Obscenity

 

Chapter 26: Three Ls-Love, Life and Loathing

Alaknanda took off her panties and threw them on the floor. She looked at her spotless panties in disbelief. 'Maybe it's the stress.' she tried to convince herself. Who was she fooling? Even after Mukotsu kidnapped her she still bled, irregularly, but she was menstrual none the less. "No! No! No!" she screamed at her stomach. She had been free from Kouga for two months. She was doing so well in school. She was going to be a lawyer! She wasn't ready to be a mother too…

Her friend Yura convinced her to do a home test. Even though there was no need. She bought two, both were positive. 'Congratulations' she said sarcastically to herself. She immediately felt guilty. She couldn't look at it. She wasn't showing, but she couldn't look at it. "It's not your fault. It's all mine. If I'd only spoken up earlier, and used protection." Alaknanda slammed the tests in the trash. What did she expect? She wasn't on birth control. Was she crazy? She didn't know what Kouga had. Every time they had sex it was unprotected. She was lucky this didn't happen sooner. She scheduled a prenatal appointment two weeks from now and called Yura.

"Positive? Are you sure?"

"Both of them said yes."

"Damn that sucks."

Alaknanda began to cry. "I was praying it was the flu."

"In June?"

"…"

"Don't worry, I know this is a stressful time for you and your hair. Luckily you have me." Yura sighed. "Such soft, healthy hair…"

"Focus! What if it's worse? What if it's ectopic? What if that bastard burned me?"

"Then you'll deal." Yura growled. "I hate him! I hate Kouga for this. Let's burn his house down or bust his windows or shave him."

"I should go back home and forget school and Kouga." Alaknanda thought out loud

"If you do that I'll slice you to pieces. You're going to let a man stop you in bettering yourself?"

"What the hell am I going to do with a baby?"

"You know your options."

"…"

"But before I do anything, I'd go to Kouga." Alaknanda was silent. "Go to Kouga."

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Alaknanda clutched the pictures of her unborn baby to her heart. She didn't feel like a mother nor did she want to be one. 'What am I going to do?' She wasn't going to have an abortion because it was her fault; she feared the system for adoption; but she couldn't afford this baby. Was there a fourth option? Yura was waiting in the handicap space for her. "So?"

Alaknanda threw the pictures to her in frustration. "Nine weeks. Nine fucking weeks! That night! The last time I saw him, not the other times. That time. I'm so stupid!"

"How big is it?" Yura said looking at the weird form in the picture

"The size of a tic-tac." They laughed a bit. "It might grow faster because it's a hanyou." Alaknanda wondered what her kid would look like. She almost didn't notice when Yura turned down that road. She realized where she was, the worse neighborhood ever…Kouga's… She glared at Yura.

She parked. "Which house is his?" Alaknanda folded her arms. "You will not keep this a secret. I'll knock on every door until I find him."

"You wouldn't." She would. Yura was crazy. Yura got out and banged on the first door. A child opened it; she looked around and went to the next house. She did six times until she got to Kouga's door. "Yura!"

A wolf demon opened it and looked her over. "Whatchu reppin' bitch."

"I don't know what that means, but get out of the way." Yura said pushing her way through. Alaknanda ran out and apologized on Yura's behalf. She looked around and saw Kouga laughing with Ginta and Hakkaku. "How dare you." Started Yura

"Yura-"

"Hold up." Kouga got up, pushed Yura out the way and held Alaknanda. "Hey baby, it's been awhile."

"Let go of her."

He grabbed her by the ass and pulled her in for a dominating kiss. "So who's your loudmouth friend?"

"Yura" Alaknanda replied. She clutched to Kouga tighter; the fact that she was surrounded by violent gangsters didn't escape her. Her stomach did flip-flops, she didn't know if it was nausea or fear.

Kouga misread her. "I missed you too." He kissed again and held her waist. "Oi, this here is my woman. You guys watch her and keep her safe." What the hell did she get herself into?

"Watch her? She's not some fucking dog you bastard." Yura crossed her arms under her generous cleavage. "You think just because you have gorgeous black hair everything's good? Alaknanda you came here for a reason, don't you dare back down."

"I have to speak to you alone." She whispered.

"Why are you whispering?" She looked at him with pleading eyes. "Fine"

Grateful to be away from the imminent danger she heaved a sigh. "Kouga-"

"I missed you."

"Yeah" What else could she say? She didn't miss him. "I went to the doctor; I got pictures. I'm pregnant. It's yours."

"You pregnant?"

She nodded. "Nine weeks."

He looked at her. Those words in different contexts were spoken to him once before. Alaknanda, damn he loved her, she wasn't like that woman of his past. "So whatchu gonna do?"

"I'm keeping it Kouga." She said though clenched teeth.

"You set?"

Alaknanda started laughing; she realized this was a mistake. "I don't want your money or your help."

"You need it!" Yura shouted through the door.

Alaknanda rolled her eyes. She didn't need Kouga; she'd go back home and live with her father. He'd be disappointed and she'd have to put off some of her education for a while, but she would not have Kouga as this kid's father. "Actually I don't." She looked at Kouga. "This was a mistake."

He grabbed her arm. "What was?"

"Everything! Especially coming here." True he scared her, but backing down was what got her into this situation.

"Why, you think I ain't got the money."

"This isn't about money." She looked into his eyes. "I don't want your money."

"I don't get you Alaknanda. Most women would jump at the chance to have my baby and get my money. You're doing both, but you don't want it." He let her arms go and kissed her hands. "That's why I love you."

"Ew." Yura said still eavesdropping. Kouga pull out a couple of hundreds like it was nothing. She debated what to do with it. "Girl don't be stupid, put it in your pocket and call it a day."

Alaknanda remembered the pictures in her pocket. "Here" she said handing him the pictures. "It gets cuter overtime."

"What is it?"

"It's a baby."

"You don't look pregnant."

"Wait a month or two."

He kissed her forehead. "You know I got you right?" She nodded even though she didn't believe it…

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Alaknanda purged her stomach's contents 5:20 in the morning. She cringed as she washed her mouth out. Yura advised ginger, but that only made her morning symptoms worse. Anything carbonated was an enemy. Saltines and other crackers weren't helpful. After brushing her teeth she had applesauce and bread. She could anything without a taste for breakfast and desert. Her nausea struck early morning and late night.

It must've gotten worse because of her stress with Kouga; she never woke up to throw up until then. Around seven the doorbell rang.

"Mehra?"

"Yes?"

He put the bouquet of flowers in her arms and walked away. Alaknanda read the card and laughed.

"Sorry I got you pregnant?" Yura asked in their class

Alaknanda giggled. "Kouga's crazy. I was feeling so crappy this morning, he really cheered me up." Yura rolled her eyes. "Yellow roses. How'd he know they were my favorite? That yellow was my favorite color? I have to thank him."

Yura looked at Alaknanda's light yellow sundress. "I bet."

"With a phone call Yura. I'm wearing what I can before I start to show."

"Smart"

Nine Days Later 3:16am …

Alaknanda had been talking to Kouga more frequently, it showed on her phone bill. Not that she had to worry about that anymore. Every week Kouga mailed her some unset obscene amount of money.

how sh3 tak it?-Kouga

Horribly, we weren't exclusive but damn. Now she's set on outranking me. This just means I have to bury Miss Akira.-Alaknanda

i gon bury her if sh3 touch u-Kouga

I'm fine. (giggles)-Alaknanda

dats my gurl-Kouga

sh3 wuz ugly nEway. u culd do bttr-Kouga

I am doing better.-Alaknanda

I mean I got you at least.-Alaknanda

lik i s3d w3 n dis tgthr-Kouga

For the baby-Alaknanda

4life-Kouga

I luv u-Kouga

(A/N) Um, I don't know how gangs function so that scene was unrealistic. The texting thing was like me and my friends. I text in complete sentences, they don't and it's hard for me to read most times.

Next Chapter- Jakotsu tells Miyoko his input of her and Bankotsu's relationship.