“Kikoyo.” I murmured.
“Not everything I have done has been about her inu. You know your uncle and father truly were pains in my backside.” He retorted.
“You do not like being reminded of her and yet you said you had become obsessed with me, why?” I asked in confusion.
“You are not afraid.” He shrugged.
“I am not afraid? I suppose I am afraid of living.” I said bitterly.
“Why is that? I have never met a female youki as powerful as you. You challenge me and dare me.” He said bluntly.
“That is the fascination with me. I dare you to hurt me and you have not been able.” I said staring.
He shrugged and looked away from me.
“What do you want from me?” I asked.
“Nothing.” He said.
I sat back and pondered his words and I knew them to be true. He knew who I was now and somehow it did not matter.
“I need to leave so that things do not get out of hand.” I said trying to rise.
“You need to heal so that you can keep things from getting out of hand.” He pointed out.
I sat back and looked at him.
“You surprise me hanyou.” I said.
“You annoy me inu.” He snapped.
“I am going to sleep; I shall like you to join me.” I requested.
“Why?” he asked surprised.
“Your scent pleases me.” I said honestly.
“No.” he said rising.
“Please Naraku.” I asked.
He looked down at me and I saw several unnamed emotions. He started to shake his head no and I took his hand. I pulled him down to me.
“This is nothing, I mean nothing.” I said to him.
“Sleep.” He responded.
I lay down and I was surprised when he followed suit. He wrapped his arm around my waist and I sighed.
“Thank you.” I whispered.
“Hn.”
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I wrote to the Palace and told them I was fine and well. I told them I had attacked Katashi and he defended himself but I requested he leave immediately. I was healing quickly and I truly enjoyed the freedom I had at Naraku's castle.
“You have a hot spring at this castle do you not?” I asked him.
“Hai.” He answered.
“Come, please.” I asked him.
“Why?” he asked in retort.
I picked up his long black hair and raised a silver brow.
“You wish to wash my hair.” He stated.
“Hai.” I answered.
He stood and motioned for me to follow and I did. He led me down stairs that were in the back of the castle and there stood an outcrop that surrounded the spring itself. I moved in front of him and started undoing his haori and kosode. He grabbed my hands and I looked at him and he dropped them. I opened his garments and ran my hands over his chest. I pulled him to the spring and untied his hakamas. He stepped out of his clothing and settled into the spring. I pulled my kimono up and settled his head between my legs and my legs dangled over his chest. There were soaps and herbs in a basket and I grabbed it.
-Wet your hair for me. - I tried pathing to him.
He looked up at me in surprise then did as I asked. I grabbed his hair and began soaping it up. I scrubbed his scalp lightly with my claws and I noticed his maroon eyes were shut. His hair was beautiful and I knew many females would have killed him for it.
-Rinse please. - I pathed again.
He again did as I asked. I traced his ear with my claw and really noticed that it was not pointed like my own. I gently pushed him forward and removed my legs from his chest and started washing his back. I traced his spider shaped scar. He tried to jerk away from me but I stilled him.
-What bothers you so about this? - I pathed to him.
-It is private. - He growled in my head.
I stared at him and his ability to path and I smiled. I pressed my lips to his neck and he shuddered under my touch.
“You like to touch.” He observed.
“I am inu. It is in my nature.” I said.
“You are becoming aroused.” He commented.
“Hai.” I said.
“Hn.”
“How did you staunch the bleeding?” I asked him changing the subject.
“My miasma.”
“Why are you acting this way?” I asked him angrily.
“I am fighting myself right now my little inu. I have no wish to undo what I have done.” He purred.
“I see.” I said smirking.
I slipped off my kimono and slipped into the water. I was still wrapped to cover my wounds. I straddled his hips and began washing his chest and neck. He looked up at me and I knew he could see undisguised lust in my eyes.
“You will have to go unsatisfied inu. Your wounds are still stitching themselves together.” He said through clenched teeth.
“I may have to but you do not.” I purred into his ear.
“Asuna, not now.” He ground out as I touched him.
“Why?” I pouted.
“I said not now. You are not used to being told no.” he observed.
I continued to wash him and paid close attention to his manhood. He hissed in pleasure but kept himself in check. I hated when I knew he was right but I wanted to anyway. I continued to touch him and he growled a warning and I smiled at him.
“All clean.” I whispered.
“You enjoy torturing people my beautiful little inu. Watch that it does not come back to bite you.” He warned.
“Promise?” I said smirking.
“Your turn to get clean.” He said as he started to undo the bandages.
He unwound the bandages and I got to see the damage I had done to myself. The wound that went through my chest was between my breasts and sternum. It was still an angry red but the edges had turned pink. The wound in my belly was red and infection assaulted my nose. I wrinkled my nose in disgust and Naraku looked at the wound and then looked up at me.
“This is going to hurt.” He said.
He sank his claws into the wound and I yelped in pain. I felt a burning pain as he put a small amount of miasma into the wound. I grabbed his shoulder and inadvertently dug my claws into his flesh. I shut my eyes and knew he was helping me but it hurt like hell. The burning spread throughout my abdomen and I opened my eyes and they were red. My arm was shaking badly and he withdrew his claws.
“Sit.” He commanded.
I sank down next to him and the hot water soothed the wounds. I exhaled loudly and looked at him gratefully.
“You can use your miasma as a disinfectant.” I said.
“Hai cannot you not do the same with your own poison?” he asked arching a brow.
“Hai I can but not on myself. I am immune to most poisons. It seems that I am not immune to your miasma.” I stated.
“That would seem so.” He nodded.
He picked up a cloth and applied soap to it and started washing my wounds gently. I sighed as he washed my torso. He motioned for me to move forward and he washed my back.
“Stand.” He commanded.
He methodically ran the cloth over my backside and nether regions. He ran it down my legs and ordered me to sit.
“Wet your hair.” He commanded of me again.
I did as he bade and when I came up from the water; he started washing my hair. My hair had grown back to the backs of my knees. It was extremely thick and it took him awhile to work the lather through.
“Rinse.” He said.
I went under the water again and came up.
“You are beautiful.” He breathed out.
I looked at him questioningly and he kissed me. I moaned against his mouth. He pulled away and I was stunned. He was running so hot and cold that I was left spinning. I stood up and tried to get out of the spring. His hands gripped my hips and brought me into his lap.
“I need to bandage your wounds.” He said firmly.
“I can do that on my own. I would hate to interfere with your carefully laid boredom.” I said in testy tone.
“Kami you are a difficult onna. I am rebinding your wounds.” He said pulling me up with him.
He dried himself off and pulled back on his clothes. He handed me a yukata and he left momentarily. He came back with strips of cotton and pushed the yukata off of me and wrapped my chest then he wrapped my abdomen. He handed me my yukata back and I slipped it on and tied a loose knot at my waist.
“Why are you helping?” I asked.
“Do not be a baka.” He said irritated.
“I am not being a baka, why are you helping me?” I asked in tortured voice.
“To give you a chance to survive.” He answered.
“I see.” I said walking past him.
He followed me and grabbed me gently. He turned me around and lifted my chin.
“Your bouts of temper do not befit you. You are something I do not understand. I have a need to understand you and that is what you see. Sulking also does not befit you.” He said in a smooth voice.
“Understand me? You are a fool.” I snapped.
“I am the fool? You had your old mate run you through.” He sneered.
“You lusted after a damn trinket.” I countered.
“I do not owe you any explanations for anything.” He snarled.
“You do not. I wished to know you better is all” I said shaking my head.
“I do not allow anyone close to me, you are as close as any have gotten.” He answered bluntly.
“I thank you for your care of me. I believe it would be wise for me to return to the West.” I stated turning my head.
“You are not yet completely well. It would do you good to listen to me a little inu.” He admonished me.
“As if you listened to good sense?” I retorted.
“Kami I either want to tear your throat out or tear your clothing off.” He growled.
“Well I am taking no.” I said jerking from his grasp.
He sighed heavily and grabbed me again. He ground himself against me and I stared at his face.
“You seem to understand that.” He smirked.
“Unless you intend to satisfy my lust then get out of my face.” I snarled.
“Fine.” He said picking me up.
“Unhand me.” I yelled.
“I am going to satisfy my little inu then maybe you will listen.” He said carrying me back to the room I had been sleeping in.
“Fine.” I said in a temper.
He laid me down and opened the yukata.
“You injuries deny me the pleasure of your breasts.” He growled.
“I will keep that in my mind for future reference.” I retorted.
“Impertinent wench.” He growled again.
I pulled him down by his haori and captured his lips. I loved his lips and savored their softness. I was gentle and I could feel his tension leave and he dominated the kiss. He broke away and I saw his eyes had already turned a bright crimson. He lowered his mouth to my neck and started nipping at my pulse point. I whined and started stripping him. I gently scraped my claws against his flat nipples and he had a sudden intake of breath. I ran my tongue over them.
“Not fair.” He cooed.
“So?” I retorted
He pulled away from my upper body and spread my legs. He lowered his head to the apex of my thighs and ran his tongue along my slit. I lifted my head and watched him as he leisurely continued to lick along it then he flicked his tongue against my extended nub and I jerked my hips. His eyes were hooded as he inserted two fingers into my silky depths and I cried out. He pulled his fingers out and replaced them with his tongue. His thumb and forefinger rolled and lightly pinched my clit. I cried out as his ministrations were causing me to tighten in my stomach. He brought me close to the brink and slowly brought himself back up and caught my lips and slowly and almost lazily kissed me. I was dizzy and I felt my beast starting to claw its way to the surface of my mind. I was shocked because my beast had been dormant during rutting for awhile. Whilst he slowly ravished my mouth he inserted fingers back into my impossibly tight and wet sheath. The pad of his thumb massaged my bundle of nerves and I gasped into his mouth. His tongue was mating mine and he increased the pressure on my clit and the speed of his fingers. I broke away and bucked my hips against his hand and gasped loudly. He lowered his lips to my neck and licked his way to my ear. He was not allowing me to orgasm and I was going wild.
“Please.” I begged him.
He chuckled very lightly and continued to assault my senses.
“Please, please Kami please.” I cried.
“Soon.” He promised.
I squeezed my eyes shut and continued to jerk my hips. My eyes snapped open and I knew my beast had taken over. I growled fiercely as the pleasure continued to mount.
“Your yoki is suffocating, pull back.” He hissed.
“Cannot.” I bit out.
“Asuna.” He cried.
“We need you now.” I cried out.
I looked at him and I was so far gone. He was panting as my yoki pressed in around us. My hands were shaking as I untied his hakamas and he kicked out of them. He possessed my mouth again and I bit into his tongue. The pin pricks of overwhelming need assaulted me and my yoki continued to press against his own.
“What are you doing?” he rasped out.
“We cannot stop it.” I bit out.
I grabbed him firmly but gently and guided him to my center. He rolled his hips and I tightened around him almost painfully. He groaned loudly and I cried out loudly.
“What do you mean we?” he asked in a hoarse whisper.
“We are us. We are one.” I snarled.
“Your beast?” he groaned out as I met his hard thrust.
“Hai.” I managed.
He was sweating under the pressure of my yoki and the coupling. I was meeting his urgent pounding and I started to reach the brink again. He reached between us and started to rub my nub back and forth lightly. My fangs and claws had lengthened and I put mouth against his juncture and I bit in; the taste of his blood and power exploded on my tongue. I was assaulted with some of his memories and feelings. I growled loudly as I held on to his jugular and he shuddered so violently that it threw me into rapturous bliss. My sheath tightened around his length with such force that I heard him roar and stiffen as his seed and essence poured into me. I released his juncture and threw my head back and screamed out my release. He kept himself from collapsing against me and he held himself up on shaking arms.
“I am sorry.” I gasped in horror at my behavior.
“What was that?” he asked; his voice raw.
“I am sorry.” I said wiggling to try and get free of him.
“That was not just rutting.” He said shakily.
“Let me up.” I begged.
“Explain.” He demanded quietly.
“I cannot always control my beast. We became one.” I said looking away.
He slowly withdrew from me and I hissed in pleasure. He fell next to me in exhaustion.
“Explain what you have done to me.” He said in a hoarse whisper.
“Your youki self never comes to the surface?” I asked perplexed.
“Not like that.” He said breathing heavily.
“In the midst of great passion, a full youki's beast joins fully with the conscious self.” I explained.
“You released your yoki.” He said tiredly.
“I did more than that.” I said regretfully.
“I repeat, what did you do to me?” he said staring at my face.
“I marked you.” I said.
“You what?” He yelled.
“I am sorry.” I said looking down.
I noticed that my belly wound was bleeding through the bandage and I stood up like shakily. I moved to other side of the room and grabbed more cotton strips. I could not have controlled my beast if I wanted to.
“Explain to this lowly hanyou what all this means.” He snapped loudly.
“You are mine.” I snapped back.
He got up and came over to me and slashed the bandages off the bleeding wound and sunk his claws into it and injected a little more miasma. I screamed in pain and he took the cotton strips and started rewrapping the wound.
“This is the reason I did not wish to rut.” He snapped.
“You love me.” I whispered.
“I am my own youki, keep yourself out of my head.” He snarled at me.
“You love me.” I repeated.
He grabbed my throat and stared me down.
“Deny it. I felt it. That is why I marked you.” I ground out.
“What I feel and think belongs to me alone. I do not share myself with anyone.” He whispered in a horrible tone.
“I cannot remove the mark myself. You will have to have it done.” I said jerking away from him.
He stared at me and I felt horrible. The overwhelming joy that I felt only moments ago was replaced by overwhelming despair.
“I have not fully learned to control my instincts. Again I am sorry. I am leaving now.” I said pulling myself away from him.
“You cannot leave. My scent is all over you and I have no wish for your devious efforts to keep me alive wasted.” He said calmly.
“I cannot keep up with your whims and change in demeanor.” I said in bewilderment.
“I have to plan; you always manage to thwart my plans.” He commented.
I sighed and turned away. He was the last youki I ever thought I would mark or rut with for that matter. I should hate him. I should despise everything about him but I had actually gotten to know him some. I knew a different side of him than anyone else did. I had seen flashes of his life as a ningen and I did not even know if he remembered.
I went over to the futon and cursed my damn beast. I know why it did what it did but it could not have chosen a more unwilling partner. The chemistry between us was remarkable but the idea of this going beyond lust was insane. He was hated everywhere he turned and I was the daughter of one of his worst enemies. He came and sat by me.
“I need to sleep for once, I can barely think.” He admitted.
“That was beyond my comprehension, I am sorry though.” I whispered miserably.
“I care not at the moment. I have never been so exhausted.” He said lying down.
“I had thought that I would conquer you but it is you who have conquered me.” He whispered as sleep overcame him.
I laid next him and wondered what in the seven hells I had just done.